Where's my camera???

Today we had family fun night at school. I wanted to take my camera, but low and behold, it's nowhere to be found. the last time i remember seeing it was when Seb got his hair cut and i took pics..had it here,was gonna upload the pics to share and couldn't bc the printer wasn't hooked up. So, it has probably fallen behind the desk (as a lot of junk does). But, in my poor sickly shape, i am not going to climb down on all fours to look. So, I got no pics of the night.

The teacher set up a bunch of different games and had popcorn and juice...it was fun..but not that many ppl attended. I was shocked. Ah well. I didn't want to go, bc i feel like death warmed over,but i went. She had fun, that's all the counts!

My chest is near burning. I just hope im not getting pnuemonia. Ugh! All that time around mother in law...this crazy weather. But, i am thinking it is sinus infection mostly. My face hurts at all my sinus cavities...even into my jaw. And I have that nasty tickle in the back of my throat that produces that dry cough. The nurse had told me before that that tickle is caused from sinuses, so that coupled with the sinus pressure/headache....sinusitis im sure it is. ThenI can't help but freak out a little bit. My mom's cousin was married to a guy who got sinus infection that went untreated and it went ot his brain (encephalitis ..however u sp it.) and ended up basically a vegetable in assisted living home. Of course, the irony there is that my mom's cousin ran an adult foster home.

Anyway, this place is a trash hole today..i didn't have the energy to keep it picked up...so it's gone to hell in a hand basket. The worse news is, their bedroom is even worse than the rest of hte place and my aunt called tonight to tell me they would bring the bed over tomorrow,sometime after 9am. Great...where shall i put it? I have to take crib down, clean the room so you can even walk through it...throw out a lot of toys..lol...it's a mess! ugh...im exhausted thinking about it.

And i know this will be way tmi for most ppl, but having 2 kids has weakened my bladder something fierce. this dry cough puts me in spells where i near vomit ...and almost every time i cough just slightly more than a simple cough, i leak. So, im wearing pads for bladder protection. I am 26 yrs old...why do i feel the need for freakin depends???!!! I think our family has weak bladder issues though. My mom has weak bladder and my lil sis does and she hasn't even had any kids and is only 23. I know,i know, do keagal exercises (not spelled right, im sure). I just have a problem with remembering to do them. Simple as they are. I could sit here and do them. But i don't...instead, i piss my pants with every cough and sneeze. LOL. So what am i bitching for? hahahahaha! Because im a woman and I can! Seriously though, i did start doign them tonight...too little too late, for the current problem, i suppose. To all you ladies out there...get doing ur keagals! Prevent the need for depends before the age of 30! That's my public service announcement for the day! Ya know,i used to have awesome bladder control. What happened? Good thing im done having children...one more and I may just have to have a permanant cathetar. Now that's sexy...nearly as sexy as pissing ur pants.

So,if ya want a funny but gross story (what's wrong with me tonight...don't I know that dear Helen reads this blog and surely doesn't wanna hear this story....cover ur eyes, Helen. I will feel better if i think you don't read this....lol)
I went to bed rather early last night...around 10-1030. I fall asleep, but wake up in a coughing spell....leeaaaakkkkk...off go the pants. So, im too darn tired to fiddle with getting clean undies/pants on...crawl back in bed with nothing but a tshirt on. Ok, anyone see where this is going?! Around 2am, i am awakened to my dear hubby feeling frisky! Don't ppl sleep at 2am? Geesh! But, i feel special, bc he is up, from a dead sleep, bc he tried spooning me in his sleep and his nether regions must have realized BINGO, this mama doesn't have anything on her bottom half! And well...that must have woke him up! But ya know how hard it is to feel "in the mood" when the only true reason ur naked is bc you pissed ur pants and were too tired to put something else on? LOL! But, i humored him for a brief moment..then went back to bed. Sadly, he was unable to go back to sleep so stayed up til it was time to get ready for work...prob surfing the net for porn....ok, no really, playing Gears of War on his Xbox 360, bc nothing is really as satisfying to him as that game. LOL.

OK,Helen, you can open ur eyes...lol!
My mom, dad and brother will be home some time tomorrow, thankfully. Mostly im thankful bc im sick of the dog dilemma. I don't even like dogs! Betcha didn't know that...lol. I am going to have to be mean and frank to my brother. I cannot deal with Jager anymore. I am tired. I have been taking care of him for 3 weeks and I have had my fill of loading kids in car to go let him out, then this week, having him here during the day out on a chain (which is against park rules...no dogs outside unattended, period), barking at anything that moves,including the neighbors when they come and go from their own home, shitting in my yard, having to take him back to their empty trailer every night to repeat the process in the am! Ugh! Im so over it! I know it's hard to get rid of a family pet. If he had to get rid of Sparky,I would die! But, part of being a grown up is having to make grown up decisions and sometimes they aren't nice ones. Jager has to go...if not to a new home, sadly to the pound. I really don't know if they will find someone to keep him...he is obnoxiously hyper. OF course, that's one of the things I don't like about dogs, so that could just be me..but i hate licking and jumpy and all that. I also hate watching Sparky mope around here like he has lost his best friend. All the dog does is lay around and sleep. He just looks so sad and lost. He is old and needs his boy to comfort him. Not to mention, this crazy dog really thinks he is a lap dog. I tried laying down on the couch earlier, Sebastian was right there, wanting up...so i pull him up...he climbs to my feet and lays down...then Sparky is right there, climbing up and plops down right on me...lol. He was in heaven! He loves to sleep with ppl. Right now, he is sleeping with Makenneh, which is funny, bc he doesn't care too much for kids, especially in his old age. But, for whatever reason, he has always been very good with my 2. But, like my dad says,he knows that they belong and that if he should ever mess up, he is gone! He lets them pet him, pull at him,all that stuff that little kids do. Most kids, he growls a warning to stay away. He just doesn't like them. which, in all honesty, who can blame a dog? They suffer great torture at the hands of toddlers and kids! LOL. Some days, i wanna just growl too....ok, some days, i do! I really think Makenneh has some connection with animals sometimes,while we speak of dogs. like the first day we had sparky here, he was mopey and she goes up to him and pets him and says sympathetically, "do you miss your best friend, huh?" Then she says to me, he said he does miss his friend. Not with his mouth, bc dogs can't talk. I was like Whaaaa??!!! in my own head. Where did she come up wtih that. She always does stuff like that. The other day her hampster bit her. (I would have too...she just wanted to sleep and Makenneh wanted her to go through obstacles of toys and go in this box and this cube and on and on....lol). At first she was mad. I told her that her hampster probably had had enough and just wanted to be left alone. She goes to her and says, "I'm sorry for doin nat." Then she says to me, my hampster told me sorry for biting me,mommy! It's too cute! Dr. Doolittle in the house!

Ok, ive dragged on enough. I need to hit publish before I lose it all, bc i just had a close call. My speedy fingers just hit the wrong buttons and i thought it was all gone! Unlucky for you, huh? Bc i certainly wouldn't have rewritten all of this!

Anyways, good night