Tomorrow Sebastian will be 4. I cannot believe it. It seems like just yesterday, yet it seems like a lifetime ago. I can see him growing up in so many ways, every day. He does still love to cuddle and be lovey, which gives me strength to get through the roughest days. He is definitely affectionate and quite the ham. He wakes up in a cheerful mood almost every morning, on his own. So unlike big sis who would rather sleep til noon. He picked up manners and uses them almost always. He will always say thank you, for the simplest things. I do hope that he holds on to that gratitude. No matter how long I am gone, when I walk through the front door, he comes running, "I bist you mommy!!" and gives me a huge hug. Even if I just walk out to the car and right back in. It is so cute.
I remember when I found out I was pregnant for him and how I cried. I cried for days. I did not want another child and we weren't prepared for another child, to boot. I felt bad for myself. I felt bad for Makenneh because I was brining another child into the world that would "take from her" my time, our limited resources, etc. I remember on a few different occasions, early in that pregnancy, I muttered the A word to Jeremy. I can honestly say, it would never have been a real option for me. But, I just felt so horrible all the way around. Of course, Jeremy's reaction was, "Absolutely not and don't even talk like that. We will make it work, we will get through it. It will be ok." Now, I look back on those times and wish I would have had a crystal ball. I had no idea the incredible amount of joy this little boy would bring to my life. In many ways, he has saved me. He was a good baby, sleeping through the night before long. He was always so happy and cheerful. He has had his moments. Moment that have about brought me to my knees. But, overall, he is a great boy and I am so thankful God chose me to be his mom.
Happy birthday, my sweet Sebastian!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Just crappy=)
Makenneh insisted on going to school today. That was a tad peculiar, because well, I have to fight her every other morning to go. But, hey, take what I can get. I tried to encourage her to stay home because as soon as she woke up, she messed herself. But, she insisted. And really, yesterday, aside from a few accidents, she felt fine, full of energy, etc. So, I let her go. And I got a call a few moments after school started. So, I went and got her, got both of the kids settled with things, and left to school. ON my way home, I was stopping by walmart to pick up some Vernors and gatorade. Jeremy calls. Makenneh is now puking as well. so, my little girl is quite sick. I also picked up bananas, applesauce and more bread, figuring we are going to have to do the BRAT diet around here. I just hope it doesn't last too awfully long because A)having sick kids is never fun and B)Liberty is going to be here soon and I want to be able to be there, and hold her and all that wonderful stuff!Of course, I come home and jeremy says, "I'm going fishing". He said he earned it today, after dealing with shit all day, literally.
On a good note, Sebastian is quite the little helper. He has taken it upon himself to be a big help. When dad is hauling wood in, he is right there hauling it to. Our area recently began the roadside recycling program. Well, I have decided I'm not so sure I like it because as the snow melted, I noticed many plastics in our ditch, near the drain, that was not brands we purchase, and therefore, did not belong to us, but rather made their way on down here from neighbors'. I began to wonder how effective the roadside recycling is. I began to notice all the platics in many ditches along the road, as I drive. So, anyway, today, Sebastian took two trips with his small hands to clear the plastic garbage from the ditch. And he put them in the recycle bag. Good boy! Now if they would come up with a clever means of keeping the recyclables in the bin and out of the ditches, it would be great.
Hey, does anyone have a way to clean sharpie off of wood table? It would be helpful. makenneh was drawing earlier today with a sharpie (I was not home) and it leaked through on my mom's coffee table. Not cool.
Well, I have plenty to do with sick kids, so I am gonna finish my rounds on here and clean.
On a good note, Sebastian is quite the little helper. He has taken it upon himself to be a big help. When dad is hauling wood in, he is right there hauling it to. Our area recently began the roadside recycling program. Well, I have decided I'm not so sure I like it because as the snow melted, I noticed many plastics in our ditch, near the drain, that was not brands we purchase, and therefore, did not belong to us, but rather made their way on down here from neighbors'. I began to wonder how effective the roadside recycling is. I began to notice all the platics in many ditches along the road, as I drive. So, anyway, today, Sebastian took two trips with his small hands to clear the plastic garbage from the ditch. And he put them in the recycle bag. Good boy! Now if they would come up with a clever means of keeping the recyclables in the bin and out of the ditches, it would be great.
Hey, does anyone have a way to clean sharpie off of wood table? It would be helpful. makenneh was drawing earlier today with a sharpie (I was not home) and it leaked through on my mom's coffee table. Not cool.
Well, I have plenty to do with sick kids, so I am gonna finish my rounds on here and clean.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
An all-nighter
SO, I pulled an all-nighter last night. But not because I was having fun. I had actually just dozed off when my mom came into my room, phone to ear and said: You need to get up. My heart sank. I knew it was my sister. I get on the phone and she tells me that she has been having pains in her back that are radiating to her sides and stomach. Because of all the issues she is having, I told her she HAS to go in. I told her that mom and I would take her if she wanted. So, she hung up to wake Ralph up and calls back saying we can take her. So, we get dressed and head out the door. I was ill with fear. Horror stories I've heard over the years were haunting my mind. While on the way over there, my mom mentioned that the doctor hadn't given her the Rx for the UTI because he was waiting for the lab results. That was a relief somewhat, because I figured the pain was probably from that. But, on the other hand, UTIs can be dangerous when you are pregnant. We get her to the hospital (women and children part) and they do the intake. OF course, she had to pee in a cup and get completely undressed. They hook her up to the monitors and take her blood pressure. It's a bit elevated. I step out in search of a coke, once I know that she and baby would be ok. I return just as the resident OB is finishing up an exam. Mom fills me in. Resident is HOT at Carrie's OB for not getting her an antibiotic. The resident said it is her belief that if you (as a doctor) suspect a pregnant woman of having a UTI, get the meds in her. Needless to say, it was a pretty bad case of UTI and they ordered an IV administration of antibiotics before she could go home. The doctor had checked her for signs of early labor because she was having contractions registering on the monitor but not that she could feel and with the UTI as bad as it was, it can cause labor. Thankfully everything was ok there. So, by the time she finished off the IV meds and fluids, it was 5am. She was discharged and we dropped her off at home and came home. I Was soooo tired. I dozed while at the hospital and on the way home. I climbed into bed and slept until 1pm. I did get woke up several times because you know, I'm a mom and all and well, things just can't go on if I should try to sleep.
Makenneh stayed home today because she woke up when I got home and was complaining that her stomach hurt. I told her to go back to sleep and get some rest. Well, she woke again a bit later to complain and then went back to sleep. When it was time for her to get up for school, Jeremy woke me to tell me that she was not feeling well. I mumbled to keep her home because she wasn't feeling well in the night either. Thankfully I made that call because she ended up having diarrhea all day long. It slowed down by evening so hopefully she will be better tomorrow.
I thought I would have trouble going to sleep tonight because I slept all darn day, but as it turns out, I am ready for bed already. It was a bit nice to get to sleep in. And I completely appreciated Jeremy coming in and shooing the kids out today so I could sleep. It's those seemingly little things that make a big difference. Oh and speaking of that, the other day I had come home to find the dishes done. I really thought my dad had done them. I found today that Jeremy had done the dishes!!!!! That is huge. I thanked him and let him know how happy I was. He detests dishes (not that anyone really loves doing them, do they?) but he actually did them. How nice. Now, if he only continued on a more regular basis, that would be great. LOL.
I don't feel like there's enough time in a day. I want to get pictures posted on here, but my gosh, I have to find time to download something I am missing that enables me to take the pics off my memory card. I haven't done those things since I bought the new PC so nothing is on here like it was.
I finally sorted the bday dilemma out. I decided to have her bday party with her school friends on her actual bday from 4-6. Then, we will do a joint family party on the 19th. I know it's so far out there, but with Easter and Liberty's uncertain arrival, well, it's too hard to plan for anything sooner. This way, though, I don't have to worry about it anymore. I think that next year I am going to change the way bdays are celebrated. Traditionally in our family, we always had bday parties for the kids. It was never anything fancy. IN fact, it was just cheap paper plates from the grocery store, potluck style, with homemade cake and a bucket of ice cream. Sometimes there would be some inflated balloons (blown up by mouth, usually not helium), or hats or blow-outs. But if there were those things, they just came from the dollar store. So, we never had those big themed bday parties, but we always got together as a family and celebrated the bday boy/girl. I have many fond memories of those events. But, as the family increases in size and given the time of year, it is just too much to keep having these parties. So, I think I am going to focus more on an individualized fun day for the bday kid and leave the parties mostly behind. May still let them have a few friends join us somewhere for some fun, but nothing like I have done in the past. I do still owe Sebastian at least one party, of his own, at Huckleberry Junction, because I did it for Makenneh. THat will be reserved for his 5th bday, just like she had hers for her 5th.
I do plan on posting a pic from the daddy/daughter dance as soon as we get them back. I can scan that into the computer so it doesn't matter that my card reader isn't working.
Well, that's a wrap!
Makenneh stayed home today because she woke up when I got home and was complaining that her stomach hurt. I told her to go back to sleep and get some rest. Well, she woke again a bit later to complain and then went back to sleep. When it was time for her to get up for school, Jeremy woke me to tell me that she was not feeling well. I mumbled to keep her home because she wasn't feeling well in the night either. Thankfully I made that call because she ended up having diarrhea all day long. It slowed down by evening so hopefully she will be better tomorrow.
I thought I would have trouble going to sleep tonight because I slept all darn day, but as it turns out, I am ready for bed already. It was a bit nice to get to sleep in. And I completely appreciated Jeremy coming in and shooing the kids out today so I could sleep. It's those seemingly little things that make a big difference. Oh and speaking of that, the other day I had come home to find the dishes done. I really thought my dad had done them. I found today that Jeremy had done the dishes!!!!! That is huge. I thanked him and let him know how happy I was. He detests dishes (not that anyone really loves doing them, do they?) but he actually did them. How nice. Now, if he only continued on a more regular basis, that would be great. LOL.
I don't feel like there's enough time in a day. I want to get pictures posted on here, but my gosh, I have to find time to download something I am missing that enables me to take the pics off my memory card. I haven't done those things since I bought the new PC so nothing is on here like it was.
I finally sorted the bday dilemma out. I decided to have her bday party with her school friends on her actual bday from 4-6. Then, we will do a joint family party on the 19th. I know it's so far out there, but with Easter and Liberty's uncertain arrival, well, it's too hard to plan for anything sooner. This way, though, I don't have to worry about it anymore. I think that next year I am going to change the way bdays are celebrated. Traditionally in our family, we always had bday parties for the kids. It was never anything fancy. IN fact, it was just cheap paper plates from the grocery store, potluck style, with homemade cake and a bucket of ice cream. Sometimes there would be some inflated balloons (blown up by mouth, usually not helium), or hats or blow-outs. But if there were those things, they just came from the dollar store. So, we never had those big themed bday parties, but we always got together as a family and celebrated the bday boy/girl. I have many fond memories of those events. But, as the family increases in size and given the time of year, it is just too much to keep having these parties. So, I think I am going to focus more on an individualized fun day for the bday kid and leave the parties mostly behind. May still let them have a few friends join us somewhere for some fun, but nothing like I have done in the past. I do still owe Sebastian at least one party, of his own, at Huckleberry Junction, because I did it for Makenneh. THat will be reserved for his 5th bday, just like she had hers for her 5th.
I do plan on posting a pic from the daddy/daughter dance as soon as we get them back. I can scan that into the computer so it doesn't matter that my card reader isn't working.
Well, that's a wrap!
Monday, March 23, 2009
Still Baking
My sister went for her non-stress test today and it went well. She does have to go for 2 (or 3?) of them a week. In addition, she has to do those urine tests (pee in a jug for 24 hours and take it to the lab) 2 or 3 times per week, plus see the OB once a week. So, most of her days will be spent running to appointments (so much for bedrest, eh?) Her blood pressure was a bit high today, which they didn't like. However, Liberty was lively and active and did what they wanted her to do in a timely manner, so that was a good thing. Let's hope and continue to pray that everything goes well so she can stay in the oven as long as possible.
So, I did what I thought was a thoughtful thing today. ON the way to take Makenneh to her after school enrichment class (drama), I spotted a baby changing table to the side of the road. Of course, I was kinda pressed for time, but it appeared to be a nice one. So, I turned around and looked at it and it was in great shape, included the pad and 2 covers. The guy was out raking his lawn and helped me load it in my trunk, but bc it stuck out so much, I had to run it home before taking her to her class. Thankfully I was only about a mile from home. She ended up being about 10 mins late, but not the end of the world. SO, when I pull in the drive with this thing sticking out the back, both guys stand and stare; dad even puts his hands up as if to say, "What the hell is that for?" I told them, we know 3 ppl off the top of our heads who could use it. I am very sure someone will get some use from it. Dad's already grumbling about how long that thing is gonna be in here and Jeremy had copped an attitude. I don't get it. OH well. Sometimes, men are impossible. Anyway, so the hole dilemma is this: two of the girls who are pregnant are sisters and the one tends to be competitive about stuff. So, it could be a fued and I don't want to choose one over the other, despite the fact that I feel one could certainly use it more than the other. All 3 girls are my cousins. The other girl has a gma who will get her everything she needs, no problem, so it really leaves it to the two sisters, and like I said, I don't want to be in the middle of drama. I hadn't thought that far ahead when I chose to pick it up. Btwn that and the attitude I got from the guys, I am wishing more than ever that I would have left it at the side of hte road. I think Jeremy would rather put it on craigslist or something. I just don't think I could bring myself to do that, knowing 3 pg girls who could use it. That's just how I am. But, I may opt for that, rather than have a free-for-all over who got it and who must be favored. LOL.
Why fundraisers are no fun: You forget about the money being due until the last minute and must run crazy collecting money from everyone. At least, that's what I end up doing. And I do resent the fact that this is the 3rd (third, count them, 3) fundraiser for this year. That's over the top. This time, we only sold a few items...like 7. I guess every little bit helps.
I hope everyone has a great night and bright beautiful day. I know I need both!
So, I did what I thought was a thoughtful thing today. ON the way to take Makenneh to her after school enrichment class (drama), I spotted a baby changing table to the side of the road. Of course, I was kinda pressed for time, but it appeared to be a nice one. So, I turned around and looked at it and it was in great shape, included the pad and 2 covers. The guy was out raking his lawn and helped me load it in my trunk, but bc it stuck out so much, I had to run it home before taking her to her class. Thankfully I was only about a mile from home. She ended up being about 10 mins late, but not the end of the world. SO, when I pull in the drive with this thing sticking out the back, both guys stand and stare; dad even puts his hands up as if to say, "What the hell is that for?" I told them, we know 3 ppl off the top of our heads who could use it. I am very sure someone will get some use from it. Dad's already grumbling about how long that thing is gonna be in here and Jeremy had copped an attitude. I don't get it. OH well. Sometimes, men are impossible. Anyway, so the hole dilemma is this: two of the girls who are pregnant are sisters and the one tends to be competitive about stuff. So, it could be a fued and I don't want to choose one over the other, despite the fact that I feel one could certainly use it more than the other. All 3 girls are my cousins. The other girl has a gma who will get her everything she needs, no problem, so it really leaves it to the two sisters, and like I said, I don't want to be in the middle of drama. I hadn't thought that far ahead when I chose to pick it up. Btwn that and the attitude I got from the guys, I am wishing more than ever that I would have left it at the side of hte road. I think Jeremy would rather put it on craigslist or something. I just don't think I could bring myself to do that, knowing 3 pg girls who could use it. That's just how I am. But, I may opt for that, rather than have a free-for-all over who got it and who must be favored. LOL.
Why fundraisers are no fun: You forget about the money being due until the last minute and must run crazy collecting money from everyone. At least, that's what I end up doing. And I do resent the fact that this is the 3rd (third, count them, 3) fundraiser for this year. That's over the top. This time, we only sold a few items...like 7. I guess every little bit helps.
I hope everyone has a great night and bright beautiful day. I know I need both!
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Just the two of us
Today was a great day. The kids had stayed the night with their grandma and Jeremy and I had the day to ourselves. We got up and he did some maintenance on the car while I did some homework. Then we got ready and headed out. He wanted to go to flea markets. He just loves doing that and I don't mind either. We went to two different ones and just wandered around, looking at the treasures and trash people had for sale. I didn't find anything I just couldn't live without, but had a good time, just being out together. Then, we went to Applebee's for dinner. I had to laugh because we sit there, just the two of us, and barely say anything. IT was a comfortable silence, but funny. He was watching something on one of the tv's, I was watching something on one of the other tvs. We did talk, just not a lot. Of course, we see each other a lot each day, so there isn't much to "catch up" on. NOt to mention, when I am eating, I prefer to just eat. Look at me and you will know this. LOL. I have to note that the service was over the top. Maybe too much so. The waitstaff is all giddy and over-friendly. She asked how everything was/can I get you something every few mins it seemed. IT beats crappy service any time, but it almost bordered on desperation or something. It wasn't just our server, because I hear the servers around us doing the same thing. I am sure it may be part of a tactic to encourage people to come back and spend their money. Either way, she did get a good tip, because she did a great job.
AFter dinner (which was a bit early) we came home and he watched the Michigan State basketball game while I curled up next to him and slept for 2 hours. It was quite nice. Every now and again I was jarred awake by him blasting curse words at the tv. My heart would leap for a moment until i recalled where I was and what was going on. LOL. Then, I would doze right back off. The kids came home about 7pm in poopy moods. They were both overtired and it was evident. They did finally go to sleep, after arguing over me, each wanting me to sleep with them. OF course, it would be too difficult for all of us to sleep together, because well, Makenneh doesn't want a crybaby in her bed. NIce, then perhaps she shouldn't sleep in it either, because seh was doing a fairly good job at being a crybaby herself. At any rate, all is well that ends well. I still have my sanity. I think.
Friday night Makenneh and Jeremy went to the daddy/daughter dance. It was a last minute decision. The school didn't bother to send home flyers until like Wednesday. By then, we had already received an invite to one of her friend's bday party. And I had already RSVPd. So, we were going to the party. The party was 7-9pm and the dance was 6-9. See the problem? Not to mention, we really don't have the money for a dress, shoes, etc. And never mind the fact that Jeremy doesn't own dress clothes. He detests them. But, thursday night she cried because she really wanted to go. I couldn't tell her no. I knew it would be special memory for the two of them. So, I spent all day Friday running around finding a dress, shoes, picking up clothes for Jeremy (my brother-in-law loaned him his, whew) and otherwise preparing for the busy evening. I go to have her try on the dress only to discover that it was the wrong size. I somehow managed to grab the wrong size. So, in a hurry, had to run back to store and thankfully I thought to have her come with me to try on the dress. Because the one in her normal size didn't fit. We had to choose a completely different dress. But, we got it and got back home and just had to rush to get out the door in time. I dropped them off and had to come back home to get a change of clothes for Makenneh because I didn't want her playin in the play area at Mcdondald's in her dress. They stayed at the dance for an hour (which was plenty of time for both of them, really) and then it was off to the bday party. By the time I came home, I was tired.
That's just the abbreviated version. I didn't mention the call I got from Makenneh while in checkout at walmart. She was crying so hard i could barely understand her as she says something about daddy not believing her and she didn't do it on purpose and now i can't go to the dance and I just wanna go and I promise, i am telling the truth. I had to tell her to calm down and slow down. Finally I had Jeremy get on the phoen and then I jus ttold them I would be home in a few mins. Come to find out, the bus driver talked to Jeremy and apparently Makenneh hit her friend and the bus driver was going to write her up and she would probably be kicked off the bus. GREAT. Of course, JEremy overreacted, yelled at her, told her she was grounded. Well, my belief is you have to at least hear your child out. Especially because the tears were quite real. She sounded very sincere in her plea. So, we sat her down and asked what happened. She explained that she and Alexis were looking at her library book and when she went to close it, it hit her in the face. Very plausable as her library book was quite large and hard cover. I am calling bus garage in morning to talk to the bus driver. As I talked with the mom hosting the bday party, I learned that the bus driver did same thing to her daughter. I am thinking that perhaps this bus driver doesn't much like the little ones and/or doesn't know how to properly deal with them. Some of her tactics are a bit much for 5 yr olds. I plan to discuss this all with her and follow it up with a talk with the supervisor. It is my belief that the bus drivers may need some trianing in how to deal with the younger children. Segregating, calling them out, singling them out, alienating them and humiliating them are not healthy ways to dela with them. Kids are cruel enough in school and find plenty of ways on their own for teasing and alienating each other. THey don't need help from the adult staff.
So, that got long, sorry, but lots to catch up on. And actually, one more update. Carrie went in Friday for her OB appointment. He said he won't let her go past 37 weeks because of the pre-eclamsia. So, she will be having Liberty by April 8th. She has to go in tomorrow for a non-stress test and will know even more then. Of course, if the baby is under any stress, they will not let her come home. IT is nerve racking but hopefully everything goes well. Please keep the both of them in yoru prayers.
AFter dinner (which was a bit early) we came home and he watched the Michigan State basketball game while I curled up next to him and slept for 2 hours. It was quite nice. Every now and again I was jarred awake by him blasting curse words at the tv. My heart would leap for a moment until i recalled where I was and what was going on. LOL. Then, I would doze right back off. The kids came home about 7pm in poopy moods. They were both overtired and it was evident. They did finally go to sleep, after arguing over me, each wanting me to sleep with them. OF course, it would be too difficult for all of us to sleep together, because well, Makenneh doesn't want a crybaby in her bed. NIce, then perhaps she shouldn't sleep in it either, because seh was doing a fairly good job at being a crybaby herself. At any rate, all is well that ends well. I still have my sanity. I think.
Friday night Makenneh and Jeremy went to the daddy/daughter dance. It was a last minute decision. The school didn't bother to send home flyers until like Wednesday. By then, we had already received an invite to one of her friend's bday party. And I had already RSVPd. So, we were going to the party. The party was 7-9pm and the dance was 6-9. See the problem? Not to mention, we really don't have the money for a dress, shoes, etc. And never mind the fact that Jeremy doesn't own dress clothes. He detests them. But, thursday night she cried because she really wanted to go. I couldn't tell her no. I knew it would be special memory for the two of them. So, I spent all day Friday running around finding a dress, shoes, picking up clothes for Jeremy (my brother-in-law loaned him his, whew) and otherwise preparing for the busy evening. I go to have her try on the dress only to discover that it was the wrong size. I somehow managed to grab the wrong size. So, in a hurry, had to run back to store and thankfully I thought to have her come with me to try on the dress. Because the one in her normal size didn't fit. We had to choose a completely different dress. But, we got it and got back home and just had to rush to get out the door in time. I dropped them off and had to come back home to get a change of clothes for Makenneh because I didn't want her playin in the play area at Mcdondald's in her dress. They stayed at the dance for an hour (which was plenty of time for both of them, really) and then it was off to the bday party. By the time I came home, I was tired.
That's just the abbreviated version. I didn't mention the call I got from Makenneh while in checkout at walmart. She was crying so hard i could barely understand her as she says something about daddy not believing her and she didn't do it on purpose and now i can't go to the dance and I just wanna go and I promise, i am telling the truth. I had to tell her to calm down and slow down. Finally I had Jeremy get on the phoen and then I jus ttold them I would be home in a few mins. Come to find out, the bus driver talked to Jeremy and apparently Makenneh hit her friend and the bus driver was going to write her up and she would probably be kicked off the bus. GREAT. Of course, JEremy overreacted, yelled at her, told her she was grounded. Well, my belief is you have to at least hear your child out. Especially because the tears were quite real. She sounded very sincere in her plea. So, we sat her down and asked what happened. She explained that she and Alexis were looking at her library book and when she went to close it, it hit her in the face. Very plausable as her library book was quite large and hard cover. I am calling bus garage in morning to talk to the bus driver. As I talked with the mom hosting the bday party, I learned that the bus driver did same thing to her daughter. I am thinking that perhaps this bus driver doesn't much like the little ones and/or doesn't know how to properly deal with them. Some of her tactics are a bit much for 5 yr olds. I plan to discuss this all with her and follow it up with a talk with the supervisor. It is my belief that the bus drivers may need some trianing in how to deal with the younger children. Segregating, calling them out, singling them out, alienating them and humiliating them are not healthy ways to dela with them. Kids are cruel enough in school and find plenty of ways on their own for teasing and alienating each other. THey don't need help from the adult staff.
So, that got long, sorry, but lots to catch up on. And actually, one more update. Carrie went in Friday for her OB appointment. He said he won't let her go past 37 weeks because of the pre-eclamsia. So, she will be having Liberty by April 8th. She has to go in tomorrow for a non-stress test and will know even more then. Of course, if the baby is under any stress, they will not let her come home. IT is nerve racking but hopefully everything goes well. Please keep the both of them in yoru prayers.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sweet Liberty
No, im not talking about freedom kinda liberty, but my niece, Liberty, who is expected to make her grand arrival on or about May 1st! Carrie had an ultrasound today and was able to get a 3D picture (the last time she was in, they had just gotten the machine and she wasn't able to get the picture.) So, here she is, sleeping peacefully, waiting to make her arrival! I just love the details of these pictures. It's so amazing. I had to share with everyone! The nurse said everything looks great, she is right where she should be, plenty of amniotic fluids and all that. They estimate Liberty's weight at 6lbs, 6oz but hopefully that's a wee off because don't they say that the baby usually doubles his or her weight the last month? Maybe it's the las trimester. At any rate, she is a good weight, everything looks great. And she told my mom and Carrie that they had had moms get pre-eclamsia at this point in their pregnancy and still carry past their due date. So, I think we will be fine.
I spent the day with Makenneh today. It was actually very nice. She went with me to the Senior Center, so I could round up the applications and prepare them to take in, then she went to school with me. I was a bit hesitant, but she has wanted to go for quite some time. She stayed home today because she woke up at about 530am and was complaining of a cough. When she coughed, it sounded horrid. So, I kept her home and took her into the doc this morning. By the time we got there, she seemed completely fine, with the exception of a cough. He still checked her over and said she is fine..just a cold, continue with Robitussin. Whew. I was afraid of Croup, because that's how the cough sounded this morning. But no fever, nothing is swollen, as is the case with Croup. HE just told me to keep an eye on it and call if anything changes.
I cannot believe how cold it is today. We hit 70* the other day and today it was in the mid 30s with snow flurries. Grrr. I want warmer weather. My fingers are frozen as I type this.
Well, I am off here to do some other things online before turning the internet over to Jeremy.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Can you hear that?
~It's the summer sounds of night. The insects and frogs (?) making their nightly music. It is beautiful. Much like the sunshine and warmer temps. I am in heaven.
~Makenneh reading. She is getting better and better. We read each day and she continues to amaze me.
~Daddy reading to the kids - Love You for Always (I love this book). I was doing dishes and cried while washing them...this book always makes me cry.
~Sebastian's belly laughs. From deep down inside. Such a beautiful sound.
~My printer working. Lost the disc and had to hunt online and fight with downloads and steps and all kinds of hassles but it is finally working again!
~Snoring....my hubby fell asleep before the kids, I think. They were all sound asleep by about 830pm.
~The clock ticking away the seconds. It is that quiet right now. Everyone asleep. Ahhhh.
It happened again that I had a great title and fun post, but when it came time to type it, i had lost it. Go figure. But, I have all kinds of things to say tonight. First, please pray for my sister and that bun in the oven. She was put on bed rest Monday and will remain on bed rest until she delivers because she has pre-eclampsia (is that how it's spelled). She has about 6 weeks to go. She has to do 24 hour urine collection and take in to be tested. She goes in tomorrow (thurs) for an ultrasound and then goes in friday to her OB. Mom is completely freaked out, so while you are at it, please pray for her some peace. She is a wreck. She always jumps to the worst case scenario. I feel that while it isn't optimal, she is at least closer to her due date, she is able to be on bedrest, and if she follows the doctors orders, she should be ok. Her blood pressure has been normal, so that is a plus. Today, she actually had ankles. For a few weeks now, her feet and legs would swell so bad you couldn't see her ankle bones. IT was horrible. But, after these couple days of low sodium diet and bed rest, she is already improving. However, she could still use the prayers, because it is going to be a long 6 weeks when you are bedridden, as some of you know from experience.
On a brighter note, I got my mid-term back today in Community Development (the test I was severely stressed over) and i got 104 out of 100. Go me! I was so pleased with myself. Tomorrow I have my presentation in that class and I am finally ready. I had to put everything off til the last minute because I wanted to clarify a few things with the teacher before I jumped in. Thankfully I did that. I don't have to do a poster board, as I was thinking. I put together some papers I will hand out to the class, and then I just have to say my stuff and be done. He is rather easy to please. the two students who went on Tues both got full credit. I can do at least that well on mine. Whew!
The class I needed to take is not offered in the summer, so it looks as though I will be here for another year finishing up my degree. Grrrr. But, there is not much I can do, so I will relax and enjoy the ride!
The kids' bdays are sneaking right up. This year it is a bit stressful. I know Makenneh wants a bday party with her friends. No big deal. Except the weather is too unpredictable and it leaves few options (most of which are costly). Having them here is not an option either. To add to it, her bday falls two days after Easter, this year. I think I have decided to have it at McDonalds. I won't need paper products or food and I can just bring the cake and debit card and call it a day. they can play in the play area. I think I will let her invite up to 8 friend (seems how most things come in 8 for parties), buy a few trinkets and call it a day. then, I will probably do something here for family, just because that's usually how we do it in our family...have parties every year when they are younger. I do think after this I will take a break for a year or so (or probably not because next year Seb will be 5). I am just so over the parties. I know it sounds awful, but they end up costing a fortune, the kids get a bunch more toys they don't need (although with family, I am usually blessed in that they aren't afraid to go with clothes or other things that are needed). I really dislike that their bdays are so close together. But, it wasn't planned and it is what it is. Make the best of it. I do think after Seb's 5th, we are going to switch to just cake and ice cream with the family. maybe have a few friends here and there or something.
Well, I am off here to finish my rounds and head to bed. it seems I have ran out of things to say that sound the least bit interesting.
Oh yeah, Stacy, you can send me their names (you can email if you would like - masehow@yahoo.com) and I will have her add them to the prayer list.
And now that my printer is hooked up, it will be easier to share pictures, because I can just put the mem card in my printer. Beats dealing with cords and cables. but, must save for another time. 'Night all!
~Makenneh reading. She is getting better and better. We read each day and she continues to amaze me.
~Daddy reading to the kids - Love You for Always (I love this book). I was doing dishes and cried while washing them...this book always makes me cry.
~Sebastian's belly laughs. From deep down inside. Such a beautiful sound.
~My printer working. Lost the disc and had to hunt online and fight with downloads and steps and all kinds of hassles but it is finally working again!
~Snoring....my hubby fell asleep before the kids, I think. They were all sound asleep by about 830pm.
~The clock ticking away the seconds. It is that quiet right now. Everyone asleep. Ahhhh.
It happened again that I had a great title and fun post, but when it came time to type it, i had lost it. Go figure. But, I have all kinds of things to say tonight. First, please pray for my sister and that bun in the oven. She was put on bed rest Monday and will remain on bed rest until she delivers because she has pre-eclampsia (is that how it's spelled). She has about 6 weeks to go. She has to do 24 hour urine collection and take in to be tested. She goes in tomorrow (thurs) for an ultrasound and then goes in friday to her OB. Mom is completely freaked out, so while you are at it, please pray for her some peace. She is a wreck. She always jumps to the worst case scenario. I feel that while it isn't optimal, she is at least closer to her due date, she is able to be on bedrest, and if she follows the doctors orders, she should be ok. Her blood pressure has been normal, so that is a plus. Today, she actually had ankles. For a few weeks now, her feet and legs would swell so bad you couldn't see her ankle bones. IT was horrible. But, after these couple days of low sodium diet and bed rest, she is already improving. However, she could still use the prayers, because it is going to be a long 6 weeks when you are bedridden, as some of you know from experience.
On a brighter note, I got my mid-term back today in Community Development (the test I was severely stressed over) and i got 104 out of 100. Go me! I was so pleased with myself. Tomorrow I have my presentation in that class and I am finally ready. I had to put everything off til the last minute because I wanted to clarify a few things with the teacher before I jumped in. Thankfully I did that. I don't have to do a poster board, as I was thinking. I put together some papers I will hand out to the class, and then I just have to say my stuff and be done. He is rather easy to please. the two students who went on Tues both got full credit. I can do at least that well on mine. Whew!
The class I needed to take is not offered in the summer, so it looks as though I will be here for another year finishing up my degree. Grrrr. But, there is not much I can do, so I will relax and enjoy the ride!
The kids' bdays are sneaking right up. This year it is a bit stressful. I know Makenneh wants a bday party with her friends. No big deal. Except the weather is too unpredictable and it leaves few options (most of which are costly). Having them here is not an option either. To add to it, her bday falls two days after Easter, this year. I think I have decided to have it at McDonalds. I won't need paper products or food and I can just bring the cake and debit card and call it a day. they can play in the play area. I think I will let her invite up to 8 friend (seems how most things come in 8 for parties), buy a few trinkets and call it a day. then, I will probably do something here for family, just because that's usually how we do it in our family...have parties every year when they are younger. I do think after this I will take a break for a year or so (or probably not because next year Seb will be 5). I am just so over the parties. I know it sounds awful, but they end up costing a fortune, the kids get a bunch more toys they don't need (although with family, I am usually blessed in that they aren't afraid to go with clothes or other things that are needed). I really dislike that their bdays are so close together. But, it wasn't planned and it is what it is. Make the best of it. I do think after Seb's 5th, we are going to switch to just cake and ice cream with the family. maybe have a few friends here and there or something.
Well, I am off here to finish my rounds and head to bed. it seems I have ran out of things to say that sound the least bit interesting.
Oh yeah, Stacy, you can send me their names (you can email if you would like - masehow@yahoo.com) and I will have her add them to the prayer list.
And now that my printer is hooked up, it will be easier to share pictures, because I can just put the mem card in my printer. Beats dealing with cords and cables. but, must save for another time. 'Night all!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Now the weather gets nice
I have had this past week off school....spring break. It was cold, rainy, snowy, dark and dreary. Today is Sunday...the last day and now it gets nice. I will not complain though. The sun is shining bright and I can go out in short-sleeves and be comfortable. I am happy!
The past week or so has been sooo busy, I don't even feel as though I had a break. I worked every day at the senior center, banking those hours. I have reached the 50 required hours and everything I do now is just banked towards next semester's hours. This week, I will be flying solo, as the Social Worker is out of town for a convention. I will be on my own. I will collect more of the applications for medicare assistance and then I have to put them all in the computer, make copies for our records and then take them down to the Valley Area Agency on Aging so that our center will receive credit for them. Then, I have some loose ends to tie up on a couple cases and that's about it. It shouldn't be too difficult.
Do you believe in miracles? Do you believe in prayer? Well, my cousin, Rachel, has been trying to get pregnant since her wedding back in October. She has been unsuccessful. She started to feel stressed about it, worrying that it may not happen. She had gotten pregnant once before and had a miscarriage. She is diabetic, so it adds risks. Well, her sister just announced a couple weeks ago that she is pregnant. Rachel was hurt. She was happy for her sister, but sad that it hadn't happened for her yet. My mom and dad told her that they would put her on the prayer list at church. One of the ladies who does prayer meetings and also prays for others on her own, has said that every woman she has prayed for fertility for, has gotten pg within 6 months. Well, they told the lady at church about Rachel and asked for them to pray for her. We marked the calendar, to see. YOu can only imagine my response when Rachel called yesterday morning to tell us she is PREGNANT!!!! I am so happy for her. I could only imagine how difficult it must be to try and try only to have everyone around you get pregnant effortlessly. On my mom's side, almost all the girl's are pregnant (from my generation-the grandkids). ONly me and one other cousin is not pregnant. Well, and the ones who are still in high school.
And gee, these posts get so long now that I don't have time to stop in more frequently. My uncle felt horrible about the kitties. So horrible in fact, that he got us a kitten. He had said we could keep her at his house til we got our own place, but I brought her home. My parents actually love her. She is about the same age as our kittens were (about 5 months old) and she is fluffy and grey. She is quite the social cat. She loves to be on laps and cuddled up. Perfect. So, hopefully it goes well. Of course, I had to go out and buy new litter box, litter and food. grrr. But, The kids are happy, i am happy.
I have to get off here now and get working on my oral presentation that is due Thursday. I have barely worked on it and most if it will probably be put off until Tues evening and wednesday because I am just not so sure what he wants and will have to ask tues in class.
Have a great week!
The past week or so has been sooo busy, I don't even feel as though I had a break. I worked every day at the senior center, banking those hours. I have reached the 50 required hours and everything I do now is just banked towards next semester's hours. This week, I will be flying solo, as the Social Worker is out of town for a convention. I will be on my own. I will collect more of the applications for medicare assistance and then I have to put them all in the computer, make copies for our records and then take them down to the Valley Area Agency on Aging so that our center will receive credit for them. Then, I have some loose ends to tie up on a couple cases and that's about it. It shouldn't be too difficult.
Do you believe in miracles? Do you believe in prayer? Well, my cousin, Rachel, has been trying to get pregnant since her wedding back in October. She has been unsuccessful. She started to feel stressed about it, worrying that it may not happen. She had gotten pregnant once before and had a miscarriage. She is diabetic, so it adds risks. Well, her sister just announced a couple weeks ago that she is pregnant. Rachel was hurt. She was happy for her sister, but sad that it hadn't happened for her yet. My mom and dad told her that they would put her on the prayer list at church. One of the ladies who does prayer meetings and also prays for others on her own, has said that every woman she has prayed for fertility for, has gotten pg within 6 months. Well, they told the lady at church about Rachel and asked for them to pray for her. We marked the calendar, to see. YOu can only imagine my response when Rachel called yesterday morning to tell us she is PREGNANT!!!! I am so happy for her. I could only imagine how difficult it must be to try and try only to have everyone around you get pregnant effortlessly. On my mom's side, almost all the girl's are pregnant (from my generation-the grandkids). ONly me and one other cousin is not pregnant. Well, and the ones who are still in high school.
And gee, these posts get so long now that I don't have time to stop in more frequently. My uncle felt horrible about the kitties. So horrible in fact, that he got us a kitten. He had said we could keep her at his house til we got our own place, but I brought her home. My parents actually love her. She is about the same age as our kittens were (about 5 months old) and she is fluffy and grey. She is quite the social cat. She loves to be on laps and cuddled up. Perfect. So, hopefully it goes well. Of course, I had to go out and buy new litter box, litter and food. grrr. But, The kids are happy, i am happy.
I have to get off here now and get working on my oral presentation that is due Thursday. I have barely worked on it and most if it will probably be put off until Tues evening and wednesday because I am just not so sure what he wants and will have to ask tues in class.
Have a great week!
Sunday, March 08, 2009
I always think of great titles when I am not at the computer
Yeah, I will be thinking of things to blog about and have a great or interesting, catching title and poof. The moment I sit before this screen, it leaves me.
So much to say. My sister's baby shower went well yesterday. It made for a long day for me, but we did it. I woke up and started right off cutting the million onions for tacos and cut my thumb, not once but twice. Because once is never enough. So, I have a gouge out of the tip of my thumb. Did you know that full sheet cakes are quite large and indeed are difficult to fit into an average sized sedan? Because they are. As I learned the hard way. I don't guess *I* have ever picked up a cake that large, so I just didn't think. My car was packed to near exploding, including Makenneh and Desiree. I thought the cake could sit on their laps. Hah, it wouldn't even come close to fitting. SO, out in the rain, Ihad to rearrange the boxes and bags and what have you that was filling my car, so that I could fit the cake in. And then I was a nervous wreck because I didn't want anything to happen to the cake before it reached its destination. But, we all arrived in one piece, which is a good thing. The cake turned out sooo beautiful. Better than I envisioned. But, I am sad to report that I got not one single smidgen of that delicious cake. I am so sad about that. I will post pictures when I get my printer hooked up ..probably tomorrow ( my printer has the card reader and just makes everything easier). She got a lot of stuff, despite my fear that nothing was being taken off her registries. And she only got doubles of a boppy, a nursing shawl, and 3 outfits. Not a bad deal at all. WE got most of the nursery set up last night after the shower, it is beautiful. We will take pics when it all together and I will be sure to post them.
So, still wondering what I got her? She had wanted the bedding and stuff made out of material she had picked out. The only problem was, she didn't have the money (they had estimated it to be about $150) to buy the material and you can't exactly register for material. So, she conceded and registered for a beautiful set at Baby Depot
It is a beautiful set and similar to what she wanted. But, she really liked that material and plus the bedding and such was only available by special order. I got the material, just as she had figured out (she used a pattern and a lady at the fabric store was very helpful in helping them figure out how much of each fabric was needed..she had chosen 3 different fabrics. So, I was very pleased when I got to checkout and it was $110.00. I ended up spending a bit more after that, but still, I saved quite a bit. She got the comforter, pillow (with some extra material) dust ruffle, bumper,diaper stacker, organizer that hangs on side of crib or changing table and a valence. Then my mom got the material to do the window and the closet. My aunt made the entire set and I have to report that she did so in less than 2 weeks. I was so amazed.
Our relatives from out of town stayed here last night and the kids had a great time. They had 3 kids with them....one about 14 or 15, one 11 and one 4, all girls. They all played well but we sure had a packed house. It is always fun to get together with them.
Sebastian had learned the art of winking and he is going to be a heartbreaker, I dare so. My gosh that little man has the wink down. It is adorable.
I am on spring break this week, so it will be nice to have the break from school. Of course, I will probably just spend extra time at my internship this week. Although, I am pleased to say, I only have 7 hours to go to meet my requirement for this semester. I am going to continue so I can bank hours for next semester, though. Still nice to know that I will at least meet this requirement.
I am done with my stress management course....she gave me a 3.5 because I had to miss a couple classes when we were all sick with diarrhea and vomiting. I am very not happy about that, but whatever. My midterm grades are posted and while they don't really hold much weight....still nice to know where you stand. I have 3.5 in practicum and 4.0 in community development and my internship class. I am very pleased. I am almost positive I can have that 3.5 in practicum to an A. I missed a few questions on the first test, but she has given us some opportunity for extra credit. So, another successful semester underway.
Just wanted to say before going....I guess my mom had told my brother and Sara that the cats were gone when she got up that morning, that I must have taken them somewhere. So, it really bites me that she is lying. IN addition, I don't know if i had posted this on the previous blog but my dad said to me friday...."Chris, I did not intend for you to get rid of all 3 cats.". So, he was led to believe that *I* did it. I just hissed out, "I.did.not.do.it" and he was like, ooooh, with a sympathetic tone. Now that the shower is out of the way, I plan to bring it up. If for no other reason than to get some closure. I am frustrated and heartbroken with my child crying to me every day about her kitty. She sings a song about it, she draws about it, she talks about it. It is sad.
I guess that's all I will ramble about tonight. I know there is more to say, but it gets boring reading the day to day crud...seems how I cant seem to word it so fun!
So much to say. My sister's baby shower went well yesterday. It made for a long day for me, but we did it. I woke up and started right off cutting the million onions for tacos and cut my thumb, not once but twice. Because once is never enough. So, I have a gouge out of the tip of my thumb. Did you know that full sheet cakes are quite large and indeed are difficult to fit into an average sized sedan? Because they are. As I learned the hard way. I don't guess *I* have ever picked up a cake that large, so I just didn't think. My car was packed to near exploding, including Makenneh and Desiree. I thought the cake could sit on their laps. Hah, it wouldn't even come close to fitting. SO, out in the rain, Ihad to rearrange the boxes and bags and what have you that was filling my car, so that I could fit the cake in. And then I was a nervous wreck because I didn't want anything to happen to the cake before it reached its destination. But, we all arrived in one piece, which is a good thing. The cake turned out sooo beautiful. Better than I envisioned. But, I am sad to report that I got not one single smidgen of that delicious cake. I am so sad about that. I will post pictures when I get my printer hooked up ..probably tomorrow ( my printer has the card reader and just makes everything easier). She got a lot of stuff, despite my fear that nothing was being taken off her registries. And she only got doubles of a boppy, a nursing shawl, and 3 outfits. Not a bad deal at all. WE got most of the nursery set up last night after the shower, it is beautiful. We will take pics when it all together and I will be sure to post them.
So, still wondering what I got her? She had wanted the bedding and stuff made out of material she had picked out. The only problem was, she didn't have the money (they had estimated it to be about $150) to buy the material and you can't exactly register for material. So, she conceded and registered for a beautiful set at Baby Depot
It is a beautiful set and similar to what she wanted. But, she really liked that material and plus the bedding and such was only available by special order. I got the material, just as she had figured out (she used a pattern and a lady at the fabric store was very helpful in helping them figure out how much of each fabric was needed..she had chosen 3 different fabrics. So, I was very pleased when I got to checkout and it was $110.00. I ended up spending a bit more after that, but still, I saved quite a bit. She got the comforter, pillow (with some extra material) dust ruffle, bumper,diaper stacker, organizer that hangs on side of crib or changing table and a valence. Then my mom got the material to do the window and the closet. My aunt made the entire set and I have to report that she did so in less than 2 weeks. I was so amazed.
Our relatives from out of town stayed here last night and the kids had a great time. They had 3 kids with them....one about 14 or 15, one 11 and one 4, all girls. They all played well but we sure had a packed house. It is always fun to get together with them.
Sebastian had learned the art of winking and he is going to be a heartbreaker, I dare so. My gosh that little man has the wink down. It is adorable.
I am on spring break this week, so it will be nice to have the break from school. Of course, I will probably just spend extra time at my internship this week. Although, I am pleased to say, I only have 7 hours to go to meet my requirement for this semester. I am going to continue so I can bank hours for next semester, though. Still nice to know that I will at least meet this requirement.
I am done with my stress management course....she gave me a 3.5 because I had to miss a couple classes when we were all sick with diarrhea and vomiting. I am very not happy about that, but whatever. My midterm grades are posted and while they don't really hold much weight....still nice to know where you stand. I have 3.5 in practicum and 4.0 in community development and my internship class. I am very pleased. I am almost positive I can have that 3.5 in practicum to an A. I missed a few questions on the first test, but she has given us some opportunity for extra credit. So, another successful semester underway.
Just wanted to say before going....I guess my mom had told my brother and Sara that the cats were gone when she got up that morning, that I must have taken them somewhere. So, it really bites me that she is lying. IN addition, I don't know if i had posted this on the previous blog but my dad said to me friday...."Chris, I did not intend for you to get rid of all 3 cats.". So, he was led to believe that *I* did it. I just hissed out, "I.did.not.do.it" and he was like, ooooh, with a sympathetic tone. Now that the shower is out of the way, I plan to bring it up. If for no other reason than to get some closure. I am frustrated and heartbroken with my child crying to me every day about her kitty. She sings a song about it, she draws about it, she talks about it. It is sad.
I guess that's all I will ramble about tonight. I know there is more to say, but it gets boring reading the day to day crud...seems how I cant seem to word it so fun!
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
The dumps
Is where I refuse to go. I am fighting hard not to succumb to the pull. I have wanted to blog about this since well, Monday. But, truth be told, I was out of energy..emotionally and physically. It always seems that as things cruise along well in my life, well, right there, smack dab in the middle of what seems like nowhere, a huge speed bump comes along and throws everything off course, helter skelter. I anticipated such a thing, because, everything was finally beginning to look up for us. A glimpse of hope for brighter days. Then, Monday afternoon came and it has been a battle since then. We went to pick up the (not actually) free car on Monday that we were so blessed to receive. I say not actually free bc well, there is tax, title transfer and registration fees. not to mention the couple little things it needed to done to it. But, still in all, it was actually given to us for free. Anyway, my dad went with us to drive the other car home. Makenneh was at school and Seb went with us. That left my mom at home. Let me rewind a bit to earlier that morning...a lot of bitching about the cats. To the point Jeremy and I had decided that despite the fact that some hearst would break, we had to get rid of 2 of the cats. We just can't bear to listen to my dad (and mom) bitch about them anymore. So we decided we would take two of them to the Humane society so they could be adopted out. I can live with that choice. I wouldn't have liked it, but I could have lived with it. Well, by the time we get done doing the running for the car, I had to rush to my internship. So, I drop Seb back off at home, give hugs and kisses, back out the door I go. I get home later that afternoon and something didn't seem right. The house seemed emptier. MY DAMN CATS! every last one of them. She got rid of all 3 of them without saying so much as a word to me about it. I am angry and hurt beyond words. Now, I am able to realize that the cats were a burden (don't let me mention the damn dogs though, will ya). I realize I needed to part with 2 of them. But in fairness, they knew we had a cat when they agreed to let us stay here, because believe me when I tell you that staying here was not my first (several) option. So, anyway, I am upset because I feel my decision as an adult was usurped. I feel angry because i was not consulted in any way and was basically deceived. I am angry because she did it so underhandedly as if to say I am too stupid to notice my cats are missing. i am hurt because she thought of absolutely nobody else in this situation. The havoc it would reak with the kids, the tears I would shed, nothing. It angers me because it took me back to that place as a child. A helpless child, with no power whatsoever. This isn't the first time she has gotten rid of a pet on the sly. She did it to us numerous times when we were kids. I went back to that place. I felt a certain level of hatred while I was in that place. I am angry and upset because I KNOW full well she just dumped them cats somewhere like trash to be littered out a car window, with no regard to their safety or well-being. I can't think anymore about this one because it makes me want to vomit, seriously. I am angry because she has said not one word to me about it. Because you know, im too damn stupid to notice. Then, i am angry because my brother dumped his dogs off here about 2 yrs ago. He does not stay here, he does not feed them, bath them, walk them, pet them, nothing. The one dog is out back and therefore, some sucker has to go out and feed and water him daily, rain, sleet, or snow. I have done my fair share of being the sucker out to feed and water. I dislike outside animals (and dogs really) because I don't like traipsing outdoors in inclimate weather to care for them. That's why I would NEVER own a horse. Anyway, they bitch about the dog hair in the house, having to take care of dogs, etc. Yet, after 2 yrs, the dogs are BOTH still here. Jager broke his chain the other day and they had to bring him in until it was fixed...he broke the nice, tall, floor lamp in the living room. NO big deal, it's Matt's dog. So, while I know deep down that this probably isn't the issue, I feel a level of favortism. I fed my cats, scooped/cleaned the litter box, etc. I am here. I live here. It's not as if i abandoned my duties or anything. Yet, my cats have to go and his dogs are still here. I feel as though if those cats were to be matt's, they would still be here. It's an unsettling feeling. I am not going to lie, I miss my cats. i am heartbroken. I cried myself to sleep the first night, cried in my sleep, as I dreamed about the whole nightmare, and have cried at least once a day each day since. Just once in my life, I would like an animal for life. Til one of us dies. Just once.
the other issue is the kids. We stayed at my uncle's last night bc Makenneh had no school today. And I honestly couldn't stand to be in the same house as my mom. So, she had no opportunity to miss the cats yesterday really. HOwever, tonight, as she was going to bed, seh asked daddy where the cats were. They are usually right thtere in the bedroom when we lay down for bed. He told her he didn't know and left it at that for the time being because otherwise she would have melted down and never got to sleep. My hope is that she forgets about it until after school tomorrow. She has no school on friday and that will give her the weekend to absorb it. She isn't going to be happy, I know that. She is going to bring up that other cat we had that the neighbor lady did something to. She still misses that cat. SIGH.
I just really wish my mom could stop feeling the need to make decisions for others. She has a bad habit of doing so. To a fault, for sure. She assumes she knows best for everyone and her rules are the only rules to play by. They call it distorted thought processes. I learned about it recently in stress management. It's called the SHOULDS distorted thought process. YOu think everyone should do this and should do that, all according to your rule book.
Anyway, im off on another tangent. The timing on this cat thing was horrible as well. A double whammy. My sister's baby shower is this saturday. I feel guilty for not being as active as I should have been with her bridal shower/wedding. I was self absorbed, in my dark place. I feel I let her down. I have felt bad about it ever since. So, when I found out she was pg, I was determined to go all out and make a big deal and head the planning, buying, doing. I was going to make up for the previous failure. I have done well. I am excited about her gift, which I will not discuss here until after the shower. Most everything is set to go and i did most of it myself. I have been sooo excited about this shower because I know she will love my gift, I had extra money to do something I normally wouldn't have been able to, and I am excited to be getting a new niece. I am excited for my sister having her first bio child. And mom throws a damper on my entire mood, my soul. I just feel miserable and blah. I just want to run through the motions, waiting until I can escape this hell. I feel trapped and helpless. Vulnerable. Angry. So many things going on. But, I have decided not to let her actions ruin this. I have set it aside, I will mope in private. I will hold it together until after the shower and see how I feel then. I do want to confront her. I want to know what she was thinking and let her know just how it made me feel. It made me feel quite horrible.
Well, it is sooo late and I have a midterm exam tomorrow that is going to kick my ass. I have spent a lot of time studying for it and still don't feel confident about it. But, I had to have some unwind time and this is where I spent it. Sorry this whole post is essentially a vent, but know that I had to get it out. ANd please pray for us that things turn around and we can get our own place. I NEED out of here before I lose my sanity or just lay down and die out of sheer misery.
the other issue is the kids. We stayed at my uncle's last night bc Makenneh had no school today. And I honestly couldn't stand to be in the same house as my mom. So, she had no opportunity to miss the cats yesterday really. HOwever, tonight, as she was going to bed, seh asked daddy where the cats were. They are usually right thtere in the bedroom when we lay down for bed. He told her he didn't know and left it at that for the time being because otherwise she would have melted down and never got to sleep. My hope is that she forgets about it until after school tomorrow. She has no school on friday and that will give her the weekend to absorb it. She isn't going to be happy, I know that. She is going to bring up that other cat we had that the neighbor lady did something to. She still misses that cat. SIGH.
I just really wish my mom could stop feeling the need to make decisions for others. She has a bad habit of doing so. To a fault, for sure. She assumes she knows best for everyone and her rules are the only rules to play by. They call it distorted thought processes. I learned about it recently in stress management. It's called the SHOULDS distorted thought process. YOu think everyone should do this and should do that, all according to your rule book.
Anyway, im off on another tangent. The timing on this cat thing was horrible as well. A double whammy. My sister's baby shower is this saturday. I feel guilty for not being as active as I should have been with her bridal shower/wedding. I was self absorbed, in my dark place. I feel I let her down. I have felt bad about it ever since. So, when I found out she was pg, I was determined to go all out and make a big deal and head the planning, buying, doing. I was going to make up for the previous failure. I have done well. I am excited about her gift, which I will not discuss here until after the shower. Most everything is set to go and i did most of it myself. I have been sooo excited about this shower because I know she will love my gift, I had extra money to do something I normally wouldn't have been able to, and I am excited to be getting a new niece. I am excited for my sister having her first bio child. And mom throws a damper on my entire mood, my soul. I just feel miserable and blah. I just want to run through the motions, waiting until I can escape this hell. I feel trapped and helpless. Vulnerable. Angry. So many things going on. But, I have decided not to let her actions ruin this. I have set it aside, I will mope in private. I will hold it together until after the shower and see how I feel then. I do want to confront her. I want to know what she was thinking and let her know just how it made me feel. It made me feel quite horrible.
Well, it is sooo late and I have a midterm exam tomorrow that is going to kick my ass. I have spent a lot of time studying for it and still don't feel confident about it. But, I had to have some unwind time and this is where I spent it. Sorry this whole post is essentially a vent, but know that I had to get it out. ANd please pray for us that things turn around and we can get our own place. I NEED out of here before I lose my sanity or just lay down and die out of sheer misery.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
No More Poo
PLEASE! It seems I have been dealing with diarrhea for a month. Mostly Sebastian. It seems to come and go. He appears to otherwise be feeling fine. He does not own enough undies to go threw them the way he does lately. I had to buy another pack today. And that is ridiculous. 6.00 for 3 measely pair of small, tiny, boy underwear. Just 3 pair. That equals 2.00 per pair. That will be streaked and stained in no time at'all. None at all. Believe me. So what if they glow in the dark. Who really needs glow in the dark underoos? I am sure it doesn't improve aim at the toilet by any means. Of course, this really isn't an issue yet, as he still pretty much sits to piddle. Hah, piddle. He did however stand to pee the other day and ran in to tell daddy, "Me go pee like you daddy! I stand like this" as he immitated the whole ordeal. He was quite proud of himself. However, nothing beats the rhea that creeps up and steals the little boys ability to stand and pee. Must sit to do my business because it may come out without warning.
Jeremy couldn't contain himself. He heard that the temps are supposed to hit or be near 50* by the end of the week, so he just had to give the kids their fishing poles today. He is such a kid when it comes to that kinda stuff. Just.Can.NOT.wait. So, now we have to get the kids something else for Easter, not a huge deal, as Easter usually isn't that large of an item, but it was something the both had wanted. Now they will probably be stuck with some small things, perhaps equally as useful because frankly i am sick of all the little junk. They can get undies and toilet paper. LOL. Just kidding, i wouldn't do that. I promise. Well, maybe undies, because it would be a splurge of fancy kinds, but certainly not toilet paper. ALthough, I can clearly see how they could make that into something fun as well.
Well, it was a very emotional service at church this morning. I was the one who was able to go back with Des as she prepared to be baptised. On one hand, it was such an honor to be there for her, in that capacity. On the other hand, it was a strong reminder that her mom was not able to be there, at least not physically. I know beyond doubt that she was there in spirit and I am sure she probably had a hand in Jesus opening Desiree's heart to accept Him. She wanted to be sure there would be a place for her daughter to join her in Heaven.
After church, we took my father in law to lunch. That went pretty well. Makenneh insisted on ordering fish and fries. The uncool part about that was that they didn't have that on a kids menu. Not that I would have known, because they dont even have the kids' menus right now. When I asked about them, she said they didn't have any right now but that the normal stuff was on there. well, that's great, but what the heck is the normal stuff? Because when I asked if they had a kiddie fish/chips, NO, was the only reply I received. It kinda peeves me now that I think about how i probably shouldn't have left her such a generous tip. She was clearly preoccupied with the friend who showed up to have lunch. OH well. Makenneh enjoyed the fish. Sebastian didn't eat much, but I just had them share the fish because it was a (expensive) full size dinner. Jeremy's dad had a good time and good food, so that is what really counts, as it was his day. We have decided though, that we probably won't go back there, willingly. Their menu is very small and limited and then, well, we just didn't receive very friendly service today and the food was just ok. Nothing spectacular.
Well, I was taking a break from studying because I am feeling so overwhelmed with it. I think it is time to finish up on here and get back to the books. I have a midterm on Thursday and I just feel like I am going to do poorly on it. It is short answer, no multiple choice or something easier. Have to be able to pull the answers from memory with nothing to trigger the memory. So, we shall see how it goes. I am sooo nervous about it. Normally I am not that worked up over tests, because generally, I do well. But, i don't know what to expect on this one and there are going to be 10 short essay type questions with so much info to know for each question. Sigh. here's hoping it goes well. Wish me luck and have a safe and happy week. I don't know if I will have moments to spare any day soon!
Jeremy couldn't contain himself. He heard that the temps are supposed to hit or be near 50* by the end of the week, so he just had to give the kids their fishing poles today. He is such a kid when it comes to that kinda stuff. Just.Can.NOT.wait. So, now we have to get the kids something else for Easter, not a huge deal, as Easter usually isn't that large of an item, but it was something the both had wanted. Now they will probably be stuck with some small things, perhaps equally as useful because frankly i am sick of all the little junk. They can get undies and toilet paper. LOL. Just kidding, i wouldn't do that. I promise. Well, maybe undies, because it would be a splurge of fancy kinds, but certainly not toilet paper. ALthough, I can clearly see how they could make that into something fun as well.
Well, it was a very emotional service at church this morning. I was the one who was able to go back with Des as she prepared to be baptised. On one hand, it was such an honor to be there for her, in that capacity. On the other hand, it was a strong reminder that her mom was not able to be there, at least not physically. I know beyond doubt that she was there in spirit and I am sure she probably had a hand in Jesus opening Desiree's heart to accept Him. She wanted to be sure there would be a place for her daughter to join her in Heaven.
After church, we took my father in law to lunch. That went pretty well. Makenneh insisted on ordering fish and fries. The uncool part about that was that they didn't have that on a kids menu. Not that I would have known, because they dont even have the kids' menus right now. When I asked about them, she said they didn't have any right now but that the normal stuff was on there. well, that's great, but what the heck is the normal stuff? Because when I asked if they had a kiddie fish/chips, NO, was the only reply I received. It kinda peeves me now that I think about how i probably shouldn't have left her such a generous tip. She was clearly preoccupied with the friend who showed up to have lunch. OH well. Makenneh enjoyed the fish. Sebastian didn't eat much, but I just had them share the fish because it was a (expensive) full size dinner. Jeremy's dad had a good time and good food, so that is what really counts, as it was his day. We have decided though, that we probably won't go back there, willingly. Their menu is very small and limited and then, well, we just didn't receive very friendly service today and the food was just ok. Nothing spectacular.
Well, I was taking a break from studying because I am feeling so overwhelmed with it. I think it is time to finish up on here and get back to the books. I have a midterm on Thursday and I just feel like I am going to do poorly on it. It is short answer, no multiple choice or something easier. Have to be able to pull the answers from memory with nothing to trigger the memory. So, we shall see how it goes. I am sooo nervous about it. Normally I am not that worked up over tests, because generally, I do well. But, i don't know what to expect on this one and there are going to be 10 short essay type questions with so much info to know for each question. Sigh. here's hoping it goes well. Wish me luck and have a safe and happy week. I don't know if I will have moments to spare any day soon!
From the mouth of babes...
and little boys....
As Sebastian sat on the potty today, he says to grandma, "I eat (pop)corn, I poop (pop)corn." NIiiiice. We laughed hysterically at this. Some of the things children come out with.
We had a long day. Most of our recent days have been quite full. Today we went to visit my father in law. Then we went to Jeremy's aunt's and uncle's. They are giving us a car. It is a 1985 Buick Lesabre. So, it's an oldie. But, it just needed a water pump and Jeremy and his uncle worked on that this evening while we were there. The car is now road ready...well except for plates and insurance. We are going to pick it up on Monday. While visiting there today, his aunt Teresa sent me home with a foot locker that is like brand new, several Janette Oke books, one of the Janette Oke movies from the Love Comes Softly series (because I oh so want the whole set), hair accessories, jewelry sets (she makes jewelry that would rival Lia Sophia), a ring that her husband had made for Jeremy's Grandma (the one who just passed away this past year), and a spongebob outift for Sebastian, a few coffee travel mugs, Febreeze air freshener, a 3 legged chair (I will have to take a pic and post it when I get the chair home, it's certainly unique), a plastic pink kid chair, and a couple steaks. I think that was it, geesh, it was a lot of stuff. They are moving to FLA as soon as they can sell their house (which may not be soon at all) and so they are getting rid of a lot of their stuff. Oh and she also sent a crocheted blanket for my sister). She is such a sweet woman. The car deal was totally unexpected. They called Jeremy earlier this week and asked if he would be interested. HE asked how much and they said free. Wow, can't really beat that. Of course, I have a car right now and that is great, but now we will have a back up if we should need it. This car is a big old boat. Not something I will want to drive on any regular basis. But it will be sure ncie in a pinch. It will come in handy though when Jeremy is doing the work on our car that we have now..i will still have something to drive. Such a blessing.
Tomorrow will be yet another busy day....I am going to church (Makenneh has been begging me, God has been begging me, and Desiree is getting baptised), then we are going to take my father in law to lunch for his bday, then I plan to meet for a study group to study for our mid-term exam. And let's not forget Carrie's baby shower is a week away, so we have all the final details for that. I am sooo darn excited about it, i can't wait.
Oh yeah, Friday I went on another in-home assessment with Ruben for my internship. This time, I was a more active participant. It just felt so natural. I know without a doubt that this is my calling. I love every moment at the Senior Center. I really hope to get a job like that when I finish school. It is so laid back and rewarding.
Tuesday is the last day of my stress management class. I can't wait. This class has been misery for the most part. I will be glad to be done with it. Not to mention, I will be able to get out of school at 2pm on Tues and Thurs instead of 4. That will be nice. Of course, I do plan to use those couple hours at the computer lab, catching up and hopefully finishing up my computer class. Once I get that out of the way, it will really be smooth sailing. Nothing to really stress about. Except the fact that I have to meet with an adviser at my college and SVSU to get all the details hashed out for my transfer.
Oh and Jeremy called the Secretary of State and spoke with her secretary. They returned his call and said that he would have to pay off the fines and file for a review. They sent him the application for the review process. the strange thing is, the first page says that you may qualify for a review if one of the following applies to your situation: You have had your license suspended due to one or more drug/alcohol related charges OR something else ( can't remember off top of my head) that doesn't apply to him. So neither of the situations apply to him...his situation didn't involve drugs or alcohol. So, I don't know how effective this route is going to be, but I am going to give it a shot. After that, I am going to start contacting my local officials and work my way to the top until something is resolved. I am really done with laying down and allowing this to continue. There is no legitimate reason for him to not have his license and it does nothing but hold us back from bettering ourselves as a family, him as a person. It is ridiculous and time for some solutions to be reached.
As far as the house, I was denied the extra funds I applied for for student loans because they said i had exceeded my limit. I think it was the amount I was asking for, so I reapplied, requesting a smaller amount. I am going to call the college on Monday to find out for sure what that is about. If I don't get this amount, then we are going to pass on the house because we want to be able to pay up several months of rent to be safe. So, as much as we both want this place, we have to do the reasonable thing and it may be to wait it out and stay the summer here. I am really hoping something works out some way though.
On that note, I am going to stop and finish my rounds so I can get to bed. Hope the rest of the weekend goes well for everyone!
As Sebastian sat on the potty today, he says to grandma, "I eat (pop)corn, I poop (pop)corn." NIiiiice. We laughed hysterically at this. Some of the things children come out with.
We had a long day. Most of our recent days have been quite full. Today we went to visit my father in law. Then we went to Jeremy's aunt's and uncle's. They are giving us a car. It is a 1985 Buick Lesabre. So, it's an oldie. But, it just needed a water pump and Jeremy and his uncle worked on that this evening while we were there. The car is now road ready...well except for plates and insurance. We are going to pick it up on Monday. While visiting there today, his aunt Teresa sent me home with a foot locker that is like brand new, several Janette Oke books, one of the Janette Oke movies from the Love Comes Softly series (because I oh so want the whole set), hair accessories, jewelry sets (she makes jewelry that would rival Lia Sophia), a ring that her husband had made for Jeremy's Grandma (the one who just passed away this past year), and a spongebob outift for Sebastian, a few coffee travel mugs, Febreeze air freshener, a 3 legged chair (I will have to take a pic and post it when I get the chair home, it's certainly unique), a plastic pink kid chair, and a couple steaks. I think that was it, geesh, it was a lot of stuff. They are moving to FLA as soon as they can sell their house (which may not be soon at all) and so they are getting rid of a lot of their stuff. Oh and she also sent a crocheted blanket for my sister). She is such a sweet woman. The car deal was totally unexpected. They called Jeremy earlier this week and asked if he would be interested. HE asked how much and they said free. Wow, can't really beat that. Of course, I have a car right now and that is great, but now we will have a back up if we should need it. This car is a big old boat. Not something I will want to drive on any regular basis. But it will be sure ncie in a pinch. It will come in handy though when Jeremy is doing the work on our car that we have now..i will still have something to drive. Such a blessing.
Tomorrow will be yet another busy day....I am going to church (Makenneh has been begging me, God has been begging me, and Desiree is getting baptised), then we are going to take my father in law to lunch for his bday, then I plan to meet for a study group to study for our mid-term exam. And let's not forget Carrie's baby shower is a week away, so we have all the final details for that. I am sooo darn excited about it, i can't wait.
Oh yeah, Friday I went on another in-home assessment with Ruben for my internship. This time, I was a more active participant. It just felt so natural. I know without a doubt that this is my calling. I love every moment at the Senior Center. I really hope to get a job like that when I finish school. It is so laid back and rewarding.
Tuesday is the last day of my stress management class. I can't wait. This class has been misery for the most part. I will be glad to be done with it. Not to mention, I will be able to get out of school at 2pm on Tues and Thurs instead of 4. That will be nice. Of course, I do plan to use those couple hours at the computer lab, catching up and hopefully finishing up my computer class. Once I get that out of the way, it will really be smooth sailing. Nothing to really stress about. Except the fact that I have to meet with an adviser at my college and SVSU to get all the details hashed out for my transfer.
Oh and Jeremy called the Secretary of State and spoke with her secretary. They returned his call and said that he would have to pay off the fines and file for a review. They sent him the application for the review process. the strange thing is, the first page says that you may qualify for a review if one of the following applies to your situation: You have had your license suspended due to one or more drug/alcohol related charges OR something else ( can't remember off top of my head) that doesn't apply to him. So neither of the situations apply to him...his situation didn't involve drugs or alcohol. So, I don't know how effective this route is going to be, but I am going to give it a shot. After that, I am going to start contacting my local officials and work my way to the top until something is resolved. I am really done with laying down and allowing this to continue. There is no legitimate reason for him to not have his license and it does nothing but hold us back from bettering ourselves as a family, him as a person. It is ridiculous and time for some solutions to be reached.
As far as the house, I was denied the extra funds I applied for for student loans because they said i had exceeded my limit. I think it was the amount I was asking for, so I reapplied, requesting a smaller amount. I am going to call the college on Monday to find out for sure what that is about. If I don't get this amount, then we are going to pass on the house because we want to be able to pay up several months of rent to be safe. So, as much as we both want this place, we have to do the reasonable thing and it may be to wait it out and stay the summer here. I am really hoping something works out some way though.
On that note, I am going to stop and finish my rounds so I can get to bed. Hope the rest of the weekend goes well for everyone!
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