Well, I haven't disappeared!!!!

Just haven't been online much. And when I am, i just check my mail and freecycle. Not sure why this is. I have been feeling blah the last few days, though. Today seems to be better. I don't know why i was in such a funk. i wonder if part of it is because last friday, I started exercizing with my mom, friend and her mom and its been spotty since, due to her work schedule, me babysitting, etc. The days I exercized, I felt great, energized. I want a copy of the workout video we use so i can do it at home when we arent all getting together to do it.

Another depressing thing is our taxes. I did them and we aren't getting back as much as we anticipated. That sucks. Guess no new furniture for me=(. Oh well. At least we can pay off hte collections and catch up on bills. Ultimately, i wish we could pay the collections off right now, so that it will be sooner that we can get into a house. But, we just don't have 522.00 laying around the house and the damn money tree in our yard, well, it died. LOL.

Anyway, as you can see, nothing too exciting going on in my neck of the woods. Just same ol same ol stuff.

Well, 6 more months......



...Until we will be able to move. We applied for a loan through rural development and we were accepted with conditions. The conditions being that we pay off the two small collections and then we have to wait 6 months after that. So, we are going to pay that off asap, and then we can get the hell outta here in 6months. Of course, by the time we find a home, get everything else all settled, we can plan to be moving in early fall of this year. It's not as soon as I had hoped, but better than I expected. At least now I know that we can get the loan and we can move. That is exciting!!!! So, we are going to halt our house hunt for now, as the houses we like may not be on the market in 6 months.

Plus, this gives me 6 months to find a job and get ahead on everything around here. So, everything happens for a reason.

Well, there's the update!

Shall we stay or shall we gooo......


Actually, all that is up for debate is if we should proceed with the purchase agreement on the house we looked at yesterday. Right now, we have it on hold. Oh the perks of being friends with a realtor. LOL. Anyway, today, we took a caravan to the house to look at it. My dad, mom, Tiffney and her mom (who is best friends with my mom) and Jeremy and I, all went to look at the house again. Good thing! I ought to know by now not to decide on anything until dear daddy has inspected it. He has a keen eye for things and is a jack of all trades. Well, we discovered(which how we all missed it the first time is beyond me) that there was a water leak of some sort under the sink...we think that they waited too long to winterize it and pipes burst. It's a repo, so all electricity and water is off. Dad says it may still be worth it to process and try to put in a smaller offer. It is on 3 lots, with a fenced in yard, in otherwise great condition. So, we have to research the cost of lots going in that neighborhood and see where that puts us...as kinda a guesstimate of the value. The bad thing is, we won't know for sure, the extent of the damage until the water is turned on and thats not until we buy the place....so its a gamble. Am I feeling lucky??? LOL I never feel all too lucky, so i don't know that its a gamble i want to take. Depending on how long that was leaking or whatever, the floors could be rotted, tehre is already a small amount of mold on one of the cabinets meaning that would need replaced. Nothing is ever so easy. I think we will continue looking at this point and go from there. I just don't know. What i do know, is now that we are so close, I really am ready to have a house. EVen if it means i have to get a job. I am ready for the break anyway.

Well that's our update!

HOLY.........


Shit!!!! We just did a huge thing over the weekend! We found a house that we absolutely love, in our price range! And guess what....we made an offer. I never imagined that we would be possibly buying a damn house so soon, but the price was so right we just couldn't pass it up and with the rural development program, the payments will probably be less than we pay for lot rent (not to mention we won't have a water bill...). Yes, it has a well, which means i will no longer have to drink pool water. lol.

The best part (well there are many "best" parts) is that if it all goes through, we will be in there in time for the kids' bday parties..and it has a nice, brand new garage to have these parties in...not to mention a fenced in yard for kiddies to run free.

I have so many mixed emotions...nervousness, excitement, anxious, even scared some..its a big step, but we have so outgrown this 2 bedroom mobile home....its horrible. Right now there are some things we have to take care of for this to all go through, but God-willing, it will all work out.

(IF you read this and you are family or close friends, please dont tell mom and dad, as we have yet to break the news to them...well going to today...taking mom over there to see it).

We also had a great weekend bc saturday we went to my friend, Tiffney's house and played cards with her and her husband and another couple. We had a great time and we didn't leave til after 2am.

Well, I guess im off for now...we are supposed to find out tuesday if we can go forward.

What the???????



Hell??? It is 46 degrees here! Yes, 46 degrees. At 730am on January 20. It is sooo beautiful out. Today shall be a great day. This is the earliest I have been up in a long time without going back to bed. I was woke up at 6am when Jeremy realized he overslept. Which he probably realized bc his ride was knocking at the door. Anyway, he wanted me to get up and help him get ready..i really had nothing i could do to help him. But boy was he a crabby ass. I guess that comes with oversleeping and having the pressure of having the guy you ride with out front waiting on you.

Makenneh is up too. I am keeping her up. She needs to start getting u earlier and going to bed earlier. This night owl shit has to end. So, hopefully tonight she will start to get back on track. Of coruse, she is staying with grandma tonight. She has been wanting to stay with gwamma and papa lately. I will not complain. I can always use a break, specially from her Terrible Twos. LOL.

Oh and back to the weather...i realize now why i dont watch the weather on the news....its depressing. Bc, its beautiful outside and this evening the snow starts....and we are expected to get 5-7" throughout tomorrow. UGH. That's a lot of freakin snow, well considering that we haven't had snow around (or at least stick around) since before Christmas.

Well, im sure i have bored you all to death, so im out now

Tennesee Bound???

Well, i say i need a vacation and the opportunity for one presrented itself. While at Bunco last week, my friend Tiffney and her mom were talking about going to TN this summer. Tiffney said i should go. Well, i told her we just can't afford a vacation....she suggested that they would keep the split for the cabin the same, so I wouldn't have to pay for housing and would only need money for spending. They cook in every day rather than eat out, to save money too. Well, I was talking with my mom bc they really want us to go....and i said yeah, but spending money in itself can be a lot depending on what they plan on doing. Mom said she could pay for some of our stuff. It would only be me and Makenneh going as Jeremy doesn't get a paid vacation until October and we can't afford for him to take a week off work. I would leave Sebastian here, as I think it would just make it more enjoyable...him only being a little over a year old. But, depending on how it would work....i may take him. Jeremy will be here for him in the evenings, but would need a sitter while he was at work. So, it may just be easier for someone to jsut keep him the week, but then i worry about him being away from home and mom for a whole week. So, i have a lot of things to mull over. Im thinking that when it comes down to it, i will have to take the little munchkin. A week is an eternity. We will see. I wouldn't feel so bad if he could at least be here with daddy in the evenings. So, im thinking maybe someone could stay here for the week. That way, they could watch him during day and then dad would be here at night. And whoever watched him would have their evenings free. What to do....a vacation so close i can taste it, yet seemingly just out of reach. I also thought maybe jeremy could bank some hours at work (they allow them to work through lunch and stay after whenever they want and they can bank those hours to take days off with pay) and then he could maybe take thurs and fri off so then we would only need a sitter for mon thru wed. That wouldnt be so bad. Thankfully I have til June to get it all figured out. I also feel guilty for going and leaving Jeremy behind. But, its a chance in a lifetime..ive never been able to just go on a vacation, out of state like this. And I don't see us being able to do it any time in the near future, either.

Where's the camera.......

when you really need it? Earlier, Makenneh was down the hall, and then i hear her calling me...and it sounded somewhat muffled...i go check and that silly kid had climbed into the dryer and was calling me to come shut it....and she had the cat in there with her. LOL. OF course, I had to tell her to get out, bc its dangerous and you can't play in there, but i was thinking, man this was a kodak moment..i could see this picture making it to her picture board for her graduation!!! LOL.

Best Buds

This is a pic of Makenneh and my friend's daughter, Ariel. makenneh is 2 months older than Ariel. They used to fight more than play, but as they get older, they are beginning to understand better, the concept of sharing and friendship.

Tub Time.....

I said once i got a digital camera, my blog would have pics....well I forgot to add that once I got it all figured out. LOL.

Tonight, Makenneh had a bath first. I then decided to put Sebastian in the tub, and like me, he is unable to take a bath alone. Makenneh can hear that water running in the tub from a mile away. And in she runs. Of course, this was taken as Sebastian pulled the drain and the water ran out. She was trying to reach over and put the plug back in. Too late, sis. Water is gone. And how i hate tub pics in my tub. That damn water stains are disgusting. Oh well, every kid has to have tub pics. (Ive even tried TSP on those stains, to no avail.)

Anyway, the bath was short lived, down to business.

Isn't he just handsome??!!!! I figured I needed to start sharing pics of my kids now that I have a digital camera. I still haven't gotten everything figured out, so its all a learning game right now. Yippee!

My little guy is growing so fast. he is already walking around the furniture, waving bye, saying mama and dada! How crazy, wasnt he just born yesterday?

Somebody Shoot Me.....


My gosh, I really am losing my sanity...faster than ever. Makenneh has been very trying lately. I have started with the time outs. Which she resists ever so strongly. SO, in order to get her to sit in time out, i have to sit on the floor, in front of her and hold her down. This is no small task either. This kid has the strength of an ox. She screams and cries and throws herself around the whole time. I thought about increasing her time when she does this, but realized all too quickly that she would be sitting in time out until she turned 18 and was legal to leave....lol. Then, Mr. Sebastian has been showing his mighty temper as well. He wants his way and he wants it NOW! And God forbid you take something out of his hands. After all, he worked very hard to get ahold of that and isn't giving up without a fight. My kids definitely take after their dad. I do not have that strong of a will (my weight will tell you that...lol) and I am not that defiant. Why couldn't I have one mellow kid????? And hell no im not trying again so i can have my mellow kid. LOL. Thank God the baby maker was put out of commission permanantly.

Ive learned a few things since becoming a parent.

1. I have very little patience (bad thing to find out after you have kids....but then i guess nothing tests your patience like kids)
2. I love my sleep (something you sacrafice when you have kids)
3. Nothing is more beautiful than hearing your child say, "I love you too much, mommy"
4. Seeing your child sleep is heavenly
5. Watching them as they learn new things is very rewarding

Of course, there are many other things Ive learned as well...but I don't want to write a novel right now. LOL.

Ok, I have been around the blog world, trying out a million different sites. Im back to blogger. I like the fact that ppl can leave comments without being a member, that I can use all these fanciful things to make my blog pretty without clicking "advanced editor" first, and I can control my blog as far as comments left, deleting the whole thing, what have you. So, I am here to stay.