Weekend Wind Down

Well, we had a gorgeous day, weather wise. The kids spent most of the day outside. We cooked out on the grill, I did some cleaning...it was a great day overall. Probably one of the better I have had in a long time. Of course, the evening seems to be punctuated with the kids fighting. They are both very tired but heaven forbid they should just give in and call it a night.

I'm supposed to go with my sister tomorrow to register for her bridal shower/wedding and then we are going to go to mom's and work on getting the shower invites filled out, addressed and ready to mail. I was hoping to have a sitter for the day, but it doesn't seem likely that it will work out that way. Aunt Michelle's household has the flu and then my cousin Shannon is going for Lasik eye surgery in the am...so Aunt Kathy won't want kids to chase after when Shannon isn't feeling up to helping out. So, mom said she will babysit, rather than go with us girls. I am kinda bummed about that, but it will be nice for just sis and i to get out i suppose. And then when we get back to mom's we will just have to contend with kids while doing the invites. Good thing the weather will be decent and there are lots of things to do at gmas! LOL.

I've done very well with keeping the housework up! It feels good to know that I won't have to tackle a huge chore before Makenneh's teachers come for their home visit this friday.

And about the Habitat for Humanity meeting..i thought i had posted about the meeting, but i noticed Julie asked how it went when she replied to my last post. So, maybe i didn't..and i am too lazy to go back and check...so forgive me if i am reitterating. I think it was a huge waste of our time. I say that because they are only building in Flint for the next 2 yrs. They already have the building sites picked through 2008. So, i don't want to live flint, for reasons i had mentioned before....high crime, poor schools, just overall bad areas. Not my cup of tea. I am far from a snob, but when your kids can't safely play out in their yards, it's not the place for me to put down roots. Other than that, we meet all of the qualifications...so it's just too bad that they don't want to build in more rural areas. I guess their whole idea is to build in areas that by their building, will create a great impact on the community. Well, that's all fine and good, but just not practical for my family. I still think the program is great and offers great opportunity. We could put down that we will only live in certain areas...but then you can be stuck waiting for a home for years to come. Well, i do not want to sit in my current condition/place of dwelling, waiting for a habitat home. We need to find a bigger place and sooner is by far better. So, it looks like we will have to seek alternate options. There is a house for sale down the road from my parents. It was foreclosed on and will go for about 50k. It is a 4 bed, 2 bath with a lil over 2 acres. The previous owners had also put on a huge addition. But the only way we could get it would be to have his dad co-sign or something of that nature. I just don't know. All i do know is this place is way too small for us and we need something else soon.

Anyway, Sebastian takes advantage any chance he gets and gets into stuff, so gotta run. I have already told them that as soon as this movie is over, they are bed bound. He is ready to drop as it is, but won't sit still, bc he knows if he does, he will fall out. Grrrr!

Spring must have sprung...

The weather has been great the last few days. It is supposed to hit low 50s this week. The sun is shining and life is beautiful! Jeremy thinks we need to cook out on the grill today. LOL. There is still some patches of snow on the ground, but hey never too early to enjoy the scrumptious taste of grilled food, eh?

The daylight savings time went smoothly for me. I was dreading my hour loss of sleep, but really didn't notice it. Woohoo! And Im walking on sunshine...of course, there are underlying reasons for all my bliss, but they are quite XXX rated and probably shouldn't be shared....lol. And add to it that the children are being absolutely divine..and what more could i possibly ask for? My cup surely runneth over today!

Happy Birthday to Sophie! I hope she is having an absolutely marvelous day!

and that's all i have for now...I will go read my book and relax!

New Addition

I went to my Aunt Michelle's yesterday and Desiree sent this monkey home with Makenneh. He is one of those Fur Real Pets. He is interactive and will go off on any given whim with his "ooh ohh hahhhha!" Sebastian doesn't care much for him,so i figure he could work as a great deterrent. For instance, Seb loves to go in the kitchen, push a chair to the counter and climb up. Perhaps if i set the monkey in the threshhold of the kitchen, he will avoid it?! LOL. If that seemed to work, you could guess what the kids would be getting for their upcoming bdays?! LOL.
He even moves his arms and eyes and stuff. very lifelike! I didn't have the heart to tell Des that I already have 2 monkeys and really didn't need a 3rd.




Makenneh took him to school yesterday for show and tell. The kids loved him.

I really miss my crib. Yes, im jumping topics..this gives you a look into just how scatterbrained i can be. Anyway, it's really hard to get Seb to bed at night. With the crib, i could put him in, let him cry....he goes to sleep. But without the crib...i have to get him to sleep before i can leave him be. I know i should just keep putting him in the bed, over and over. But, God, please forgive me that i don't have patience for all of that. I shall work on it though. I want both kids to go in and go to bed when told. I am sick of bed time hassles. I am sick of them being up all night. I want to be able to go to bed with my husband sometimes. I want to be able engage in Adult activity with my husband sometimes, other than on weekends. Not so possible when he has to be in bed around 9 and kids are still up.

Tomorrow is our meeting with Habitat for Humanity. Please wish us luck, say some prayers. I want this work. We need 3 bedrooms so bad. I am almost tempted to turn my dining room area into a 3rd bedroom, bc i can't stand the hassle of them sharing a room. There are nights where she would lay in her bed and go to sleep, but he won't and she whines and wants him out..there are times when she wants to be by herself bc she is feeling grumpy and he will go in and mess with her and make her mad..it's just crazy sometimes.

I'm working on my list of questions for the meeting, but my mind is drawing a blank...if anyone thinks of some things i should ask, please reply. The biggest thing im concerned with is location. In order for Jeremy to continue being able to ride with his coworker, we need to stay in the same town. If he has to drive, well that's a huge problem, as he has no license and it would cost us a lot of extra money in gas, as he works 52 miles from home. NOt to mention the higher upkeep and maintanance on the car. Then, I know that most commonly, they build homes in the flint area...and while I know beggars can't be choosy..im not quite to the point of begging just yet and I do not want to live in flint where my kids aren't safe outside playing, where there is risk of drive by shootings, etc. I would rather live with my parents first. I guess i am just cynnical about this all working out, because quite frankly, it sounds too good to be true and it just seems that things dont usually go that good/easy for us. There has to be a catch and I am prepared for the bottom to drop out.

There are enough things wrong with this place, beyond cosmetic, that my hand gets sore writing...that with the overcrowding (2 opp sex kids in 2 bdrm home) covers that base. We fall within the income guidelines, but i just don't know.

Well, I am gonna get off here and chase kids some more. You know, for all the chasing i do, i should be skinny. Why doesn't it work that way?? LOL.

Matt & Sara just called...they are having a....

BOY! The tech said without a doubt, it's a boy! How cool is that? So, looks like his friend is going to have to find a different boy name, huh? I was really hoping they would have a boy so they could use their name. Of course, if i were them, I would name him Matthew (My brother's name), bc i absolutely love that name. It is one of the only boy names I really really like! But, lucky for him, i don't get to pick...lol!

Anyway, just had to write to share that news! I am sooo excited! My first blood nephew! I have Christopher, Carrie's step-son,but he didn't come into the family until he was about 12, and then we didnt' see him again til he was about 15, when his dad got full custody of him. He is still my nephew but there isn't that familial bond, grown over a lifetime...kwim?

Bringing Sexy Back

Makenneh is....I dropped her off at school yesterday afternoon and the teacher pulled me aside and told me that the day before, Makenneh had gone up to Devon, hand on hip, and asked, "do you think I'm sexy?" HE said, "yes, I do." and she walked away grinning. My jaw dropped to the floor! The teacher made light of it...and said, "he had the right answer, anyway. I don't know what would have happened if he would have said no...lol" I didn't know what to think. I mean, she does have older cousins that she is around....but that is just not something i say. The teachers thought it was cute, which was a bit of a relief, bc in todays day....everyone is quick to talk sexual harassment, abuse, whatever...
But her teacher is a grandmother....a very "hip" gma i might add. So, i guess she knows that kids pick things up from the darnedest places..

Of course, the teacher wraps it up by saying, "Good luck, mom!". I am thinking it may take more than luck. And daddy, "Hell no!" was his response....lol. Of course these things mortify the daddy's of little girls.

ON the bright side, maybe this means she will be more outgoing and forthright than her mom. I was shy and introvert, to the point that I would let anyone and everyone walk all over me. I still am to a degree.

Yesterday, we had a nice evening...sebastian fell asleep and Makenneh was at school...we got to have dinner alone, together AND watch a movie! All without interruption! Gee, it seemed so nice!

I just called him at work and his fingers are really hurting today. I told him he should take some pain pills...i can't imagine how bad they hurt...they look painful!

My mom is coming over this morning to watch kids while I go to an IEP (Individual Education Plan...at least i think that's what it stands for) f0r Makenneh. I believe it's basically to go over with me, the teacher and speech therapist, that Makenneh was evaluated for Speech, but is doing fine...so more or less to make sure we are all in agreement with that decision. OF course, when i mentioned IEP to my mom, she freaked out...bc it is often associated with Special Education classes and beings that Makenneh is only in headstart, how can they think she needs that at this point?! But, she is used to hearing the goings on of another local school where they put most of their students in some form of special ed....probably for the extra funding. But, as of right now, i am very happy with this school district. I was very pleased when I got a phone call last night around 7pm from the principal. She was calling because she was going over papers on her desk and came across the request for Makenneh's speech eval. and saw that the papers were dated for end of Jan. She wanted to make sure that someone had gotten in touch with me and see whether or not I had been taken care of. I was impressed that she took the time to call me right then and there, with concern, that we had perhaps slipped through some cracks! And then earlier yesterday, the speech therapist called to give me her personal cell phone number in case anything came up today...bc her husband is in the hospital and not doing well, so she didn't think she would be in her office today, should i need to reach her. i thought that was neat. I feel bad for her, as we were talking when i took makenneh in for the eval, and she told me her husband has diabetes and has sores on his feet that have gangrene setting in. I am sure that's why he is in the hospital now. How terribly sad. I truly hope that everything goes well for him! Please say a prayer for Mr. Naylor that he gets better. I have never met the man and have only met Mrs. Naylor once, but she is a really sweet person and I just feel bad for her and her family having to go through this! I know enough about diabetes and the complications to know that this very well could mean that he will end up loosing his foot/feet/legs. how sad.

Wow,this boy has a temper. He spotted a baggy i had on the counter with my cinnamon/sugar mix in it nad he is throwing a fit for it. I won't give it to him, bc he doesn't need it and i don't want the mess all over....so he is screaming at the top of his lungs. sometimes i just wish he would lose his voice from the screaming. It really hurts the ears.

We got more snow last night...ugh! i am ready for spring! really, i am! We've been back to the frigid cold and now the snow. I thought that darn groundhog predicted spring in 6 weeks from Feb 2? We gotta be getting close to the end of the 6 weeks...lol.

Ugh, that lil monster boy of mine is throwing his cereal all over the floor. there is no such thing as clean around here. The kids see to it! I think they are piggies at heart and just can't stand for thier dwelling to be anything less than a pigpen! I give! I figure when they are moved out, i can have a clean house, with nice things. Til then, I will have to learn to be happy with stepping on cereal, wading through toys and having junk...stains on furniture and carpet, crayon on the walls....ya know, the real good stuff! And to think that some day i will look back on all this and actually miss it!

I could be a millionare

I played the megamillions for the first time in my life. I have NEVER bought a ticket for any of the lotto games before. Jeremy wanted me to get 2 easy picks, bc the jackpot is up to like $370 million. Just what ever would i do with that much money? The numbers have been drawn, im sure, but i will not check them until after this post...bc for now, i can bask in the minute possibility that I am a winner! LOL. I have to say that i told the clerk i wanted 2 easy picks, he printed one. i looked at the numbers and was shocked,bc they were numbers I love and would have picked! I almost said forget the second ticket, but jeremy wanted two, so i had him do another one.

So, what would i do if we won that much money? Well, first off, by the time you pay the taxes on it, it would be much less...like cut it in half, bc we would also take the lump sum...But that's still more money than i can comprehend! We would buy a house (or maybe 2...lol), new vehicles, new clothes, all that stuff. I would buy my parents a house and his dad a house. I would pay off all of our debt and my parents' debt. I would give some money to each of our siblings, set up trust funds for our kids, help out some family members and friends.....and well, by the time we did all this, would we be broke yet? I really can't fathom that amount of money. I mean,would we really be broke after having done all that? I would pay for my uncle to get his divorce and pay off his bankruptcy...give him a fresh start. Probably try to buy him a house too, as it seems we should have enough to do that. I mean, we don't need big, elaborate houses, but rather, practical homes. Same with vehicles...i wouldn't buy a porsche or lamborgini (can't even spell it)....I would go for a decked out mini van, of course. LOL. I would just pay for my sister's wedding, so she didn't have to worry about that. And then, of course, that would mean giving my brother an equal amount of money as well...Don't know...would i be broke yet? LOL. I would definitely give money to charity and I would love to "adopt" a family in need and just make thier dreams come true the best i could. I think that would feel soooo incredibly nice.
Anyway, the ideas are endless and i could blog about it all night. But, the reality is, we aren't winners, im most certain! This is how I know:
Jeremy was bs-ing with the guys at work...they were all pipe dreaming about what they would do with the money....Jeremy went to slam his fist down on the table for emphasis as he said, "with my luck, i won't win anyway..." and cut the last 3 fingers on his right hand...deeply. It looks so gross, my stomach turns thinking about it. They decided he didnt' need stitches, but i wonder who "they" think they are...lol. I think he could use a few here and there. But, ya know how men are?! So, see, even to speak of such luck...causing pain and injury. How's that for bad luck? We are broke as heck this week and then i had to go buy good bandaides (bc the ones i have are plastic and not conducive to moving your fingers and such as he is going to need to do at work) and neosporin bc mine has vanished...

Oh and Helen....seems how you are not convinced that Makenneh could be anything but sweet and delicious and all that good stuff....can I please send her your way for a year? Hhehhehehe! Please? I can have her packed and ready in no time at all? And did i mention, they are a packaged deal? LOL. Of course, i joke about that, but i miss them when they stay 10 mins away at gmas or aunts and uncles...lol. i would probably go crazy if she were a world away! But, my house would stay clean!

Well, i guess it's time to burst my bubble of being a millionare and go check those numbers...then it's past time to head to bed....wish me luck...but watch your fingers as you do so *wink*

Eta: I have trying to get the numbers and every time i click a link, it gets an error page or something doesn't work....hmmmm..im not even supposed to know the numbers,i guess! LOL The suspense is killing me...lol

So i finally got the numbers and......we matched one lousy number out of the whole mess....so no millionares here! not surprised...are you?

Finally!

This is my lil man before his hair cut! He looks so young and sweet and innocent. LOL. (yes, i finally plugged my printer in and found my camera...so picture overload tonight!)



This is Sebastian getting his first hair cut! I really wish i would have had my camera when Kenneh got hers, which was just in the fall....she was slow getting any hair at all,much less, enough to warrant paying for a hair cut! As you can see, he has no cover on him, bc he wanted nothing to do with it, even though it was covered with lil critters and cutesie kiddie things! He yanked that thing off and threw it to the floor. Phhbbbttt...that's what he thought about that thing! Doesn't he just look so well behaved and angelic? It's a farce. It isn't real, im telling you! But he was very good for his hair cut. She was amazed at how well he did! Quite frankly, so was i! He is playing with his hair....and as you can guess..he was covered in it by the time all was said and done!
This is Makenneh after her hair cut...she had to have her picture taken too! Dumb mom could have had the camera out while sissy was getting her hair cut, too! Sometimes,i really think my head is up my butt!
This is a pic of our new kitty, B-i-n-g-o, sleeping with Makenneh....He has already gotten bigger!
And this picture was just taken tonight. Unfortunately, the batteries were low and so i couldn't get the flash to work. But, she had put a dress on over her clothes tonight...then fell asleep. So, she is sleeping on the couch in her Christmas dress...she looks so sweet and angelic. Notice the theme in pics of Makenneh...she is sleeping. LOL. This is so when i look back, i see how absolutely divine she was and don't remember the mouthiness, the stubborness, etc...lol Ok, really it's because I can't get over how angelic she looks when she is sleeping. What a beauty!

And now,on to gloomier news....I may or may not have posted about my brothers rush to the doctors friday. IF i didn't, i will say it now, and if i already posted this, ignore me...lol.

He and sara were at Bob Evans for dinner. He got a sharp pain in his chest and then a numb/tingly senstation ran down his left (i think it was left) arm. His hand went numb. Well, for several weeks, he has been having horrendous headaches and he never used to get them. So, as soon as this happened, he freaked out and called the doctor. They told him to go ahead and finish his meal, as he was half-way through with it, but to get into the office right afterwards and not to be alone at all and not to drive. So, they finish up and get him to the doctor. They did immediate blood work, a scan and then set him up with an ultra sound and some other tests. Well, the doctor called him today and said, "get in here immediately." So, Sara couldn't leave because she didn't have anyone to relieve her and can't leave the clients alone, so he had to go by himself. He got there and the doctor told him his triglycerides were 710, insulin was through the roof, fat levels extremely high, etc. They took his blood pressure and it was like 167/97 or something to that extent...anyway, it was sky high. So, he ended up with 4 new prescriptions, bc they can't wait for him to go for a fasting blood work bc if left untreated, he will have either a stroke or heart attack. They have to get his numbers down immediately. So, the kid is 25 yrs old and is on 2 blood pressure pills, a pill for his sugar, one for cholesterol and nexium. He had asked the doctor something, don't remember what, but the doctor said, "well, it depends on how serious you are about this." Matt said, well, "i am 25 yrs old and have a baby on the way. I have a lot of life left to live. I am very serious about this." It just gives me chills to think about it. He has already started a diet and working out. He knows he has to make major life changes if he wants to have a life to live. It's just crazy to think that had he ignored those signs, he probably would end up with a heart attack or something. Sara said tonight when i was talking to her that she had been on him to go to doc about different things and he always puts it off...but for some reason, he went this time..i told her, he has guardian angels...Not everyone is lucky enough to notice signs and get it taken care of. Of course, mom is just a basket case. She is so worried. She has cried several times about this. I keep reminding her that he is under the care of the doctor, they are all on top of it and he has made the changes necessary to get better. He will be ok. And now I am going to ride Jeremy even moreso to get my vcr hooked up so i can start my exercising again. I had already begun to make eating changes but i will be more dilligent about it. But do keep Matt in your prayers that this gets better and that everything will be ok!

Update on the tornado in Alabama....My cousin finally talked to her cousin, Cammy and she is ok. She has some bumps and bruises, but nothing major. Of course, she had to mention that her car was ruined...but hey, you can always get by without a car until you can get a new one. The good thing is that she is ok when so many were not as fortunate!

I talked to mark and mis yesterday. They are doing good, although sleeping on the floor, of course, as they went down there with nothing really. They did have about 14 boxes shipped via ups the day before the left here. That stuff was expected to arrive today. They will then have a small tv to watch, dishes and some other stuff. Still no furniture though! I couldn't imagine sleeping on a floor for several days. Ugh! And not even having a couch or something to sit on during the day. But the weather is nice down there and they are doing good. Of course, the girls got some funny looks when they were going in the pool.....the ppl down there don't swim much this time of year, bc it's chilly to them. LOL.

Sara has an ultrasound in 3 days and they are hoping to find out the sex of the baby. Hopefully that works out for them. I know with makenneh, the first one i went for, she didn't cooperate at all. The only reason i got to find out was bc my amniotic fluids were on the low side of normal, so they wanted to recheck them....that meant another ultrasound. That's when we found out we were having a girl. But sp;eaking of them and finding out the sex of the baby...get this. When Matt told his best friend, Rod that they were expecting...a short time after that, Rod calls to tell matt that he and his wife were gonna try. SO, she is now pregnant and they were discussing names. Well, Matt has had Kaden Maize (yep, he is a die hard Michigan football fan) picked out for a boy since forever. ANd Rod has known this. when matt asked rod if they had any names picked out, he says, Kaden (however he chooses to spell it) for a boy! Can you believe that? It's just insane. So, matt is a bit upset, bc if they have a girl and rod has a boy....he won't get to use his name. That's just so silly. I dare say that if i were matt, i would use the name anyway. LOL. But, maybe matt and sara will be having a boy this time and there will no need to worry...they will get to use the name they have had picked out since before she even got pregnant!

Well,i guess that's a wrap for tonight..im sure this is plenty long enough, huh?!

Out with the truth...

So, we had a bit of an argument this morning. I get frustrated with him and his video games and how lately he hasn't done much of anything around the house...i have to tread lightly here bc i must say that on the weekends he does pick up the living room/vacuum/laundry. But, what im talking about is the every day stuff. He will get something to eat and leave everything out, sometimes even the stuff that needs refridgeration/freezer, leaves his coffee cup on the desk or end table, leave his plates/bowls on the living room tables, etc. I get sick of going behind him and picking it up. He also hasn't taken the trash out in sooo long i couldn't tell you the last time he did. THen, he had the audacity to come in from work on friday and ask when i planned on taking the trash up that was on the porch. It was toys and stuff from the kids' room. Sure, i admit it sat there almost an entire week, but damn, how many times did he come and go and not take it? When i come and go, i have 2 kids to get loaded in the car...he rarely has even just one to take and load. I guess that was the icing on my cake. Then, i "polled" the ladies on one of the bz boards i go to, and most husbands have specific chores they do around the house daily, even when the wife is a stay at home mom! so, of course, that gave me some amunition..i knew i wasn't expecting too much or talking out my rearend! Well, this morning when i mentioned his video game deal and how i hate the weekends bc all he does is play games, he got an instant attitude and says, "well i hate coming home to a messy house every night and having to spend the weekend cleaning". Whoa! He is right about the messy house..i am a sucky housekeeper and i will never try to tell anyone different. But, first he doesn't spend his entire weekend cleaning...and he never does more than the things i mentioned above. HE doesn't touch the kitchen or the bathroom. I told him that i would just like for him to help out on a daily basis. He said that i can't keep using the excuse that i clean and hte kids mess it up. But wait...every time he cleans the living room, he says the same thing. And it is much harder to keep the house clean when chasing kids out of everything. You get one out of something and the other is bringing something else out or making another mess. Add that to the fact that i get frustrated with him not helping and get a case of the "eff its"..and well, messy house! It didn't get to a heated argument, bc i refrained from raising my voice and i talked with reason. I admitted to my shortcomings and the things i need to change, and asked that he just do the same. So, after talking, we agreed that I will spend less time on the computer and keep up the house work, but he has to spend less time on the xbox360 and more time with family and helping out. Tomorrow, i plan to talk about what chores he can do to help out. I don't see why he can't be the primary person in charge of the trash. I have no problem taking it up to the dumpster when im on my way out and don't have a handful and then some, but for the most part, he can and should do it. I am also going to put him in charge of vacuuming or something..it doesn't have to be anything major..just something to show that he recognizes my work around the house and that he is willing to pitch in. We also agreed to eat at the table. I am sick of picking up plates, cups, etc from all over. It is rediculous. I'm not a maid.

Nothing too exciting has gone on...just a blah kinda day. So, nothing real exciting to blog about. In fact, i think im gonna head to bed...which i get all to myself bc he fell asleep in the kids' room with sebastian!

Whacky Weather

Our day started out snowing huge snowflakes...then it turned to rain...then like a freezing rain/snow mix...and we had thunderstorms today. Woohoo! I love them.

My aunt michelle was in an accident today on the expressway. She totalled their 4wheel drive, dualy. club cab (or whatever gm called thier 4 doors) truck....hit the median on the expressway after hitting some of that nasty slush and losing control. She is fine...she went into her family doc to get checked out.

did you hear about that tornado that hit Alabama and struck a high school? Well my cousin sarah has a cousin on her mom's side who goes to that high school and they haven't been able to get ahold of her...so they are very worried. Please pray that Cammy is ok! Cammy was adopted out at birth bc my aunt's sister was just barely 16 and knew she couldn't give Cammy the kind of life she deserved....so the family was all just recently reunited (well, about a year ago). I would hate to think that anything bad has happened to her.

Well, march is supposed to come in like a lion and out like a lamb....it's definitely roaring!!! Hopefully this will mean that spring is right around the corner! I have had my fill of snow, although i must be fair and say we have had a rather mild winter this year!

And, now the countdown to the bunny hopping in. Makenneh is already asking for a tinker bell purse and rings. She had seen these 2 things at the store the other day and wanted them. Well, i told her she would have to wait to see if the Easter Bunny would bring them. She had to call him as soon as we got back to gmas that day. So, i called my brother and was like, "um, Makenneh wants to talk to the easter bunny, ahem." He was like, "uh, the easter bunny?" I said yeah, can you talk to her right now? Lol. He chuckled...he had finally gotten what i was trying to do. So, he played along and she was happy! So, ihave to be sure the bunny follows through...they weren't htat much..it was at Family dollar. The purse is actually a small tote type bag that was like 3.75 and the rings were a set of Dora rings for like 2.00. I'm sure the bunny can pull that off. I did decide though that holidays that included presents were going to be smaller...they don't care of their things and its a waste of money. So, she will get those two things..an outfit or some type of clothing, a pack of socks and that will just about do it. And I think fruit is going to supercede the candy. I have been changing the eating around here, as it is out of control. And when i go get groceries on Saturday, im getting healthier things. It's hard to eat healthy bc it costs so much more and well, we just can't afford it. But, im going to try. even if it means living on Tuna fish and salad. Of course, Makenneh and Jeremy don't like Tuna fish...pshhht! I also got this neat pamphlet from WIC about portion sizes for younger kids. So, i have drastically cut back the amount of food she is allowed to eat. I have also cut out 2nds for us! She got stuck with my metabolism and it's gonna suck. But if i can teach her better habits, then she will benefit in the long run. I have had bad habits for 26yrs now that i have to undo. It is going to be hard. I am already kicking and screaming about giving up my pop! I may stop buying hte 2 liters and just allow a 20oz a day and cut back from there. I am also going to hound Jeremy to do whatever it is he needs to do to enable us to hook our vcr back up. We have too many electronics and need a certain plug thing to accomodate them all...or something to that affect. I have no idea about that stuff. But, i want to be able to do my exercize tape again. And she can do it with me, as it's a walking one and it would be easy for her to follow.

I got to take a long shower tonight. That is a miracle. I was able to take my time and savor the hot water running down me. mmmm it felt sooo nice! I even got to shave! Yep! Miracle! Thank goodness my hair grows in blonde and soft on my legs..and slow too! Bc i never get to shave!

Well, it is past my bedtime,so i am gonna finish my rounds and take myself to sleep. of course, not sure where i will sleep tonight, as sebastian went out early, around 630,woke up about an hour later and i put him in our bed...laid down with him to get him back to sleep..then jeremy had me move him so he could go to bed and he woke up a lil later...i put him back in with daddy..lol. Sooo imay sleep in their room tonight!

Trains outta MI and other ramblings

Yes, Julie, you can take trains out of MI. We actually have an Amtrack station right here in flint. There must not be one anywhere near you,which is why you would do it the way you said.

Anyway, a pretty uneventful day. but speaking of trains....i was at my mom's until time to leave to get makenneh to school. I get to the train tracks further down on her road...a train is stopped on the tracks. So, i take the street that goes alongside the tracks....go through some back side streets and come to the next crossing...train had started moving, although at a very slow pace and was now blocking this cross....so i go up to the next crossing....just missed the clearing...finally, i called her teacher nad told her about the situation and that if i couldn't cross the next street up, i was just taking her home, bc i was on E and had no money on me. So, she stayed home this evening. Geesh, i hate when the trains are stopped like that, they take forever.

Carrie is getting frustrated with the whole shower date fiasco. She said she is to the point to just say just be sure to send her an invite. She doesn't want it hte last weekend in March, bc that's one week after her friend's shower and Carrie will be doing a lot for htat shower,bc nobody is really stepping up to help. But,like i told Carrie, she doesn't have to do anything for hers, but show up, eat, open gifts, socialize. She also feels funny having it that far before the wedding. which,i know isn't typical, but we are in a pickle and out of dates to do this. I gave her a very short list of possible dates to have it and told her to pick one and that would be it! LOL!

Well,im off here for now...gonna finish my rounds and get the kids to bed...good night

Good Morning!

Well, Sebastian has been getting up quite early...before 8am. Of course, we have all been going to bed earlier at night,too!

I talked to mark, markie and allana this morning...they were on the train, in Battlecreek, headed for AZ. They had been on the train an hour when i called. So, they are moving slightly faster than a car...but they said it feels like they are going super slow. I've never rode on a train like that, but i think it would be fun! Maybe someday we can go out and visit them and we will take train...

Sebastian got ahold of my phone yesterday, either while i was in bathroom or washing dishes and couldn't find it all darn day. I was so grumpy! All i could think was that my phone would be forever gone and I would have to just go without bc i can't afford a new one. I even drove to my mom's to have her call it when i got home, so i could hopefully find it. But, when i got to mom's, i found out jeremy was trying to get ahold of me all day to let me know he would be late...so the phone had been ringing all day and I couldn't hear it. Then, i got real bummed out. Well, i got home and when Jeremy got home, he came in and said, I know where your phone is..it's under their bed. Sure enough. Seb had taken Jeremy's phone the night before and that's where J found it. He turns the ringer off then stashes it. Wise guy! See, that's why i have to keep Jeremy around...he is so good at finding things when they are lost...lol. I get too frustrated and can't see straight,when things are lost.

My mom and sister went shopping yesterday morning and got the stuff to make the wedding programs. yes,make! Here's the kicker...we have to use a stamper and stamp this paisley print onto white card stock...covering the card stock. The stamper is about maybe 2"X2"....lol. Then,we are cutting the card stock in half, putting a layer of velum over it with the program info printed on the velum. then, gluing a tongue depressor sort of stick to the bottom. Using rafia to tie the cardstock and velum and it's going to be a "fan"/program. How appropriate, as they used them in the 0ld western days and the church is not air conditioned. It's going to be cute, even if it is a lot of work...lol. So, yesterday while i was there, we stamped a few sheets of card stock! It was thearaputic for my stress! We also have to make the tags to go on the mini cow bells that are to be wedding favors. The tags are going to say, "Hay Look who got married...Carrie and Ralph 7/7/07" with the grain of hay on each side. they look cute. Of course,the play on the word hay is difficult for me to swallow, bc i can't help but think....YOU ARE SPELLING THAT WRONG! LOL. i can't help it. I told her maybe she should use " " around hay, so everyone knows she meant to spell it that way. She said, there is hay on there..they should know. Hahhahahaha. Yep, mispellings is a huge pet peeve for me!

We got together with Sara's mom last night to plan the babyshower! It's getting to be the busy time....We have had to change dates so many times,my pocket calander is about glued together with white out. and last night we decided to move carrie's bridal shower up to March 31. Yep, a month away. Good thing I already got the plates and cups and we have the napkins. lol. Now she has to get registered asap so we can get invites out. But, mom doesn't want to have their showers so close together, bc it will be a big strain on everyone' s pocketbooks, including guests. She also wants carrie to be able to have her moment in the spotlight. Carrie always gets the raw end of things. And I even spoke up that she needs to have the spotlight at some point, as this is her day! Her senior year, dad was laid off for over a year, so money was tight...matt and i both had help with first cars, she didn't (back to financial situation). Although they did make their vehicles very accessible to her, it's not the same. So, when dad got his new car, he gave her his old one to sell,keep, do as she wished,even though she had her truck (well, ralph's truck for her) by this time. The point was, they were never able to help her that way and they felt they owed it to her to keep things fair. So, yeah, that's just a couple examples of how Carrie's life has gone...lol. This one thing, her wedding, needs to be special for her! Even if her brother is expecting his first child a month after her wedding!

Ok, time for breakfast....

You know you're from Michigan...

So this is going around Myspace now. It has gone around emails before, but every time i read it, i just have to laugh. I can relate to so much of it! LOL. For those of you not from Michigan, here's a taste of life in the Great Lakes State....hahaha

you know youre from michigan if...

1. You've never met any celebrities.

2. "Vacation" means going to Cedar Point.

3. At least 1 member of your family disowns you the week of the
Michigan/Michigan State game.

4. Half the change in your pocket is Canadian

5. You drive 86 mph on the highway and pass on the right.

6. Your idea of a traffic jam is 40 cars waiting to pass an orange
barrel.

7. You know how to play (and pronounce) Euchre.

8. It's easy to get VERNORS Ginger Ale, Sanders Hot Fudge sauce and Faygo Pop.

9. You know how to pronounce "Mackinac."

10. You've had to switch on the "heat" and the "A/C" in the same day.

11. You bake with SODA and drink a POP.

12. The movie "Escanaba in Da Moonlight" wasn't funny. You consider it a documentary.

13. Your little league game was snowed out.

14. The word "thumb" has geographical meaning, rather than anatomical significance.

15. You show people where you grew up by pointing to a spot on the back of your left hand.

16. Traveling coast-to-coast means driving from Port Huron to Muskegon.

17. You measure distance in minutes.

18. When giving directions, you refer to "A Michigan Left."

19. You know that Kalamazoo not only exists, but it is either raining or snowing there.

20. Your year has 2 seasons: Winter and Construction.

21. Home Depot on any Saturday is busier than toy stores at Christmas.

22. You know when it has rained because of the smell of worms.

23. Owning a Japanese car was a hangin' offense in your hometown.

24. Everyone you meet out of state thinks you know Eminem personally.

25. You actually understand everything I just said


Pass this on if you're from Michigan

AAHHHHH----Chooo And Happy Bday to You, brother!

Yeah, the allergies have kicked in. I am sneezing up a storm...itchy watery eyes and runny/itchy nose. bleh!

But, worse than that, my poor babies had to have shots today=( I know it is for the best,but it is still hard. Poor seb had to have 5 shots. Makenneh had 2. That's on top of the typical prick of the finger for iron count. Jeremy went with,a nd Im glad he did. I made him hold SEb for his shots. Poor daddy got teary eyed. It was actually cute to see the emotion. But,now both kids are done with shots for awhile, thankfully! i take that back, they both have to go back in a month for the follow up flu shot.

We didn't much in the way of snow. It seems to go that way..when they issue storm warnings, it seems we don't get much...lol. But, you won't hear me complain. It was also in the 30's all day today, which was nice. It's supposed to be about the same tomorrow.

When I picked Makenneh up from school tonight, she stood out in the snow with her mouth open wide trying to catch the huge snowflakes that were falling. It was too cute. I let her have her fun. I even joined in=) and started singing.."if all the snowflakes were candy bars and milkshakes, oh what a snow that would be. Standing outside with my mouth open wide...ah, ah, ah, ah ah ah ah....."

Today is my brother's bday. He is 25!!! Geesh we are gettin old...lol. It really is even hard for me to believe that he is 25 and ill be 27 in Aug. Of course it's even harder for mom to believe. And Carrie will be 24 this Nov. My mom, me, Matt and Sara went to Applebee's for his bday! It was nice...jeremy stayed home with Seb and Kenneh was at school. sometimes, it's so nice to get out without any kids! I feel so rejuvinated! Well, emotionally/mentally....the cold thing has me feeling yucky physically. LOL.

Well, gonna go for now.....

Whew

I don't remember if i posted this...i had a total of 9 kids here last night..8 total stayed(2 were mine). It was crazy. You see i get suckered into this often, dontcha? LOL. And every time i hear myself say, never again! It was nice to have help dealing with the dogs...that was a great relief. But, the night brought it's own drama too! So much so, that I found myself on here, emailing Helen for some advice, which i was glad to receive. Teenagers are certainly scary. Most of these teenagers smoke...they are all about partying and being stupid. Ugh! Then, there was a bigger issue with two of them (sisters). It was a tough situation. The older sister will be 16 in May and the younger will be 12 on the 2nd of march. The older sister has a friend and they are closer than best friends. They display their affections towards each other in front of the little sister and it upsets her. What an ordeal. Little sis spent a great deal of the night crying. She doesn't like the friend...she doesn't like any of it. I found out later into the night that lil sis has gone so far as trying to choke herself bc of what she saw her sister and her friend doing. That concerns me, but i was relieved to hear that lil sis is talking to the school counselor about all of it and the counselor has talked to her parents. I tried to get down to the bottom of this issue...was lil sis upset bc it was another girl? bc it was happening in general? was she embarassed? And like Helen said, the issue isn't about whether big sis is making out with boy or girl....that she shouldn't be doing it at all...in front of lil sis no less. I talked to lil sis about loving big sis regardless of her lifestyle choices. I reminded her that no matter what, she is still her sis and she can still love her and there is nothing for her to feel ashamed or embarrassed about. I then talked to big sis and told her that she shouldn't be doing those things and especially not in front of her sis. And as the girls have a strained relationship already (due to parents favoring lil sis), i also suggested that she take the time to spend some good, quality time with sis. I reminded her that when they move in a few days, they will only have each other for awhile. I think i got through, bc the rest of the night went much better.

The next dilemma comes in whether or not i should mention this to the parents. They know some of it as the counselor has contacted them and lil sis has told them some of it. But, being that big sis's attraction is toward the same sex, those outtings need to be chaperoned like a boy/girl date would be. I just know that this particular set of parents may not take the info well and beings that they are moving in 3 days, across the country, i just wonder if it is even worth it.

Anyway, I have an early appt in the morning...8am and I have to take the kids (WIC). I am not looking forward to it at all, on several levels. One, it's way too early to be up and out of the house, with the kids; we are supposed to get a severe winter storm tonight; and i just hate going down to the WIC office all together. My mom loaned me her car for the night,so i have a safe car..bc our car doesn't handle in the snowy weather too well (bald tires). That eliminates one problem. Jeremy's co-worker who he rides to work with isn't going to work tomorrow, so jeremy would have either had to drive our crappy car in the mess at 6am or stay home. he doesn't have a license and doesn't drive if he can help it. But,we have to pay our bills and he can't not go to work. He had to drive friday, too. However, with bad roads and a car that doesn't handle in it, he runs a higher risk of crashing, spinning out, etc and having to deal with police, who would take him to jail and impound our car. Soooo, we have decided he shall stay home. My mom was like, "yeah, then you can go with her in the morning and help with kids.." ahahhahaha, tonight when we got home, he was like, "do i have to go with you?" Grrrr! I said, well it would be very nice to have some help keeping the kids under wraps. But the very least you can do is get up and help me get them ready.

Sebastian is doing good in the big kid bed! Last night, he fell asleep on the couch, out of exhaustion and i put him in bed. He stayed there til this morning, when he climbed in our bed,with a soaked diaper...poor boy! Then tonight, i told him to go get in bed and it only took a couple times, he went in and laid down and fell asleep. Much more than i can say for his big sister...who is still up, fighting sleep with every ounce of her being!

We had a bday party for the girls today before they leave for AZ. It was the last thing i wanted to deal with after having all those kids overnight...but i of course, went. In our family, we usually just have parties at the house, serve dinner (today was chili and tossed salad) and have cake and ice cream..no frills! They had forgotten the ice cream at their place (party was at my other uncle's bc there is more room,not to mention,they have sold off most of their furniture, including their kitchen table set). So, we didn't get to have ice cream...i told them i was going home then...lol!

yeah, im rambling now, but im trying to kill time, waiting for the princess to meet the sandman! Heck, she probably scares him,too...so he is late coming...lol. Meanwhile,i am ready to drop!

Oh oh oh ....good news...i have no dogs to tend to! My brother came and got them today...they are at my moms. She is keeping Sparky for good and agreed to keep Jager for 2 weeks, no more. Im sure she is going to wish she had only agreed to a week! But, at least i don't have to deal with it. Today,when i got back from the store, the neighbor was out working on his car and stopped me to "inform" me that if the office catches the dog out there chained up, i'll get in trouble....as if i wasn't aware. Hhahahah! I know it's bc they didn't like him being out there, but it just irked me the way he assumed i was stupid. I said, "I am well aware of that, but my brother was in a bind and needed a place for the dogs right away..." Grrr. it may not have irked me as bad,except he has a few dogs himself and they sometimes end up in my yard to do their duty, bark at me on my porch, etc. I also made sure to let him know that I am on the good side with the owners.

Anyway, I am off here to find something else to do for a few mins..she can't be far from sleep now!

That Damn mail lady!!!

OOOh I am peeved beyond peeved!

So,i hear the mail truck coming and go out and STAND ON MY PORCH WITH THE DOG NEXT TO ME! She drives up, we make eye contact.....and she continues on. NO mail again. I was livid. She could have motioned for me to come get my mail or something...Then, to top it all off, a few mins later, I see my neighbor coming over...i got and he had my mail and said, "the mail lady was afraid of the dog." So, she GAVE MY MAIL TO MY NEIGHBOR, WHOM I DON'T EVEN KNOW!!! Not cool! He only handed me one thing (Which was my "love dr" i ordered from the adult party i went to last week...how nice!). So, i came in and looked up the USPS on the web and called. I lodged a complaint there, got a confirmation number and followed it up with an email. I am so mad. The lady i spoke with said that it is illegal for them to give mail to anyone...it has to go in the mail box, even if i am standing there with my hand out! So, she better be getting in trouble. This is rediculous. So, yeah, it's the weekend,we have no movies to watch, yet I am paying a monthly fee...it really grates on my nerves.

I can't find a number for our local post office, or i would call up and request that she bring me my damn mail before going home today. Grrrr! She used to do this shit to my brother all the time too. He would have Jager tied up, be out there, waiting for her, and she wouldn't deliver his mail. One day he got in his car and caught up to her. He was like, "Um, do i have any mail?" She said, yeah but the dog was out. HE said yeah and i was right there with him and he was no where near anywhere you had to go to deliver my mail. She is a bitch!

Oh, and top it off, she was driving the mail truck today..to each box. Usually she just parks at the end of the street and walks. So, she wouldn't have even needed to get out of her precious little mail truck to put my mail in my box. She still couldn't even do that! I so hope she gets in big trouble. I am not for getting ppl fired, reprimanded, whatever...but this is over the top!

on to other news:

Jeremy hadn't been gone long, when i was talking to my mom. Something clicked and I remembered that Makenneh's "male involvement bowling event" was this weekend. Jeremy had thought it was sunday, but saturday was sticking in my head. I dug for the sheet and sure enough, it is today. I discovered this at noon and it started at 1. So, i called him and he went and picked her up and they went. Im so glad that i thought to double check. She loves bowling...and it's good for her and daddy to do things like that by themselves!

Allana and Stephanie (2 cousins) wanna stay the night here tonight. I really don't feel much up to it, but Allana and them will be moving for AZ in a couple days, so i thought, what the heck. I will let them chase after kids and what not,and I will relax...lol! See, there are some redeeming qualities in teens and pre-teens. (of course, i won't think that when every dish in my house is dirty and messes everywhere...)

What to do with myself!

Well, the kids stayed with Markie and Allana last night....and Jeremy went to his brother's this morning...so i am all by myself! It is sooo quiet and peaceful! And boring....I know I need to work on the kids' bedroom but i don't feel like it just yet....We fell asleep last night before 8pm! That is no lie! And then, I woke up at 230am, bright eyed and bushy tailed! Of course, that was 6.5 hours of uninterrupted sleep! My body didn't know what to think. I got up and killed some time online, but then went back to bed around 4. Big mistake, bc when i woke up at 750,i was drowsy as all get out and went back to sleep til about 9am!

Mom, dad and brother are back from the UP, so hopefully my dog duties end today! Let me rephrase that..t.hey will end today...lol. I have no idea what he plans to do with Jager, but it is not my problem. He has had ample time to post flyers, an ad, whatever. We haven't gotten mail the past 2 days and I know it's because of that damn dog. The mail lady is afraid of him and even though he is chained up and can't reach the mailbox, she uses it as an excuse to not deliver the mail..she used to do it to matt and sara all the time, to the point that I suggested the lodge a complaint with the Postmaster. I can understand a dog running loose,but when they are chained up and not within her reach, it shouldn't be an issue. So, anyway, we belong to Blockbluster ONline, where we get movies in the mail and haven't gotten ours yet, bc no mial the past couple days. IT is irritating to me, that i am paying for something I can't get. So, i want the dog gone today before mail comes around..bc i want my movies, darn it!

Im working on a list of questions to take to the Habitat for Humanity meeting we will be going to. I am quite excited and hope this works out. The only thing that does really concern me is that they pick where it goes. Around here, there are certain neighborhoods/school districts, i do not want to live in, even if the house were FREE! So, i hope that they take those things into consideration when building. And School of Choice is almost not an option in these districts bc they lose so many students each year, they often won't give out the waivers for students to leave...bc face it, who wants to move INTO these districts? Nobody! That's the problem with where we are now. I wouldn't mind just moving to a 3 bdrm trailer here, bc it is very affordable and quiet and nice....BUT it's beecher schools and they don't give out waivers for SOC. So...that will be something important to keep in mind. I don't have to be in a high class neighborhood or the best school district....i just want to be where my kids can safely play outside without worry of drive by shootings or drug deals going on in front of our home.

Well, im off to find other ventures on here....and work on that list! I don't wanna forget anything!

When I'm an Old Lady

i think Helen has posted this before, but my Aunt Bev just emailed this to me and I thought i would post it here, bc it is sooo hysterical! I think I shall do just this:

When I'm an old lady, I'll live with each kid,

And bring so much happiness...just as they did.

I want to pay back all the joy they've provided.

Returning each deed! Oh, they'll be so excited!

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

I'll write on the wall with reds, whites and blues,

And I'll bounce on the furniture...wearing my shoes.

I'll drink from the carton and then leave it out.

I'll stuff all the toilets and oh, how they'll shout!

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

When they're on the phone and just out of reach,

I'll get into things like sugar and bleach.

Oh, they'll snap their fingers and then shake their head,

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

When they cook dinner and call me to eat,

I'll not eat my green beans or salad or meat,

I'll gag on my okra, spill milk on the table,

And when they get angry...I'll run...if I'm able!

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

I'll sit close to the TV, through the channels I'll click,

I'll cross both eyes just to see if they stick.

I'll take off my socks and throw one away ,

And play in the mud 'til the end of the day!

(When I'm an old lady and live with my kids)

And later in bed, I'll lay back and sigh,

I'll thank God in prayer and then close my eyes.

My kids will look down with a smile slowly creeping,

And say with a groan, "She's so sweet when she's sleeping!"

God Bless All Moms and Grandmas Everywhere!

She suggested I post this in their bedroom and read it to them each night. Hehhehee..reminder to me to do what it says..and maybe scare them into proper behavior. LOL.

We got the crib down and the new bed up. I shouldn't say "we" because my uncle put the new bed up himself. Thankfully he did so...bc who knows how long it would wait, otherwise. I still have to do some cleaning. I didn't wanna keep them waiting so i half-assed it so that the bed could go in there and figure i'll go back in there throughout the day and night and finish it up. The kids are staying with markie and allana tonight, so im gonna utilize that time to get it done and the stuff out of here! They will be shocked when they come home! Of cours,e with this new bed in there, there isn't room for toys anyway...not really even room to move!

Also, I want to thank Julie for her suggestion of Habitat for Humanity. I never thought of that before, but i will definitely check into it! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

I ordered me and kids pizza (stromboli for me) for lunch,bc Makenneh finally went in and picked up a lot of stuff, without me even knowing she was doing it. The bed was already set up and she was in there making all kinds of racket...she comes out awhile later and says, Mark, come here...then Mis, then me...and she showed up that her bedroom was clean! I was so proud of her!

Well, im off to google habitat for humanity and see what i can learn....

just let me blow some steam

I am ready to explode! Thier bedroom is worse than New Orleans after Hurricane Katrina. I don't even know where to start. Well, i did start..but that's when they both had to cram their bodies in there too, amongst the junk, and be in the way. I am ready to just start heaving it all out the bedroom window! I asked Makenneh to pick up all the mega blocks. She, instead, is worried about stuffed animals and playing. Sebastian is taking advantage of me being in the bedroom and reaking havoc everywhere else. He got up on the counter and got the Cheerios which are now all over the floor from one end to the other. And I can't help but ask myself why i am doing this? I am also looking at thier bedroom and wondering if this bed is even going to fit in there! It is a very small room! I just feel overwhelmed and think i shall sit here and cry for awhile. Of course, that won't accomplish much, but maybe it would relieve some of the tension i am feeling.

Ok, i gotta get off here nad tackle something, even if it's two kids who don't want to listen.

Where's my camera???

Today we had family fun night at school. I wanted to take my camera, but low and behold, it's nowhere to be found. the last time i remember seeing it was when Seb got his hair cut and i took pics..had it here,was gonna upload the pics to share and couldn't bc the printer wasn't hooked up. So, it has probably fallen behind the desk (as a lot of junk does). But, in my poor sickly shape, i am not going to climb down on all fours to look. So, I got no pics of the night.

The teacher set up a bunch of different games and had popcorn and juice...it was fun..but not that many ppl attended. I was shocked. Ah well. I didn't want to go, bc i feel like death warmed over,but i went. She had fun, that's all the counts!

My chest is near burning. I just hope im not getting pnuemonia. Ugh! All that time around mother in law...this crazy weather. But, i am thinking it is sinus infection mostly. My face hurts at all my sinus cavities...even into my jaw. And I have that nasty tickle in the back of my throat that produces that dry cough. The nurse had told me before that that tickle is caused from sinuses, so that coupled with the sinus pressure/headache....sinusitis im sure it is. ThenI can't help but freak out a little bit. My mom's cousin was married to a guy who got sinus infection that went untreated and it went ot his brain (encephalitis ..however u sp it.) and ended up basically a vegetable in assisted living home. Of course, the irony there is that my mom's cousin ran an adult foster home.

Anyway, this place is a trash hole today..i didn't have the energy to keep it picked up...so it's gone to hell in a hand basket. The worse news is, their bedroom is even worse than the rest of hte place and my aunt called tonight to tell me they would bring the bed over tomorrow,sometime after 9am. Great...where shall i put it? I have to take crib down, clean the room so you can even walk through it...throw out a lot of toys..lol...it's a mess! ugh...im exhausted thinking about it.

And i know this will be way tmi for most ppl, but having 2 kids has weakened my bladder something fierce. this dry cough puts me in spells where i near vomit ...and almost every time i cough just slightly more than a simple cough, i leak. So, im wearing pads for bladder protection. I am 26 yrs old...why do i feel the need for freakin depends???!!! I think our family has weak bladder issues though. My mom has weak bladder and my lil sis does and she hasn't even had any kids and is only 23. I know,i know, do keagal exercises (not spelled right, im sure). I just have a problem with remembering to do them. Simple as they are. I could sit here and do them. But i don't...instead, i piss my pants with every cough and sneeze. LOL. So what am i bitching for? hahahahaha! Because im a woman and I can! Seriously though, i did start doign them tonight...too little too late, for the current problem, i suppose. To all you ladies out there...get doing ur keagals! Prevent the need for depends before the age of 30! That's my public service announcement for the day! Ya know,i used to have awesome bladder control. What happened? Good thing im done having children...one more and I may just have to have a permanant cathetar. Now that's sexy...nearly as sexy as pissing ur pants.

So,if ya want a funny but gross story (what's wrong with me tonight...don't I know that dear Helen reads this blog and surely doesn't wanna hear this story....cover ur eyes, Helen. I will feel better if i think you don't read this....lol)
I went to bed rather early last night...around 10-1030. I fall asleep, but wake up in a coughing spell....leeaaaakkkkk...off go the pants. So, im too darn tired to fiddle with getting clean undies/pants on...crawl back in bed with nothing but a tshirt on. Ok, anyone see where this is going?! Around 2am, i am awakened to my dear hubby feeling frisky! Don't ppl sleep at 2am? Geesh! But, i feel special, bc he is up, from a dead sleep, bc he tried spooning me in his sleep and his nether regions must have realized BINGO, this mama doesn't have anything on her bottom half! And well...that must have woke him up! But ya know how hard it is to feel "in the mood" when the only true reason ur naked is bc you pissed ur pants and were too tired to put something else on? LOL! But, i humored him for a brief moment..then went back to bed. Sadly, he was unable to go back to sleep so stayed up til it was time to get ready for work...prob surfing the net for porn....ok, no really, playing Gears of War on his Xbox 360, bc nothing is really as satisfying to him as that game. LOL.

OK,Helen, you can open ur eyes...lol!
My mom, dad and brother will be home some time tomorrow, thankfully. Mostly im thankful bc im sick of the dog dilemma. I don't even like dogs! Betcha didn't know that...lol. I am going to have to be mean and frank to my brother. I cannot deal with Jager anymore. I am tired. I have been taking care of him for 3 weeks and I have had my fill of loading kids in car to go let him out, then this week, having him here during the day out on a chain (which is against park rules...no dogs outside unattended, period), barking at anything that moves,including the neighbors when they come and go from their own home, shitting in my yard, having to take him back to their empty trailer every night to repeat the process in the am! Ugh! Im so over it! I know it's hard to get rid of a family pet. If he had to get rid of Sparky,I would die! But, part of being a grown up is having to make grown up decisions and sometimes they aren't nice ones. Jager has to go...if not to a new home, sadly to the pound. I really don't know if they will find someone to keep him...he is obnoxiously hyper. OF course, that's one of the things I don't like about dogs, so that could just be me..but i hate licking and jumpy and all that. I also hate watching Sparky mope around here like he has lost his best friend. All the dog does is lay around and sleep. He just looks so sad and lost. He is old and needs his boy to comfort him. Not to mention, this crazy dog really thinks he is a lap dog. I tried laying down on the couch earlier, Sebastian was right there, wanting up...so i pull him up...he climbs to my feet and lays down...then Sparky is right there, climbing up and plops down right on me...lol. He was in heaven! He loves to sleep with ppl. Right now, he is sleeping with Makenneh, which is funny, bc he doesn't care too much for kids, especially in his old age. But, for whatever reason, he has always been very good with my 2. But, like my dad says,he knows that they belong and that if he should ever mess up, he is gone! He lets them pet him, pull at him,all that stuff that little kids do. Most kids, he growls a warning to stay away. He just doesn't like them. which, in all honesty, who can blame a dog? They suffer great torture at the hands of toddlers and kids! LOL. Some days, i wanna just growl too....ok, some days, i do! I really think Makenneh has some connection with animals sometimes,while we speak of dogs. like the first day we had sparky here, he was mopey and she goes up to him and pets him and says sympathetically, "do you miss your best friend, huh?" Then she says to me, he said he does miss his friend. Not with his mouth, bc dogs can't talk. I was like Whaaaa??!!! in my own head. Where did she come up wtih that. She always does stuff like that. The other day her hampster bit her. (I would have too...she just wanted to sleep and Makenneh wanted her to go through obstacles of toys and go in this box and this cube and on and on....lol). At first she was mad. I told her that her hampster probably had had enough and just wanted to be left alone. She goes to her and says, "I'm sorry for doin nat." Then she says to me, my hampster told me sorry for biting me,mommy! It's too cute! Dr. Doolittle in the house!

Ok, ive dragged on enough. I need to hit publish before I lose it all, bc i just had a close call. My speedy fingers just hit the wrong buttons and i thought it was all gone! Unlucky for you, huh? Bc i certainly wouldn't have rewritten all of this!

Anyways, good night

Not like Barbie...

One more reason to be "just like barbie..."

Her head turns all the way around!

I have been urging Makenneh to wipe her own butt! Well, she comes up with lots of reasons not to..it's nasty, i don't want to..and the latest....My head doesn't turn back there; not like barbie's.

i couldn't help but think of the saying, "I wanna be like Barbie. That Bitch has everything"...even a head that turns all the way around for easier bum wiping! LOL.

I love the "it's nasty" reason too. I remind her that it isn't any more pleasant for me to have to do it! Why do kids think that moms enjoy cleaning up puke, wiping butts, runny noses....lol.