Prayers and Positive thoughts for a friend

My friend Stacy is pregnant with twins. These girls will make 5 kids total. They are stationed in Germany right now while her Hubby serves in the army. Sunday she started bleeding and was admitted into the hospital. She and babies are ok but they are keeping her there until she delivers. She isn't due until Oct. 13! this is going to be a long 3 months. They live 35 mins from the hospital and she is going to go nuts not being able to see her 3 kids much! Not to mention, its just plain boring and depressing in the hospital.

I contacted her sister in law who lives nearby me and we are going to put together a care package to send her with books, puzzles, etc to keep her busy. I hate feeling so helpless having her a world away! Her husband, Jon, said that the church is helping a lot with the kids. Unfortunately, he cannot get a lot of time off of work and not to mention, they need to steady checks. So, it is surely going to be a rough time for them. The poor girl is in a foreign country without her friends and family, to sit in a hospital for 3 months. I so wish i had the means to board a plane and get to her.

So anyway, please keep Stacy and her family in your thoughts and prayers. I really hope everything works out ok and that in no time at all she is home with her baby girls and their family complete!

No Vampires Here!

This morning, I happened to notice an interesting mess in my kitchen, under the table. The entire bottle of garlic powder....I thought I had smelled garlic strong when i came home last night...but i had made spaghetti in the crockpot, so figured that was why i was smelling it. Oh boy...today the smell is horrid. And the mess couldn't be made in an easy to clean spot. Oh, no! It was made under the table and the chair that it against the wall..meaning i had to move the table out and the chair to vaccuum up this mess. Then, bc of the humidity, it was clumpy and hard and i had to break it up to get it to vaccuum up. Joy! But, i can guarantee you, no vampires will come within a mile of this place...lol. Of course, neither will family or friends.

Oh and I called the lady with the hampster and cage. I am going to pick up as soon as Makenneh's butt is up and around. She loves to sleep. Of course, so do I, but Sebastian likes to be up bright and early! He has a lot of things to get into and climb on and all that good 1 yr old stuff!

What a day!

Today was a horrible, terrible, no good day! Actually, not all of it...just the latter half. It started out decent. I managed to get all the dishes done, the living room picked up AND vaccuumed (all in the same day), started folded some of the mounds of laundry that is piling up in the laundry area....ANd then....3 o'clock comes. I have to be to work at 4. I am sitting on the loveseat, folding clothes when Makenneh comes running in, hysterical, with her beloved hampster, lifeless in her little hands, crying "momma, brownie, he's dead...." She sets him on the floor at my feet. Sure enough, he has met his maker. So, i get up, feeling completely lost...what do i do? She is 3 yrs old, Ive never had to really deal with this with my own child before. She is heartbroken, especially when she says, "ooooh mommy, he's sleeping," as if hoping that he was just asleep. So, I scurry around looking for something to put him in, knowing that a plastic grocery bag wasn't the answer when dealing with a 3 yr olds precious pet. I recalled a stained up receiving blanket that was in my bedroom, so i went and got that. I wrapped him up and then spotted a little box on top of the entertainment center that had my hubby's dragon knick knack in it. So, i took the dragon thing out and in went Brownie! Mind you, it is now about 10 after 3 and I need to get the kids back to my brothers and be to work at 4. So, anyway, I head to the shed to retrieve the shovel. We pick a spot and i begin to dig. We then ceremoniously bury Brownie. She was torn about the whole thing. She wanted him in his cage, she was sad, it was just horrible. So, i get him covered back up. I told her before we wrapped him all up to say good bye. I wanted her to realize that he would be forever gone. Might I add that during this, I am trying to maintain my own emotions, bc Brownie had really stolen a part of my heart. He was a great hampster. He was friendly, let Makenneh play with him, didn't bite her, was just all around great. Unfortunately, he was also houdini-like and could open his cage door. So, after a 2 day hiatus, the cats got the better of him, im guessing. Anyway, I then let her put one of my garden stepping stones on his little "grave". We then came in. It is now like 335 and I call my cousin....who is watching the kids at my brothers (bc my brother's gf was doing my aunts nails...i know, confusing..anyway). No answer. I call my brother's gf....she is still at work, said my brother was supposed to pick her up at 3 but wasnt there yet. So, i am freakin...i have to get to work and have no sitter! Just as I was rounding the kids up to go to my aunts (hoping they were home, just nto answering hte phone), my cousins knock at the door! Whew! Of course, now it is raining, makenneh is upset that her hampster is buried in the ground and it is now raining on him...and I am looking at being late. So, I get the kids all in the van and drop them off at my brothers (my cousins walked here from my brothers...we live in a trailer park). Are you stressed out yet? LOL. My poor lil guy was so upset. He doesn't like me working. He was clinging to me and didn't want to let me go, crying. This is only making it that much harder to leave. I know have a heartbroken daughter who just lost her first pet and a son who has not adjusted to mom working..doesn't want me leaving. The thought really crossed my mind to just call in. I was already emotionally drained at this point. But, i must go. (do i really have toooo????) So, i get to work, 4 mins late! Things were going ok...but then I get this one customer. He had just gotten custody of his 5 kids and was getting WIC. The poor man had gotten the wrong juice. So, i send a courtesy clerk back to get the right juice. I go to ring the cereal...he has the wrong cereal. So, i send a court. clerk to get the right cereal. HE comes back with the wrong cereal, so i send him once again..telling him to get hte small boxes. He comes back wiht 4 boxes, we need 6! So, finally, i decide i have to chase the stuff myself. I go get the cereal we need. Then, nothing is going right while ringing hte WIC. It is such a process to ring this stuff. The lines are backing up...ppl are getting impatient. I am ready to cry! So, after like 2 voids, i call the super over and tell her that nothing is going right, im frustrated and ready to cry....lol. She says oh don't cry. I asked if she could just ring it up..bc im obviously doing something wrong. (note, i have rang WIC sales numerous times before, and know what im doing). Anyway, finally, after like 20 plus mins, i get this guy out of the store!!!!! Then, I thought I was going home at 10, only to learn at 15 to, that I have to work til 11! Talk about an ass kicker. To top that, I was supposed to have a lunch, which they never gave me. So, i just take a 15 min break. (the bright side..i get paid for a full 7 hours instead of 6.5 bc lunches aren't paid).

I get home...both kids are up, Makenneh is hanging out the door and then Sebastian is trying to climb up my leg. I have my hands full...and my leg..he is crying. So, i pick him up and collapse in the recliner. AAAHHHh!!!! Jeremy informs me that Sebastian has had diarrhea 3xs since Jeremy got home at about 5, Makenneh shit on the floor and he of course, should have been in bed hours ago! LOL. Welcome to parenting 101, baby! So, here I am... It is 1am..Makenneh is still up painting masterpieces, Sebastian is finally down and my back and feet are killing me!

IM thinking there has to be a desk job available somewhere!!!!! But, before I can take a day job, we need a second car or for the guy jeremy is riding with to fix his truck so i can have my car back.

OH, and another good note....i posted on freecycle wanting a hampster cage. The one we have is broken and we were gonna get kenneh a new hampster this weekend. WEll, a lady responded. Not only does she have a cage, but the hampster, food, ball, treats, etc....Her son just got him 4 months ago and has lost interest in him and doesn't want him anymore! So, I am going to hopefully pick him up tomorrow!

Tomorrow was going to be my easy night at work. Iw as scheduled 545 to 10. Tonight, they asked if i could stay til 11 tomorrow night. So, i agreed.

Now that you are feeling stressed out and ready to pull ur own hair out, I guess I will stop. Well, my fingers are getting tired from all the typing. LOL.

Oh wait....one more bitch before I go. The courtesy clerks at work! OMG they are something else. These guys seem to get lost often during the course of a shift. They all just seem to disappear all at once. Im beginning to think they have poker tournaments in the back or something. Then, just before I left, I witnessed some of the problem. One of the clerks told the manager he was running out to his car. Well, as I get in the van to go..i see him in his car...smokin a joint. Yes, you read right....he is on the clock, getting high! UGH! And here us cashiers are..we don't get to just run to our cars whenever....bagging our groceries bc they are off doing God knows what, God knows where! Frustrating!

I gotta brag

My husband was absolutely wonderful this past week. He helped out a lot with the kids and cleaning. He worked on the laundry, chased kids, took kids with him to the store, let me sleep, cleaned the living room....Still wouldn't touch the dishes though. Although he said that if i got them caught up, he would keep them up. LOL. That was a fair deal. I must admit that he was far more helpful than i suspected he would be. I figured I would get this job and he would be a dud and I'd still be stuck doing everything at home by myself. Of course, I still think that it may end up that way...right now it's all new and he was off work last week with his medical issues. So, we will see what the upcoming weeks bring. But I told him that if he wants me to keep the job, he has to pull his own weight around here. I am not going to do it all. IF i have to do everything at home, I will be a stay at home mom.

I really can't wait for my first check. Im hoping to be able to get some new shoes and clothes, as I really need them for my job. I think my feet will feel much better when I have good shoes on them. The shoes I have now are old. I have had them for several years. They are still in decent shape, but im sure the support is lacking after all those years.

Well, not much else to talk about. Life is pretty boring these days. I am feeling better though! I went and got some Sudafed decongestant and some Vicks 44 congestion and after one dose, I was feeling better. It cleared up all the head congestion I had and my coughs aren't as frequent now. It also got rid of my sinus headache I had.

Another day, another dollar

I am feeling like shit. I have a scratchy throat that leads to constant coughing. And it's a dry cough. My throat and chest hurt from the dry cough. To top it off, I had a headache all day today and the coughing wasn't helping the least. But, i had to suck it up, bc I had to work tonight. It went ok. I ended up being the only cashier open besides the UScan. What fun that was! Put the newbie on by herself. The Uscan clerk and one of the courtesy clerks were telling me that the new Customer Service manager must have come from a smaller store, bc she has been doing this kinda thing lately...scheduling too few cashiers for friday nights. There was supposed to be 2, but the one girl called in. Still, with me being new....what would have happened if i decided not to come back or something..lol.

Anyway, my head is still aching and throat still scratchy...so Im off here to try to catch some sleep. Gotta work tomorrow 12-7.

Oh, and btw, Jeremy went into our family doctor today. He gave him a Rx and told him to take some stool softeners and stuff ...and wants to schedule him for a procedure (Jeremy couldn't remember the name of it, but like a colonoscopy only not as intrusive). So, he will go back to work on Monday, but then have to take a day off for the procedure. I just hope it all works out! Im sure it will....he is known to be a pain in the ass...lol.

Nothing too exciting but graphic info on hubby's sickness

Well, Jeremy has been home from work all week. We finally took him into the ER yesterday. He decided that he needed to be seen. Men! They always fear the doctor for some reason. Anyway, the doc diagnosed him with internal hemmorhoids (Sp) with hemmoriging. We don't feel exactly satisfied with that diagnosis though, bc it took the med student all of maybe 10 mins to diagnose it. He stuck his finger up there, swiped it on this card that would determine blood in the stool and that was that. To us, the hemmoroids don't explain the fever he had on Sunday. And the symptoms he has could also be other things such as inflammatory bowel syndrom, crohn's disease, colon problems including colon cancer, etc. So, I called this morning and he goes into our family doctor tomorrow at 1040. I know Hemmoroids can be bad...although ive never had them myself. But, i just can't imagine them causing this level of discomfort and pain...not to mention the fever and excessive blood and mucus in his stool. Not to be too gross, but when he has a "BM" its all blood and mucus and no feces. It just doesn't seem like hemmoroids would cause all that. If anyone knows different, lemme know.

His being home has helped out with my job though. I got called into work today..i go in at 230 and work until 11. So, this way, I don't have to worry about a ride or a babysitter. I also was put on the schedule for saturday. I am feeling special...lol. NO, but these hours are gonna add up. I still don't know when i get paid or how often i get paid though. I have to ask that when i go in today.

And if anyone remembers me talking about the vacation to TN..im not going now. I didn't want to have ot ask for a week off work right off the bat and I also don't have the extra money for a new bathingsuit and clothes. I have one pair of shorts that fit me right now. So, I am gonna pass this time. They go every year, so maybe next year I will go. I will definitely be in a better spot financially, now that I have a job.

Well, It is time for me to hit the shower so i can be ready for work! Enjoy your day!

First day of work!

My feet are aching. It's been a long time since I had to stand 6 straight hours on my feet on a hard floor. LOL. But, aside from that, my first day went great! I caught on right away to the cash register. I spent most of the day ringing on the till. The other lady who was training today was a bit slower at catching on. I think she might get it, it's just going to take her longer to get it. I have to say this: her and I will probably be the most customer service oriented employees this company has. Or at least this store. The other cashiers do not smile, rarely say a word to the customers and just look all out grumpy. it's pathetic. The one cashier sits with her back to the store, inbtwn customer, playing on her damn cell phone. We are supposed to go to the end of our check out line and wait for customers to invite to our line. It seems all the employees there do just the bare minimum to perform their job duty without losing their job. It's crazy. If you really don't want to be there, don't come to work. In this economy, there are plenty of ppl out there willing to take your place. And it's not the customers' fault that you are having a shitty day or don't like your job or whatever. Your face really won't crack if you give them a smile. You never know, you may just make someone's day! I honestly felt like the bright spot on the front end! I know that sounds conceited, but damn, you have ot see these other cashiers. They all lack customer service skills all the way around. And the girl with the cell phone would be warned to put that in her pocket or leave iti n her purse, car or at home. Then, she would be given the chance to sit on that phone indefinitely, while in the unemployment line.
But, i do like the job so far. I like working with the public. Management, here I come...lol. Can't see having too much competition...those ladies lack any morsel of ambition. I think for some of them, it takes all they have just to breathe.

On another note, I was visiting babyzone (my addiction) and found a post about changes in the internet. THe big corporations are wanting to take over and basically restrict access or something to that affect. Here is a link to a site where you can sign a petition to prevent this from happening. It also gives info on the bill they are trying to pass. Just another way for the corporations to take over the world and screw us poor peons! http://www.netfreedomnow.org

jeremy is off work for the week....paid! He called his boss and talked to him. he went into the doc today to get checked out and won't know what is going on til later in the week and he is just miserable. so, that part is cool. That is getting paid..not htat he is sick and miserable..lol.

Oh and I don't work again til friday evening! Very Part time. Which is good for getting me into the swing of working again. It's been 4 years!

Ok, off to check mail and stuff!

Happy Father's Day!

Grrrr...i had a beautiful post and somehow lost it. Anyway, in honor of Father's Day, I was going to write some of the fond memories I have of my dad.

I remember him making me fun shaped pancakes when i was a lil tot
He always tucked us in at night and I couldn't sleep until he had
I remember when he wrote me a letter during my teen years. We had been butting heads bc we are so much alike and he wrote the letter to tell me that he felt he was losing his little girl and knew he would have to eventually let go. It was a very emotional letter. I saved it and still have it.
I remember popcorn with melted cheese on it. Mom used to hate this..it was a waste of cheese in her opinion. But, we would eat popcorn and watch tv
I remember dancing with my dad at my best friend's wedding to Holly Dunn's Daddy's Hands. We tore up the dance floor! I felt like such a princess! That song reminds me so much of my dad! And it sums up everything I can say!!!!!

Artist/Band: Dunn Holly
Lyrics for Song: Daddy's Hands
Lyrics for Album: Holly Dunn - Milestones: Greatest Hits

I remember Daddy´s hands, folded silently in prayer.
And reaching out to hold me, when I had a nightmare.
You could read quite a story, in the callouses and lines.
Years of work and worry had left their mark behind.
I remember Daddy´s hands, how they held my Mama tight,
And patted my back, for something done right.
There are things that I´ve forgotten, that I loved about the man,
But I´ll always remember the love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love in Daddy´s hands.

I remember Daddy´s hands, working 'til they bled.
Sacrificed unselfishly, just to keep us all fed.
If I could do things over, I´d live my life again.
And never take for granted the love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love .....
In Daddy´s hands.

Happy Father's Day Daddy, from your little girl!!!!!

Crappy Weekend

Well, Jeremy is quite sick. He stayed home while the kids and I went to my parents' house and he isn't going to his dad's. The plan is for him to stay home from work tomorrow and go in. We can't really afford the missed work, as he doesn't get paid sick days, but it's better to get everything checked out and on meds if necessary instead of misisng more work if it gets worse.

On the bright side, that means I have a definite way to work without inconveniencing anyone else. Makenneh is staying at my parents' tonight, so we just need a sitter for Sebastian while Jeremy goes to the doc.

Anyway, I guess that's it for now...Just got home a lil bit ago...Oh, though, I must say...when i got home, Jeremy had picked up the living room and done some of the dishes, even though he isn't feeling well. He felt bad that he didn't finish dishes, but said that's all he could do. I am so amazed. It's father's day, he is sick, and he was cleaning while I was at a cook out, relaxing!

Irritable!

Today I have been soo irritable. I just want everyone to go away for awhile and leave me alone. I am so sick of Sebastian's shrieking and screaming, Makenneh's stubbornness and disobedience and Jeremy's video games and the house being a mess and having kids up my ass all the time and I think that's enough bitching for one breath! LOL.

Im so irritable, Im mad at Jeremy for being sick....that's when you know it's bad. But seriously, Im pissed bc he went to his brother's today to play xbox, came home around 3 and wasn't feeling good...took his temp...100.3. UGH! So, he has been on the couch or in the recliner sleeping on and off most of the afternoon! So, I still had to deal with kids all by myself, basically, all day! I just want a day where I don't have to be the primary caregiver.

Oh and did I mention that the hampster got out of his cage while we were napping and was MIA for several hours. That had me stressed to bc 1) I know it would break Makenneh's heart if something happened to him and 2.) I would miss him too.

Ok, im really too irritable to even be posting. My chest feels like it's going to explode! Makenneh is still up and its 1am! She is clinging to me and I just want my space. I know I sound awful right now, but i feel like im suffocating!

OK, bitch session over!
Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there!

Anybody looking to adopt a cute lil 1yr old?

Don'tcha just love that face?????
And he was in a happy mood!!!

If i have to deal with much more of his high pitched screaming over nothing, he will be up for grabs!!!!! That's what I woke up to this morning...his screaming. It wouldn't be half as bad if it were regular crying or something...but it is screaching that will make your ears ring. I hate it. Im trying to ignore it, bc I don't want to encourage it. I will go nuts if he keeps this up. I was quite ticked this morning, bc the bugger didn't go to bed til 1am...he would screach and cry every time I tried to put him to bed, waking Jeremy up several times. So, i figured with him going to bed so late, he would sleep in. HAH! That's what I get for thinking. He still got up around 730. I tried pushing it later...i put him in bed with me..but he just climbed into the window...so i put him back in his crib...he screamed. I am already at my wit's end and the day has just begun! And, Makenneh isn't even up yet! TGIF, my ass! LOL. I will take any advice on ways to squelch the screams. Im working on the ignoring it right now...we will see how that goes. The scary thing is, he is so loud and we are in a trailer park..im just waiting for the cops to show up at my house one of the times...after a neighbor calls in that there is a baby screaming fiercly as if he has been beat! I know they have to be able to hear him. It is so loud. I want to record this awful noise to share....bc you know misery loves company. You should all get the joys of hearing my lil guy scream in the highest pitch you have heard. Im still trying to figure out how something so entirely awful could come from that beautiful baby of mine. Then I remember, he is his father's son. He has those beautiful blue eyes that melt the heart and will probably get him out of a few tight spots in life...just battin those baby blues. LOL. His daddy is hard to say no to, too when he bats those eyes. Of course, daddy has mastered the art of a complete innocent "puppy dog" look, that would be irresistable to the toughest of hearts. It's complete with puckered lips and all. LOL.

Well, Sebastian is content, watching Toy Story for right now. This movie really holds his interest. I am off to check my mail...

I got the job!!!!!!

I am sooo freaking excited! I seriously didn't think I was gonna get it. Afterall, I took the drug test Saturday...this is thursday! But, while i was at Kroger, getting diapers, they called here...told Jeremy to tell me i start training on the register on Monday at 9am!!! I am ecstatic! I just hope things will work out with the car part....i swear, Jeremy just needs to swallow some of his pride and say, "Hey, Marty, how much longer before you can have your truck on the road? My wife starts a job, we really need the 2nd income and she is gonna need the car to get kids to sitter and get to work." Im sure that my training will be mostly days, while my shifts will be mostly evenings, bc i am low man on the seniority list!

Then the next dilemma is, Tiffney is gonna want to babysit. But, I don't see how i will be able to afford it, bc she pays me 2.00 an hour/kid and that is low....but still if i pay that same 2/kid, that's 4.00 and I will only be making 6.00. Minus what uncle Sam takes and then minus union dues....i will be working for free. And right now, with it being summer, I can have my cousin do it for much cheaper. so, we will see!

Anyway, I get out of the house, i get a paycheck and I will feel better!

Well me and Hubby are watching movies...so later!

No more bad news, Please!!!

Everthing has been going to hell around here. In the past couple of months, I have had to absorb the following:

My mom's cousin, who is 40, had a heart attack. The heart specialist said his heart looks like that of a 70 yr old man's. They couldn't operate on him at the time bc of his conditions...still waiting for updates on that.

My mom's other cousin (on the other side of her family) was diagnosed with lung cancer. They said it's only a small spot and should be treatable.

My uncle (mom's brother in law) was supposed to go in for back surgery. They did the pre op screening and the doc didn't like the ekg..so sent him to a heart specialist, who ordered a stress test. They discovered that 2 valves are 100% blocked and one is 70% blocked. He goes back in on the 21st i believe and they will schedule him for a triple bi-pass. He is in early-mid 40s.
On the bright side here, the doc said it was a pure act of God that his heart has no damage. Most often, with that severe of blockage, the heart is damaged. He also told them that had his doc not ordered the specialist visit, and they proceeded with his back surgery, he would have died on the table.

Then, my mom just called me to tell me that my other uncle (her brother), Mark, has luekemia. It's not the life threatening form, i guess. I don't know. It's all new news. He is only in his early 30s and has already been diagnosed with MS.

It's just crazy..all these ppl are around the same age or younger than my parents. Why does life have to be sooo darn mean? Why can't we just live and be happy and when it's our time to go, just go, peacefully? Why do we have to deal with cancer, heart problems, lung problems, diabetes, and all the other disorders? Is life not hectic enough without having to live on pins and needles worrying about what disease or disorder you will acquire along the way?

I'm just starting to feel overwhelmed. I have suffered a lot of loss in my short 25 yrs of life. I have lost 3 grandparents, Jeremy's papa, an aunt, at least 6 great aunts and great uncles, 2 2nd cousins, several family friends, including my best friend's gma, my other best friend's baby, just off the top of my head. I just feel that I have dealt with my share of death for a long time. I could draw you a layout of several of the local funeral homes, from memory. I have spent too much time in them!

And hospitals....I have frequented the hospitals enough in my life to visit family in icu, ccu, etc. It's just rediculous.

I don't want to answer my phone anymore unless it's good news! I don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone, unless they will have good news. Let me just hide away in my bedroom and escape to a place where we can truly enjoy life, we can celebrate it, we can be content and free from all the horrors that is life. The rate at which ppl are being diagnosed with cancers and heart disease, etc, makes me wonder why i brought kids into this world. Why did i subject them to this life that is so full of death? I feel like the world is just black. There is little to no light in it.

*sigh*

Fussies

Makenneh is playing with her babies and she asked for a bottle, bc her baby wanted to eat. So, i dig out a bottle for her...and in the bag were some pacifiers. So, she starts pulling them out and asked me to attach one ot her shirt (that she wasn't wearing). I told her i don't have a clip for it. And, I go back to checking my mail. She says, Mom look! My babies have their fussies now! She rigged it so that her tank top is around two babies necks using the straps and somehow has the pacifiers tied into to. Way too cute! But what is the cutest is how she is calling the pacifiers Fussies. I just love it. I know i should correct her, but i get a big smile and laugh every time i hear her say fussy. It's like music to my ears! I know, im weird, but you need to hear it to understand. Fussies, mom! ANd she actually pronounces it more like futsies, with a soft "t" in there. I am just thoroughly enjoying watching her play with her babies. She takes such good care of them. She gets them all bottles and fussies and lays them down, takes them for "walks" in the strollers she has...but they are all naked! I don't know what it is about girls and dolls, but the clothes seldom stay on. And of course, right now, she has them all tied together with a scarf and her tank top. But, aside from that, she takes good care of them...lol.

Well, i just had to share this silly story, bc every time i hear her say fussy i just crack up.

It's that time for Lilo to leave

As some of you may remember, we took in my cousin's cat when her parents moved to a modular home that they were renting. They couldn't keep their cats without a huge deposit and paying extra per month. They were planning on leaving for AZ in a years time, so we agreed to take Lilo and they agreed they would provide food and litter for her. Well, we had a falling out and so we have been buying the food and litter since September. But anyway, we have since started talking casually again. My cousin called the other day to see if they could get Lilo back this week when her gma moves into an apt. Sooo, i had to prepare Makenneh for this. Of course, it broke her lil heart. She said, NO, i want her to take my cat, she is bad. I want Lilo. It was sad. But, she is getting used to the idea. I know we will all miss her as she is a great cat and has really come around since we have had her. She has become quite socialable, loves attention, purrs all the time and sleeps on my pillow! She has also gotten used to going outside, bc it's just next to impossible to keep her in when our door seems to always be flyin open with kids. So, she will have to adjust to that as well. Not to mention, im sure she will miss the neighbor's handouts of fish and other treats!

Dance Recital

Here are pictures from tonight's dance recital. Makenneh wanted on stage before the show started, so bad. Then she was a bit unsure as all the lights went out just before it started. But, overall, she was very well behaved and I am very proud of her. She sat pretty quiet (did much better than the kid behind us who was about 7-8) and when the show was done, she wanted to go with Ariel and Kaitlyn...so Tiffney took her with them to Applebee's. While there, I guess she fell and got a bloody nose. Tiffney's dad scooped her up and got her napkins and whatnot. She didn't want to get out of the van when they got here, so i had to go out and carry her in. She was fine by then though. She only got a little blood on her shirt and a little on Tiffney's. But Tiff said he bled pretty good at first. Now, she is playing with paper and a crayon..she has managed to use over 40 sheets of paper/cardstock! She would draw a circle or a person on one sheet and move to the next. So, i had her go back and draw on the backs of a few..then i started writing the alphabet and numbers (which is how i know how many sheets she used...lol). She is now folding them in half, taping them and laying them on our bed, next to daddy. Won't he be just so delighted. Actually, i will have to deal with them first, when i go to crawl into bed.

She did surprise me. I would write a number on a piece of the paper, then draw that many "apples". She took the crayon and drew apples too and they looked just like mine. Then she drew something else and said, a banana, mom! Sure enough..it looked quite a bit like a banana. My little artist!

Creepy

Well, I found out today that the guy living behind us is a pedophile. HE is on the registered sex offender list. How absolutely disgusting. He is still on parole. I am mad at our management for allowing him to move in here! UGH! He has lived in here for a few yrs and there has been no incidents, and to be honest, ive never even seen his face, so maybe that's a good thing. It's still just creepy though.

tomorrow evening, I am going to Tiffney's daughters' dance recital. I have never been to a dance recital. makenneh is going too. Hopefully she is good.

I watched Jordan tonight for Tiffney, bc they also had their recital tonight. She didn't think she would press her luck with having him sit through 2 nights of recitals. At one point, both him and SEbastian were back in the laundry area..a.nd this is what I found:


Apparently, Sebastian thinks the dryer is a place to play! Have to keep an eye on that!
(sad that i included pics of the kids in a post titled Creepy, huh).
Well, I guess im off here for the night...

More Fishing Pics

Ok, I have no idea where these pics will end up when i hit post...but they are....
A picture from teh top of the dam....Paige (Jeremy's cousin's daughter) and then a pic of the dam from the ground. Im sure you can figure out what is what...lol. The picture from on top of the dam was taken in just about the same spot Jeremy and I had our first kiss!!! oooh lala~

He was holding Makenneh's hand walking up there and I was like, "just think, last time we were here, you were holding my hand..." It just made me feel all warm and fuzzy and gushy and mushy going back to where it all began, so to speak.

Gone Fishing!

Well, we survived our first fishing trip without any catasrophes. We had jeremy's cousin's daughter here. She is 9 or 10. So, she went with us. We decided at the last minute that we would leave Sebastian with my brother, so that we could concentrate of Kenneh fishing without fear of that monster running off, falling into water, etc. Bc, Lord knows, he doesn't stay put! So, we loaded up and got a late start. But, we arrived, found a nice spot to set up and casted the line a few times. Makenneh wasn't so interested in fishing afterall. She really didn't care one way or the other. OF course, it was windy as heck, so that didn't help. You would know sooner cast out and your bobber was back to shore, from the wind/current. But, we still had a nice time. We had a picnic, relaxed on the lounge chairs we brought, the girls played in the water a bit (just waded in) and they caught bugs, glorious bugs. OF course, Makenneh would be catching bugs. You should have seen her when we opened the container of night crawlers. Her eyes lit up like a kid in a candy store. She wanted to hold them. She didn't think the fish should eat them! Anyway, after our picnic lunch and some relaxion, we decided to pack up and go to the dam, which is nearby. I was all for it, as that was where Jeremy and I had our first kiss! So, we took them there and as we are walking around looking, Makenneh says, "It's so awesome!" It was so cute to hear her say that! She was afraid to walk out over the dam though. It's metal grate and she could see the water below. She just didn't think that was safe...carry me dad! So, he had to lug her across. Then, when we got back to the cement...she wanted to go back again, this time she would walk. So, we did it again. She says after a few steps. Im afraid. Im brave. LOL. It was beautiful! What's not to love about strong flowing water??!!! The sound is magnificent. I took some pics and will post some here and then again on a seperate post, just bc i have so many to share.

Anyway, we plan to go back again..probably next weekend ( my job permitting). Jeremy wants to camp out for the weekend. He thinks he could live there! Which, i could too, almost!

Im still here....

Been having some technical difficulties around here lately. Our internet was having issues, then when i could get online, blogger was having issues.

Anyway, i went for my training today. 4 hours in front of a computer, nonstop...for virtual training/orientation. Most of it was already stuff I knew. But, ya know..gotta do it. The kids missed me terribly while i was gone..go figure. I came home and was greated like the Messiah. Sebastian clung to me like crazy. As soon as I got home, we had to get rounded up to go to my uncles. We hung out there most of the evening. When we were heading home, Makenneh started crying that she wanted to sleep at gma's house. SHe didn't wanna get out of the car when we got home...so we brought in all the stuff we had and went back out to get and she had climbed to the driver seat, sat down and buckled up and hand her hands on the wheel. she said she was going to gmas house. JEremy got in the passenger seat, buckled up and i stood there, talking to her. WE were able to convince her peacefully that she can't drive to gma's bc she is too young and doesn't have a license...lol. Jeremy sent me in for the camera.

So, this is my little girl heading to gma's house....

Tomorrows plans are to take her fishing. She has been wanting to go and Jeremy got her a fishing pole last weekend, but we just didn't have the time to get out to fish. So, tomorrow, we plan to pack a picnic and go fishing.

WOOHOOOO!

I am sooo excited! My mom just stopped by to drop off freezer bags so I can package the chicken I bought and Makenneh started crying that she wanted to go bye bye with her...so guess what??? makenneh is with gma and Sebastian is down for a nap! How lucky am I? Now, what shall I do with my free time? It is so hard....I should clean. But, it would also be a great time to take a nap. Or, read a book, or watch one of the movies we rented last night or just do whatever i want. I think I will clean some, package that chicken, and then loaf! LOL. Things seem to really be looking up around here! We sold the ford, the military stuff, i got a job, the living room is clean....what else can go right? The loan???

Well, im off to enjoy my peace and quiet!

I got a Job!!!!!

I am quite happy to say that I got the job! Well, i didn't get the job i interviewed for (courtesy clerk), but I got a cashier job...better yet! That's what I originally wanted, but she had said she only had a spot for courtesy clerk. But, after interviewing me (actually, while interviewing me) she said that she realizes it would be a waste of time to train me as a courtesy clerk when she already knows she wants me on register. She said that I have a friendly personality and strong customer service skills and I belong at the registers having more one on one contact with the customers! Boy, is she good! So, in the course of the interview, I got a .15 raise...lol. I can't beleive they pay courtesy clerks less money! But, im not complaining. I just know that the courtesy clerks have to gather carts, bag groceries, clean bathrooms, break room, bottle return rooms (eeewwww). I go saturday for training and to fill out all the paperwork. Then she will put me on the schedule! Because it's a union job, the higher seniority workers will get the day shifts mostly, so i will be doing more nights and weekends, which works out best for babysitter and car situation!
woohoo!!!!

Now, lets just hope this house deal goes well! I don't think I posted yet, but we got an approval with conditions. the condition being that they wanted one more tradeline. It didn't matter if i opened the same day..just had to have one more. So i had to go online and apply for a credit card...hopefully we will get approved then we will be back to looking for houses, find one and close! End of that chapter! Hopefully it goes that well. I shall know in 7-10 biz days if we got approved for the c. card, which of course, will be closed out as soon as we close on our house...lol.

Wish me Luck

I don't really think I will need luck as far as getting the job...but I need in luck in getting the transportation part figured out. I told Jeremy that he needs to at the very least, casually mention to Marty, the guy he rides to work with, that I need the car now bc I have a job and find out when he plans on fixing his truck. I can't rely on everyone else to get me to and from work as well as kids to sitter. Tiffney said she would come pick me up and take me and then keep the kids, but i would be working for free by the time i compensated her for all that gas plus babysitting. But, i figure I have to at least take this first step or I will never have a job. Jeremy's wanted me to get a job for awhile now and now he has to do his part by seeing to it that I can drive my own car. *wink*

Well, I have to leave here in a few for the interview...so im off.

What a Day

Well, first i have to say, My brother stopped by and i was laying on the couch with Kenneh. I glanced up and there was that huge spider..on my ceiling. My brother killed it for me. So that creepy critter is out of here! Thank God for Brothers! LOL.

Now, back to the start of my day! The kids were wound up today and just whiney and crazy! I was out of my mind by 10am. But, before noon, I managed to accomplish quite a bit. I got rid of the thunderbird for $125..had his friend come pick it up...canceled my doc appt bc i really didn't feel like rounding up a ride to go, got a call to go for an interview tomorrow! That's the big thing right there! I go tomorrow for a job interview at Kroger! The only opening they have right now is for a courtesy clerk...you know, bagging groceries, chasing carts, bottle returns, etc. But, it gets my foot in the door and I tell ya..i will have the very next cashier position that opens! LOL. ok, not for sure, but i am very good at cashier and I know i can blow the socks off those slow workers they have in there now! I don't have any axiety about this interview or starting a new job...bc I know I am good at customer service and I also know that I can be more efficient than most of the cashiers they have in there now. hehehe!

Of course, this means I have to figure out something for a vehicle and a babysitter, depending on hours. But, we will work it out. I need a job, i need out of here for a few hours a day and the extra money will be a big help.

So, i may not be going to TN afterall..depending on the job situation. Funny how life works sometimes.

WEll, i am exhausted, so i am gonna get off here for now and try to kick back and relax..im sure ill be posting more tonight.

huge spider, wound up kids and tired mom

First things first! I was sitting here at the computer desk earlier when out of nowhere, a huge black spiders crawls out from under the paper in front of me. It then jumps to the loveseat, which is right next to the desk. I freaked out and jumped out of my seat. Just then, the phone was ringing and it was so close to where the spider was, it took me all 4 rings to get to it. So, the whole conversation was recorded on the answering machine. It was my uncle. I ended up letting him go so i could tend to the spider, which got away! So this big spider, about the size of a quarter, is lurking in my home somewhere. I am so creeped out, i don't know if i will be able to sleep.

The kids were both wound up tonight. Makenneh is still bouncing around on the loveseat and not settling down for sleep. She is driving me nuts! I am tired and don't see how she can be so wound up. Sebastian also just went to bed! UGH!

I mowed the neighbor lady's lawn today. She is in her 50-60s and lives alone. She doesn't have a mower and her grandson's usually come to mow it, but their new lawn mower won't fit in their vehicle, so they haven't been able to come mow it. She came over yesterday and asked if Jeremy would mow it. Well, he is a procrastinator (and we had extra kids and such today) so he was gonna just do it tomorrow. SO, i went ahead and went over and mowed it. It's just a little bit of yard, as we live in a trailer park. She was so thankful, she insisted on writing me a check for $5 to cover gas. I tried telling her it wasn't necessary. She said she has her son looking for a mower for her. Until then, Jeremy will just mow hers when he mows ours.

WE had another busy weekend. Saturday we had my cousin's open house and then Tiffney's daughter's bday party. The open house was at 3 and the bday party at 4...and they were on opposite sides of the county...lol. But, we managed. The kids had a great time and Makenneh got to see ggma again this weekend! Then, at the bday party, she went swimming and had a good time.

Ive decided that child harnesses are a Godsend and I will be investing in one soon. Sebastian is a go getter and doesn't believe in staying in one spot. He runs off quicker than shit. So, I will be checking on one before our vacation to Tenesee the end of this month. Which, is another issue. I really am not looking forward to a week long vacation that includes 5 kids all under 7. 4 of them are 3 and under. I was going to skip it, as I have no money to go, but my mom wants me to go bc she never gets to do things like that with me. It's usually her and my sister. So, i think im going to be dragged along anyway! I think mostly mom doesn't want me to get out of the torture. She is locked in bc she already paid her share for the Chalet. I can think of many reasons for me to stay home, but if mom really wants me to go i guess i will. For one, i will have no money or very little to go with, i have one pair of shorts that are decent and fit me, 2 pair of capris, a few shirts...no bathing suit. Well, the one i have is so old and worn, i won't be caught in public with it on. Honestly, i would rather have my mom use the money she would spend taking us on vacation, to get me some clothes, shoes, etc...things I really need. Don't get me wrong..i need a vacation, too. Just not with a bunch of kids who fight, whine and cry!

Nothing Exciting

I know...so why bother reading right? My dad was spent (well afternoon) at the WIC office for recertification! What a long trip, especially when I am by myself with an obstinant 3 yr old and determined 1 yr old. He wanted to run off, she wanted, hell, i don't know what she wanted. LOL. I wanted a stiff drink! But, we survived and Im here to tell about it. The worst part was in the grocery store. Makenneh threw some kind of huge fit bc she wanted to ride in the cart. Well, I just had to listen to the nutritionist at WIC lecture about her weight. She does need the exercise and there is no reason for her to ride in the back of hte cart. Not to mention, I will no sooner put her back there and she wants out and she isn't light! I have to take her back the end of July for a weight check. Hopefully we can get her weight to slow down. I just don't get it. She eats no worse then the next kid and is just as active, if not more so than the next kid. I did tell Jeremy that the junk food has to stop. HE is a junk food junkie and well, he can afford to be. He is 6'1" and like 180lbs. HE can eat anything and everything and not gain a pound. Of course, I would hate to see what his arteries look like. To tell you how bad he is, they call him Cholesterol King at work! So, really, we all need to eat better around here! I surely don't want to be widowed at 40! I've been inspired by Helen and her journey to a healthier lifestyle. Reading her raves on the healthy, yet delicious foods she eats, while losing weight sounds like a plan to me! And just my luck, boneless, skinless chicken breasts are on sale this week! Hmmmm..think we need to stock up. I really don't care for chicken, but im going to learn to like it. I should ask mom for a George Foremen (or similar) grill for my bday! As if I really have the counter space, but hey...i could spare a junk pile, im sure.

Anyway, Sebastian is pretty much right on for height/weight. 60-70%ile. Kenneh's height is at the very top of the chart and her weight is well, off the chart.

My sunburn is peeling and my back and shoulders are sooo itchy i can't stand it. I usually take a hair brush to it, bc its mostly in spots I can't reach. Sometimes I feel the urge to roll around on the floor like dogs do when they are trying to scratch their backs (or whatever it is they are doig when they lay on the backs squirming all around).

Today, the temps were actually more reasonable. I didn't have to turn the air on and I didn't sweat to death just sitting down. It seemed nice. Of course, today I got to drive my brother's car, which has air. I was torn between using the air or using the sunroof! I mean, how sporty is that? I have a family sedan with 4 doors and the air doesn't work. So, it was a big toss up. In the end, the air won. And getting the kids in and out of his 2 door wasn't as bad as I thought, either. now that they are both a bit bigger and can help..it's not so bad. I hated having the 2 door when kenneh was little. It is so hard to climb into the back of a 2 door to strap a kid in...especially when ur overweight. But, I always managed when I had to. Still don't think I would ever choose to own a 2 door though with kids.

Ok, im just rambling. who really cares about 2 doors and 4 doors. LOL. I think I will stop now before I bore you all to tears!