Friday, May 21, 2010

I made it here

I made it here, finally! Feeling a tad frustrated. I had every plan to continue my education. I still do. However, I desperately want to get our own place...so much so that a cardboard box under the overpass is sounding more and more inviting. So, I thought I would apply for some jobs. With a job, we could rent my sister's house for a year while saving up to move to GA. I would enroll at GSU and go until I had that mighty Masters degree. The job hunt-not going so well. Then, I get a letter in the mail from Mott Comm College that I am no longer eligible for Financial Aid because I have earned 93 credits. First off, my transcript only shows 87. Gotta call and check on that. Then, will this effect my overall financial aid eligibility or just at mott? Don't know...something else to find out. I received letter from SVSU regarding cost of attending vs financial aid/student loans and it appears to my untrained eye that I am still about $8k short a year. Don't know how that could be unless there is some issue with financial aid. If that be the case,I will not be able to go back to college as there is no way in hell i can afford that. I am lucky to afford the gas to get me there and back. All this has my overwhelmed and quite frankly, depressed. I have to keep fighting the urge to stick my head in the sand. I have come too damn far to just give up that easily. Without at least a bachelors degree, all this hard work is almost useless. Most jobs require bsw minimum. Most actually want the MSW. I told Jeremy the other day that we just need a break, somewhere, somehow. Something has to give for us.

Add to this stress.....my baby sister is LEAVING in about 2 months. And taking with her my niece and another niece still in the oven. I try not to even think about it, but the truth is, just writing it is making cry. I am soooo happy for her but that selfish part of me doesn't want her to go. I know she has to and I would do the same if I were in her shoes. But she is my sister, my friend, and so much a part of my everyday life. Well, enough of that....gotta dry those tears up.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

All by myself

I had the house to myself for a few hours today. Of course, i spent it reading the next chapter in my Race & Ethnic relations book and then taking the quiz. But, i had peace and quiet to do it in. Woohoo. The reason for the empty house is not so good though. My mom and uncle Ken went to the hospital because my uncle Brian is having quadruple bypass surgery today. They wanted to be there for their sister to support her. It is a 5 hour surgery and so that will make for a long day. I was unable to go because Jeremy is helping Ralph load up some scrap and take it in. That meant I had to be here to get Seb off the bus and then I have to pick Makenneh up from girl scouts at 430 and be to class by 6. Wednesdays are always so busy for me. Glad I only have two more of them. WEll, not two more wednesdays, hah, but two more of wed night class.

Today is Makenneh's 7th birthday. I cannot believe that little girl is already 7. Where have the years gone? I made a cake today for her, even though I hesitated. We have had so many bday parties around here that I am partied out, cake and ice creamed out. But, i didn't want her to feel left out because we had cake on seb's bday. So, i made one for her.

I got the letter in the mail detailing graduation. I've known it was set for May 1st, but now I have times, and all the details. I am graduating with High Honors. And that journey isn't over yet...i start at SVSU for my bachelors degree in Aug. I hope to get through it as quick as possible. I am ready to be done with school.

Well, Seb is outside and I need to go check on him. Take care and hopefully i can get here to post more often

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Just a couple pics

Daddy-Daughter Dance. We haven't gotten the pictures back from the school yet, but this is one I took before they left. They waited in line over an hour to get their pic taken at the dance. We decided that next year we will just take the pics and skip buying them at the dance....leaves more time to dance.The kids started their own "kitchen" band. Pa says Makenneh actually has rhythm. Either that or pa is tone deaf. not sure which is true. LOL.
Kids after the egg hunt. It was impossible to get all 4 of them looking at the camera, smiles and all. This will have to do. We have some better pics on Mom's camera, but I am at my mother in law's so don't have access to those pics right now.

I finished my internship today, officially. I will go in on Friday and then maybe do one day a week. If nothing else, it adds to my resume. In two weeks I will fill out the application for my Social Service Technician registration. I will also be buying my cap and gown soon for graduation. I don't know if I posted this yet or not, but I go May 17th for my transfer orientation at SVSU. I start there Aug 30th. Exciting yet a bit nerve racking. I will be transferring from a community college to a university. new place, new town, new, new, change, change. But, change is supposed to be good, right. I know I will do just fine. Just a bit nervous.

Not much else to type about. Kids are on spring break...i am not. I hate it. Every night and every day I must remind myself that I AM NOT ON BREAK. I keep finding myself thinking, "oh it's spring break.....ahhhhh, relax. Then, reality hits and it's run run run, until i feel i am coming and going all at once. At least I don't have to pick Makenneh up from brownies or Bible Club. That takes two things off my plate for the week. Yet, i still run ragged. makes me wonder how i do it when they aren't on break. Today, Jeremy's teeth started hurting him severely and suddenly. They were flared up a couple weeks ago, but it went away and well, he is stubborn. This time, i started making calls until I could get something done. Being broke and no dental to speak of, well, requires some calling around, frustration, even some tears. I felt so damn helpless. He was in so much pain and nothing i could do. I finally got through to the community clinic and was able to take him in. Of course, this was about 1130 am and I had a 230 appt scheduled with a client at my internship....and she only wanted me doing her application. So, nothingl ike needing to be at two places at once. The solution: Take Jeremy, wait with him until I had to leave to head to the senior center. I kept dozing off at the clinic. Sure I was snoring, I was sooo damn exhausted. And frustrated. You have to hurry up and wait around there. And he was miserable and grumpy and can you please ask them how much longer it will be? And do they have any salt so I can gargle...i can't taaaakkke this any more. He was like a caged rat. It was horrible. I had to run him down to Burger king to get some water and salt to gargle with. The lady there was less than pleasant....we ordered a burger, so there should have been no complaint. When I asked for salt, she generously gave me one little packet. Whatever, he was so mad..he took it and did what he could with it. And back to the dental clinic to hurry up and wait. THen i twas time to head to the center for the appt. I finished that up and as I did, Jeremy called to say he was done. I went back to clinic, picked him up, ran to store to get a few grocery things and back home, 30 mins before my wed night class begins. He was Rx'd tylenol 3 with codeine and penicillin. He took 2...and well, i knew he would probably be out and unable to watch kids, and given that I would be late, and I was completely exhausted, i emailed my instructor and explained that I wouldn't make it to class. Is your head spinning yet? Thankfully my sis had called that she was bringing over dinner. Talka bout a Godsend. While I don't care for goulash and that's what she had, I was thankful that I didn't have to worry about cooking dinner. Now I need to get ready for bed so i can get some sleep and get up for class in the morning. Gah.....im ready for a long break.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

My Birthday Boy!!!

Today my baby turned 5 years old. He informed me that he's getting old!!! LOL. We had a great day. He did not have school (PT conferences) so he got to spend the day with mommy. Jeremy had to work with cousin yesterday and today, so we woke the kids up a few minutes early so that SEbastian could get his present from us....a Little Tykes basketball hoop. We wanted to give it to him in the morning so he could play with it today. Then I had to go to class to take a test. When I got home, we went to lunch with both grandmas and came home to cupcakes from Uncle Matt and Aunt Sara!!! Spongebob cupcakes!

I let him invite his class to Huckleberry junction and we are doing that later this week. I didn't want to have kids feeling left out, so we invited all 17, because I figured most would not come because it's a work night and about 20 mins from where we live. I got lucky, in that 6 RSVPd. I am nervous though that other parents may have sent the message with their children. I got that notion because while at the Children's Museum on a field trip last week, one set of parents had said that they told their son to tell Seb...well yeah, that message never made it through! That made me wonder just how many parents had that ummmmm great idea! So, six friends are manageable...

On the 10th we are going to have the family party here for both kids because Makenneh's bday is the 14th. Every year I swear we will skip a party, but it never works out that way...this year is Seb's 5th and well, that is a milestone bday...kindergarten and all. THen i didn't want Makenneh to feel left out, and then family starts asking..."when's the party...and well, before I know it...I'm roped in. Oh well, it is so nice to get together and have fun once in a while. And the gift of life is certainly worth celebrating!

Libby will be one on the 2nd! I can't believe it! They planned a big party for her...because not only is it her 1st bday, but her last bday up here with family bc they move to GA this summer.

Matt and Sara put a bid in on a house from an auction site. It is the next road north of our house...They won the bid and are set to close on Makenneh's bday. They also found out t hat they are expecting their 2nd. They haven't made a huge announcement yet bc she just took a home test and hasn't been to doc yet. But, from the looks of it, are family is growing by leaps and bounds.

I know I am jumping all over but that's what happens when I neglect the blog for a month. So much to say. I have pictures I want to share of sebastian's field trip and of all the kids coloring Easter Eggs this past Sunday. But, it is already so late and i know that takes forever and well, i need sleep. Hope this update satisfies anyone's curiosity and hopefully i can make it here more often to post updates or tell funny tales.

Happy Spring and Happy Easter!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Can you believe it?

I am really here, posting on my blog. Nevermind that it after midnight and I should be in bed. Everyone is asleep, I can get on the computer, I can do as I please. OOOOooooh!

I think I have decided I like a full class load better than this 3/4 load. I feel so unbusy and I find myself procrastinating worse than ever. I have a test and a paper due on Tuesday (don't feel bad for me, my load is quite light actually) and I have not done any of the reading for the assignment and very minimal studying for the test. I cannot bring myself to sit and do it. I try and I get sidetracked. Tomorrow I will have to force myself to get some of it done at least.

The kitchen is pretty much done, save for a few minor details. Dad made a huge pantry that still needs doors, the front door is being replaced (but haven't gone and bought it yet) and then a piece of trim has to go up after the door is replaced. The outlet covers need to be picked out and purchased and other than that, I really think we are done to the final touches of putting things away. At any rate, we can once again cook in the kitchen, sit at the table and it is wonderful! Today I was a cooking fool. I made 3 batches of a casserole (one for mom to take to her cousin's house...she just lost her son. He was 31 and died in his sleep) and I made two cakes (again, one for mom to take). We also have a new dishwasher...built in and not portable like the old one. Very nice! I promise to take pics eventually. LOL.

Everyone has been getting sick around here lately. IT seems to be almost ongoing for some time now. But the past week has been especially rough. Seb got diarrhea on wed night so i kept him home thurs. that continued through friday. Today he has been fine. Makenneh and I were snuggled in her bed friday night, sleeping, when she wakes up to say "Mom, i think im gonna puke!" I flew up out of that bottom bunk bed faster than I ever realized my oversized body could move. I reached to flip on the light to help and out it came. All over the floor. No stopping it. Oh my gosh the smell was wretched. Absolutely wretched. I start to try cleaning it up, i gag profusely, to the point I thought I would lose the contents of my stomach. She stands by the bedroom door and next thing I know, she is heading for the bathroom with diarrhea. The poor thing was stuck on the toilet for quite some time with the garbage can in front of her just in case. Meanwhile, I continue with the clean up. I sprayed so many things the room probably smelled of something i dare not mention. I did not care. It was gagging me. Makenneh lays down on the couch and I get the first mess cleaned up. This time, I put a sleeping bag under her and bring her a grocery bag lined bucket to do her business in. I sit in the chair nearby and read my book. She drifts off to sleep. All seems well. I doze off and she is back up puking. It happened one more time after that and then I was finally able to get some sleep. What was left of the night. Today she felt much better. Jeremy got sick today...and I had a queasy stomach. I can't tell if mine was from having to clean up after her or if I was actually getting the bug. I don't want it. I just realized I wrote a whole entire lengthy paragraph about my daughter getting sick. I so do need to get a life. LOL.

My sister is in Georgia right now with her family. Her hubby is checking on a business offer he received. They have been down there for almost two weeks. She called today to say that they are going to come home in a few days, button up things at home, and in four weeks they will move to GA. She told me to start looking for jobs down there and of course, there are several options off the bat for us. I will ahve to look into universities to decide where to go to get my BSW. The plan is to let the kids finish up school and try to move this summer. I would prefer to not pull them out of the school year. We obviously have some loose ends to deal with before we can even think of moving like that. But, I truly feel this is the door the Lord has opened for us and we need to walk through it, even if it is outside our comfort zone. I have thought about how many people (myself included at times) will complain that God does not answer prayers. In many instances, I think he does by providing us with the opportunity to get there. However, we are so busy looking for our wishes to be dumped in our laps all neatly packaged. In the meantime, God has maybe provided us with an opportunity, but we choose to either ignore the opportunity, think of the obstacles in the way or we take the answered prayer and give the credit to someone else or take it for ourselves instead of thanking God for the answered prayer. It reminds of me something I read sometime (may have been in the church bulletin, words from the pastor) of the man who is running late and prays to God for a parking spot as he drives around the full lot. He comes to a parking spot and rather than saying Thank you, God, says, "Nevermind God, I found one." Now, of course, this little story is not based on a specific true happening, but it is what we tend to do nonetheless. All that to say, I feel that this is our answered prayers. This opportunity was given to us by God and it is for the taking. Sure, there are things that scare me about such a huge move. I have never lived outside of the town I live in now...(at least not more than 15 miles from where I was raised). I have only been out of the state I live in a few times. But, I feel the time is now. A fresh start, a chance to achieve our goals, to grow, to do well. I am excited, even if I am a little nervous, too. The timing is even perfect. We have NOTHING to lose. Work is scarce around here, my schooling is almost done (at least this leg of the journey..i graduate in May) and we are living with my parents. We have nothing holding us back...no overmortgaged house, no careers. We have family but they will never be more than a visit away. And in time, i am sure we can get dad on board with joining us! LOL. The plan is to try to move this summer. It would be perfect. However, if it doesn't work out that way, we will look to plan B....which would include waiting a year, if need be. Either way, I feel it with every fiber of my being that this is what is intended for us. Jeremy should be able to get his license there, he will have a job, no problem, and i can attend college down there to finish up my BSW. He has an aunt that lives 8 hours south of where we plan to live, an uncle that is about 4 hours south, my sister will be in teh same area, my only true friend will only be 8 hours away. And no more Michigan winters! And as my brother in law said, we gotta get out nwo because we don't know where the light switch is so we can't be the last ones out of this state! lol.

Well, it is now after one am and I am tired and need to get to bed. I am glad I was able to get on here nad finally post....now it's off to rest my weary head!

Good night all

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Still here

just don't get much time on computer. I just wanted to check in. CLasses are going great. Internship going well. Kids are doing well.

I will try to stop in later and write more. Kitchen still torn up......shoudl be done in the next day or so, but i am not holding my breath. Ran into all sorts of obstacles.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Prayers

Are needed. My Uncle Harold went to the hospital a couple days because he had a heart attack. They had trouble stabilizing him and things are not looking so well. His kidneys weren't really functioning (he is diabetic and has kidney failure prior to the heart attack), bladder not working, filling with fluids. And because of all the health issues, it created an almost standstill. His oxygen levels were low and wouldn't stabilize. He suffered a major heart attack last night, they have him on complete life support, put in a stent and did a heart cath. They also started dialysis. For now, he is stable and I hope and pray that he continues to improve. However, the realist in me knows that nothing short of a miracle from God will work. The hospital has told the family that they are doing all they can. With God, all things are possible. But, science/medicine is limited in its ability.

With my dad and Uncle Ken (the Ken from dad's side of family) were able to be in the room when Uncle Harold was saved. That happened yesterday. Right now the hospital had said only his wife could go in the room. She argued that his daughters have to be able to see him. So, they agreed to let them go in for 10 mins on the hour and rotate. It rather frustrates me that they make these stipulations in a situation like this. He is on full life-support, in a medical-induced coma, and so the stimulation of having his grown daughters at his bedside together should not create a problem. Right now, he is being sustained by machine, not on his own. Machines do not register emotion. However, if it ends up being that he doesn't pull through this, having this time to be at his side will mean something and can help provide closure, should it come to that. Yesterday when they were trying to stabilize him, I understood the need to limit/control visits. It just doesn't seem it should be such an issue today.

WEll, I am at my internship and need to get productive. Please keep my uncle and the family in your thoughts and prayers.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Sink please

The kids riding the elephant




Ok, going to attempt to just download some circus pics tonight...

In the meantime....

I am so ready for this remodeling to be DONE. I am tired of being cramped...no room to maneuver, no kitchen sink to do dishes (not that i like doing dishes, but doing them in the bathroom sink is very unkind), limited meal options bc of limited cooking options. I am just tired of it all. The vinyl floor covering is going down tomorrow (hopefully, that is the plan). I pray that it goes smoothly. After that, the cabinets can go in. Dad is making the countertops, as he discovered he has quite a knack for it when he made one for the small cupboard he put in a few years ago. The downside is he is working 6 days a week and trying to get over being sick. So, time is limited, energy sparse.

Jeremy is getting on my last nerve. Love him to pieces and lately, well, I would like to tear him to pieces....He has been so grumpy and unbearable. I can't stand it. He is getting sick and well, for some reason, men just can't handle that. I reminded him that it is not our fault he is sick. He is also stressed over this project as my dad is quite particular about things, Jeremy has never done anything of this caliber and well, everything that gets done is said to be wrong. I told my dad that nobody wants to get this work done bc they are afraid of being wrong....bc he gets so grumpy about it. My uncle has literally lost sleep over it all, worrying about doing some wrong and pissing my dad off. It's ridiculous. So, I know that adds to Jeremy's grumpiness. I am trying to teach him that things are what they are and rather than try to swim against the current, sometimes, you just have to give in and go with the flow. It saves your health.

School is going well. Parking sucks, but classes are great. I found out last night in my Leadership class that the college offers a Leadership certification. I am 2 classes short of earning it. I was unaware of this program beforehand or I would have been sure to take two more qualifying classes to get the certification. Oh well.

And on to Makenneh...the more I read about Oppositional Defiance Disorder, the more I am convinced that Makenneh has it. Her behavior is beyond normal bratiness. Of all the techniques, suggestions, etc that I have tried...nothing seems to work. She is so demanding, spiteful, angry, and unpredictable. She can be fine one moment and then the slightest thing sets her off into a tirade. I was reading one article about it and it mentioned walking on eggshells around the child. BINGO. That's how I feel. I am trying to stay one step ahead of the next episode. It's downright exhausting. I need to call and make her an appointment or at very least, see if we can get a referral to a therapist. She can be the sweetest of children, but then I am always waiting for the foot the drop and hell to break loose. I praise her to no end, I love on her, I play with her, read to her, talk with her, bring her along for outings, but even the outings are scary for me bc i never know when the explosion will occur or what will set her off to lead to the explosion. Just typing about it stresses me out. I have found that when I keep my voice almost low and soothing, it seems to lessen the tirade. The problem seems to be getting everyone else on board. I have been stressing that it is best not to yell at her, as that just turns into a power struggle. Speak level and remain in control. Hopefully her behavior will improve. At this rate, I won't survive teen years.

Well, she is up still, so I have to get her to sleep. That's the other issue with her...she cannot go to sleep at night.

Good night all

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

checking in

I sat on here with clear intents of uploading pics, using slide.com. I had most of the pics uploaded and clicked the wrong thing..and all that work was gone. I do not want to try again this late at night. So, I will try to work on it tomorrow, or some day soon. It is so hard to get a moment on here between my mom and Jeremy and their addictions to games....and then my schedule. But, I will try.

We took the kids to their first circus on Sunday. They loved it and we had a great time. The cost is outrageous. But, I was glad we were able to take the kids and have a family outing.

I have a little secret....I have to post it here...and those of you who are related or close....shhhhh!!! But I am way too excited to hold it in! My sister is pregnant!!!!! She told me earlier that she is 4 days late. I told her to test! Finally, she did and called back to say it was positive. She isn't ready to have it announced to the world just yet, as I think she is still absorbing it! But, I have to share. Ia m so excited. Libby will be about 18 months old when she becomes a big sister!

Well, I am off to bed. I have a full day on Wednesdays...with my internship and then my leadership and development class. Plus tomorrow Kenneh has girl scouts and the parents have a short meeting when that ends. Plus, cookie money is due for the first round of sales, so I have to squeeze in time tomorrow to collect from the last few people. And sales still continue until March 17, so if you want some girl scout cookies let me know! Money will be due March 17!

Take care and Good Night!

Saturday, January 02, 2010

still under construction

What started as a fairly simple remodel has become quite lengthy. One thing always leads to another. Got the cupboards ripped out, decided now was a good time to replace floor covering...started tearing into floors and discovered Joices needed replaced, then decided to dig out the crawl space...and on and on. Needless to say, we are into week 2 and the entire kitching/dining floor is gone....down to the dirt. They have to put up makeshift flooring to allow us bathroom access at night. We have been staying with mother in law because it's just far easier than trying to maneuver over there. It's looking like it will be a couple more weeks at least. It will be great when it's done, but i am over the cramped, disarray that is our living quarters at the moment. Washing dishes in small bathroom sink, can't find anything when you need it, limited dishes accessible. Oh the joy! but, mom found the flooring she likes and they will do that throughout the house.

It's a vinyl, but the reviews are great. And it looks so real. And the best part is, it is clearanced at .49/sq ft.


Our New Year's eve was decent. I was expecting a quiet, calm, family night. My mother in law decided to invite her old neighbor and she brought her boyfriend. We were unaware of this until they were on their way. I let them play cards, I played with the kids. Jeremy finished up the game and came in with the kids and I. We watched the ball drop..well, Sebastian fell asleep about one minute before. He just couldn't hang in any longer. Overall, it was nice though.

Makenneh's new thing is, she pays attention to those darn infomercial products and has to come tell me all about the great closet organizer you can buy that keeps your clothes from getting crumpled, or the cat scratch pad that is safe for your cat, and on and on. She is like a walking infomercial. But, it says it's free, mom. It's safe for..., it's, but wait, there's more.... LOL. So funny.

Well, she wants me to play Wii with her. It's just the two of us here, as mother in law is at laundromat. So, im gonna play a game with her then try for a nap. Just maybe!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

A Merry Little Christmas

That's what we had. Well, really, it wasn't so little. I have no pictures to post right now because I am at my mother-in-law's house. But, the kids are happy with their gifts, we had a great time, great food, and even played a few rounds of CatchPhrase. I had wanted to start a new tradition of reading the Christmas Story from the Bible on Christmas Eve. Well, we got home a bit late from my father-in-law's house and when we arrived, I was told that dad was not feeling too well. they were at the table playing cards and he dropped his head into his hands and sat like that for a few mins before saying he didn't feel well. He then got up and went to the couch and laid down. I got home shortly after that. Well, the first thing I thought was a heart attack. I asked mom if they had given him an aspirin. They hadn't, so I got him one and took it out to him, with a glass of water. I asked him if he had taken one. He said no. Then he said, "What do you think I need this for?" I said, well, if you aren't feeling well, you need to take an aspirin." "So you think I'm gonna have a heart attack?" And he chuckled. "Don't laugh at me; you aren't going to kick the bucket on me on Christmas Eve. So take this." After a little while, he began to feel better.

So, on Christmas morning, after the gifts were opened, he got out his Bible and read us the story. We had a full house for dinner and a house full of pies, this year. LOL. Usually we just have a couple. This year we had Lemon Meringue, Banana Creme, Coconut Creme, Dutch Apple, Walnut, Pecan, Blueberry, and Strawberry/Rhubarb. Quite a selection. The day after Christmas, my dad, Jeremy, and Uncle Ken started tearing cupboards and counters out. Mom's gift was putting in new (to her) cabinets and a new countertop. After they got those tore out, they decided now would be the time to do the floor as well, so today that is being torn out. We discovered beautiful wood planking under the floor covering. Unfortunately, it is puzzled and pieced under there, so they are saving the planking in hopes of being able to have enough to do something with it.

It's been nice having my mother in law next door, because we now do not have a kitchen to cook in. So, we made a huge pot of potato soup the other day and well, we will eat that til we are sick of it (if there is such a thing).

Right now I feel almost lost. Chris(mother in law) went to visit with her friend who is here from out of state. SO, I am here, at her apartment, all by MYSELF! IT's deafeningly quiet. Almost eerie. I don't know what to do with myself. I have a good book I am in the midst of reading and then i figured i would get on the computer and catch up on every thing. I have to admit I am enjoying it quite a bit. I know it won't last for too long, though.

I got my grades...all 4.0, which makes my overall GPA a 3.776. No small feat bringing that thing up from a meager 1.35 or something like that.

Makenneh has been staying with Aunt Carrie for the past couple nights. It is probably easier with the house under construction. Sebastian tends to roll with the flow, but she bucks everything, every step of the way.

Yesterday, I was able to hang out with my oldest bestest friend. Of course, by oldest, I don't mean age. LOL. But we have been friends since 5th grade. And life has put distance between us, but I love how we can just pick up where we left off. IT's as if there is no physical distance between us. Like she lives right here in town. Throughout my life, i have had friends come and go, but Stacy has remained a constant. Of course, if you know Stacy, it's no surprise. She is the epitome of humanity. Such a beautiful and kind person. I cannot say enough good things about her and truth be told, not one single bad thing to say, ever. I've often wished the world was full of more people just like her. IT would be such a better place. She didn't have much time, as they have a lot of family and things going on in the short time they are here, but she picked me up and we went to Walmart (we both needed to go) and just hung out, as she got her pictures from the photo center and I picked up a few things we needed at home. Like I said, just as if she lives right here in town. Such a great feeling. We stopped by my sister's so she could meet Liberty, and then she dropped me back off at home. Such a nice visit. She and the kids are coming back in the summer and we are going to try to get the kids together then. And while I am talking about Stacy, please keep her and her family in your thoughts and prayers, as her husband leaves shortly for Iraq for 9-11 months. They have five children and she will certainly have her hands full.

Well, that's it for now...going to put my nose in my book and read awhile...

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Some Good News

My dad looked the car over today when he got home from work and he thinks we can get it fixed for the amount I will get from Insurance. It won't be perfect, but it will run and get me from point A to B. That was some good news. I am still frustrated that someone can cause an accident and, as the "victim" you are left with little to no options.

Put together a few more Christmas gifts today. I did a gift basket for my father-in-law and brother-in-law, plus one for mother-in-law. Filled them with Soup in a Jar, crackers, fruit, and different things. I ran out of energy before I completely finished. OF course, I am also running out of time. I will have to get up and finish wrapping a few things before we head out to our festivities for the day. Thankfully, we will be able to borrow mom and dad's car. We are going to his dad's, as has been our tradition since the kids were born. WE will exchange gifts, have dinner, visit. On our way to his dad's, we will stop at his aunt and uncle's, drop off a gift basket for them and visit for a little bit. I want to be home early enough to have a relaxing Christmas eve....not rushing to get kids in bed, forgetting to leave cookies and milk and all that jazz.

Speaking of cookies...we went over to mother-in-law's this evening, had dinner and the kids made cookies. They had fun. Sebastian seemed to wear more of the frosting than the cookies did. So, when it was done, he had to hit the bath! Amazingly, there was a little boy under all that frosting.

Well, it is beyond time for bed...so Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night=)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Starting the Christmas break off with a....

Crash. Of the car sort. I will start by saying, nobody was injured. However, today, on my way home from my very last class this semester, I was turning left onto my road....not a mile from home, when the girl behind me received some hairbrain idea to try to pass me. Now I am not sure from whence the grand idea came. Perhaps she was in a hurry to get nowhere. Maybe she was out in space, forgetting she was even on a road. Or it could be that she had had a horribly bad day and was trying to outrun her troubles. I haven't a clue. What I do know is that I turned my blinker on, as I always do, as I reached the house with the wrap-around porch. I begin to brake, signaling to all behind me that hey, fools, I plan to turn in the direction in which this blinker indicates. As I approach the intersection, I am going quite slow to make the turn. No oncoming traffic, so no need to reach a complete stop. And as I get about half way into my turn on my road, to my house, WHACK! BUMP! What was tha....I WAS JUST HIT! All this comes at me as I see the black car swerving out and around, not bothering to stop until she is back on her very own side of the road, where she belonged all along. I ever so slowly finished my turn and got my car off the road as I thought to myself, over and over, I was hit. That car just hit me. What do I do? My body began to tremble from head to toe. A scary, uncontrollable tremble. The tears begin to sting my eyes. I sit there for a moment trying to regain my composure and figure out just what it is I am supposed to do. I am now on my road, facing west; the other driver is on the intersecting road, facing north, where she had pulled off the side of the road. I look back over my shoulder to take in as much as I can about the car in case the driver gets the hunch to take off. But, as my body is trembling so bad, I knew I could not leave the what-i-no-longer-felt-safety of my car. I pick up my cell phone. I knew I only had a little bit of airtime left on the thing, but I call home. HOME. I should be pulling into driveway of home. I am stuck here, in a broken up car, with legs wobbling uncontrolably because some crazy driver paid me no mind. I was never so relieved to hear the voice of my husband on the other line. I cry as I tell him that I have been hit at the corner of home....i repeated several times that I was ok, but could he please come. He said he would be right there. I hung up and just sat there for a moment, still too stunned to make sense of it all. I decided i did need to call the police. That's when a gentleman pulls up and asks if i am ok and i tell him, I am not hurt, but i am shaking and upset and blubber blubber....to which he says, it's ok, hon, calm down. I told him i called my husband and he is on his way. He assured me it was the other driver's fault because she attmepted to pass me while I was turning left. But then, he drove off... I pick up my phone to call home again real quick, to read the warning on my screen-Emergency Calls Only! Well, how amazing that the only other call I really need to make is to 911. So, I dial. ANd it seems to take an eternity for someone to answer. I slightly recall, at one point I took the phone away from my ear and just kinda groaned out a frustrated mumble of why aren't they answering. As I brought the phone back up to my ear, I hear the faint, "Can you hear me?" BINGO someone on the line. I tell her I have been in an accident and give my location and details about our cars, and no i am not hurt, just shaken up and no i have no idea if hte other driver is ok, because i cannot get my legs to cooperate to go see and to be honest and GOD forgive me, right now, I am not all that concerned about her. I am quite angry with her right now, thankyouverymuch!!!! No, i did not say all those things to the dispatcher. They are dispatchers, not therapists. But, i thought those things, at one point or another during this fiasco. In no time at all, Jeremy and Ralph arrive to my rescue. They park on the side of the road and Jeremy jumps right up and comes up to the car. I still cannot trust my legs to hold me in an upright position and so I shall sit right here in this seat for now. He went over to make sure the other driver was ok, which was the right thing to do because, well, it is. I finally decide to try my legs out and open my car door and plant my feet on the ground. So far, so good. I stand and walk over to Ralph's truck. I am going to be just fine. I feel the effects of being hit, but nothing serious. Whew. I am alive. And hey, I am so damned lucky. This could have turned out much differently. I send up a thank you. I was spared. Then, my mom pulls up..with my uncle. She is frantic. She was just sure that I was telling JEremy on the phone I was ok when really I wasn't. She is the queen of what-ifs. And her mind was running wild with them, I am sure. She comes up and just gives me a huge hug and gets choked up. I told her, hey, I have some amazing guardian angels. There is reason why my car did not go into spins, with the location where the other driver struck me. She was probably doing a decent speed, to boot. Afterall, she sure must have been in a hurry to try to pass when someone was turning left. But, through it all, I maintained control of my vehicle at almost all times and never once did I spin, no other vehicles were involved and I was able to get out of the car on my own. That is wonderful! A blessing! Thank you Jesus! Now can I go puke somewhere, because really, this was too close for me. I hate cars. I refer to them as death machines. I have always fully recognized the potential for death where a vehicle is concerned. Don't get me wrong, I run the roads with the best of them. I don't have phobias of driving or quirks in regards to driving. I get in the car and do what needs to be done. But, in the back of mind, always, is a niggling fear of a car accident, something so totally out of my control. And today, there it was. Just in time for Christmas. I have to spend my "vacation" making arrangements for the start of next semester. I have to find rides anywhere I need to go from now until the car can get fixed. Of course I only had the min ins on it, I only paid around $900 for the car and well, why would I pay all that money to fully insure a car that is not worth it? Tomorrow will be spent on the phone making calls and deciding what needs to be done to get wheels back on the road for me. I had a fleeting moment where i felt pity and wanted to throw in the towel, but by God, he spared me today, and so I will count my blessings. I will stress and complain about the major inconvenience, for a moment at least...really, it's expected, right? But, seriously, I have NO money to my name, will get a meager $400 on the car through insurance....and that will no where near cover the expenses of the damage done. I feel slightly overwhelmed, but I know that everything will work out. It is my last semester before my associates, I am not giving up just yet.

Anyway, that's the most recent excitement in my life. Other than that, i feel I did well on my finals, and in my classes, overall. On monday, I stopped by the senior center. Ruben gave me a card with $10 worth of scratch off lottery tickets in it. I won $15. So, yeah, i guess I have that much to my name. LOL.

Makenneh was finally able to join girl scouts. She is selling cookies right now. So, if anyone would like to order some, email me and let me know. The order/money is due Jan. 20. The cookies will arrive Feb 17. THen the next order is due in March sometime. Not sure off the top of my head.

The kids are doing good. Seb still doesn't get too excited about having to school. He would just prefer to stay home. If only.....lol. Makenneh's teacher reported that she gets a little chatty at times and it interferes with her work. Grrrr! I so did not do that in school. I listed and paid attention.

WEll, i am literally falling asleep here at the desk. I just wanted to check in with everyone before heading to bed. I should be on a little more overthe break, but hard to say!

In case I do not get on here again before then, Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Tis the season...OH and Aunt Bev, read this! LOL

Christmas is close. I am near done. If there is such a thing.

Before I forget, Aunt Bev...i Have those phone numbers for you but I do not have your email in my contact list anymore since having to get a new email address awhile back. So, if you could email me at masehow @ yahoo . com, i will reply with the numbers!

Saturday we had our family Christmas party on dad's side and also my cousin Ashley's wedding. Made for a long, busy day. But, fun nonetheless. The newlyweds headed to Cozumel and Key West..on a Cruise. Lucky them...having fun in the sun!

Finally got Sebastian's school pictures back today. Of course, now I cannot recall where I put Makenneh's. I have an idea...maybe in the desk in our bedroom. Fingers crossed they are not lost!

Friday night we went to the candlewalk in town....my mom, mother-in-law, Makenneh, Carrie, Ralph and Libby. My boys wanted to stay home like buttheads. LOL. We watched the parade, walked through town, enjoyed popcorn and hot chocolate, christmas music, and that's about it.

Well, I need to get some shut-eye. Been staying up way too late. I still have some homework i need to finish up for tomorrow.

good night and hope i can make it back here soon!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Wow a few spare moments

How unusual. I am so glad it is nearly the weekend. I am exhausted. To top it off, I have some sort of bug that has left me feeling fatigued with an upset stomach and frequent trips to the bathroom. It started last night on my way home from class. I didn't want to go to my classes today because I felt so hellish. But, we had group presentations in one class and a test in the other. So, i sucked it up, took some keep-me-out-of-the-bathroom-dear-Lord pills and headed off to school. I took a nap when I got home and I took another this evening while the kids were next door at gma's watching a movie. I could have slept right on through but there are always mommy things to do. Now I am enjoying some peaceful me time, which I have not had in quite some time. I really am stealing this time because I could be studying for the tests I have next week. But, for now, I will not think of them.

I applied for graduation and signed up for Winter. I only have 9 credits right now and am debating on adding the 4th class for full time. I don't need anymore credits. Truth is, i will have about 80 credits give or take a couple. But, for financial aid I have to go at least part time. I really don't want to mess up my reward amounts so that's why i am leaning on taking the 4th class. So far i have my social work class, the last leg of my internship, then I have a Leadership Development class that the adviser recommended and Racial and Ethnic relations. One thing I stressed to her was that I wanted a more laid back semester because this one I am in now is just down right grueling at times.

I go tomorrow for my training in MiCAFE (Michigan's coordinated access for food for the elderly). I have been doing the applications for quite some time now but after tomorrow, I will ahve my own pin, be able to sign the applications and do it all by myself without Ruben's supervision. I hope I feel well enough to not be miserable during the five hour training.

I am looking forward to Thanksgiving break. We are going up to my grandma's and it will be nice to get away. Makenneh just can't wait to see great-grandma. She has gifts for her and can't wait to give them.

The weekend following that is our family Christmas party and my cousin's wedding. Yes, on the same day, different sides of the family. So, we plan to attend the wedding, then go to the Christmas party then go to the reception. I will not give up the family Christmas party, the chance to see family members I see only a few times a year, most importantly grandma. And there is no reason that arrangement won't work.

I am anxious to finish Christmas shopping but i know i need to wait til black friday. I will be very disappointed if i buy things now and discover them much cheaper that day. We will be going to the stores up north and they are not nearly as packed and hectic as they are around here. We did this a few years ago and it was amazing how few people were actually out shopping on Black Friday up there. It was nice to get all the good deals without all the crowds of roudy, rude people. The only disadvantage is that the stores seem to be more spread out and less options. But i will be able to get the things I want, I am sure.

Well, Ineed to look up directions to my training tomorrow and then I think I will take my exhausted self to bed. I bet I drool tonight. LOL

Friday, November 13, 2009

So much to say but...

It is late and so so I will just share this:

I applied for graduation today! In May I will graduate with my associates in applied science with Social work technician specified, my associates in Arts and my MACRAO (which is showing universities/4 yr colleges that I successfully completed all the requirements to enter as a junior). The absolute only class I need next semester is my Social Work 250 class, which is the last 150 hours of internship! Go me. I am very proud of myself, even if it's unfashionable to be so. I have worked hard and sacrificed much, but I know the rewards will be worth every bit of it! And honestly, i have been enjoying the journey and I have grown and learned so much about myself, others, life in general, and of course, the topics in which I studied!

If you are reading this and have a little niggling in the back of your head urging you to go to college, listen to it. It has been, by far, the very best thing I have done for myself and my family. I feel so much better about myself, I have a sense of worth, I feel valued, respected, appreciated.

Oh and I have to add that Shannon and Kevin came over tonight so I finally got to see the new addition to our family. Clayton is absolutely beautiful. Just perfect. ANd quite a quiet baby.

Monday, November 09, 2009

Falling into place

I am finally registered to attend training for MiCAFE (Michigan's Coordinated Access for Food for the Elderly). I go on November 20th for the training. I will then be certified as a MiCAFE counselor and will be able to do applications for Bridge Cards and Medicaid (and other benefits) for seniors. Having this certification will be beneficial as an intern and also for future employment. I hope that once I am certified, I can take over the client's at the other local senior center. Currently, my supervisor is taking out one day per week to go to the other senior center and do these applications. Once I am certified, I will be able to do them by myself and hopefully I can go to the other center, get my foot in the door, and maybe get an employment opportunity out of it!

Also, the director and Ruben (my supervisor) went to a Senior Center conference this past week. They returned to work today and Ruben told me that they discussed having me facillitate a class based on something they learned at the conference. I felt so good that they thought of me to do this. I am also doing the research for Ruben for his presentation he will be giving at our Pastor's Brunch. The topic is Dementia/Alzheimer's. He will be presenting on the social work aspect of dealing with this illness. I will be preparing most of his presentation for him. OF course, this all comes as things really pick up with my classes and I feel nearly overwhelmed, but I am going to adjust to life in the fast lane.

I just feel like things are falling into place. It's a slow road, but there are many rewards at the end of it.

Sebastian is doing much better with going to school. I really think that talking to the bus driver resolved the problem. He was a trooper this morning. He got up, got dressed, and was ready to go to school. No complaints, no attempts to stay home. Woohoo!

I finally found the halloween pics. I am trying to upload some right now. I will post them as soon as they load..which is taking forever.

Anyway, had a biology test tonight. I didn't feel too confident about it. However, I just checked my grade and I got a 57 out of 60. I am happy with that.

Ooh, here are some pics....

Daddy helping Sebastian with one of the craft projects...making a spider


My little spongebobMy cheerleader (I have no idea why it didn't rotate them..i rotated them before uploading but oh well...)




Makenneh and Keeley (who is my sister-in-law, Sara's little sister...they are in class together
Mom and I went to an expo at a local business (which is competition for our business) and got some ideas. While there, we entered their drawing. Well, today, we each received a phone call that we had won. Mom won some tour package (they mentioned something about alaska cruise, but she isn't sure exactly what...doesn't want to get her hopes up) and I won a package from our local computer shop. We have to pick the certificates up tomorrow. I can't wait to see exactly what it is we have won. It would be fantastic if my package is somethign I can put toward my new laptop. I actually have decided to go with the netbook because it is more compact and will be easier for carting to school when needed. I don't really care about a huge screen (that's jeremy's department...lol).

Well, i need to get to bed. I am making a cake in the morning for my cousin, Alyssa because her bday is tomorrow and we have bunco and she will be playing. She had asked me this past summer if I would make this cake for her because she loved it last time I made it. It's a heath cake and very yummy and sinful! I have to leave for school at 10am, so my day is going to be full.

Good night....

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Passing this along

I read a blog of a mother who lost her baby 16 mins after he was born. I believe it was Helen who got me interested in this other blog. The mother's name is Stacy and reading about her journey and her faith during such a difficult time has been inspirational. I have cried, laughed, rejoiced. If you would like to read her journey, go here If you have days where you feel life is too much or that you cannot take anymore, reading Stacy's blog will renew your faith, your hope, your strength.

Anyway, since the death of her son, she and her husband have focused on ways to turn their tragic loss into something positive. One of those ways was to raise funds for a playground in honor of their son, Isaac. They are presently doing a fundraiser through the website, Humble Like This Child. I thought I would pass the info along and share it with others, who may be interested. The link is below. If you wish to place an order, enter "Isaac" at checkout and you will receive 10% off your order. In addition, $10 from every doll sold will go toward the playground. Then, if you blog, tweet, post, etc about the fundraiser, you can email Tricia, at humblelikethischild@gmail.com and let her know and you will be entered to win a $25 gift card. Tricia is the owner of Humble Like This Child.

http://www.humblelikethischild.com/


I had a pleasant surprise when I returned from school today. There has been talk about Matt taking the weight machine set to his house for some time. The weight machine has been in the toy room....so therefore, no room for kids' beds or anything which meant they have been in the same room as us. Well, today, they took it down and over to Matt's. Woohooo. Then, like an added blessing, my sister stopped by and she helped the kids go through their toys and organize them, so the room is closer than ever to being a bedroom! As an added bonus, she took a garbage bag full of toys home for Libby. Now, we have to go through mom's stuff that is stored in there as well as some other boxes that are stacked to the ceiling. The room was never finished with drywall, so we have to come up with a creative/inexpensive way to get the walls finished. It's framed, no drywall. Then, the bunkbed will be moved in there and how nice it will be to have the extra space. The sad thing is, we just threw our bookshelf on the burn pile at Carrie's because we had no room for it. Now, they should be room and the kids could certainly use a bookshelf...they have boxes of books. I have an obsession with books and a belief that one can never own too many....for kids, that is. I do not hoard adult books. I read them and pass them on. But, kids' books are another story. I am thinking that tomorrow I will check the condition of the bookshelf (it hasn't been burned yet) and see if it was damaged too bad in the weather over the past couple days. I may try to salvage it.

It's winter sign up time for college. I need to get it done, but i don't have the extra 3 hours to sit and wait to get it done. ANd because it will be final semester, I want to make sure I have everything covered and so I want to meet with my advisor to do my schedule. I would hate to find out that if I had just taken this one other class, I could have had another degree. I also don't want the financial aid hassle. IF I register online and don't do take the proper steps, my classes will be dropped after 2 days and I will be charged $57. I don't want to throw out that kind of money, thank you.

Well, I am going to get off here and get ready for bed.....Night all

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Introducing....

Clayton John....My cousin Shannon delivered via C-section, after laboring for 23 hours. CJ was born Oct 30 and weighed in at 7 lbs 13 oz and 21 1/4 in long. He had a fever of 102* at birth, but they gave him antibiotics and he is doing well now. He does have jaundice so they are monitoring him for that. But, mom and baby are now home and both doing well.




Here's a picture of Halloween. It was after trick-0r-treating.




We took the kids to the neighborhood around the fire station. We went around the loop, then stopped by the fire station for all kinds of goodies. We had plenty of candy and were headed to Aunt Kathy's at 7:20. We stopped there, visited for a few minutes then stopped at one of her neighbors and came home. It was nice to be done before the kids were overly exhausted. I have more pictures of just my kids in their costumes, but they are not on the computer yet, to my knowledge. Let me check...yeah, if they are on here, I am not seeing them. So, as soon as they are on here, I will post them.

Midterm grades were posted and I am doing well. 4.0 in all my classes, except social work 240. I have no idea why it says 3.0 but perhaps it's because he enters a generic grade for all. At our next class, I will ask him. It seems like he was the one who always puts in a 3.0 just to enter a grade.

Winter registration is open and I need to get in and sign up for classes. The lines are always so long. I really only need the one class...social work 250, but will take a few others to be considered full time for financial aid. That will be my last semester and I will have my Social Work Technician Degree, as well as my associates in Applied Science and Arts. Then it will off to chase my BSW. =)

Well, the forecast is saying flurries for the morning. Not looking forward to that. Even though I know it will melt before it hits the ground (or at least, I hope), I am not ready to face winter yet. However, we have begun Christmas shopping. That's a good feeling. Some things I want to wait for black Friday just because they will most likely be cheap then.

Sebastian is doing well with getting on the bus now. He wants to be out at the bus stop as soon as he is dressed and ready (usually with 20 mins to spare).

Well, I am going to get off here and start doing my homework. Have a great night!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Thank You, Julie

What a surprise. I got there to meet Julie tonight and she had a whole garbage bag full of stuff. 2 winter coats, 2 pair of snow pants, 2 jackets, a pair of winter boots, a pair of winter/work boots, a pair of shoes, a pair of mittens, complete with the snap things that keep them attached to the coat so they don't get lost as easily. Goodness, what a blessing! Sebastian loved it. Beautiful! He exclaimed as I showed him. He had to try the boots on and they fit him and he was so happy he didn't want to take them off. It is so appreciated! And Julie is every bit as nice as I thought she would be. Maybe we can meet up some time and do something. (See, Julie, I had begun to post about it....I went back in to finish it).

I had begun this post after getting home from meeting Julie, but with the competition for the computer, I gave up. Then, I forgot that I had never came back to finish it, until I got on this morning.

My cousin Shannon is in the hospital, in labor. Her water broke yesterday evening. As of shortly after midnight last night, she was dilated to 2 and only 50% effaced. So, she still had a ways to do. They were planning to induce her. Well, mom is on the phone to her sister right now and I guess nothing happened over night. Wowzers! Some time today, though, we should have a new addition to the extended family.

Well, I have to get Makenneh ready for school. The Halloween party is today at school.