Monday, February 23, 2009

Third time's a charm

Really it is. Sooo, I wish we would have had a videa camera Sunday evening. Makenneh asked to be baptised Sunday morning. So, it was set for her to be baptised Sunday evening. She was so excited to be baptatised as she says it. I did explain to her the process and that she would be slowly dunked under the water but that it would be okay because the pastor would be holding her and he would keep her safe. Well, towards the end of the Sunday evening service, the preacher comes to me and says I can take Makenneh back and get her ready. We get her all robed up and ready to go. I once again remind her of what will take place. Okay we are good to go. We walk up the steps and pastor is already in the water. He reaches for her hands and slowly guides her down into the water. The water reaches about her chest. He addresses the congregation that Makenneh has asked to be baptised and then he turns to Makenneh and asks if she has accepted the Lord as her Savior. To which she proudly proclaims yes. Then he says what he has to say just prior to submersing her. The last thing said is, "...in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost." As he says "Holy Ghost" is when he would submerge her. MInd you, for anyone unfamiliar with this process, she is to have her arms folded over her chest. So, here we go:
Preacher........"....in the name of the Father, the Son and the HO=-"
Cut off as Makenneh reaches out with a death grip on the side, not so trusting to go under the water. Everyone laughs. He laughs. He starts again. The procedure has to be repeated. He gets to the part of dunking her and Whoah! Hand goes out to save herself again. I am squatted down, near the water, telling her it is okay, she has to go under. It will only be for a second. Finally, on the third try, he was able to get her under the water. Whew!

It was an emotional day for me. I stood next to the baptismal water crying. Sunday evening's service was quite a deal because in addition to Makenneh being baptised, my dad was ordained as a Trustee. They ordained the deacons and trustees. Afterward was a pizza party. My cousin Kenny, who was just baptised a couple months ago, came and brought his little brother and also Desiree. As we were eating pizza, Des said she wanted to be baptised and asked what she had to do. I told her she had to be saved and directed her to my dad. He talked to her for a moment and then the preacher was seated across from us and my dad told him, so he took Des to the other room and talked to her and she accepted Jesus. She is being baptised next Sunday. It made me cry because my aunt Dawn would be sooo absolutely proud and happy. I guess she still is those things. I am sure she is beaming. But it's sad that she can't be in there helping Des get changed and ready like I just did for Makenneh or that she can't be there on the sideline watching up close. But, truthfully, she probably has the best seat in the house, from Heaven.

So, I went on my first in-home assessment today, as an intern. It was cool. Would have been much better if I had felt better and my nose wasn't so stuffed up. OF course, these older people keep the heat on super high, so that didn't help. But, it was cool to have the experience and Ruben let me take the notes and do the paperwork when we got back to the senior center. Pretty neat to be putting the things I have been learning to actual, real-life use.

The semester is nearly half over with, hoorah. I am worn out. I am ready for the break. Of course, it stinks because I really think I only need that one last semester to be done at the community college, with my social work technician certificate (associate's degree). Woohahahha!

Ooooh and did I mention that when my mom and Ralph went to the convention in Lansing this weekend, they were able to talk with our Secretary of State and he told her about Jeremy's license situation. She personally said to have Jeremy contact her office, give his info and she would work on getting his license. She stressed that as long as alcohol was not involved, she should be able to do something. I am so happy. He called and did that today and please pray that this works out and he can have at least a restricted license for back and forth to work!

and more possible good news - a friend of ours contacted Jeremy on yahoo to tell him one of his friends works at a shop nearby that is going to be hiring. I emailed the friend Jeremy's resume and it was taken in today. They expect to hire a few guys this week and Jeremy has a good word in for him. Again, please pray that this works out, as it is decent hourly wage, plus overtime. And about 30-40 mins from home, so not too bad.

And with all that, we found a house for rent, right around the corner. It is only 2 bedroom, but the one bedroom is huge! The best part is that the river runs through the back of the property and there is 2 acres. Jeremy and the kids can fish all summer long. The monthly rent is 600.00 and that is not bad at all for a house, especially not water front. The downfall for me, besides only 2 bedrooms, is that I strongly dislike the school district. I almost refuse to allow my children to go there. So, it would mean leaving her registered at my mom's address and driving her down here for the bus and then picking her up. It is only five mins away, so totally do-able. So, once again, say some prayers. I have applied for additional student loan funds and it is really dependant on that going through. We would pay up about 10 months worth of rent and be left with a bit of money in the bank. That way, irregardless of the job situation, the roof would be over our heads and it would give us some time to get it all together. Of course, we would also be able to eliminate our storage fees so that would help as well.

I told Jeremy that with all this great opportunity before us, I really believe this may be a turning point for our lives. THe answer to all our prayers lies right before us - his license, a decent job and a home. It's all right there...sooo close. I really hope it works out.

Well, it is very late and I need to get to bed!

Take care

Friday, February 20, 2009

Doh! Stacy reminded me....

That I never posted about Sebastian's visit to the doc. Sorry for keeping you in suspense. The doctor said that it seems to be an inclusion cyst which is just to say that he had gotten something in there at some point and the foreign body never worked itself out, causing the cyst to grow. He said we could remove it but that would involve putting him under and then risking the possibility that the scar tissue would cause him more problems down the road or we could do a wait and see approach, seems how it doesn't bother him unless we grown ups are making a fuss about it. It doesn't cause a limp, it doesn't hurt and he doesn't even realize it's there until we start rubbing and poking and such. He did get some measurements and wants me to bring him back in 8 weeks for a recheck. But, you can visibly see where the foot was cut (like sliver or something sharp). So, the inclusion cyst makes sense. And we are just gonna wait and see how it goes.

I forgot to post all that because I have been so miserable. The kids have all taken turns keeping me up late (and all) night with diarrhea and vomiting, then I took my own turn with it. Only, on top of that, I have a nasty cough that has left me with painful ribs. I have coughed so much, my sides hurt. I also now have the whole allergy thing going on...itchy watery eyes, itchy running nose. I look and feel a mess. The stomach bug part seems to have passed, thankfully. I am sure I will have the cough for awhile...it usually lingers.

Soooo, my dad continues to complain about my cats. We only had the one when we moved in. She had the two kittens and well, we fell in love with them. He even likes the one if he would admit it. Actually, he kinda has. But,anyway, he has felt extra grumpy lately and needs something to bitch about, so the cats were it. Jeremy is sick of hearing the bitching, so he wanted me to take the cats to the humane society today. I stalled on it because, frankly, I don't want to get rid of them. I almost feel like taking my cats and sleeping out in my car to shut him up. So, that has had me very upset and crying the last two days.

Well, dinner will be ready soon so I am off here.....

Thursday, February 19, 2009

What can I say?

I am miserably sick. I decided I am not going to my classes today because for the past few nights I have been up pretty much all night, coughing, diarrhea, upset stomach. And before it was me who was sick, the kids have been taking turns with it. In fact, I had to pick Makenneh up from school this morning because she is sick again. Blah. I can't wait for this to be over.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Moving water

Everyone loves the sound of water. Ok, unless you have to pee really really bad. Then you probably don't like the sound of water. Well, in the midst of a frigid winter (with a few exceptions of warm weather tossed in the mix), I found the sound of moving water in a strange place. I was taking the last bag of trash to the road and there it was. Whoosh, whoosh. As the water moved along in the ditch. How um...nice? I couldn't help but feel a bit of lightheartedness as I listened to that sound. Better still, I should have closed my eyes for a moment and let my wander to a bright, warm, sunny beach or something. But, I didn't. I still enjoyed the peaceful sound of the water for a moment. Funny the places you can find peace and tranquility. If even for a moment.

I take Seb to the doctor in the morning for his bump on his foot. It's right in the arch of his foot. I have no idea what it is and I am hoping it is something simple. I must be honest and admit a bit of reserved fear. My heart always breaks when I read stories of families going through tragic illnesses with their children. It is one my fears as a mother. I am sure it is every Mother's fear. So, please say a prayer, think positive thoughts, whatever it is you do. There is a very small "cut" where the bump is, which kinda leads me to believe that perhaps it is a sliver gone bad. But, there is no redness around the "cut" either, which it seems there would be if it were from a sliver or some other similar thing. I guess we will find out in the morning.

Makenneh had her Valentine's party today in her class. They did an ice cream social. She had a good time. Grandma went because I couldn't. I had class. I felt so horrible. When she asked who was going and I had to explain to her that I couldn't because of school, she started to cry and say, 'But who will go?" I knew then that someone had to go even if it meant me missing class. Unfortunately, I had a test today in the class I would have had to miss. Thankfully, my mom was able to go and truth be told, I think it did her a world of good to get up and out of the house. She hasn't really gotten out in a few days and I notice when that happens she starts to get "sick". I think it is more of a depression mode than anything. It is not good to stay holed up in the house for any length of time. Sometimes it is unavoidable but when you can help it, it is always best to get out sometimes.

I applied for more student loan money. I did it in the hopes of having enough to move. I am kinda hoping that one house is still available when/if I get that money. Bc if we had that kind of money to put down, credit wouldn't be such a big issue. The smaller the down payment, the more need for a great credit score/history. Jeremy's mom reminded him the other day that she can get us in the apartments she lives in/works for, but we really don't want to go that route if we can help it. And the truth is, if we were to move in there, it would be forever before we would have the money to get out. So, it's best to ride it out here until something more feasible comes along.

Well, I am going to get off here. I am hoping that my parents do take Makenneh up north tomorrow to give great gma her valentine's gift. She just had to have a card and a box of chocolates for g-gma and she insisted that she had to take them up to her, not mail them. We all thought it was very cute. So, my parents talked about doing just that tomorrow and possibly staying overnight. Makenneh would love it.

Ok, now i am really getting off here!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

At the Senior Center

I am sitting at the Senior Center, mildly stressed out. I gave Ruben, my boss, the placement agreement form back when i came in for the first day..like on the 2nd of feb. He has had it since. It was due in the teacher's mailbox at his office by noon. Ruben tried faxing it and it was the wrong number, so i had to look it up. Now, he is in a meeting with a client, so I am stuck here, waiting, stressing. I don't want my grade effected by something soooo not my fault. I emailed the teacher to explain what happened in hope he won't dock any points.

Anyway, I also can't do much of anything else until he is done in that meeting because the applications I would need for the medicare program are in there, my bookbag is in there....and I have already finished up my work that I was doing. My pop is in there too.....waaaaahhh wahh. LOL> I need to give that stuff up anyway.

Well, I feel guilty posting from here, so I am gonna go. Although there isn't much else I can do right now. take care.

Oh yeah...it was very warm yesterday...60*. Today is supposed to be 57*. Then, snow. Today we may get severe thunderstorms. Crazy weather.

Monday, February 09, 2009

I just got real busy

Now that my internship is in full swing, I find little time for the computer. I go to school all day tues and thurs and then spend monday, wed and fri doing my internship. In btwn times and on weekends I get to do homework and study. I'm getting more excited about my career because I am getting closer to the end of the first leg of the journey. I am also able to apply some of what I have learned while working at the senior center. It's coming together nicely.

I have all but given up on finding a place any time real soon. It just doesn't seem to be in the cards and I can't stress about things I can't change. It helps that I am gone 5 days a week and that gives me some reprieve from the house.

I did our taxes today and was overjoyed to learn we still qualified for the earned income credit. I was thinking we wouldn't get anything back. Thankfully that wasn't so. It wasn't as much as we usually get, but considering our income last year, I am happy with our return.

Sebastian has a lump on his foot....in the arch. There is a little cut or something right there, so I am hoping that it's an absessed splinter or something. There is no redness though, so I don't know. He goes to the doctor on Friday. That's the other thing I learned....making appointments is tricky with my schedule. I have to give up internship hours to do anything that requires daytime hours. But, I also figure that with my spring break, I can work all 5 days, at least 5 hours a day and that cuts my requirement in half.

My sister's baby shower is approaching. March 7th. We have most things we need. Then, this past Sunday, when they announced the shower at the end of services, a lady approached Carrie and my mom and offered them a bunch of paper products and decor items. She said she had bought them for her granddaughter but she didn't want a shower, so we could have the stuff. That will be a huge help considering my dad is laid off and our income is quite limited. Anything helps. It seems that every big event in Carrie's life has been plagued with a layoff. Her senior year, dad was laid off for a very long time. Her wedding time, he was laid off a bit and now her baby. So, I am insistant that she have a very nice shower. If it means we live here a bit longer, so be it. And speaking of her baby...i got to feel her move today. I was so excited. Usually when I go to feel her, she stops moving. Typical isn't it? I caught her tonight though, stinker! They have decided on Liberty for her first name and the middle name will be either Grace or Addison. I really like Liberty Grace. And I will call her Libby for short. =D

Well, it is far past my bedtime, so I am off here. Have a great night and enjoy the warm up if you are around this area! I hear 59* for tomorrow! Too bad I will be stuck inside classes all day!

Thursday, February 05, 2009

The Letter M

I know I just finished posting but I had to do this. Stacy posted a top ten list of things she loves with a letter that was given to her by a friend and she gave me a letter. I am posting my top 10 things that start with the letter M. This will be somewhat thought provoking, Im afraid. LOL

1. Easy enough..the very first thing that comes to mind...something I love that starts with the letter M. Makenneh. She can be a very trying child, but she is also a very sweet girl and I am so proud of her. When I look at her, my heart literally skips beats and runs over with love and pride. She is mine. I made her. Ok, with maybe a little teeny help from daddy!

2. My boy. Hahaha, that might be a little cheating. But, I can't make a list of things I love and not include my buddy. Sebastian was not planned and I recall the day I found out i was pg. I sobbed. I was in no way ready for a 2nd child. Funny thing is, I cannot imagine my life without him. He makes my day when he hugs me and pats my back or when he says, "I luv you mom". And his laugh is the greatest...right from the bottom of his little belly.

3. Mom and dad. Another cheat, i guess...lol. My parents raised us with love and stability and sacraficed so much of themselves. I have learned a lot from them...some things they have directly taught me and other things I have learned from watching them or seeing their mistakes.

4. Marriage. Or I should say, my marriage. I have learned a lot...that it's like a garden. It's not enough to plant the seed. If you don't tend it, it will die. You have to keep working at it. And as you put your best into it, it grows, and blossoms and is very rewarding.

5. May. Something about the month just bring happiness to my heart. My maternal grandma was born in May and she was a ray of light. The flowers bloom and spring is here and everything is beautiful. I always wanted a May baby. I have to settle for a May Niece...my sister is due May 1st.

6. Movies. It's a cheap form of entertainment. You can snuggle up with those you love and watch them. No scary ones, though, thank you.

7. Myself. I have come a long ways and still have a ways to go. But, I can honestly say that I love myself.

8. Memories. They keep ones you have lost close at heart and also give you things to smile about when your days are dark.

9. Michigan. Ok, so maybe I don't love it, love it. But it is home. I have lived her my whole life and my roots are here. Doesn't mean I can pull them up and move on, though. LOL.

10. Money. I don't love money in a bad sense. But, I love to have enough money to make ends meet. It is not the most important thing to have in life, but it just makes life a tad bit easier. That's why it is last on my list.

OK, now it really is bed time. if anyone would like a letter to do their own list, let me know. I will give you your very own letter for your very own list!

100th Day

Tomorrow is Makenneh's 100th day of school. They are doing some activities around the 100 theme. Then, next Thursday is their Valentine's Party and Friday is no school. Geesh, it seems school has become a giant holiday. All these days off and celebrations. LOL.

I shall sleep great tonight, or at least, I hope to. We got a new (to us) mattress/boxspring. My aunt's friend was getting rid of it and it is a $2k set. She didn't want to just throw it out because it is in excellent condition. So, we now have it. Jeremy was so excited to be able to throw our old crap out. It was so wretched and pathetic. The woman even sent the sheet sets with it. They are white..and not a hint of use to them. Perfect shape. I can't believe it. Because I just know what is going to happen to them in my bed. Kids, kids, kids. And probably adults too. Truth be told. But for now, it is all crisp and clean and comfy.

I got my 2nd paper back in my Practicum class and I got an A and the teacher even wrote Excellent on it. I was happy because I did struggle with the problem list/treatment plan. I guess I knew what I doing after all.

Oh and about beds....last night Sebastian crawled into bed with us. Not a totally unusual occurance. Well, he was on top of the blankets and I rolled over to reach for his blanket and get comfy. He sounded like he was coughing a bit, but nothing major. I didn't think anything of it until Jeremy says, frantically, "HE'S PUKING". Sure enough. the little guy was throwing up , right in our bed. He started crying and I think it was more because Jeremy startled him. We both told him it was ok and we got up with him. That was around 1:30am. We had to clean him up, change our bedding and all that good stuff. JEremy made himself a pot of coffee and figured he wouldn't be able to go back to sleep. I brought Seb back into our bed and tried getting him to go back to sleep but every time I would start to doze off, he would say he had to puke. And the lined bucket I brought in and sat next to the bed just wouldn't do, no. He had to go to the bathroom, stick his entire head in the toilet bowl and wait. And wait. And he didn't puke again. We would go back to bed, i would start to doze and the cycle continued a few times. Finally, I asked Jeremy to tend to him so I could get some sleep, knowing I had a test today. The funny this was, right after we got him cleaned up and the bedding changed, my parents both woke up because their bed broke on them. So, at like 2am, the entire household, save Makenneh, was up. I was finally able to go back to sleep at around 3am. By that time, Makenneh had woke up and she ended up climbing in bed with me. Seb stayed out on the couch with my mom. And he did end up throwing up one more time after I fell asleep. When He woke up this morning, he ws fine and has been fine all day. I don't know if that was just the beginning of something or just a quick bug.

And Makenneh isn't exempt from cooties, either. She has a helacious cough. Omy. I've been putting the Vicks on her feet at night, as that does help so much with the coughing.

Well, I am going to get off here and finish my rounds so I can get to bed. I need to do two things tomorrow....work at the computer lab and put some intern hours in. GAh, I can only be one place at one time. I think I am going to go to the senior center and I can hopefully steal a few hours away to work on the computer. Or, I could go to the computer lab for a bit and then go to the senior center. That's probably a better idea as the lab closes at 2 anyway. Center is open til 6. Or at least, the social worker is in til then.

Keep warm and if I don't post again tomorrow..have a great weekend

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

On my way

I started my internship, officially, today. I actually went in and did 2 whole hours of internship. It was only 2 hours because upon my arrival, I was told that the foot doctor had accidentally been scheduled for Wednesday and was taking up the Social Worker's office, so he couldn't even access his files or anything. He was hanging out "on the floor" with the seniors, drinking coffee. HE let me stay and mingle a bit, study, whatever. So, i did that 2 hours. I will go in again on Friday from like 3-6. The earlier part of Friday will be spent, hopefully, at the computer lab, working on my computer class. It shouldn't be too busy in there and hopefully I can get some help with the parts I am not quite understanding. Fingers crossed.

My sister and I went grocery shopping today. OMG. What a trip. It felt like we spent the entire day, but really it was only about 3 or so hours. And we were exhausted by teh time we got them all loaded into her truck and all we could think about on the way home was how nice it will be to have all the help carrying them in (dad, Jeremy, Ralph). Hah. WE got home and Jeremy still wasn't home from work, Ralph had left and Dad was heading out the door for Church. So, guess who hauled in all the groceries? You got it...me and Carrie, by ourselves, while mom put things away. The plus side was that mom had dinner in the oven so I didn't have to cook.

We still can't find Makenneh's book from school. I am sooo stressed over it. I will write her teacher a note to let her know that we will continue looking for it. I am sure it was part of a series and that I wouldn't be able to just pay a replacement cost. I have no idea how it couldve disappeared. Well, I do. One only need to look at the junk piles near and deep. Grrrrr.

Oh and did i post that Makenneh got her report card and is doing well in school? They don't receive letter grades, but rather a scale..beginning to master grade level, Masters grade level, doesn't meet grade level. She got all "M"s for mastering except like 2. One was counting to 100 and the other I don't recall. I am quite proud of her. This friday is their 100th day of school and they each had to bring in 100 things. She chose elbow noodles. How original, right? But I wasn't going to argue because it was something we had here and saved me from having to hunt something down.

Well, I am going to get off here and finish my rounds. I have my very first test of this semester tomorrow in Practium and it's over record keeping. Wish me luck! That reminds me, I need to get a scantron for the test. Makes mental note to remember. Good luck, I know.

Monday, February 02, 2009

Can I have a moment

Today has been a hectic day. Nothing seems to be going as I had hoped. I had initially planned on going in to intern today. Thankfully Rubin,my boss, is very flexible and told me I can come in whenever I want, when it works for me. Whew. Anyway, my parents had dentist appointments this morning and Jeremy had to work, so I had nobody to watch kids while I went in. Then, my mother in law came over to help my mom with some sewing project for Carrie's baby. And Matt, Sara and Kaden stopped in at the same time, so we had a house full. To top it all off, Makenneh came home with a huge attitude and didn't want to change out of her school clothes. So, it was just hectic here.

On a good note, we found a house that is available on land contract or lease to own. When Jeremy gets home tonight we are going to go over all that I learned on the phone with the guy and then probably make an appointment to go see it. The payments will be around $195-225/month. Of course, we will need insurance and have to pay taxes, im assuming, so we will have to find all that out. But, I hope it works out because it is a cute house, 3 bedrooms, basement, garage. It would be a great opportunity. Please say your prayers, because I sooo need this to work out for us.

I still can't get into my email account, so i have created a new one. i will use the new one until i can get the other one straightened out. if i can't get it taken care of, i will just keep this one.

I am mostly babbling, I suppose, but hey, this is my free therapy, right?

Sunday, February 01, 2009

The Intern

Ok, the kids are snuggled in bed...hopefully for the night now. They keep stalling, coming out wanting things and hopefully it's done now. I have felt like a guitar string, tightly tuned, ready to snap with the least bit of pressure. I have been this way mot of the day. Just one of those days, I guess. I even managed to earn myself a tension headache. I have been working on getting rid of it while watching the Super Bowl. I decided to take a break from the game when Arizone threw an interception at the goal line with 10 seconds left in the first half. To make matters worse for those who didn't watch...the interception was ran ALL. THE. WAY. DOWN. FOR. A. TOUCHDOWN. Blah!

I went for my interview on Friday for the internship. I absolutely love it. Rubin, the social worker who interviewed me, was great, as is everyone else at the Senior Center. I start tomorrow, can work whenever I want, with no set expectations and he already told me that if i want to do my 300 hours next semester there, I am more than welcome too. So, I don't even have to worry about that. How great that is! I think I am really going to like it. The center has two guys from Germany who are here for a year on some sort of program they had to qualify for in Germany. They will work at the center for a year before going back to Germany. So, I will get to have some more cultural learning as well. Of course, we had a German Exchange student when I was in high school...Hello, Nikki, if you are out there, reading this! We still keep in touch and she comes over every so often. And, my family comes from very strong German roots, so always interesting. I look forward to interacting with them, as well.

I still can't get into my email account and I am losing my patience with it. I sent them an email, usuing Jeremy's account and hope to have the matter resolved rather quickly. I wouldn't mind as much, but i seriously would lose some homework, pictures, all the contact info....grrrr. So, if I end up having to set up a new account, and you want me to have your email, you may have to send it to me again. I will keep you posted on that.

Hmmm, just typing this has released some of the tension of my headache....of course, I just heard the bedroom door creek open....grrrr. They need to just go to bed. Makenneh is such a bear in the mornings. It doesn't matter when she goes to bed. Have had little success in finding a happy medium for that child where sleep is concerned. I think she just takes after her momma and really dislikes mornings. But, I was not usually that grouchy...i just got up and got on with it. Can't avoid it.

Well, I am going ot check the score of the game...but I am certain I won't be pleased.

Go Arizona, anway!