What the....

heck is she thinking? LOL. Sorry the quality is so crappy. I hate my dig camera, the more i use it, the more i hate it. I need a new one. But, I found my daughter, who would never take a pacifier as a baby, sleeping with one in her mouth tonight. I had to take a picture. Silly kid!

Sebastian is still doing good. I put the liquid bandage on last night, then today i cleaned it all up good again, put peroxide the neosporin on it. I called the doc this morning only to find out that he isn't in til Thurs. I still made an appt for thurs so that he can still look at it. I think it is going to be fine, though! It has already started to scab over and doesn't seem to bother him at all. I did snip some of the hair around the wound today. That way it isn't getting matted in there. The kid hates to sit still. It makes it hard for cleaning it up or checking it out. I think i need to give it a good "scrub" but i am afraid to. I am so queasy when it comes to this stuff. Not to mention, i don't want to hurt him. I think I will keep with the peroxide/neosporin and then see if the doc will give it a good clean thurs, if he thinks it needs it. Ugh, even the thought of it makes my stomach turn. But, Sebastian doesn't even seem to notice it is there. He is actually sleeping on that side tonight...i am surprised. He's definitely tougher than mama! I would be wincing in pain, sleeping on my other side, whining about it all day. NOt him..he is too busy playing and having a good time to worry about boo-boos.

We spent most of the day at my parents' today. I hate sitting at home if i can help it. But, with the tire the way it is and gas the price is it (2.95/gal), i need to do more sitting at home.

I forgot to mention....I GOT MY PAPERS FROM COLLEGE FRIDAY!!!! Of course, bc nothing can just go easy for me, I was "randomly selected" for verification process. Yeah, sure, i was. They saw my social security number and said, Woah, can't let this girl get off to easily. We have to give her extra steps, more hassles. So, i have to provide the college iwth a list of documents. Yippee. This is where I thank God that we let H & R Block do our taxes this past tax season...everything I need in way of tax info is in a nice envelope, easy to find. Now, I have to call the college and set an appt to take it all in. One step closer. I am getting excited! It's hard for me to picture my life with financial security. With spending money in the bank, with bills paid, etc. It just doesn't seem like it's something for me. But, instead of my normal ,"I hope this will all work out" thoughts, I have "this will work out" thoughts. It just seems so attainable and so "duh, why didn't I do this before"! Sometimes I think I like my life to be difficult. LOL.

I took a nap tonight after Jeremy got home. I slept til it was time for him to go to bed. Awful! But, i was so tired. I didn't sleep well last night, worrying about Seb and then, I started my awful period Sun morning. So, fatigue has taken over. OF course, now, i'm awake and ready to go and it's midnight. I am just so thankful that Jeremy lets me get naps like that. I don't often give him enough credit. He can be a PITA sometimes, but who isn't? He lets me sleep in on weekends and he lets me take naps in the evening. What more can i ask? LOL. Heck, occassionally (that can't be spelled right), he even takes the trash up!

Well, off to do my rounds on here!

Oh, what a weekend

Yeah, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth...just haven't had time (or energy when there was a split second) for internet!

Friday the studs starting breaking on the car again. It's bc the rim is bad, so we had to put the donut tire on (small tire for emergency spare). So, I couldn't get anything done friday night. Even had to have my mom pick Makenneh up from school, as this was realized after i had dropped her off. What a nasueating feeling to have a young child at school and not know how in the hell you will get her home. I was ill until i got ahold of my mom. Anyway, Saturday was the babyshower for my brother's gf. I had to make Taco Salad for the shower, plus still needed to get the gift. So, I got up around 9am on Saturday and was out the door before 10. I got the rest of the stuff i needed for the salad, the gift and then had a few other small errands to run (related to the shower) and then was headed to the church to help get ready. The shower was at 2, over by 6 (counting clean up and all). They got tons and tons of stuff, around 50 packs of diapers, a huge tote full of baby bath stuff...Then i went to my mom's because some relatives from out of town were here. So, i ended up staying there until 11pm. Well, most of it was also due to the fact that it was raining and Friday night, after Jeremy put the donut tire on, i attempted to get a few errands out of the way only to have the winshield wipers quit on me before even leaving our mobile home park...so back i came. Anyway, it was raining again sat. night, so i tried waiting it out. Finally,i had to go, bc i needed to get home. Thankfully, about 3 miles away, the rain let up! Needless to say, i came home and crashed.

Then, today i woke up, we puttered around for a bit. Then, the kids were outside on porch, i ran in to grab something, and hear sebastian start crying and makenneh saying he fell....I fly out and Jeremy is grabbing him up and freaking out. He kept saying, Oh my God, OH my God! I felt my life slipping away...it makes me cry now to even recall the horror of that moment. I see blood and jeremy says he split his head open. I freak out and i mean, i didn't know what to do. I took Sebastian, told jeremy to get some wet washcloths and i set him down to look and i just see blood running down his little face. Horrid! I call my mom and tell her. She says she is on her way. Neither JEremy nor I handle these kinds of things well. I start wiping at the blood...and we find the source. THe cut wasn't too bad, once we were able to slow the bleeding. In the midst of all this, i try calling our doctor...get the answering machine, of cours,e as it is sunday. My doc isn't on call, so they give the number for on call doc and i can't remember it, get frustrated, throw jeremy the phone and tell him to redial and get the numbe.r Finally, get through to the answering service for the on call doc and give him the info. By this time, I have sebastian in the tub, where i figure it would be much easier to get him cleaned up and assess the situation.

My mom called back that the tire was flat on the one car and my dad had the other. Jeremy had taken this call. Well, i call her backa nd tell her that im waiting for the doctor to call back. I was in hysterics. She said she will go ahead and come out, but that we should just take him to the ER. Well, i didn't want to take makenneh with us, bc dang, we could be there for eternity and it would be very difficult with her there too! So, i thought i would go see if our neighbor lady was home and if so, have mom come get makenneh from there. Well, then the doc called back, she asked about the size of the cut, the location, etc. She said that they most likely wouldn't stitch it, bc it is on the head and it has stopped bleeding. She also said that if it were her child, she wouldn't go for stitches, bc at that age they have to tie them down and that in itself is far more traumatizing that the stitches themselves. I had to describe the cut in detail to her and she said that she recommends just watching him, applying pressure to stop bleeding. I should note that by this time, he was already down and playing as if nothing had ever happened. tossing football, jumping, running, you name it. Then, mom showed up, i gave her the info. she called another clinic and talked to the nurse, who again said that as long as the bleeding had stopped and it was a gaping wound (it wasn't deep really, more of a surface cut), that they would most likely not stitch. So, we cleaned it up good and headed ot my mom's. When dad got home from church(bout a half hour later), i had him look at it, bc he is good about dealing with that stuff without the fear and hysterics that we mom's tend to react with. HE said that it wouldn't even require stitches and to keep a watch on him. That's what we have been doing. Keeping the wound clean and tonight i bought some liquid bandage stuff to put on it. He played all day today and never had any issues. His pupils were reacting as they should be and everything. So, I am still going to call our doc in the am to let him know and see if he wants me to bring him in. I really appreciate that our doctor and his affiliates are honest and up front. A lot of times, they always say to take them in. Oh they stubbed their toe? take em in. They have a low grade fever, take em in. So, needless to say, today was another long day. While at my mom's jeremy fixed the wipers on the car and replaced the studs that had broken off. We still only have the donut tire on there, bc until we can afford a new rim, that's what we have to do. Mom had a housefull today. The relatives from out of town had stayed at her house last night (her cousins) and they were still there. My aunt Kathy and 2 cousins came over, A. Mis and the girls, U. Ken and the boys, my brother, sara and their clients, U. John....it was a houseful!

I got home, weeded my flower bed, planted a few plants that i had grown inside from seeds, then we came in the kids got baths and we had dinner and relaxed. I had to run to the store to get some things, like the liquid bandage and peroxide and some food. I am exhausted now and ready to hit the hay! Of course, i think i will hit the loveseat instead. The kids fell asleep on the couch watching Spirit, and I will leave them there. I want to be close to Sebastian for the night, bc, well, bc im a mom! LOL. So, i will sleep all hunched up on the loveseat!

Well, i hope everyone else's weekend was much less eventful, at least in the way of injuries! That boy is going to be the death of me! He is all boy! HE has no fear what so ever and that scares me! I'm gonna put him in a bubble!

They made it back

Well Mark, Mis and the girls have made it back, after a horrendous trip via train! I think i had posted about all the trouble they had. Well, they landed in Flint about 1am! Makenneh will be so happy to get to see allana! Of course, our car is broke again! Two of the 5 studs that Jeremy just changed last friday are broken again. He was told that it is probably the rim causing it. So,that means we need a new rim! Yippee! We are drowning financially and this car is just sucking more money out of us. We need to get rid of it. But, can't afford to do that. Hopefully it will hang on long enough for me to get going in school and maybe qualify for a student loan to get a decent car. ALthough, i don't hold my breath on student loans...they seem to be very hard to obtain. My sister, who is 22, has steady work history, makes as much (if not more than Jeremy), has great credit, yada yada, can't get student loans. My brother in law, while he doesn't make much money (he is a full time student), he has a lot of trouble getting them. They make it sound like you go to college and you will qualify for these loans. I've yet to meet someone who had it easy obtaining one! And heck, my poor brother in law is going for a phD, and attending UofM...expensive as all get out.

Anyway, last night was the most beautiful night i have had in a very long time! I even felt weepy with delight! WE watched Cheaper by the Dozen (Makenneh loves these movies) and the kids were awesome and loving and cuddly and we sat together on the couch and just had a wonderful time!

And I have to share some cute ideas of Makenneh's. One...she wants me to have lots of kids! She said we need a big house so we can have lots and lots of kids. IS she crazy? I find it cute..of course, i can find it cute, bc i know we can't have anymore...lol. Second...The oldest kid on the movie (she is married) is pg and makenneh says, she has a big belly bc she has a baby in there, just like me. and when i grow up and get married, my baby will come out! Wonderful, so that's how reproduction works. aNd here I thought the stork brought babies! Who was i kidding? I just think it's so cute to here her talk about this stuff. Ever since Aunt Sara got pg, Makenneh has been fascinated with the idea of a baby in her belly!

Well, mom and Mis just stopped by to pick Makenneh up so she can go see Allana. Makenneh was still sleeping. I went in to wake her up and told her that Aunt Missy was here to get her so she could go see allana and she got the biggest smile and jumped right up! She is so happy! I wish my car wasn't broke so i could just drive over there, but oh well! That's life! We wouldn't all fit in the car, so that's why Seb and I stayed home! (mom is driving my brother's little saturn...2 door, 4 seater!)

It looks like it's going to be another rainy day! I guess...April showers bring May flowers! And it's better to have adequate rainfall...good for the crops, reduces risks of field fires, prevents fire bans, etc. So, I'll take some rain!

7 things

Tagged by JulieQ

Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

WEll, i must admit that I don't know of 7 ppl who read my blog...but I will go ahead and while i am struggling with 7 facts, I will hopefully think of at least one person to tag. most of my readers don't have their own blogs...so it wouldn't work to tag them!

1. I'll start by stealing Julie's fact...i chew on my cheek too. Although, I think i do it more out of boredom than anything else.

2. I do laundry pretty much every day. Yet, i never reach the end!

3. I get irritated very easily. Once irritated, everything grates on my nerves!

4. I love sleep but have insomnia. I am a night owl and hate to go to bed before 11pm.

5. I hate mornings, so i would be happy if i could just stay up as late as ever and sleep in as late as ever.

6. I pour a glass of coke almost as soon as I wake up..it's my coffee!

7. I like to procrastinate...to an extreme.

There, i did it. It wasn't as painful as I thought it might be. It just seems like most of these things are common knowledge if you read my blog. Oh well! Best i could do. Now, im off to try for a nap!

I tag mom of three. I don't think there is anyone else who reads me who has a blog that hasn't been tagged...helen? you been tagged? If not, you are now! I didn't see a post yet, so if not, tag, you're it, too!

Rough Night

I spent most of the night coughing my brains out. My poor head started to ache from all the coughing. At one point, Jeremy muttered something in his sleep about the damn coughing and I got mad and went to sleep in the kids' bedroom. LOL.

He woke up this morning, came in and asked me why i was sleeping in there. I muttered "bc". HE said, well why didn't you sleep in bed with me? I told him bc he was bitching about my coughing. He had no recollection. I knew at the time, even, that he was prob sleeping and wasn't really aware of it, but i guess, i was just so tired from the constant broken sleep, that i decided to get an attitude about it and sleep elsewhere. I must admit that once i fell asleep in their bed, I slept quite well!

Mark and Missy were expected to arrive at the trainstation,here, today. BUt, my mom talked to them yesterday and they experienced a huge delay. First, the train broke down on the tracks. They sat on the tracks for 5 hours! Then, they finally got that taken care but had to switch conductors due to the time restraints placed on conductors (they can only operate a train for so many consecutive hours). So, they had to stop in some remote place to get a new conductor. Then, they hit Texas. Yes, all of that happened before TX, just from Phoenix, AZ. TX had a bunch of tornados, so amtrack had to put everyone up in a hotel and give them food vouchers. So, they had to stay overnight at a hotel. THey were put back 24 hours! So, they will be arriving tomorrow! What a trip! Thankfully Makenneh has seemed to have forgotten that Allana is coming home. Otherwise, she would be hounding me wanting to know when she will be home. She has already asked if she can stay with Allana when she gets home. She doesn't understand that they don't get to go back to the place they lived before leaving. They will be staying with my Uncle Ken. I'm not mentioning lala (as Makenneh calls her) and that way she can be surprised when i load her in the car and take her to see lala!

The kids are being very good this morning. I was even able to sneak into the shower. I was so happy when i got out and saw they were both laying on the couch watching cartoons! I was so sure that I would come to regret my quick (less than 10 min) shower. But man my hair needed washed! I couldn't wait one more min. LOL. They are both in good moods and just being good! Can i bottle this up for later?

Well, it's a "Cat in the Hat" kinda day....rainy and chilly. No sunshine today!

Well, im off for now....need to get something to eat!

Hmmm

I don't know what to title this..just gonna be some random rambles.

I called my mom at about 754p to see if i had to pick Makenneh up or what...she told me that Makenneh didn't want to come home. I had mom put her on the phone and as soon as she heard my voice, she got an attitude and said, "i don't wanna come home!". Hmph, fine! I will pack your clothes you can live with gma and papa. OK, i didn't say that. Heck, i had no time to say anything bc as soon as she voiced her opinion, she gave the phone back to my mom. So, i knew she had a good time and apparently, they were still rolling...lol. I took a shower and got aroun and went to get her. She was gone with my mom to get dinner and when she walked in and saw me, she said the same thing! Gee, missed ya too, kid! LOL. She did not want to come home. She wanted to stay at gma's and she made that very clear. Needless to say, she is sleeping peacefully, at home! I just stayed and visited and when it was time to go, reminded her of a certain kitty that might just be missing her...lol. She had a good time up north and mom and dad both said she was very well behaved! How i beamed with pride! Dad said there was one small incident and it was bc she was laying on the couch, got up to have ice cream and while she was eating her ice cream at the table, my brother and Sara sat down on the couch. Well, she thought that she needed her spot back...and didn't think she should have to share it. But, she sat down, and dad said she was out! She was over tired.

Sebastian must've had a good time at gma Chris's, as he fell asleep on the way home. When he woke up, he was a bit crabby, but then was happy-go-lucky and full of boundless energy. He looked so grown up and was jabbering away and running and jumping and was just a delight! Both kids were so sweet and wonderful tonight! I knew the break would do us all good and I certainly got to refresh! Neither of them gave me a fit going to bed and all is well. Sebastian got a new baseball hat while at gma's. It looks so cute on him! Maybe ill take a pic tomorrow to share. I need to actually take pics anyway! Maybe i can get some cute ones that will be worth paying to get printed! I don't know though, cuz my camera is crappy. Might use mom's! I'm sure i would have better luck!

Anyway, that's all i have for now. OH, i am feeling better now, after my day long nap and resting. My mom looked at my throat again tonight and saw no white, but said it is quite red.

Good night

It's too nice outside...

to be so sick and miserable! It isn't fair! LOL. Yesterday I felt a ok but today, i have done little more than lay on the couch and sleep. Of course, i took my Tylenol Sore Throat medicine that is a "nighttime" medicine, so it has made me sleepy. So, I slept. Because I could. Jeremy woke up me around 4 and said, "are you going to sleep the day away?" I grumbled that i don't feel good, what time is it, anyway?" What he said 4, i sat up. Wow! My mother in law had called, so he returned her call and he is now gone to get Sebastian. I spoke with my mom and they had just left Gma's, so they will be home 530-6. I had Jeremy look at my throat again and he didn't see any white stuff. So, im not sure if what I'm suffering is Strep or if it's a bad sore throat due to all the severe sinus drainage I have going on. I did get some antibiotics from his cousin and am taking them. I will continue to take them until I can get to a doctor. We do have a County Health Plan that is free to low-income families (for adults who don't qualify for state insurance). I know that I could get on that, so i might just have to go down and sign up. I kinda wanted to wait til i hear from my caseworker as to whether or not i could get the medicaid back (state ins). The medicaid covers way more and is just a much better insurance. I'm afraid that once i get the county health plan, i will be stuck with that even if i could have the medicaid instead. And the co. health plan, while very nice, just doesn't cover much but trips to doctor/Rx..don't need the ER or surgery or anything of that sort, they don't pay.

I really hate being sick. I know, nobody likes it..but I cannot lay down and rest like i need to. Even without kids, i want to be able to get up and go about my day. But, rest is crucial to getting better. This time, though, the energy is zapped, so really, while I want to get up and do things, my body doesn't let me. I get so tired and drained. Even sitting here at puter wears me out. Forget the dishes or laundry that are both piled up.

So, without any kids last night, we rented a few movies, watched them and spent time together. It was very nice. Just relaxing and peaceful.

It is around 80* F today...quite warm, especially when you consider that just last week, it was snowing! the sun is shining bright and it is just beautiful out. Today is the warmest day we are going to have this week. The rest of the week looks like it'll be around 50-60s. That is more normal for this time of year..and of course, the spring showers are in the forecast as well.

Well, im off here to enjoy the last few mins of my peace and quiet before Jeremy arrives back home with Sebastian! Hope everyone had a great weekend! And avoid those sick bugs!

The scoop

The cost to fix the car was very minimal. I was so happy! The studs were 1.00ish each and the lug nuts were around the same. NO biggie. Of course, one thing led to another it took Jeremy about 4 hours to finish the task..he stripped something and was just having other issues. but alas, the car is fixed, for now!

While at my mom's today (where i spent most of hte day), my throat went from a sore, irritated throat to a full blown, swollen, painful throat. I had mom check and she sees the white puss sacs forming. So, im pretty darn sure it's strep. Which is great with no insurance. I will have ot call my caseworker on Monday and see if she can get something done with insurance for us. There is no way we can ever afford to pay for it through Jeremy's employer...over 200.00 a month. And I just have too many medical issues with female problems, depression and my bi-annual bouts of bronchitis. The strep is a new thing for me..i don't think ive ever had it. I've heard how miserable it is, but i have seemed to avoid it until now.

Makenneh had a horrilbe day. Both kids needed a nap, they were up early, played very hard, were outside most of hte day and she just got very crabby. Then, after the crabby came whiney. She almost backed out on gma n papa. Well, she would have, but we didn't leave til after she fell asleep. We knew that if she missed out on going to great gmas tomorrow, she would not be happy. She was just overly tired and beside herself. I got her all comfy, tucked in and we watched a movie, papa popped some popcorn and she was in the middle of eating it when she fell asleep, hand in the popcorn bowl. It was too precious.

Does anyone have some good home remedies to at least dull this sore throat pain? I know gargling with warm salt water helps. i will try that. I just had a fudgesicle (we didn't have any popsicles, so that had to work). IT felt so good to stick it on the back of my throat. I have never had this kinda of sore throat. It itches, it hurts, i can't swallow without feeling as if i'll choke. My ears hurt, my jaw hurts...and i can't even think of having relief before monday in the way of antibiotics. Jeremy's cousin does get a lot of samples from work (she works in a dr office) so i might see if she has some antibiotics. I know it's not good to do that, but it might bring me some relief until I can get something sqaured away with insurance.

Well, im off here to get some sleep...hopefully i can get a good night's sleep btwn coughing to beat the bandit and the sore throat!

Cooties, cars and other things

I have cought some cooties. My throat is sore, i have a nasty cough and full of congestion. I feel a bit like death warmed over. I just want to sleep, but these 2 offspring of mine refuse to allow such luxury. So keep on,I must. Stick some toothpicks in the heavy, goopy, crusty eyelids to keep them open, use the little energy left to get several different drinks, snacks, movies, toys, what have yous...just keep going on. I got up today and thought i would go to moms, visit, maybe sneak in a nap. I get about 4 driveways before my mom's and the car starts weebling and wobbling and shaking and oh my, what is going on? I thought i had a flat..pulled in, parked, check..no flat. Hmmm. OH well, maybe it was my imagination. I hang out, mom leaves for training for her new job. I decide to load kids up and go home. get in car, put in reverse...eww, clunky pitiful happenings. I back up, put in drive and start to go and stop before the end of hte short driveway.. Call Uncle Ken who lives down the road and knows about cars. Only, he is at work. Hmph! Call jeremy at work, not that he can be of any assistance, but misery does love company. He doesn't answer. So, park car back in parking spot, sit and contemplate my next move. Decide to just head back in the house and wait for jeremy to call, mom to come home, uncle to get out of work, something, anything? jeremy called back and we decided it best if he had his coworker drop him off at my parents' house. So, he gets there, gets the keys. He is gone all of a few mins. Comes in, tosses keys on table, says, I don't even need to start it to see the problem....4 studs broke off. That meant, one lone stud/lugnut was holding that tire on. So, it will have to get fixed tomorrow, when he gets his check. Yippee. Not in the budget. Hell, we don't even have enough money to call a budget. More like juggling act. So, mom has my brother's car, bc they are down to one vehicle themselves. brother's car doesn't have enough room for all of us to get home, so i had to call my aunt.

Needless to say, i never did manage a nap. Did get a few mins of rest...but no sleep. Tomorrow night, Makenneh is staying with my parents, then going up north with them saturday to see gma on her bday. Makenneh is so excited! She just adores her "great gma with whipe hair". Can't blame her. Great Grandma earned every white hair she has! She is the epitome of grandmas. Kind and gentle, quit and soft-spoken. Cookie jars with cookies (yeah, so what if they are mollasses cookies...I loved em anyway), stories and walks and treasures and, and, and....Come to think of it, i also think she has some secret...she has always been a hard worker, keeping her hands busy, getting them dirty, be it cooking a huge meal fit for royalty or weeding gardens or planting flowers or chopping wood or shoveling snow. But those hands are the softest hands i have ever felt. Soft like cotton and silky as silk can be. *what uplifting thoughts to reminisce*

My mother in law called today and said to bring Sebastian over at 4pm on Saturday...she is keeping him for the night! Now I know that God has sent me some angels! I have needed a break. I need some rest and relaxation. I need some time to myself. The uglies have crept into my being lately and I hanging by a thread. Thank you for giving me a break..time to repair my rope and maybe add a few good knots for better gripping! LOL.

Then, there is a big mess stirring up in the family (mom's side). It's a lot to go into. I can give the abbreviated version. My aunt and uncle that moved to AZ (mark and mis) stored their 4wheeler (quad) at another aunt/uncles(Michelle and Brian). Well, saturday night, they notice the quad missing, call the police. NOw, if you have been reading my blog for long, you know that i'm not a big fan of mark's. We have had some big issues and he lacks character in many ways. Keep this in mind. Well, when the police arrive and m & b's to make a report of stolen quad, brian goes further to make a statement (yes, documented statement) to the police that he thinks Mark did it and he has been known to do stuff like this before and they had just filed bankruptcy and hard for money, yada yada. Why he felt compelled to say all of that, i will never really know (well, i have my suspicions, think psychology class and defense mechanisms). So, police call mark (In AZ no less) and tell him that he is under investigation for fraud. Now would be a great time to inform you that mark has no insurance on this machine. So, it being stolen just means, he is out the machine and still owes the creditor. Mark told officer that he had nothing to do with it and would come to MI right then to submit to lie detector. I mean, there's a lot at stake here, with these accusations. Mark was very upset that brian would say/do this. Anyway, Mark told the police a couple days later that they should be looking into brian then, too. I don't know any details of the convo btwn mark and the officer. I do know that now brian is under investigation and i guess they want him to submit to lie detector. I mean, we are looking at fraud and whatnot here. so, there is a huge uproar in the family. On top of this, Mis has been very ill since moving to AZ. She went to doc and finally got blood results back..she has mountain sickness (don't know the fancy name) and will only get worse if she stays. So, they had already decided to get back to MI. So, they are leaving Sunday, arriving in MI on Wed. It's just a mess and is going to cause huge divisions. I don't understand why brian felt the need to say so much to the officer in the first place. It just makes no sense. So, we have all these "family oriented" functions coming up (baby shower, bridal showers, weddings, etc) and htere is a huge feud going on. And it's only gonna get worse, bc i really think someone is going to end up in jail over it. Someone is lying somewhere. I am not going to say one way or the other, but i just know the truth will be found! Ugh. FAmily, can't live with em, can't shoot em...well, u could, but you go to jail. LOL. So, just pack up and move away! ALthough, mark tried that and it didnt' seem to matter, much! I think i shall stay in my own little bubble, living my own little life, crappy as it may be. They can all chuck spears at each other til there is nothing left. Meanwhile, Ill be over here, in my little corner of the world, hopefully blissfully ignorant to the ingorance and child like behaviors of others. Helen, wouldn't love to have a visitor? LOL.
So, there, got that off my chest. I don't want to talk about it to anyone in the family, bc i don't want to be in the middle of anything. I will let them all kill each other, as they are seeming to do such a fine job of it.

The past few nights have been blissful. THe kids have gone to bed without so much as a fight. I am loving it! Amen to nicer weather to wear little bodies right out! I need to get packing Makenneh's bag for her little trip. I will do it tomorrow when I am trapped at home with no car!

And now, I think I am heading to bed....sweet dreams

Pain, pain, go away

Of course, for me, I never really got any sleep...how can it be morning? LOL. I was up all night with a severe headache. I took about 7 or8 hot showers through the night, heated my hot pack up about 15 times, paced, laid down, got up, went to bed, came to couch, sat at desk..was just beside myself. I would put the hot pack on my head, lay down, well, lay back bc i couldn't handle laying down. I would start to drift off and either start coughing or the hot pack would cool down and bam! Up with excruciating head pain. When Jeremy's alarm went off, i was so happy. He waited on me and tried to help me feel better. For a bit, it helped. I drifted back off to sleep, woke up again and pain back full throttle. Finally, at 730ish, i called mom. She brought me out some Tylenol 3 w/codiene. I was on the verge of tears. I would have cried, but i know that doesn't help, only makes it worse. She brought me a neck massager, more hot packs, sinus pills and the t3. I took a t3 as soon as she got here...and it immediately started to help. I also put the neck messager on. The headache is gone now and im just left with the nagging feeling in my head. I can deal with that. Mom had offered to take me to the hospital, but i have no insurance, so i didn't go. I need to get something going for insurance, bc i need pills for this. I get these way too often and it's horrible.

Yesterday was beautiful. The kids and I went outside and we played a little "baseball", Makenneh rode her bike and it was nice. Today, the rain has already started, but it beats snow! Although there is talk that it could turn to snow, but not stick. Pooey on that!

The codiene is kicking in and I want to just go to sleep. I can't bc Sebastian is already up for the day. Gonna have to suck it up! My mom is going shopping with my aunt. I mentioned wanting to go. I might. It would keep me busy enough to stay awake, but then, i don't feel like getting me and kids ready to go anywhere. not to mention, i don't have extra money! It could still be fun to just hang out. Can ya tell im really debating this?!

Well, I'm gonna get off here and surf the net for something to keep me awake. I could clean, but I don't have much energy and I'm afraid to do too much for fear that headache will come back. The nagging feeling is there reminding me that the headache isn't that far gone.

That's a wrap

Spring Break is over! Back to reality. LOL. Actually, it didn't seem any different. I was too busy with other things to "miss" taking Makenneh to and from school! I kinda feel cheated now...lol!

I didn't escape the break without kids. They arrived on thurs and Des left fri night to stay at my sister's. Then, Sat night Kenny stayed with my brother....and then today, Steph was picked up. So, day by day, they disappeared...lol. Des did get dropped off here to catch her ride home and when Makenneh said she wanted Des to stay, Des said, "Maybe next weekend!" I came up with a quick, "NO, NO Kids next weekend!" I need a break! I have to tell you this....on Friday, I went through 12 hot dogs for lunch! Yes, count them, 12! I can't afford to feed teenagers! Yikes!

I attempted a Barbie cake for Makenneh...it turned out like crap! I wasn't in the mood. I was stressed and frustrated and nothing seemed to be going right for me on Saturday! She was happy, all the same! Then, that little stinker dirtied up most of her new clothes before 2pm today! She put an outfit on, would get it wet or get something on it, take it off, put a new one and finally i told her that was it! Geesh! I am the same way if i get something on my clothes, i have to change. But it's a bad habit for kids to get into bc well, the laundry is a never-ending battle! LOL. She got a cute Dora bathing suit with a little wrap/skirt to go on it and it is soo o cute. She had to try it on today, too! She can be quite the little diva! She is getting into dresses and skirts and dressing up like a princess! And boy can she pose for that darn camera. You can guess..i forgot mine ( i would have forgotten my head were it not attached). My aunt took pics so hopefully i can get some! IF and when i do, i will be sure to share! She also got a Dora bike. The one with training wheels. She loves it! Now if the weather will cooperate, she can ride it! She did get to ride it a bit today. Oh and she got 2 4-packs of play dough! She loves that stuff!

Well, i am exhausted and think im gonna finish up on here and head for bed! It's calling my name. I have had a sore throat for a few days now and it seems to be getting worse. I am trying to fight it, but mom said that that's the start of a bug that has been going around. I don't want to be sick! bleh!

Done with Bdays for now

Well, we survived another bday party! The weather was nowhere as nice as predicted. It was too cold to be outside...so everything was indoors. We were a lil cramped, but survived! Makenneh had a good time but didn't get to ride horses!

I on the other hand, was a ball of nerves. I was just so irritable! I felt like i ran and ran and spun my wheels and things just got too stressful. Then, when ppl started arriving at my sisters, they congregated in the kitchen, under feet while I was trying to get dinner done and ready for everyone to eat. THey weren't helping, they weren't doing anything but being in the way! Well, i found that I think mostly they were just waiting to be first in line. I have never seen a group of adults (mostly) act so much like scavengers. It was nuts! Ppl were coming back for seconds before I had even fixed my freakin plate. AAHHHH! Just glad it's over! Next year, she will be 5 and I will take her and a couple friends somewhere and call it a day! No more of this mess, i tell ya!

I am exhausted and ready for bed. On one hand. On the other hand, i just want to sit up til everyone is asleep and enjoy some time to myself! Something tells me i won't last that long though!

Helen, I hope you didn't rely on Google maps to get to Cali

So, i went to myspace and one of the bulletins said to go to google.com, click on maps, click get directions from New York, NY to Paris France. Then, when it comes up, look at number 23. Read the directions! Here is the link directly to that site, if it will work. If not, ya gotta do all the finger work yourself, but i guarantee it's work every keystroke! LOL

http://maps.google.com/maps?ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&tab=wl&q=

So, after seeing this, I thought of you, Helen and your upcoming trip to the US. I chuckled and thought, Helen, I hope you aren't relying on Google maps to get ya here! It will be a long, cold, wet journey! LOL.

My cousin just informed me that the link doesn't work. So, you will probably have to go to google and type it in yourself.

I really thought we were more technologically advanced, but i guess I was fooling myself!
ENJOY!

He pissed a me

That's what Makenneh said! Talking about her cat. She tries so hard to say hissed, but it always comes out pissed. It is commical to hear her talk about cats hissing at her. We were laughing so darn hard. I needed to laugh. Lord knows that girl has caused me plenty of grief these last few days. I was ready to sell her to the Indians or sumfin! UGh! My girl was just getting to be a big girl who had begun to listen and follow directions and use her manners. Then, these last few days it was as if she regressed! But, i think we are back on track now!

My big girl turns 4 tomorrow! I can't believe it. I try to figure out where the time went. But, no matter where it went, it went! We have planned a little party for her at my sister's. That's where she wanted it at. She loves the farm! She will hopefully get to ride the horses! The weather is supposed to be nice. Surprise! THey were predicting snow and cold and cloudy. Now they are saying sunny and 52, no snow! The Lord smiles down on these kids when it comes to weather for their parties! We have been so lucky to always have nice weather on the day of their parties! IT may rain and snow and be cold all the days between, but we get pretty lucky. It's a darn good thing, too, as I cannot afford to have it somewhere indoors and we don't have a big enough place for guests here.

Anyway, the last few days have been rough around here and i sure hope that the following week is much better than the previous! I know that weather-wise, it's supposed to be better! Sunshine and warmer temps. The kids may actually get to use the kites they got for Easter!

I still haven't gotten her bday present. i am not sure what to get her. So, i will be doing that tomorrow, along with making the cakes and getting everything ready. Nothing like waiting til the last minute! But, im a procrastinator and that's how i do things. Well, that and there is this thing called money! It's needed for most anything you do! LOL.

My leg has been giving me problems. I fell on some ice a year ago and didn't go in. I thought I would be fine. Of course, a lot of ppl told me i should go in and talk to a lawyer. The big thing is that when i fell, the person at the gas station working didn't offer any assistance, didn't show an ounce of concern, didn't offer for me to use the phone, nothing! If it weren't for the wonderful couple there pumping gas at the time, I don't know how long i would have laid there, legs split every which way, in pain! They were truly a blessing and I was so thankful they were there when they were! The man helped me up and they let me use their cell to call my brother (who didn't have a car at the time) and to call home! They kept asking if i was ok, if i wanted an ambulance, etc. Well, bc I am too kind at times, I didn't want to even think about suing. So, I sucked it up and now it's looking like I'll be "sucking it up" for a long time to come. I am having these pains...my leg gives out, goes numb, just hurts like hell. I have no insurance now and no way to even try to get it taken care of. I am thinking there is something wrong with the nerves. I get numbness and pain from my buttocks to my ankle. I haven't been able to stand too long, walk too far, nothing. I hope i can get something figured out with insurance soon and get it looked at. I hope that whatever the problem it is fixable and not something i will have to deal with forever!

I have to tell you this, bc i am ready to blow up! LOL. I let the kids stay the night last night and 2 of the 3 are staying again tonight. Well, we went to my sister's for a bit and all the kids had a piece of gum. Well, one of them is chewing that stuff like a cow chews cud. I have told him repeatedly that i don't want to hear him chewing his gum. IT irritates me. Well, here i sit typing, and there he lays, chomping that damn gum! How many times must a 16 yr old be told to chew quietly. Is it really that hard to do? I have never had a problem with it, myself. You keep your lips closed and nobody hears it! Period. End of story! IT's freakin Dentyne Classic. It isn't even bubble gum or anything. It's not like its a huge wad of gum. But, to hear him chew it, you would swear its a whole pack of bubblicious! God help me!

WEll, i will get off here and finish my rounds on the net. I took some tylenol sore throat nighttime, so im sure it will be knocking me out soon. I didn't want to be knockedout, but it was the only sore throat med i had in the house. And my throat is starting to really hurt. I hope it is more from dryness than a bug!

Well, Makenneh is calling me...she wants her silky blanket, which conveniently, is being used by little brother, who is sleeping! I will have to do find a peaceful solution!

Yeah, Im still here

Just been too tired to post, i guess. Not to mention, nothing exciting to post about.

Last night i had bunco. It was fun and felt so good to get out of the house. I came home around 930 and the kids were sleeping. I was sooo happy. That is, until Jeremy told me they fell asleep around 6pm. I was so sure they would wake up at any moment and keep me up. And if they didn't do that, then of course, they would be up way too early in the am. Well, they stayed sleeping. i had insomnia again and was up til almost 2am. The kids woke up around 430am. Jeremy let me sleep and watched after them while he was getting ready for work, but i had to get up at 6 bc he had to leave for work. The kids have been up and going strong ever since. They won't take naps, they are driving me crazy (mostly bc i am so exhausted that i am ill and irritable) and I was ready to run from this place by 9am.

We just finished lunch. They are in their bedroom playing right now. Hopefully they continue to be good. I had sat with Seb on the couch, cuddling. I would feel him go limp and think, yes! he is gonna go to sleep. Nope. As soon as he would realize he was nodding off, he would climb down and walk around, then come back to me. Stinker.

I think im gonna see if my cousin will keep them tonight so i can get a break. All this talk about everyone else needing a break and wanting me to keep kids so they can have breaks...well, i want a turn! Unlike them, my kids are home with me all day, every day. They don't go to full day school and the 3 hours Makenneh is at school, i spend 30 mins or so getting her there and picking her up. The rest of the time is spent making dinner and feeding the family.

Anyway, i just feel yucky today and would rather climb in bed and pass out! The kinda good news is that jeremy will be home early...around 3..the bad news is, of course, that will make our paycheck short! Ugh, no winning! Well, im off here to coerce 2 kids to take a nap!

And now it's over

Well, Easter is done! Of course, it's hard to tell by the candies laying all over, the toys and other goodies plaguing this place! Poor Sebastian woke up with his eyes gooped shut! I gave him some antihistimine....it got better for awhile. Jeremy's dad and his gf stopped by this morning and brought baskets for the kids. He always buys those premade baskets. This year Seb's was done in a lil wheelbarrow. He got a shovel, rake, little dump truck, bubbles and some of the odd candies they put in those things. Makenneh's was a lil shopping cart with a "barbie", fake nails (grr..like 75 'fashion' nails), fuzzy purse and bunny "ears" headband. Then, we got ready and went to my brothers. My brother and Sara gave Makenneh a bubble machine and Seb a bat/ball set. Then, My uncle John gave them each an easter bucket with a book, stuffed animal and candy/goodies. They made out quite well! More candy than any kids need...lol.

We had a great big huge feast. THe food was yummy and I wish I had some leftovers! After dinner, the guys took the kids to the basement to run off some of their sugar highs. We played a game called Apples to Apples. It was quite fun. Gonna ask for that for my bday or Christmas (i know i won't break down and buy it for myself). Then, we had a bit of a scare. Sara went to the bathroom and then called her mom in there. She went pee, wiped and there was a bit of blood. She wiped 3 more times and each time there was a small trace amount of bright red. She was also having cramping like a period. Her mom thought she could just prop her feet up and relax and be ok. We thought she should call the doctor. To be honest, the cramping really scared me, although I didn't say anything. I just told my brother that they should at least call the doc and see what they say. He called and of course they said she needed to come in. Come to find out, she has a bacteria. The bacteria is always present, but the increase in hormones due to pg cause an overgrowth or something like that and it can't be dangerous. The doc was glad she came in. They did an ultrasound and baby is fine! I am just sooo glad she went in. Her cousin just lost a baby at 19 or so weeks gestation and they found out that it was caused by bacteria and had it gone untreated, her cousin could have died from it as well. I know the hospital is the last place anyone wants to be on a holiday, but it sure beats possible regrets.

In a week we have Makenneh's 4th bday party. She wanted it at my sister's so she could ride the horses, but it's looking like it's going to be cold and if that's the case, i very well may move it to my parents' house, bc my sis has a huge yard (well, 30 acres to be exact) but the house is kinda small. I guess we will just play it by ear and see how it works out.

Oh and guess what?! I got a blessing on Saturday, in my mail box! I was meaning to contact my case worker for my food benefits. We only got $70 a month and that was set from when i was working. Well, we have been really struggling lately and could use the extra food benefits. I am a huge procrastinator, even of things of importance. Well, saturday, i checked the mail and had 2 evelopes from DHS. I was dreading opening them, bc often times, they seem to bear bad news...cutting benefits or tons of paper work to get filled out by everyone and their dog. But, the first one i opened said, "after a review of your case..." and i started to feel ill..."your food beneifts are being increased..." I started to cry. It sounds simple and cheesy, but I felt like I had a guardian angel looking out for me. My 70.00 was deposited on the 3rd and was already spent (didn't get any meat, bc everything i had added up so quick, specially fruits and veggies). So, I decided to call the customer service number on my card and there is just a tad over $400 on there, bc they retro paid. I cried. It is such a blessing. I can now get meats and the things we need for meals, as well as stuff for makenneh's party and not be scraping by to do it.

I never understood why the benefits were cut in half when i took a job, as our papers say that unless we make more than X amount per month, we don't have to report income change. Well, my job still left us under that limit. THe only reason my job was reported was bc it was time for my review. But, we made it through ok...none of us are malnutritioned...even if we did have less than desirable meals at times.

Anyway, enough of airing our financial strains. I so can't wait to get this college degree and leave all of this state help in the dust! It is a great program to help those in need, but it never seems to work the way it should. It seems like those who honestly try to help themselves get punished (or at least, don't receive as much in benefits). I just keep telling myself, 6 more years until none of this will ever matter! It seems like a long time on one hand, but on the other, I know it will fly by fast. I really can't wait to get hte papers in the mail from the college so i can go get signed up! I can't wait to have those books in my hand..along with a nice new book bag.

Well, Sebastian has finally crashed from his sugar high, so i need to get to bed. I don't know how well he will sleep being sick! It's looking like I may have to take him to the doc tomorrow. His poor eyes just ooze green goo. I know it's not pink eye as neither eye is pink, but his eye lids and below his eyes are red and puffy. And his poor little nose runs like a faucet. It is red and raw from being wiped. Poor baby!

Bummer News

Mom told me today that grandma and aunt bev won't be making it for Easter. They are sick with bronchitis or the likes. Such a bummer. I was really looking forward to seeing them. I haven't broken the news to Makenneh yet, as I know she will be disappointed! She loves her gma with Whipe hair! (funny how she uses hair color to differentiate her gmas..and then says whipe for white...lol)l.

I called today to invite mother in law to my brother's for dinner...she said no bc it would be too confusing...lol. I thought it a funny statement to make and even questioned her on it...by saying, "too confusing?" She didn't say much more. I assured her it would be no problem, but she said that she is going to see if brother in law (he is 21ish) wants to go to dinner and a movie. So, i guess that's her plans. I don't know. I feel kinda bad, but I don't want to give up my family's big to do to just "hang out" as if it were any other day. My family has always had plans for holidays and made big meals, etc. They haven't always done that..and kinda take it year by year doing whatever they decide at last minute. I'm gonna call my brother right now to find out what time dinner is going to be...we also plan on going to church that morning...so im trying to see if we will have time to stop by her place...of course, Jeremy has to work Monday morning..so we won't be able to be out late!

I picked up a few more things for the kids' baskets today...it's actually more even than i thought. It is just so much easier to find things to put in Makenneh's basket than Sebastian's. I can go to Family Dollar and pick up cute hair things, little trinkets, stickers, etc for Makenneh but nothing worth having for Sebastian. It doesn't help that he isn't into anything and is still a bit too young for bubbles and stuff (although, he is getting some..they are the cool bubbles that don't immidiately pop..you can hold on to them. I thought the kids would really like them). He eats play dough, so i hate to get him much of that...come to think about it..he pretty much eats everything. Maybe he was a garbage disposal in his last life...lol. JK bc i don't really believe in reincarnation, but it sounded good.

Now that both kids are finally asleep, I went and sorted Easter stuff and they each have the exact same number of items in their basket...dang i did good! I would like to get them each a shirt at least...but we will see. We don't do the fancy Easter dress/suit thing around here, bc it would get only one use...so we instead usually get them a nice, springy outfit that can be worn many times. Makenneh has a beautiful skirt that I would like to get a shirt to match..and Seb has tons of khaki/dress pants so if i got him a cute dressier shirt, that would make them set!

I just talked to my sis and she got the baby gift already...she got a UofM diaper bag and it's going to be filled with all UofM stuff...rattle, bib, outfit, teddy bear, one of those little "security blankies with the silky edges and the head of a teddy bear at one corner and the feet at the opposite corner...then some staple items like wipes, baby bath and lotion. It's going to be cute! I still have no idea what I'm gonna get. The kid already has more clothes than any kid i've known and Makenneh had tons when she was a baby...so i dont' want to get more clothes, just bc it is next to impossible for them to wear "that" many clothes before growing out of them. I was planning on doing a lil gift bag for mommy too...with things to pamper herself before baby arrives. Someone did that for me and I loved it.

Well, Im gonna get off here and finish up online..then try to get to sleep. I had another nap tonight, so yep, i'm not feeling so tired!

And if I am too busy to blog again til then, Happy Easter to everyone! And Aunt Bev, if you are reading this...you and grandma get better soon! Get plenty of rest! We will all miss you this weekend!

Insomnia again

I have to quit taking naps. Today was really unavoidable, as I had a migraine...took anacin several times, hot shower, hot packs...it went away for a bit then came back, quick fast and hard and so i took a tylenol 3 w/ codiene..and well, that tends to make one sleepy! I took a nap and woke up with a bigger headache...lol. So, another hot shower and more rest! It finally has gone away (knocks on wood). Those things are nothing to mess with. They can be down right debilitating!

Saturday we are going to my parents' to have Pizza and color eggs. Gma and A. Bev will be there! Tomorrow Im not doing anything, if i can help it! Of course, there is no gas in car, really and i have all of $5...and need i mention that gas shot from 2.44 this morning to 2.85 by afternoon! Crazy! then, in the paper i read that they are considering a gas tax increase for MI and increasing the cost of vehicle registration 50%. Wonderful, bc our economy is booming so much so that we are ranked like 2nd to last state as far as crappy economies go! So hike them taxes! WE can afford it! LOL. They say they need to in order to increase funding for road repairs. Well, i have an even better solution....repair the roads right the first time...it may cost more initially, but will pay off in the long run and save money! patching crap here and there just doesn't cut it. Ok, im lashing out bc darn it, im not gonna be able to afford to drive my car. If i can afford to register, i won't be able to afford gas for it...lol. Gettin me a horse. That'll work til the first winter where im stuck trapsing out in cold snow to feed...wait, it would work until i had to shovel poop the first time...or haul hay. Bleh! Not my thing. Have to move to a city so i can utilize my legs. Can't walk anywhere from here...well anywhere worth walking to. ~end rant~

I really have nothing exciting to write about...so im gonna spare ya all the boring nothingness and get ready for bed....hopefully i can fall asleep!

What heppened??

ETA...as soon as i hit post, i noticed the title...how funny that i misspelled happen. I laughed when i saw it and thought, i am not gonna change it..it's too freakin funny....but at the same time, my anal retentiveness regarding spelling got the best of me and i couldn't let the blog world assume that i couldn't spell happen, so i had to make note of it. LOL.


Yeah, so there is snow on the ground...accumulation! I so figured it would snow, not stick, be done. But noooooo! I had to scrape my car off to run to the store...after almost falling on my ass walking to the car! So not happy about it! They even had to shut down part of the main expressway due to conditions and bad accidents! This is April and Spring has officially started. Yes, i know I live in MI...but I am ready for SPRING, darn it. I want to be able to have nice spring weather on easter,...the weather you can put a jacket on and go out and hunt for easter eggs...ya know..the images that come to mind when one thinks of Easter. oh well, I don't suppose I can write a letter of complaint to Mother Nature or the Lord above...something tells me I won't get my way....lol.

I know I've been complaining on my period a lot this time...but this month is kicking my butt, good! My schedule (if i ever really had one...) is all out of whack. I have taken naps almost every evening, causing me to stay up late unable to sleep. I just tried going to bed, but i got in there, laid down and couldn't fall asleep...so i finally decided to get up and try it again! And here I am. Maybe once i get some thoughts out, i will be tired enough to sleep.

I talked to my mom tonight (nothing new, i talk to her every day, usually several times a day)...and heard some very disturbing news. Apparently, my uncle (the one who moved his family to arizona last month) plans to borrow some money from a friend to get a train ticket and come back...leaving his wife and kids behind, bc he is "sick of her shit and wants to leave." How kind and thoughtful of him to move his family across the country and then plan to ditch them when they have no family, friends, nothing! I am sickened by this. How could a real man even contemplate such an assanine move? I feel it is his responsibility/duty to at least move them back up here. If he does this, she has no one to borrow money from to get back home. she will be stuck down there, far away from the only life she has ever known. Niether of her parents are in the financial spot to help her, nor is anyone else. And from what i have heard, the kids hate it there, as does she. We all kinda figured he was making this move in an effort to split up with her...but we all thought he would get done there (by himself) and then tell her it's over. WE never thought he would move them all down there and ditch em. What an ass! Im sorry but there is no other words for it! I am absolutely appalled! I truly hope he is just blowing smoke and doens't go through with it. And in the meantime, I hope she is wise to his crap and stashes money aside as often and as much as possible to get her and those girls home safely should he split! The thing is, though, i don't even know if she knows of his intentions to leave. And if he goes through with it and even assuming her and the girls are able to get back home to MI, where will they go and they have absolutely nothing to their names. They sold everything before moving down there. I don't care so much about him being without, but the kids don't deserve that. He can stay with his drinking buddies and have all that he needs, but those kids need things! I just wish that once, he would think things through before taking flying leaps with no regard to the future. He just jumps without looking/thinking. He had it in his head that by moving to AZ, all their problems would be solved, they would be able to make lots of money, live good and not have a worry! Nothing in life is quite that simple! I guess we will see what comes out of it! I just get sick thinking about the possibility of her and those kids being stuck down there with nothing and nobody!

My sister gave me her eyeglasses bc we have about the same prescription and mine were broken...no insurance to get new ones and she had corrective eye surgery and no longer needs hers. It is bizarre to only be able to see correctly out off small little ovals. it is making me sick to my stomach. I am so used to my contacts..being able to see correctly, even peripheal view. Of course, her glasses are these cute tiny things that are barely larger than my eyes are. however, i can see better with the glasses bc they are closer to the correction that i need. I think ill hang out in them for a while and give my poor eyes a break from contacts.

Well, it's spring break time...i am looking forward to the break from driving Makenneh to and from school. It gets to be a bit much after awhile! What I'm not looking forward to is the kids all wanting to stay the night here. I don't get it. I have nothing fun to do here for the bigger kids. Of course, Desiree likes having the internet...which, honestly, i don't share often anyway. But other than that...it seems like it would be boring! And I am no good at entertaining kids.

Easter dinner is looking to bring quite a full house. We are having it at my brothers and it's going to be my parents, sister, ralph and Chris, me, jeremy and kids, matt and sara (of course, they are hosting..lol), the clients (most of the women in their foster home aren't going to family for the holiday), Sara's mom and step-dad, her sis and her bf, her step brother and his gf, her step sis and her boyfriend, my gma and aunt bev, uncle john....i don't think i have forgotten anyone. And tons and tons of food. I suppose there will be enough food to feed an army! I may see if i can invite my mother in law, which im not overly excited to do, but she may otherwise have nothing to do, nowhere to go and I am a firm believer that nobody should be alone on a holiday! I will just cross my fingers tightly that she already has plans...lol!

Well, I suppose the novel is long enough and maybe now i can go to sleep!

Just give me my pills...

Today was a prozac day for sure! Of course, it doesn't help that it's my time of the month and so my hormones are whacky anyway. But, it started out good...i had posted on freecycle asking for a push mower. I figured it was a far shot,but couldn't hurt to ask. Well, by this morning, i had a response. So, tomorrow we will go to get the mower. Anyway, after that, I called the college to confirm that registration starts today and make sure i could register at the local campus rather than going to the main one. Good thing i thought to call. The lady was like, i just learned a few seconds ago that registration begins today. We don't even have the books with teh classes being offered, but if you know what classes y;ou want, i can get you signed up. I informed her that this is my first semester back since 1999.
phone lady...so you need to see a counselor?
me....yes.
her...well, we had a schedule change so if you can get in here around 1130, he can see you. (It is 1045 now and have to get kids ready and to my moms). But i told her i would try. She took my name.

I get us in the car and driving...call my mom to make sure she can watch them right now. Well, she was at my sisters doing her taxes. So, she said i could drop them off there. Well, i hang up with her and call the college back to see how long counselor would be in.
she.....well, until 1230 but he is booked. we have someone coming in at...oh wait, booked, too.
How bout i take your name and number and call you when we figure out when we can get you in.
me (irritated and frustrated and on the brink of tears)...ok, fine...give her my info.

I was already more than half way to my sis's so i figured i would still go there, while i sort through my options. I get there and i am just so upset and frustrated. i just wanted to be home...i wanted to mope and be by myself. But, i tried to hold myself together, visited for a lil bit then we came home. I called the main campus and they said i could come in, first come first serve, no need for appt, they were open til 7pm. Great, i figure i will wait for jeremy to get home and go up there. A bit later, i call my mom and she said i could bring the kids over if i wanted to go now. Well, ive been so excited to get this done, that i opted to go. I take my kids ot my moms (in one direction), head to the college (back in the other direction, past my house). I get there, tell them what im there for, fill out the form, sit and wait. They put my info into the system, print off some papers and call my name. Told me i needed to do a name change, so to go to the registration dept. So, i go over to the lady sitting at the "take a number" booth. I tell her what i have to do and she says i need the payment dept and gave me a paper i needed to fill out...so i push the button for a number for the payment dept., fill out the form and I wait. My number comes up, i tell her what i need, get that taken care of. Then, i go back and wait for my name to be called to see a counselor. She calls my name...i go back...she prints off my transcript from 1999 when i attended, we discuss the major im seeking,e tc. Then she tells me that bc im financial aid and it's not deposited to my account yet that i need to go to financial aid dept and show them my SAR so they can give me a slip that will enable her to register me. UGH! So, i go back to the kiosk, take a number for financial aid...and wait for my number. I get back there and show her my SAR...she says that I have to bring in all my tax info as i was selected for review...SO, by this time i am ready to just give up...but there is that strong desire. I want to do this!!! So, i ask her if i just bring those in or do i need to wait. She said that the school will be sending me a packet and when they send it, i bring all of that stuff back in. When can i expect to receive this packet? End of april, beginning of may! OMG...I JUST WANT TO FURTHER MY DAMN EDUCATION PPL....Im not applying for the CIA or FBI or anything. For real! So, i gather my stuff and sulk the entire way to my car. I had been fighting tears all day...and this was just another moment. I sat in my car, feeling defeated and hopeless. I head to my moms and get the kids...come home and just sat on the couch reading my romance novel...for the entire evening..aside from the time i cooked dinner. It really isn't the end of the world, i just have to wait. But i am pissed that i have made so many phone calls to that college to inquire about my financial aid and registering and not one of the many ppl i spoke with bothered to tell me that i can expect something in the mail. I even told them that I hadn't received anything and they said that i can print the SAR from the internet...which i did. IT just seems that none of these departments work together and share info and that they are just unorganized...maybe it's the work study students they have working phones or something, i don't know. But it was very frustrating! So close, yet so far away! Back to waiting!

So, that's the summary of my less than lovely day!
And as with the past few nights, Makenneh is sounding congested and yucky...it's been this way every night. she seems fine during the day...but come night, she sounds awful! And Sebastian has a runny nose and some congestion. I know this weather constantly changing doesn't help anything...but there's no control over that!

Well, im off here to do my rounds...

Oh, can you say a prayer for my uncle...he had the spot removed from his face today that they suspect is skin cancer. Please pray that it comes back fine!

I survived the weekend

Barely, but i survived it! LOL. The bday party went well. The rain even held off for us! Can't ask for anything more! The cakes were a big hit..everyone loved them. I forgot my camera, but did take pics on my mom's...so i will just need to get her SD card to upload them. Then I will share!

Sebastian got a lot of clothes, couple packs of socks, a pack of undies (my mother in law just thinks he should need them...he is not interested in potty training at all right now and she called to ask and i told her just that...but oh well, they are cute), 2 pair of swim trunks, several movies, including Peter Pan, a push and go race car that he absolutely loves and a Golf Club set by fisher price..which him and sis both love. Oh and he also got 22.00 and a little farm tractor push toy.

And now the count down is on for Easter! I was able to get some shopping done last night...but not a lot. It is so hard to shop for Easter when their bdays are one before and one week after the holiday. So far they have a book each (the little golden books), play dough, viewfinder each and an extra set of reels, bubbles, football (seb), matchbox cars(seb) and im drawing a blank. I kinda want to get them each an outfit and then a few more small things and be done with it. Well, candy, of course.

both kids are still up. I really thought they would crash early, but then again, all the excitement and play was countered by an over abundance of sweets.

I came home from the party and slept for about 2 hours. I was whipped. So, I will probably be up for the long haul tonight.

Tomorrow is registration for college. I can't wait. My mom is gonna watch the kids while i go sign up. I need to decide when to take classes...im leaning towards evening, bc i will always have a sitter. Makes things much easier when you don't have to stress over a sitter!

Well, im gonna get off here and do my rounds on the net!

Oh, and guess what....we have freakin snow in our forecast...wth?! Wed or so,i guess. I was really hoping we were done with that nasty white stuff!