I just came across this pocket card tonight. I've had it since before I had kids. It's a great reminder and perhaps I should have it blown up to a 10X14.
IF a child lives with criticism,
He learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives encouragement,
he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness,
he learns justice.
If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance,
and friendship,
He learns to find love in the world.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Halloween is all over
Well, we took the kids out trick or treating. Sebastian was dressed as a cute lil leopard and Makenneh was a cowgirl, complete with a pony to ride. We didn't go many places bc both kids are sick already and it was pretty cold. They got a sufficient amount of candy and had a good time. Seb fell asleep on the way home and Makenneh is still up. She had fell asleep a couple times along the way btwn stops (we decided to mainly go to family, which was mostly driving from one to the other.) I fear she may be up for a while. I am ready to go to sleep.
I didn't take pictures. I know, bad mommy! But, the batteries were dead in my camera and like a dumb ass, i didn't put them in the charger soon enough. My aunt took a couple pics and we got one with my mother in law's digital. I may have her come over so we can load that in my computer to share. I feel guilty for being so unprepared....that's just how ive been lately.
And the highlight of the night just came: Makenneh said, "mommy, thank you for getting me candy." I said, but you got it yourself by saying trick or treat. and she simply and sincerely said, "thank you mommy." those are the moments to hang on to. All the fit throwing and whining has been erased from memory! What a kid!!!!
I didn't take pictures. I know, bad mommy! But, the batteries were dead in my camera and like a dumb ass, i didn't put them in the charger soon enough. My aunt took a couple pics and we got one with my mother in law's digital. I may have her come over so we can load that in my computer to share. I feel guilty for being so unprepared....that's just how ive been lately.
And the highlight of the night just came: Makenneh said, "mommy, thank you for getting me candy." I said, but you got it yourself by saying trick or treat. and she simply and sincerely said, "thank you mommy." those are the moments to hang on to. All the fit throwing and whining has been erased from memory! What a kid!!!!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Sunshine, glorious sunshine
The sun finally made an appearance. It was so beautiful today! It was warm (no jackets were really even needed) and bright and cheery. Hard to be depressed and frumpy when blessed with such a beautiful day. I turned the furnace off, opened the front door and a couple windows. We spent some time outside, just breathing in the fresh fall air. It is now 11pm and I still have my front door open and the kitchen window opened. OH and one of the living room windows is still open a bit. It would be so nice to have a night like this tomorrow for Halloween! But, reading Julieq's blog, it doesn't sound like that will be the case. (we live in the same state). Julieq, I really hope you are wrong on the forecast...lol. I want another day like today! I actually got out of the shower and did my hair and, don't tell anyone, i actually put on a lil makeup! LOL. I felt alive today.
But, despite the beautiful day, we got a lil bad news. Jeremy went to put the new (well used, but not broken) CV axle on our car today and discovered that we need a whole new hub. So, what could have been a 35.00 fix is now going to cost more and won't be done until this weekend. So, we have no car until then. It often seems that when it rains, it pours. I think not having a car is really pushing my depression. I hate being confined to the house. But, such is life. The car shall remain lifeless for several days.
Meanwhile, back in the parenting ring....I have been so bad about working with Makenneh. Luckily, she has caught on to most things fairly well. She does know/recognize colors and shapes. However, she doesn't know her ABC's and can only count to 5-6 correctly on a regular basis. Sometimes she will go as high as 8-10 but not consistantly. The alphabet part really surprises me bc when she was a baby and oh so colicky, i would hold her and sing the alphabet to her in a soothing voice. Mostly bc, well, I couldn't ever remember all the words to most of the lullabyes. But, i thought it would benefit her anyway, so i sang abc's a lot. In school, they are working on writing their name. My poor child was blessed with a long name. MAKENNEH. She will get it though. Mine is CHRISTINA and I got it. Of course, when i first started writing it, i wrote it backwards....ANITSIRHC. I didn't believe it til i saw it on a paper i did at Christmas...while going through christmas decorations with my mom. Anyway, in between writing here, I am "writing" with Makenneh. I started out trying to help her write her name...i would do the dot thing and she wanted to draw dots too, so we took turns. I would dot out a letter of her name and she would trace it, then she would draw dots and i would let her "tell me" how to draw it. But, it's extremely late, she is very tired and well, time for bed. Otherwise, she will never be any good for trick or treating. She is not wanting to put the marker down. I am going to have to stop here so i can enforce bed! So, wish me luck...my tight is chest and blood pressure is elevating....and my nose is stuffy too for what it's worth...lol.
But, despite the beautiful day, we got a lil bad news. Jeremy went to put the new (well used, but not broken) CV axle on our car today and discovered that we need a whole new hub. So, what could have been a 35.00 fix is now going to cost more and won't be done until this weekend. So, we have no car until then. It often seems that when it rains, it pours. I think not having a car is really pushing my depression. I hate being confined to the house. But, such is life. The car shall remain lifeless for several days.
Meanwhile, back in the parenting ring....I have been so bad about working with Makenneh. Luckily, she has caught on to most things fairly well. She does know/recognize colors and shapes. However, she doesn't know her ABC's and can only count to 5-6 correctly on a regular basis. Sometimes she will go as high as 8-10 but not consistantly. The alphabet part really surprises me bc when she was a baby and oh so colicky, i would hold her and sing the alphabet to her in a soothing voice. Mostly bc, well, I couldn't ever remember all the words to most of the lullabyes. But, i thought it would benefit her anyway, so i sang abc's a lot. In school, they are working on writing their name. My poor child was blessed with a long name. MAKENNEH. She will get it though. Mine is CHRISTINA and I got it. Of course, when i first started writing it, i wrote it backwards....ANITSIRHC. I didn't believe it til i saw it on a paper i did at Christmas...while going through christmas decorations with my mom. Anyway, in between writing here, I am "writing" with Makenneh. I started out trying to help her write her name...i would do the dot thing and she wanted to draw dots too, so we took turns. I would dot out a letter of her name and she would trace it, then she would draw dots and i would let her "tell me" how to draw it. But, it's extremely late, she is very tired and well, time for bed. Otherwise, she will never be any good for trick or treating. She is not wanting to put the marker down. I am going to have to stop here so i can enforce bed! So, wish me luck...my tight is chest and blood pressure is elevating....and my nose is stuffy too for what it's worth...lol.
Friday, October 27, 2006
la la land and lots of whines
After having my hopes destroyed two days in a row of being able to have a sitter for kids, i decided to take one of the pills the doc had given me before for depression. I quit taking them (with his knowledge) bc they made me very very loopy and extremely tired. And without fail, i took the the pill around 7pm and was out by 845. I couldnt even stand up my legs were so wobbly. I was barely coherent. I think jeremy was mad...but tough luck. It was the only escape i could have. And I needed it. But the bad thing was, I began diggin our room out yesterday, putting clothes away, etc...bc our room literally only had a path to one side of the bed. Well, i wasnt able to finish it bc kids wouldnt hear of it, jeremy was grumpy, we got into an ugly argument, blah blah blah. So, the bed was still piled high when i went comatose. So, jeremy slept on couch, makenneh was out on the loveseat...and lucky me got the floor! I was so out of it, i literally plopped down on my living room floor, on top of toys, clothes, whatever was there. i slept there until jeremy got up for work, when i climbed up on the couch. I was woke up about 830 by the littlest monster. I was still drowsy, but had to face the day. I am still drowsy now if you cant tell my typing. My fingers are not working at all for me. Anyway, i have seb in his crib for what should be a nap...but he wont take one. I dont know what his problem is . Grrrr.
I was supposed to work at 2 but called off. I am in a frump. I cannot get out of it right now. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep for a week. I cannot handle these kids, they are out of control behaviorally, i am to blame for it, my house wont stay clean..i just kinda give up. tying here, my apostrophe doesnt work and every time i try to hit it, it brings up this seach bar at the bottom here. im getting pissed. oh and ive watched barney back to back to back, nonstop all day. play, rewind, play, rewind play. ....
I dont want to work, i dont wanna be around ppl. nothing. I get like this from time to time which is where i have trouble keeping a job. i cannot help it;. i try. i really do. but i get overwhelmed, filled iwth anxiety and just throw in the towel. im near that point now. the logic part of my brain keeps insisting i need this job. the overwhelmed, depressed, stressed part of my brain keeps telling me that this job so isnt worth the hassles it creates. not having a car has just created more hassles. i am out of wipes, bread has mold growing on it, no milk, juice. no way to get more. i just wanna scream. kids are sick. Sometimes i question why God let me procreate. He should have known i wouldnt be good for the job. maybe he is testing me. its a shitty test, i tell ya. im failing miserably.
and why is my apostraphe doing that...its like i hit some button that changed its function..and i don't know how to fix it. oooh lookey there..it did it. it gave me an ' holy shit, it did it iagain.'''''''''''''' wow. maybe HE is realizing im at my wit's end and it's not funny anymore! Now if the sandman would swoop down and take my children to sleep, life would be ok for a minute. i could lay my oh so weary head down and go to dream land. where everything is fine. and if it's not, well, i can just wake up and try again.
Helen, i wish we lived closer, bc i so could learn so much from you. Maybe some of your patience and determination and all that good stuff would rub off on me. Maybe i could borrow some of your strength. I know i need some right now.
yep, im outta my pills. can anyone tell? this is why i need them. iwthout them i become a total mess. i hate it. i hate myself when i am like this....ok i just don't like myself. i can only imagine how my husband and kids feel when i am like this. but really, im partly mad at him righ tnow anyway, so i dont know that i care how he feels at the moment. that's another whole vent in itself. one im not sure i want to put on here for everyone to read. but one i would love to get off my chest. ah well, maybe i will write it on a document and just delete. and maybe it will go away, too.
ok, i am done dragging you all down itwh me to the yucky depths of depression. I shall go now to change a shitty diaper without wipes. yes, i know, back in the day, before wipes, what do i think they did. Well, im tellin ya know that no washcloth of mine is wiping shit from his bottom and then going back in the wash to eventually wash my face. crazy i know. it will go in the garbage if i have to resort to that. i should have some cottonelle wipes in my stash of stuff i get free by using coupons at kroger where they double even the dollar ones....hehehe.
I was supposed to work at 2 but called off. I am in a frump. I cannot get out of it right now. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep for a week. I cannot handle these kids, they are out of control behaviorally, i am to blame for it, my house wont stay clean..i just kinda give up. tying here, my apostrophe doesnt work and every time i try to hit it, it brings up this seach bar at the bottom here. im getting pissed. oh and ive watched barney back to back to back, nonstop all day. play, rewind, play, rewind play. ....
I dont want to work, i dont wanna be around ppl. nothing. I get like this from time to time which is where i have trouble keeping a job. i cannot help it;. i try. i really do. but i get overwhelmed, filled iwth anxiety and just throw in the towel. im near that point now. the logic part of my brain keeps insisting i need this job. the overwhelmed, depressed, stressed part of my brain keeps telling me that this job so isnt worth the hassles it creates. not having a car has just created more hassles. i am out of wipes, bread has mold growing on it, no milk, juice. no way to get more. i just wanna scream. kids are sick. Sometimes i question why God let me procreate. He should have known i wouldnt be good for the job. maybe he is testing me. its a shitty test, i tell ya. im failing miserably.
and why is my apostraphe doing that...its like i hit some button that changed its function..and i don't know how to fix it. oooh lookey there..it did it. it gave me an ' holy shit, it did it iagain.'''''''''''''' wow. maybe HE is realizing im at my wit's end and it's not funny anymore! Now if the sandman would swoop down and take my children to sleep, life would be ok for a minute. i could lay my oh so weary head down and go to dream land. where everything is fine. and if it's not, well, i can just wake up and try again.
Helen, i wish we lived closer, bc i so could learn so much from you. Maybe some of your patience and determination and all that good stuff would rub off on me. Maybe i could borrow some of your strength. I know i need some right now.
yep, im outta my pills. can anyone tell? this is why i need them. iwthout them i become a total mess. i hate it. i hate myself when i am like this....ok i just don't like myself. i can only imagine how my husband and kids feel when i am like this. but really, im partly mad at him righ tnow anyway, so i dont know that i care how he feels at the moment. that's another whole vent in itself. one im not sure i want to put on here for everyone to read. but one i would love to get off my chest. ah well, maybe i will write it on a document and just delete. and maybe it will go away, too.
ok, i am done dragging you all down itwh me to the yucky depths of depression. I shall go now to change a shitty diaper without wipes. yes, i know, back in the day, before wipes, what do i think they did. Well, im tellin ya know that no washcloth of mine is wiping shit from his bottom and then going back in the wash to eventually wash my face. crazy i know. it will go in the garbage if i have to resort to that. i should have some cottonelle wipes in my stash of stuff i get free by using coupons at kroger where they double even the dollar ones....hehehe.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Warning: Adult content. May not be suitable for all audiences! LOL
Saw this on Myspace and just had to share!!!!!
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following
reasons:
1. I do physical labor.
2. I work at great depths.
3. I plunge head first into everything I do.
4. I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
5. I work in a damp environment.
6. I work in a dark area that has poor ventilation.
7. I work in high temperatures.
8. My work exposes me to diseases.
********************************************************************
Dear Penis,
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have
raised, the management denies your request for the following reasons:
1. You do not work 8 hours straight.
2. You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work
period.
3. You do not always follow the orders of the management
team.
4. You do not stay in your designated area, and are often seen
visiting other locations.
5. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and
stimulated in order to start working.
6. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
7. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as
wearing the correct protective clothing.
8. You will retire long before you are 65.
9. You are unable to work double shifts.
10. You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have
completed the assigned task.
11. You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the workplace
carrying two suspicious-looking bags.
Sincerely,
The Management
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following
reasons:
1. I do physical labor.
2. I work at great depths.
3. I plunge head first into everything I do.
4. I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
5. I work in a damp environment.
6. I work in a dark area that has poor ventilation.
7. I work in high temperatures.
8. My work exposes me to diseases.
********************************************************************
Dear Penis,
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have
raised, the management denies your request for the following reasons:
1. You do not work 8 hours straight.
2. You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work
period.
3. You do not always follow the orders of the management
team.
4. You do not stay in your designated area, and are often seen
visiting other locations.
5. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and
stimulated in order to start working.
6. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
7. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as
wearing the correct protective clothing.
8. You will retire long before you are 65.
9. You are unable to work double shifts.
10. You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have
completed the assigned task.
11. You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the workplace
carrying two suspicious-looking bags.
Sincerely,
The Management
Look out, here we come
So, Makenneh keeps pestering me that she wants to go bye-bye. The problem: I don't have a car to go bye-bye even if i really wanted to. So the conversation goes like this:
Makenneh: mom i want to go bye bye (read with a whiney voice)
Me: We can't go bye bye. We don't have a car.
her: But mommy, i waaaant to gooo bbbyyyyye byyyyyeeee (whinier voice)
Me: Can we all fit on your tricycle?
(long silence) She is contemplating this option
her: Mommy i want to go bye bye
me: I know, Makenneh.
Then she gives up for a minute. I think it really might have been a whole 60 seconds. really!
Mommy, i want to go bye bye on my bike.
Great...she really thinks we can load up on her tricycle and hit the town!
i can't help but laugh at the mental image this gives me. My fat butt on her teeny tiny trike! With two kids somehow, somewhere piled on as well. Starting to sound like a circus side show, huh?
Her: Let's go bye bye on my bike mommy bc we not have a car...ur car is broke. But you will need a bike mommy.
Good so she recognizes now that mommy cannot fit on her trike. But now we have a new problem. Mommy doesn't have a bike.
This conversation was laughable until about 2 mins ago (about the time i started typing this post actually). Now she is just whining incessantly that she wants to go bye bye. i can send her bye bye...to boot camp if she doesn't change her ways.
So, i finally tell her that we are waiting for aunt Michelle to call back to let us know if they can go over there. She says, "oh, who's that?" I don't know why she asked that, but maybe for the sake of interesting conversation. Bc I then tell her, "A. Michelle, Desiree, Ashely...you know.."
Her: Oh, with the baby kitty. (Bingo..now she gets it...lol). Her face lights up like a Christmas tree or perhaps the sky at 4th of july.
Yes, Makenneh, with the baby kitty.
Her: oooh, can i pet her, mommy? (she pretends to have said baby kitty in her hand, lovingly stroking it's soft fur).
Then all hell breaks loose again, as she chases brother down to get something from him she doesn't want him to have.
See, isn't life just peachy?
Im off now to ride into the sunset (oh wait, it's midday) on our tricycle!
Circus, here we come!
Makenneh: mom i want to go bye bye (read with a whiney voice)
Me: We can't go bye bye. We don't have a car.
her: But mommy, i waaaant to gooo bbbyyyyye byyyyyeeee (whinier voice)
Me: Can we all fit on your tricycle?
(long silence) She is contemplating this option
her: Mommy i want to go bye bye
me: I know, Makenneh.
Then she gives up for a minute. I think it really might have been a whole 60 seconds. really!
Mommy, i want to go bye bye on my bike.
Great...she really thinks we can load up on her tricycle and hit the town!
i can't help but laugh at the mental image this gives me. My fat butt on her teeny tiny trike! With two kids somehow, somewhere piled on as well. Starting to sound like a circus side show, huh?
Her: Let's go bye bye on my bike mommy bc we not have a car...ur car is broke. But you will need a bike mommy.
Good so she recognizes now that mommy cannot fit on her trike. But now we have a new problem. Mommy doesn't have a bike.
This conversation was laughable until about 2 mins ago (about the time i started typing this post actually). Now she is just whining incessantly that she wants to go bye bye. i can send her bye bye...to boot camp if she doesn't change her ways.
So, i finally tell her that we are waiting for aunt Michelle to call back to let us know if they can go over there. She says, "oh, who's that?" I don't know why she asked that, but maybe for the sake of interesting conversation. Bc I then tell her, "A. Michelle, Desiree, Ashely...you know.."
Her: Oh, with the baby kitty. (Bingo..now she gets it...lol). Her face lights up like a Christmas tree or perhaps the sky at 4th of july.
Yes, Makenneh, with the baby kitty.
Her: oooh, can i pet her, mommy? (she pretends to have said baby kitty in her hand, lovingly stroking it's soft fur).
Then all hell breaks loose again, as she chases brother down to get something from him she doesn't want him to have.
See, isn't life just peachy?
Im off now to ride into the sunset (oh wait, it's midday) on our tricycle!
Circus, here we come!
My last day off
Well, today is my last day off. I had three days off in a row. They actually were kinda horrible, to be honest. I have been stressed, the kids have been monsters. I long for a day to myself. No work, no kids.
I'll enlighten you on Sebastian's busy body ways. This morning, he is sitting on the floor near me and i hear crunching. What the hell could he possibly be eating that is that crunchy? How about a small Christmas light sized light bulb? Yep. my mom bought a couple small plastic pumpkin decorations that have a small christmas light bulb in them. He opened the pumpkin (don't ask how) and crunched down on the light bulb....while it was hooked to battery!!! I really have no idea what possesses him to do such crazy things. He is always eating non-food items, his favorite being napkins, toilet paper, things of that nature. The boy doesn't stop.
So, anyway, if anybody is willing to take in a couple extra kids for a day, please let me know. I will surely consider all offers. LOL.
Oh and another stunt he pulled - Makenneh had a glass of chocolate milk that she left out in the kitchen. This is where she is supposed to leave it as I don't want it spilled on the new carpet! Well, Sebastian decided to snatch her drink up, bring it in the living room and you guessed it! I have chocoloate milk stains on my new carpet. I give up. yesterday these kids had me near tears. last night i told jeremy i wish i would just have a nervous breakdown and get it over with. I feel like im constantly fighting to stay one step above that breakdown and I am just sick of the struggle. I suck as a parent, I suck as a housewife. My kids are wild and crazy and misbehaved. My home is trashed, full of junk piles, boxes (from when we were so sure we would get to move), clothes piled everywhere (bc we could really use another dresser around here, but no room really for one). I just get sick of all the clutter and mess. And the last few days has made me sick of all the demands from little ones. It seems like every time i try to sit down and relax, Makenneh needs something...get me this, do that...or Sebastian is getting into something. It really never fails. Just one day I don't want to hear "mmmooommm!" just one. I am sure some of you are reading this and gasping in horror. But, the truth is, we probably all have these days, it's just taboo to talk about them. parenting is all cutesy and lovley and full of sweetness! That's what we are supposed to say. Well, Im here to tell any of you without kids that that is far from the big picture. Sure, right now, Sebastian is being cute as ever...he is climbing all over me, tickling me and laughing his deep belly laugh when I tickle back. But have no fear, he is really scoping the desk out for something to get into.
Well, he has a dirty diaper that needs changed and he needs some redirection bc he is insistant that he belongs in the little cubby space here by the desk.
So, that's what i leave you with this time...the bad, the ugly of motherhood. Maybe ill post some good next time.
I'll enlighten you on Sebastian's busy body ways. This morning, he is sitting on the floor near me and i hear crunching. What the hell could he possibly be eating that is that crunchy? How about a small Christmas light sized light bulb? Yep. my mom bought a couple small plastic pumpkin decorations that have a small christmas light bulb in them. He opened the pumpkin (don't ask how) and crunched down on the light bulb....while it was hooked to battery!!! I really have no idea what possesses him to do such crazy things. He is always eating non-food items, his favorite being napkins, toilet paper, things of that nature. The boy doesn't stop.
So, anyway, if anybody is willing to take in a couple extra kids for a day, please let me know. I will surely consider all offers. LOL.
Oh and another stunt he pulled - Makenneh had a glass of chocolate milk that she left out in the kitchen. This is where she is supposed to leave it as I don't want it spilled on the new carpet! Well, Sebastian decided to snatch her drink up, bring it in the living room and you guessed it! I have chocoloate milk stains on my new carpet. I give up. yesterday these kids had me near tears. last night i told jeremy i wish i would just have a nervous breakdown and get it over with. I feel like im constantly fighting to stay one step above that breakdown and I am just sick of the struggle. I suck as a parent, I suck as a housewife. My kids are wild and crazy and misbehaved. My home is trashed, full of junk piles, boxes (from when we were so sure we would get to move), clothes piled everywhere (bc we could really use another dresser around here, but no room really for one). I just get sick of all the clutter and mess. And the last few days has made me sick of all the demands from little ones. It seems like every time i try to sit down and relax, Makenneh needs something...get me this, do that...or Sebastian is getting into something. It really never fails. Just one day I don't want to hear "mmmooommm!" just one. I am sure some of you are reading this and gasping in horror. But, the truth is, we probably all have these days, it's just taboo to talk about them. parenting is all cutesy and lovley and full of sweetness! That's what we are supposed to say. Well, Im here to tell any of you without kids that that is far from the big picture. Sure, right now, Sebastian is being cute as ever...he is climbing all over me, tickling me and laughing his deep belly laugh when I tickle back. But have no fear, he is really scoping the desk out for something to get into.
Well, he has a dirty diaper that needs changed and he needs some redirection bc he is insistant that he belongs in the little cubby space here by the desk.
So, that's what i leave you with this time...the bad, the ugly of motherhood. Maybe ill post some good next time.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
2nd shift
Well, today starts me week of 2nd shift. Yeah, our schedule starts on Saturday. I guess Walmart just has to be different. But anyway, i work sat, sun, mon and then have tues, wed, thur off. I can't wait for the 3 days in a row off.
Today is Sweetest's Day...just a hallmark holiday. We don't really celebrate it. I mean, we aren't against it, but it's just another day to us.
My mom is keeping Makenneh overnight tonight bc my gma and A. Bev are going to be staying the night there too. Today is a going away party for one of my 2nd cousins. he is joining the national guard.
Well, nothing exciting to say....i need to finish getting ready to go to work...ill be back tonight probably!!!!
Today is Sweetest's Day...just a hallmark holiday. We don't really celebrate it. I mean, we aren't against it, but it's just another day to us.
My mom is keeping Makenneh overnight tonight bc my gma and A. Bev are going to be staying the night there too. Today is a going away party for one of my 2nd cousins. he is joining the national guard.
Well, nothing exciting to say....i need to finish getting ready to go to work...ill be back tonight probably!!!!
Friday, October 20, 2006
Ok, last post for the night
Really, I need to be in bed! 5am comes awfully early! (have i ever mentioned that i hate mornings?...lol)
Makenneh showing off her fashion (if you can call it that). She put her shades and necklace on and just had to have a pic!
Here's the long waited for pic of my furniture! it's not the best pic, but it was late and not good lighting in here. I just knew i needed to get a pic taken to show you guys! That's the love seat. i didn't take pics of the couch or chair. I will get around it someday!
Here's a crappy pic of my entertainment center. Again, it was night, poor lighting and yes, that's Barney babysitting the kids! Hey, they love him.
And that's all folks! I am now free to get to bed. My conscious is clear. I have delivered the promised pics and then some!
Ill give you all a day or so to catch up on all this posting! Or maybe not! I could be back with more pics tomorrow...better watch it! LOL!
Makenneh showing off her fashion (if you can call it that). She put her shades and necklace on and just had to have a pic!
Here's the long waited for pic of my furniture! it's not the best pic, but it was late and not good lighting in here. I just knew i needed to get a pic taken to show you guys! That's the love seat. i didn't take pics of the couch or chair. I will get around it someday!
Here's a crappy pic of my entertainment center. Again, it was night, poor lighting and yes, that's Barney babysitting the kids! Hey, they love him. And that's all folks! I am now free to get to bed. My conscious is clear. I have delivered the promised pics and then some!
Ill give you all a day or so to catch up on all this posting! Or maybe not! I could be back with more pics tomorrow...better watch it! LOL!
More pics (aren't you all so proud?)
Shake Yer Tail Feathers!!!!
That's a duck shaking his for the camera! I just couldn't pass up that photo op!
That's a duck shaking his for the camera! I just couldn't pass up that photo op!
Makenneh and one of her friends, Rachelle. Miss Wendy told me that Makenneh, Rachelle and Amaya are almost inseperable at school!
Makenneh and some friends on the wooden train in the play/picnic area
And now introducing James Bond! Yep, that's the Llama's name.
Makenneh and her carefully selected pumpkin. She had to have a "baby pumpkin". Wanna see indecisive? Set a group of 3-4 yrs olds loose in a pumpkin patch and let them pick any pumpkin they want!
Going through the corn maze...did I mention that it has been rainy here for about a week now? YOu can just imagine the mud we were walking through! It was slippery and yucky and mucky!
Makenneh with Grandma!So, that's about it for the Field Trip! But, wait! There's More!!!! I still have to make another post with furniture pics and a few other random pics!
I told ya i had some catching up to do right?
Are ya sittin down?
Hahahhaha, of course, you are! LOL. And it's a good thing! Because guess what I have to share with you? PICTURES! Yes, that's right, folks, you read right! I have pictures to share! Bout time, huh? Well, i will be honest. The reason I have been so slow in posting pics is bc my printer wasn't hooked up and well, i didn't wanna crawl around to get it hooked up, so i put it off. Today, i finally caved. I could hear your voices in my head saying, "c'mon Christina, get with the program. It's high time you show us some pictures." It was a taunting voice, too. We procrastinators often need nagging voices to motivate us.
Today was Makenneh's very first field trip. We went to Porter's Orchard and went on a hay ride, picked an apple, went through a corn maze, picked a pumpkin, met the animals and then went to the picnic area for cider and donuts.
So, without further ado (is that right?)...here are the pictures:
This is a picture from the hay ride. The lady standing was our tour guide.
This is a pic of Makenneh's Jonagold apple that she picked herself, from the tree. The dark spots you can kinda see are from hail that we had in our last storm when mother nature was pms-ing and forgot that it was still fall, not yet winter.
This is from the left: My brother's gf (Aunt Sara), my brother (Uncle Matt), Makenneh and Mommy. We were in the apple orchard, next to the jonagold trees.
This is makenneh nestled btwn her teachers. She just had to sit by them on the hayride. Miss Wendy is on the left and Miss Brenda on the right. Unfortunately, this pic didn't turn out so well. I was having issues with my camera today=(
Ok, i will post more pics in a seperate post...bc believe me, i have pics to post!
Today was Makenneh's very first field trip. We went to Porter's Orchard and went on a hay ride, picked an apple, went through a corn maze, picked a pumpkin, met the animals and then went to the picnic area for cider and donuts.
So, without further ado (is that right?)...here are the pictures:
This is a picture from the hay ride. The lady standing was our tour guide.
This is a pic of Makenneh's Jonagold apple that she picked herself, from the tree. The dark spots you can kinda see are from hail that we had in our last storm when mother nature was pms-ing and forgot that it was still fall, not yet winter.
This is from the left: My brother's gf (Aunt Sara), my brother (Uncle Matt), Makenneh and Mommy. We were in the apple orchard, next to the jonagold trees.
This is makenneh nestled btwn her teachers. She just had to sit by them on the hayride. Miss Wendy is on the left and Miss Brenda on the right. Unfortunately, this pic didn't turn out so well. I was having issues with my camera today=(Ok, i will post more pics in a seperate post...bc believe me, i have pics to post!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Halloween
1. Think back to Halloweens past. What was your favorite costume?
I don't really recall any specific costumes. I was just always excited to go trick or treating. i do remember being a witch a few years, a baby, a princess, etc
2. Did your parents allow you to go trick or treating? Yes
3. Prefer Private Halloween party or trick or treating? trick or treating
4. Have you ever seen or felt the presence of someone that has passed on? If so tell me. Did they have a message for you?
There are times when i can feel my gparents and/or aunt near. Nothing scary, just a comfort sort of feeling.
5. Did you know that Halloween is the Witches' New Year? nope
6. Have you ever studied Wicca or any of the Occult Arts? Which, tell? No I have not.
7. Popcorn balls or Candy Apples? Caramel apples, although "grandma" Donna always made homemade popcorn balls and did up goody bags for all us kids....
8. Did you do naughty things as a teen on Halloween night when you were too old to go trick or treating? nope
9. Confess. What was it? see above
10. Do you like to stroll through graveyards with someone? only if im visiting loved one's graves. Other than that, i think it is highly disrespectful to goof off, vandalize or otherwise act a fool at a cemetary
11. Do you like creepy people, meaning are they fun? No I do not.
12. The follow is a list of words.
SAY THE FIRST THING THAT POPS INTO YOUR MIND WITHOUT THINKING:
SPIDER: creepy crawly
GHOST white
DEVIL hate
SAW the movie
DREAM every night...strange ones
PUMPKIN seeds
BATHOUSE less mosquitos to bite me
SKELETON bones
CANDY sweet
BLACK CAT aawwww
FRIDAY THE 13TH just another day..depending on the month, bdays
FAIRY tooth
AFRAID scared
BLOOD red
MIRROR reflection
CROW black
CANDY CORN fall
EEK! A Mouse!
SPOOKY dark, deserted
STRANGER beware
MOON Full
FIRE hot
HIDE AND SEEK kids
HALLOWEEN Oct. 31
CREEKING steps
BOX packing
LETTER Stacy
OUIJI BOARD game
TAROT CARDS not my thing
GYPSY con artist..(like that one julie)
WAX MUSEUM statues
GAS LIGHT better get to the gas station
13. Do you think most abandoned prisons are haunted? No
14. Do you tell ghost stories when families gather round? not usually
15. Were you afriad of the dark as a child? Not really. I'm more afraid of it now.
16. Did you scare kids smaller than you? Never
17. Would you lay on a grave if dared? nope, it feels disrespectful to me
18. Would you like hayrides in the country? yes
19. Have you ever played a scarey practical joke? Tell~ No I haven't.
20. Have you ever been to a haunted house? nothing too scary
21. Are areas in your house haunted? no
22. Do you believe in haunted cars? No
23. Have you ever slept in bed with someone just because you were scared? as a kid, i would go to parents' room if had a bad dream or storming
24. Name five items that remind you of Halloween. candy, trick or treating, chilly/fall, pumpkins, costumes
25. Whats your favorite Halloween music trac? don't have one...and when i worked at Great Party, they played halloween cds all day every day and now i don't care if i never hear another "halloween" themed song in my life...including monster mash, purple people eater
26. On Trick or Treat night have you ever hid and scared trick or treaters? No
27. Have you ever been alone and heard someone call your name? Can't say that I have.
28. Have you ever been so spooked that you run out of your house? No
29. Have you ever been driving at night and had wierd experiences? no
30. What would you do if you were driving on a lonely road at night and had a blow-out with your tire? call someone..the same thing id do in the day time on a busy road
31. Have you ever gotten lost driving at night? no
32. Do you ever have night paranormal experiences driving such as you think you saw someone run caross the road in front of you. no
33. Have you ever been to a fortune teller? No
34. Except for the obvious what freaks you out most in a funeral home? nothing "freaks" me out (it's a part of life). Ive spent my fair share in funeral homes
35. Have you ever been scared at a funeral? no, see above
36. Have you ever had an experience with objects floating or flying off the shelf. Tell. no
37. Do you know of places where anyone has killed their self? (Stacy, please read with caution..sensitive information follows) yes...my friend's uncle shot himself on their couch
38. Have you ever seen what you though was a ufo? No I haven't.
39. Is there people in your family that see the future or tell things about them? Most of us seem to have a 6th sense. My sister has had dreams several times of someone in the family dying shortly before they die.
40. Have you ever stood beside someone you didnt know and sensed their evil nature? Yes, I can usually sense that quite well.
41. Have you ever had conversations with the dead? (Such as your grandmother or something?) not conversations, but i do talk to them sometimes to ease my own mind
42. Hsve you ever told a presence to leave? Did they? No if i felt someone present, it wasn't a scary thing
43. Have you ever run across peculiar smells that gave you a very bad feeling? Not that's given me bad feelings, but i occassionally will smell something that reminds me of my grandparents or aunt.
44. Do you have psychic abilities? not really
45. Sleep with your door closed or open? open...have little kids and need to hear if they wake up in the night
46. Do closet doors open by themselves at your house? no.
47. Do you have upstairs and are you comfortable with sleeping on the second story of your home? No stairs here
48. Spookiest dream you ever had: i can't think of anything specific..ive had a few.
49. Tell us a scary secret youve never told anyone. I don't have one to share.
50. Thunderstorms at night remind you of: peaceful sleep
I don't really recall any specific costumes. I was just always excited to go trick or treating. i do remember being a witch a few years, a baby, a princess, etc
2. Did your parents allow you to go trick or treating? Yes
3. Prefer Private Halloween party or trick or treating? trick or treating
4. Have you ever seen or felt the presence of someone that has passed on? If so tell me. Did they have a message for you?
There are times when i can feel my gparents and/or aunt near. Nothing scary, just a comfort sort of feeling.
5. Did you know that Halloween is the Witches' New Year? nope
6. Have you ever studied Wicca or any of the Occult Arts? Which, tell? No I have not.
7. Popcorn balls or Candy Apples? Caramel apples, although "grandma" Donna always made homemade popcorn balls and did up goody bags for all us kids....
8. Did you do naughty things as a teen on Halloween night when you were too old to go trick or treating? nope
9. Confess. What was it? see above
10. Do you like to stroll through graveyards with someone? only if im visiting loved one's graves. Other than that, i think it is highly disrespectful to goof off, vandalize or otherwise act a fool at a cemetary
11. Do you like creepy people, meaning are they fun? No I do not.
12. The follow is a list of words.
SAY THE FIRST THING THAT POPS INTO YOUR MIND WITHOUT THINKING:
SPIDER: creepy crawly
GHOST white
DEVIL hate
SAW the movie
DREAM every night...strange ones
PUMPKIN seeds
BATHOUSE less mosquitos to bite me
SKELETON bones
CANDY sweet
BLACK CAT aawwww
FRIDAY THE 13TH just another day..depending on the month, bdays
FAIRY tooth
AFRAID scared
BLOOD red
MIRROR reflection
CROW black
CANDY CORN fall
EEK! A Mouse!
SPOOKY dark, deserted
STRANGER beware
MOON Full
FIRE hot
HIDE AND SEEK kids
HALLOWEEN Oct. 31
CREEKING steps
BOX packing
LETTER Stacy
OUIJI BOARD game
TAROT CARDS not my thing
GYPSY con artist..(like that one julie)
WAX MUSEUM statues
GAS LIGHT better get to the gas station
13. Do you think most abandoned prisons are haunted? No
14. Do you tell ghost stories when families gather round? not usually
15. Were you afriad of the dark as a child? Not really. I'm more afraid of it now.
16. Did you scare kids smaller than you? Never
17. Would you lay on a grave if dared? nope, it feels disrespectful to me
18. Would you like hayrides in the country? yes
19. Have you ever played a scarey practical joke? Tell~ No I haven't.
20. Have you ever been to a haunted house? nothing too scary
21. Are areas in your house haunted? no
22. Do you believe in haunted cars? No
23. Have you ever slept in bed with someone just because you were scared? as a kid, i would go to parents' room if had a bad dream or storming
24. Name five items that remind you of Halloween. candy, trick or treating, chilly/fall, pumpkins, costumes
25. Whats your favorite Halloween music trac? don't have one...and when i worked at Great Party, they played halloween cds all day every day and now i don't care if i never hear another "halloween" themed song in my life...including monster mash, purple people eater
26. On Trick or Treat night have you ever hid and scared trick or treaters? No
27. Have you ever been alone and heard someone call your name? Can't say that I have.
28. Have you ever been so spooked that you run out of your house? No
29. Have you ever been driving at night and had wierd experiences? no
30. What would you do if you were driving on a lonely road at night and had a blow-out with your tire? call someone..the same thing id do in the day time on a busy road
31. Have you ever gotten lost driving at night? no
32. Do you ever have night paranormal experiences driving such as you think you saw someone run caross the road in front of you. no
33. Have you ever been to a fortune teller? No
34. Except for the obvious what freaks you out most in a funeral home? nothing "freaks" me out (it's a part of life). Ive spent my fair share in funeral homes
35. Have you ever been scared at a funeral? no, see above
36. Have you ever had an experience with objects floating or flying off the shelf. Tell. no
37. Do you know of places where anyone has killed their self? (Stacy, please read with caution..sensitive information follows) yes...my friend's uncle shot himself on their couch
38. Have you ever seen what you though was a ufo? No I haven't.
39. Is there people in your family that see the future or tell things about them? Most of us seem to have a 6th sense. My sister has had dreams several times of someone in the family dying shortly before they die.
40. Have you ever stood beside someone you didnt know and sensed their evil nature? Yes, I can usually sense that quite well.
41. Have you ever had conversations with the dead? (Such as your grandmother or something?) not conversations, but i do talk to them sometimes to ease my own mind
42. Hsve you ever told a presence to leave? Did they? No if i felt someone present, it wasn't a scary thing
43. Have you ever run across peculiar smells that gave you a very bad feeling? Not that's given me bad feelings, but i occassionally will smell something that reminds me of my grandparents or aunt.
44. Do you have psychic abilities? not really
45. Sleep with your door closed or open? open...have little kids and need to hear if they wake up in the night
46. Do closet doors open by themselves at your house? no.
47. Do you have upstairs and are you comfortable with sleeping on the second story of your home? No stairs here
48. Spookiest dream you ever had: i can't think of anything specific..ive had a few.
49. Tell us a scary secret youve never told anyone. I don't have one to share.
50. Thunderstorms at night remind you of: peaceful sleep
3 Things
Three Things Meme
1.Things that scare me:
*losing my parents, Jeremy and/or my kids
*real scary movies
*The dark (when im alone)
2. People who make me laugh:
*Jeremy
*my kids (i know, that's technically 2..but...)
*Helen..
3. Things I hate the most:
*Shelfishness
*pettiness
*Losing my temper
4. Things I don't understand:
*mistreatment of children
*selfishness
*Michigan weather
5. Things I'm doing right now:
*freezing
*chasing Sebastian out of everything in sight
*planning my day
6. Things I want to do before I die:
*start a non-profit organization to help low income families
*Own house.
* Visit Germany
7. Things I can do:
*sleep (i do this well, btw)
*understand/empathize
* anything if i put my mind to it
8. Ways to describe my personality:
*thoughtful
*giving
*kind
9. Things I can't do:
*say no
*keep this place clean
*let my kids cry for very long
10. Things I think you should listen to:
*Your heart and your head (Hav to agree with julie on this one)
*Music that makes you happy (and this one)
*Children's laughter
11. Things you should never listen to:
*Bad advice
*negative ppl
*tabloids...lol
12. Things I'd like to learn:
*patience
*good cooking (ok really, if i had patience, i could do this)
*anything crafty
13. Favorite foods:
*almost anything mexican
*Pizza
*anything i don't have to cook or clean up
14. Beverages I drink regularly:
*coke
*coke
*coke
15. Shows I watched as a kid:
*Mr. Rogers
*Sesame Street
*The chef (on pbs...came on right after 321-contact)
16. Persons I'm tagging to do this meme:
*Anyone that has the time :)
1.Things that scare me:
*losing my parents, Jeremy and/or my kids
*real scary movies
*The dark (when im alone)
2. People who make me laugh:
*Jeremy
*my kids (i know, that's technically 2..but...)
*Helen..
3. Things I hate the most:
*Shelfishness
*pettiness
*Losing my temper
4. Things I don't understand:
*mistreatment of children
*selfishness
*Michigan weather
5. Things I'm doing right now:
*freezing
*chasing Sebastian out of everything in sight
*planning my day
6. Things I want to do before I die:
*start a non-profit organization to help low income families
*Own house.
* Visit Germany
7. Things I can do:
*sleep (i do this well, btw)
*understand/empathize
* anything if i put my mind to it
8. Ways to describe my personality:
*thoughtful
*giving
*kind
9. Things I can't do:
*say no
*keep this place clean
*let my kids cry for very long
10. Things I think you should listen to:
*Your heart and your head (Hav to agree with julie on this one)
*Music that makes you happy (and this one)
*Children's laughter
11. Things you should never listen to:
*Bad advice
*negative ppl
*tabloids...lol
12. Things I'd like to learn:
*patience
*good cooking (ok really, if i had patience, i could do this)
*anything crafty
13. Favorite foods:
*almost anything mexican
*Pizza
*anything i don't have to cook or clean up
14. Beverages I drink regularly:
*coke
*coke
*coke
15. Shows I watched as a kid:
*Mr. Rogers
*Sesame Street
*The chef (on pbs...came on right after 321-contact)
16. Persons I'm tagging to do this meme:
*Anyone that has the time :)
Friday, October 13, 2006
Guess What?
I finally took a couple pics of my furniture! Can you believe it. But....I will have to post them later bc my printer isnt hooked up and that's how i load them to the pc. But, i will do all that tomorrow and post!
I need to work on getting these kids to bed so i can get some sleep. I have my friend's one kid tonight too, bc she works 3rd and her hubby is doing a double.
I need to work on getting these kids to bed so i can get some sleep. I have my friend's one kid tonight too, bc she works 3rd and her hubby is doing a double.
good wife
For today anyway. Jeremy called on his way home from work to see if I cared if he went bowling with his friend (it's his friend's bday). I agreed. I must admit, i don't care for this lil bunch of friends bc they are in late 20s and act like they are 15. They delight in doing such things as stealing the newspaper from ppl's newpaper boxes, doing lawn jobs, stealing from stores (mostly gas stations), just being stupid. But, i have to let him do some things with his friends, bc in all honesty, he never goes anywhere or does anything with his friends. They are bowling from 10-midnight then jeremy is having them bring him home, the rest of them are going to bar. Jeremy doesn't want to go. Good choice. I am also making him leave his money here, except for enough to bowl and have a few drinks. Otherwise, he will get a lil "free" with the money and we will be broke for the week and i will be mad and we will argue and well, you get the picture.
I also have to remind him that the kids are all his from 530am til 1130 am while i work...so he can't make a late night or drink too much.
Well sounds like he is home now, so im gonna get off here so he can get his check cashed and we can figure out what we will do in the meantime.
I also have to remind him that the kids are all his from 530am til 1130 am while i work...so he can't make a late night or drink too much.
Well sounds like he is home now, so im gonna get off here so he can get his check cashed and we can figure out what we will do in the meantime.
Raking Leaves
Yeah, it's the time of year where we should be raking leaves, here in Michigan. Instead....it snowed a considerable amount yesterday. Enough so to cause accidents on the freeway, cover the ground and cause us to have to clean snow off our cars before driving. It's just crazy. And cold. The temp is only 36 degrees. I'm not happy about it. The only thing i can hope for is that spring comes early! LOL.
Today is my day off. I did manage to get the living room cleaned up and vaccumed. I got a half ass nap and dusted my entertainment center.
Well, not much exciting to say, really.
Oh, yesterday at school, Makenneh's teacher had a firetruck visit the kids. They were able to climb in and on it, sound the whistles and bells and all that good stuff. The kids loved it. Makenneh told me all about it.
Well, that's it, for now!
Today is my day off. I did manage to get the living room cleaned up and vaccumed. I got a half ass nap and dusted my entertainment center.
Well, not much exciting to say, really.
Oh, yesterday at school, Makenneh's teacher had a firetruck visit the kids. They were able to climb in and on it, sound the whistles and bells and all that good stuff. The kids loved it. Makenneh told me all about it.
Well, that's it, for now!
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Surprise, Surprise
Well, i made it up on time this morning. Wasn't happy about being up, but i was up. I actually feel half way decent this afternoon. But, Makenneh is being a stinker. She doesn't want Sebastian taking a nap and she is just stomping around and being bratty. I have surprisingly kept my cool. I haven't even yelled. YET! I have the dishes ready to be washed....just havent started washing them yet...but the suds are in the sink, waiting for me to return. it's a step in the right direction.
My boss will be back from his vacation tomorrow, so i can talk to him about the scheduling conflict. I really hope he understands, beings that he is 25 yrs old, unmarried, no kids and I think still lives at home.
My work day was better today. I was on an express lane. It was dead slow in the wee hours of the morning and started to pick up about an hour before I left. I got out of work, picked the kids up and we came home and had lunch first thing. So, at least I know he will be fed 2 times today. Actually, i know he will be fed 3 times bc ill be home ot make dinner tonight. I feel a bit overwhelmed at the fact that i have to get this place clean, make dinner, wash some clothes (dryer doesn't work though...so i guess ill get to hang clothes all over to dry). Perhaps a nap would be nice, afterall.....pracrastinator's motto: Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow....or at least until "later". LOL. Not too funny really. Especially if you stopped by my place and saw the mess.
But i am off here to do something...clean, nap, who knows!
My boss will be back from his vacation tomorrow, so i can talk to him about the scheduling conflict. I really hope he understands, beings that he is 25 yrs old, unmarried, no kids and I think still lives at home.
My work day was better today. I was on an express lane. It was dead slow in the wee hours of the morning and started to pick up about an hour before I left. I got out of work, picked the kids up and we came home and had lunch first thing. So, at least I know he will be fed 2 times today. Actually, i know he will be fed 3 times bc ill be home ot make dinner tonight. I feel a bit overwhelmed at the fact that i have to get this place clean, make dinner, wash some clothes (dryer doesn't work though...so i guess ill get to hang clothes all over to dry). Perhaps a nap would be nice, afterall.....pracrastinator's motto: Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow....or at least until "later". LOL. Not too funny really. Especially if you stopped by my place and saw the mess.
But i am off here to do something...clean, nap, who knows!
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I can't do this
Work this 6am-11am shift, that is. It is taking it's toll on my body, my kids and just not worth the hassle. It seems so difficult to find a happy medium while being a work out of the home mom. I hate the stress and hassle that comes with it. In order to have a sitter for the kids while working this stupid shift, they have to stay the night at sitters (my aunts, mother in laws, etc) bc nobody wants to be up at 5am to babysit. Not to mention, i can't get up at 330am to get myself and two kids ready to be out the door by 430-5am at hte latest. They will be very unhappy getting woke up, hauled out into the cold morning and it's just not gonna work. I am an insomniac, hate mornings and so i don't get to bed til late, I oversleep, get to work late, just overall not a good thing. I give a standing ovation to all you women who work out of the home. Of course, if we had 2 cars it would help some of the problem, too. But, finding this routine and getting into a groove, just isn't happening. tonight, my kids had to go with my mother in law and Makenneh cried that she just wanted to stay home. It broke my heart. I feel like an ass of a mother. I am supposed to have my kids at home with me at night. I am supposed to be the one they wake up to. I am supposed to be the one to answer their cries in the night. They stayed last night with my aunt Michelle. They did great ( that was the first night they had to stay away for this shift). Then, i picked them up at 1130am, we came home, took naps, bc we were all tired. woke up in time to get Makenneh dressed and ready for school, dropped her off, waiting for jeremy to get home, he dropped me off at my sister's for bunco and then mother in law brought me home and picked up the kids. Then, ill pick them up at 1130 am, do whatever....take Makenneh to school, pick her up, the kids will go back to mother in laws and i will pick them up thurs morning at 1130. I then have friday off. Work the 6-11 on the weekend, have mon and tues off, work 6-11 wed, thur, fri. Then starting sat, i work 2pm-11pm until monday, have tue, wed, thur off, work the 2-11 fri and don't know the next schedule. I think im gonna ask if my 6-11 shifts can be switched to 10-3 or something like that. It will work out much better for me and my family. Ok, im sure you are all sick of hearing my scheduling issues, but it just breaks my heart to deal with this. I sit here, my kids with gma, knowing I should be going to bed, but not feeling able to sleep.
But, i think im gonna go crawl into bed with Jeremy, snuggle up to him and let the rest of world go away until morning. At least, ill try. Sooo....say a prayer that this schedule stuff works out for me and that I can also get some sleep and get to work on time tomorrow morning. Ive worked this shift 3 days and have been late 2 of them.
good night, all
But, i think im gonna go crawl into bed with Jeremy, snuggle up to him and let the rest of world go away until morning. At least, ill try. Sooo....say a prayer that this schedule stuff works out for me and that I can also get some sleep and get to work on time tomorrow morning. Ive worked this shift 3 days and have been late 2 of them.
good night, all
Monday, October 09, 2006
Ho hum
Nothing real exciting to post, really. I have been working and that's about it. Makenneh's teacher did come out and Makenneh is doing great in school. She loves school and the teacher said that she gets along great with everyone and is often the "go btwn" for groups. She tries to get them to play together, work together, etc. Ms. Wendy also said that when Makenneh joins a group, she goes with the flow and just fits in, rather than coming in and trying to take over. She said Makenneh does anything asked of her and if the teachers say that someone needs to clean up a certain mess, Makenneh will look around, see if anyone is going to do it and if not, she will get up and do it. This can't be the same child that lives here with me? LOL. She is going to see the speech therapist at the school, bc she does have some trouble with speech. Im glad that its caught early enough to get it corrected.
Saturday night, Jeremy and I went to the races with my brother and Sara. It was fun. They ran super late bc cars kept crashing, they had several engines blow, spewing fluids all over the track, which has to be dried up before racing can resume. so, it was like 130am and still had 2 races to go, so we just left. I had to be to work at 6am! Needless to say, i was quite tired Sunday at work! And all day for that matter.
My sister had an adult toy party yesterday through Pure Romance. Those are always fun! I booked one for myself for November 8th.
Well, Mr. Sebastian is up from his nap, so I have to get off here nad get him outta the crib. Take care and ill be back soon to share some more!
Saturday night, Jeremy and I went to the races with my brother and Sara. It was fun. They ran super late bc cars kept crashing, they had several engines blow, spewing fluids all over the track, which has to be dried up before racing can resume. so, it was like 130am and still had 2 races to go, so we just left. I had to be to work at 6am! Needless to say, i was quite tired Sunday at work! And all day for that matter.
My sister had an adult toy party yesterday through Pure Romance. Those are always fun! I booked one for myself for November 8th.
Well, Mr. Sebastian is up from his nap, so I have to get off here nad get him outta the crib. Take care and ill be back soon to share some more!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
All good things must end...
Even feel good days. Today was a day from Hell! I had the day off, didn't accomplish shit, somehow the day got completely away from me. I feel like I went through a time warp or something. Jeremy got home to the house in much the same shape as it was when he left this morning. He voiced his disappointment about this. I was already feeling shitty for not getting anything done. I took his disappointment very personal and waged a war for the rest of the evening. i was very snippy, smart assed and just all out bitchy. I was very passive aggressive, making snide remarks every chance i got. And of course, he retaliated in much the same way. We were just both irritable, i guess. Well, i got over myself for awhile. Long enough for sex, anyway. Go figure! But then, i was back to bitch in no time at all. It escalated to the point that he packed his shit and called a friend to come get him. I refrained from throwing myself at his feet and begging him to stay, which is my norm. This time, i remained calmed. I told him if he wanted to go, go. I wasn't gonna stand in his way. I just came out to living room and went about my own things. But as he got closer to be completely packed, and closer to time for someone to show up to pick him, anxiety, sadness and really, desperation sat in. Yet, I refrained from begging and pleading. He went outside, i followed him out. He lit a cigarette and stood there. I took this time to calmly talk to him. I told him that I never told him he had to leave, that I wouldn't beg him to stay, but I didn't want him to leave. That's when he told me that he didn't want to leave either. He was sick of me nagging and bitching and ......to sum it up, we stood outside and had a very calm, effective conversation. The first we have had in a long time, actually, which is the real problem. Life gets in the way and our marriage suffers most. We forget to stop and take time to be friends, to be lovers, to talk, share, be a couple. So, the whole time we talked about things, i never once asked him to stay or even if he was gonna stay. I didn't bring it up. Well, Makenneh called me inside, so i came in for a min, and when i came back out, he was on the phone telling his friend to nevermind that he was gonna stay and talk it out with me. That made me feel better to know that it was his own decision and not because i coerced him. We both apologized to each other for the things we said which really sparked the whole mess. We talked about the things we need to work on to stay happy and we spent the rest of the evening together as a family on the couch, watching Barney!!!!
So, all iin all, I feel like crap right now. Im exhausted mentally, yet can't sleep. I have to add that we were able to laugh and have a good conversation even once in the house with the kids. Unlike usual, we were all interacting with each other and it just felt so good.
Well, I am done taking the load off my shoulders for now. Thanks for listening (reading).
So, all iin all, I feel like crap right now. Im exhausted mentally, yet can't sleep. I have to add that we were able to laugh and have a good conversation even once in the house with the kids. Unlike usual, we were all interacting with each other and it just felt so good.
Well, I am done taking the load off my shoulders for now. Thanks for listening (reading).
Monday, October 02, 2006
Feel Good Kinda Day
And the reason I feel best is this:
Yes, we got the carpet down today. But that isn't the best. The best is that we have decided to not worry about doing the hallway (i can't bear the thought of hacking up a perfectly large piece of carpet to do one narrow hallway that will only be lived in by us for a year). So, we have one whole piece of carpet left. I was looking at the measurements written on it and was like OOOohhh my! It is 14ft X 20ft. I said this out loud and jeremy said...we put the wrong carpet down in the living room, didn't we? Not at all what I was thinking..but i checked and DUH..yes we did. But no big deal, really. What I was really excited about is that my mom's living room is something like 16X20. They tore up the back part of the house several years ago, redug the crawl space, yadda, yadda. The point is, that even 5-6 yrs later, she still has no carpet down. Mostly, I guess cuz dad keeps talking of totally redoing everything, flipping rooms around, etc. So, why waste money on carpet to just tear it up. Well, the fact that there is no carpet in there depresses mom. The walls are fresh crisp white with beautiful soft pale green trim...but! The carpet is missing. So, i call mom up and ask what her living room measurements are. I ask her about the 2ft difference...well that is the bow window area, where she has all her plants. I told her about the carpet we had left. I told her about not wanting to cut it up for just a lil bit down the hall. I TOLD HER "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" She couldn't believe it. She asked if i was serious? Of course, im serious. What else will i do with a roll of carpet but give it away. Sure, i could try to sell it, but that would not give me anywhere near the great feeling giving this carpet to mom has given me. We decided it would be best to do a tile floor for the bow window area anyway, bc of the water/dirt with the plants. much easier to clean up spills with tile. I feel so good that I was able to give her one thing that she has wanted for a long time. And dad can't say...well, i want to remodel and do this or that...Its a gift. He has to keep quiet and accept it. LOL. Even if it may mean work for him. My mom will be so ecstatic to have carpet. She may just invite anyone and everyone to her home. I have absolutely no idea why we bought so much carpet. I have no idea why I decided to not bother with the hallway. But everything does happen for a reason. And now I know why it all happened this way. I was planning on keeping it a secret and having brother and sis help with padding and all that good stuff and sending them away near Christmastime to do it. But, i can't keep secrets like that...I was bubbling with excitement and I just had to tell her all about it now! Can you tell how great this makes me feel? I can't shut up about the damn carpet. It's not the carpet...its the happiness in my mom's voice as I told her the carpet was hers. My brother was there when I called and told her. I guess after we hung up, she was so excited, while telling my brother and his girlfriend about it. I want to cry. We spent a total of 250.00 on the 2 rolls of carpets (they were remnants bought from a friend of the family's carpet store). When we were handing over that cold, hard cash, I never thought it would lead to such feelings of happiness! This carpet is worth every red cent spent and so much more!
Ok...lol. Back to my place. We got the carpet down...threw out that old nasty couch! IT looks so much better in the dumpster, in pieces! My brother is taking our entertainment center and recliner. Still don't have a home for our love seat.. But, they are getting our "new to us" furniture tomorrow. Tomorrow I work from 2pm-11pm. When i get home tomorrow night, i will have a matching living room set with new carpet. It will all match. It will shine and sparkle. Ok, maybe not, but damn it will look good. Then, next saturday, mother in law is coming over to hang some wallpaper for me. She loves to do the wallpaper thing. I have some that mom had given me quite awhile ago and I have just never used it. now I will. It's not what I would exactly want in here, but it is light and bright will lighten this room up. Cover up some of this dark wood paneling. So, it will work. I will take pics when it's all said and done to share. Speaking of pics....jeremy; found my digital camera during all this work. It had fell behind the loveseat. So, i can take pics now! woohoo!!!!
Ok, ive written a novel and now im ending. til next time...good night~!
Yes, we got the carpet down today. But that isn't the best. The best is that we have decided to not worry about doing the hallway (i can't bear the thought of hacking up a perfectly large piece of carpet to do one narrow hallway that will only be lived in by us for a year). So, we have one whole piece of carpet left. I was looking at the measurements written on it and was like OOOohhh my! It is 14ft X 20ft. I said this out loud and jeremy said...we put the wrong carpet down in the living room, didn't we? Not at all what I was thinking..but i checked and DUH..yes we did. But no big deal, really. What I was really excited about is that my mom's living room is something like 16X20. They tore up the back part of the house several years ago, redug the crawl space, yadda, yadda. The point is, that even 5-6 yrs later, she still has no carpet down. Mostly, I guess cuz dad keeps talking of totally redoing everything, flipping rooms around, etc. So, why waste money on carpet to just tear it up. Well, the fact that there is no carpet in there depresses mom. The walls are fresh crisp white with beautiful soft pale green trim...but! The carpet is missing. So, i call mom up and ask what her living room measurements are. I ask her about the 2ft difference...well that is the bow window area, where she has all her plants. I told her about the carpet we had left. I told her about not wanting to cut it up for just a lil bit down the hall. I TOLD HER "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" She couldn't believe it. She asked if i was serious? Of course, im serious. What else will i do with a roll of carpet but give it away. Sure, i could try to sell it, but that would not give me anywhere near the great feeling giving this carpet to mom has given me. We decided it would be best to do a tile floor for the bow window area anyway, bc of the water/dirt with the plants. much easier to clean up spills with tile. I feel so good that I was able to give her one thing that she has wanted for a long time. And dad can't say...well, i want to remodel and do this or that...Its a gift. He has to keep quiet and accept it. LOL. Even if it may mean work for him. My mom will be so ecstatic to have carpet. She may just invite anyone and everyone to her home. I have absolutely no idea why we bought so much carpet. I have no idea why I decided to not bother with the hallway. But everything does happen for a reason. And now I know why it all happened this way. I was planning on keeping it a secret and having brother and sis help with padding and all that good stuff and sending them away near Christmastime to do it. But, i can't keep secrets like that...I was bubbling with excitement and I just had to tell her all about it now! Can you tell how great this makes me feel? I can't shut up about the damn carpet. It's not the carpet...its the happiness in my mom's voice as I told her the carpet was hers. My brother was there when I called and told her. I guess after we hung up, she was so excited, while telling my brother and his girlfriend about it. I want to cry. We spent a total of 250.00 on the 2 rolls of carpets (they were remnants bought from a friend of the family's carpet store). When we were handing over that cold, hard cash, I never thought it would lead to such feelings of happiness! This carpet is worth every red cent spent and so much more!
Ok...lol. Back to my place. We got the carpet down...threw out that old nasty couch! IT looks so much better in the dumpster, in pieces! My brother is taking our entertainment center and recliner. Still don't have a home for our love seat.. But, they are getting our "new to us" furniture tomorrow. Tomorrow I work from 2pm-11pm. When i get home tomorrow night, i will have a matching living room set with new carpet. It will all match. It will shine and sparkle. Ok, maybe not, but damn it will look good. Then, next saturday, mother in law is coming over to hang some wallpaper for me. She loves to do the wallpaper thing. I have some that mom had given me quite awhile ago and I have just never used it. now I will. It's not what I would exactly want in here, but it is light and bright will lighten this room up. Cover up some of this dark wood paneling. So, it will work. I will take pics when it's all said and done to share. Speaking of pics....jeremy; found my digital camera during all this work. It had fell behind the loveseat. So, i can take pics now! woohoo!!!!
Ok, ive written a novel and now im ending. til next time...good night~!
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