Well, Im home from my first day of work. It was alright. I wasn't able to run cash register, bc Personnel hadn't fixed my status on the computer yet, so i had to work in toys. I spent the day stocking, stocking and more stocking. Ugh! I dread tomorrow, knowing that's probably what Ill be stuck doing again tomorrow. Oh well! On the plus side, i get to see all the toys and do some mental shopping while I work. We have a FurReal Pony that I would love to get for the kids. It is decent sized (so we don't have the room) and when you pet him, talk to him, etc, he responds. He moves his head, his ears, his tail....whinnies, all that good stuff. he is soooo cool. He comes with a carrot and a brush. I so want him! He is under 300.00 but we don't even have any in stock right now..they only shipped us the display model...jerks!
I am so ready for bed. I have a feeling Jeremy is gonna beat me there! And he let the kids sleep all damn night...well a late late nap....not waking til after 7pm , so im sure it's gonna be a long night!
Im off here for now...
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Friday, November 10, 2006
Update
Seb seems to be understanding the crib thing. When he starts throwing his fit, ill just say, do you want to go to your crib...most times he will stop. He also knows now to get the fit over quick if he wants out.; i hope it continues to work.
On another positive note, Makenneh has been good today. Overall, we all had a great day, actually. I spent most of the day doing artwork, cuddling, playing, etc. I think this is what they need...more time with me. I feel good about everything today....I made a nice dinner, we sat at the table, we watched the movie CARS (that daddy just had to buy tonight) and now we are gonna wind down and head to bed. I go back to work tomorrow at 11am. I have such mixed feelings about it. I keep reminding myself that i have been doing this for a couple months now..i can do it. it's no big deal.
Part of me feels like I am just getting to the point that i am really enjoying parenthood...i have seemed to have found a rythem(sp) that is working for us. Before I hated being home bc i felt likme such a failure at it..the house was always a trash hole, the kids drove me crazy....ya know the stuf fyou have been reading about. But these last couple of days, i have seen a brighter side. I have found joy in being home with the kids. even through the uglies.
I talked to Jeremy tonight about the new plan....julieq's plan. I hope he continues it while im at work. I told him that no matter what he is doing...he has to put him in the crib if he doesn't stop throwing his fit. And he has to get him out the minute he stops. Its imperitive that it happens that way or it won't be effective.
And guess what?!! Today while we were outside, Makenneh busted out with a cheer. "Let's get a little bit rowdy....r, (skips o), w, d, y. And she even does the moves to the best of her ability. My cousin, Allana must have taught her this, as Allana is always doing some sort of cheer. I was so impressed though, that out of nowhere, makenneh pulled it from her memory. IT is so cute. She has been going around doing it all day. Oh and she recognized the number 1 today, too. She pointed to it on a sign and said, 1! At first, i didn't know what she was talking about..then she pointed and i saw, it was the number 1. i made a good fuss about it and how smart she is. She continues to amaze me. it's these moments i must focus on to get through the ugly times.
Well, i need to get the troops off to bed......here's to more good days, like today...and also to a successful first day; back to work! I can do this~
On another positive note, Makenneh has been good today. Overall, we all had a great day, actually. I spent most of the day doing artwork, cuddling, playing, etc. I think this is what they need...more time with me. I feel good about everything today....I made a nice dinner, we sat at the table, we watched the movie CARS (that daddy just had to buy tonight) and now we are gonna wind down and head to bed. I go back to work tomorrow at 11am. I have such mixed feelings about it. I keep reminding myself that i have been doing this for a couple months now..i can do it. it's no big deal.
Part of me feels like I am just getting to the point that i am really enjoying parenthood...i have seemed to have found a rythem(sp) that is working for us. Before I hated being home bc i felt likme such a failure at it..the house was always a trash hole, the kids drove me crazy....ya know the stuf fyou have been reading about. But these last couple of days, i have seen a brighter side. I have found joy in being home with the kids. even through the uglies.
I talked to Jeremy tonight about the new plan....julieq's plan. I hope he continues it while im at work. I told him that no matter what he is doing...he has to put him in the crib if he doesn't stop throwing his fit. And he has to get him out the minute he stops. Its imperitive that it happens that way or it won't be effective.
And guess what?!! Today while we were outside, Makenneh busted out with a cheer. "Let's get a little bit rowdy....r, (skips o), w, d, y. And she even does the moves to the best of her ability. My cousin, Allana must have taught her this, as Allana is always doing some sort of cheer. I was so impressed though, that out of nowhere, makenneh pulled it from her memory. IT is so cute. She has been going around doing it all day. Oh and she recognized the number 1 today, too. She pointed to it on a sign and said, 1! At first, i didn't know what she was talking about..then she pointed and i saw, it was the number 1. i made a good fuss about it and how smart she is. She continues to amaze me. it's these moments i must focus on to get through the ugly times.
Well, i need to get the troops off to bed......here's to more good days, like today...and also to a successful first day; back to work! I can do this~
8 things about me
Gee, this is hard. Why isn't it 8 things about one of my kids or my hubby or somebody else...anybody else. I can't think of 8 things to tell you about myself..especially if i don't want to tell you things you probably already know.
1. I'm taking JulieQ's advice and letting Seb throw his fit in his crib. He isn't liking it. Hopefully he will soon learn that the fits aren't going to be tolerated around here. Boy, he is sure is flailing himself around in there! I need a sound-proof room for this.
2. Seems how Helen mentioned cell phones, ill share my thoughts....i love mine. I hate the dependancy that most ppl have on them. The thing rings, they are jumping up to answer. They talk on them all the time, everywhere. Get a life, already. I don't even have a life (maybe that's why i haven't a need to be on mine all day). I hate when im with someone and they talk on their cell the whole time. Totally obnoxious and rude if you ask me!
3. I cleaned my place for my Pure Romance party and so far, im doing good at keeping it clean. I like it. I am up puttering all day, picking things up and cleaning up. Hopefully it doesn't turn into an obsession. Hahahahha, im so far the other way, i don't think it will become a problem.
4. I am submitting a resume for an office job. My hubby's cousin told me about it. She works for a doctor and this is one of the doctor's friends. He runs a medical supply or something of the sorts. It would be mon thru fri 9-5 kinda hours. And I'd pretty much be working on my own. love the idea.
5. Sometimes I just wanna escape to a peaceful hide away. Just me.
(let me just say that Seb is still throwing a fit in his crib...)
6. Jeremy drives me nuts at times and there are times when I just wanna punch him...ok, i say that teasingly....but really, he is a good guy. Just rough around the edges, as a lot of guys this generation are. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he makes me feel good about myself. And he has come so far with everything. He helps with the kids, the house and all that. I bitch sometimes, but when i sit and really think about it...he does do things to help me out. Right now, he is in the kids' room, helping them find peek a blocks to play with their wagon.
7. I hate hassles and inconveniences. I'd rather avoid them at all cost. And sometimes, i pay dearly for this. I think it's part of my mental disorder, really. It brings on stress and anxiety. For instance, i have to have my doc fill out a leave of absence form for work..i hate it. I put it off until today..the very last minute. Now, i can't pick it up til monday. Sometimes i frustrate myself.
8. I rarely watch tv. Most of the time, we watch movies and even then, i often don't sit and watch them all the way through. It's funny, but i feel like it's a waste of time, yet i have no bones about sitting in front of this computer for hours on end. Go figure!
1. I'm taking JulieQ's advice and letting Seb throw his fit in his crib. He isn't liking it. Hopefully he will soon learn that the fits aren't going to be tolerated around here. Boy, he is sure is flailing himself around in there! I need a sound-proof room for this.
2. Seems how Helen mentioned cell phones, ill share my thoughts....i love mine. I hate the dependancy that most ppl have on them. The thing rings, they are jumping up to answer. They talk on them all the time, everywhere. Get a life, already. I don't even have a life (maybe that's why i haven't a need to be on mine all day). I hate when im with someone and they talk on their cell the whole time. Totally obnoxious and rude if you ask me!
3. I cleaned my place for my Pure Romance party and so far, im doing good at keeping it clean. I like it. I am up puttering all day, picking things up and cleaning up. Hopefully it doesn't turn into an obsession. Hahahahha, im so far the other way, i don't think it will become a problem.
4. I am submitting a resume for an office job. My hubby's cousin told me about it. She works for a doctor and this is one of the doctor's friends. He runs a medical supply or something of the sorts. It would be mon thru fri 9-5 kinda hours. And I'd pretty much be working on my own. love the idea.
5. Sometimes I just wanna escape to a peaceful hide away. Just me.
(let me just say that Seb is still throwing a fit in his crib...)
6. Jeremy drives me nuts at times and there are times when I just wanna punch him...ok, i say that teasingly....but really, he is a good guy. Just rough around the edges, as a lot of guys this generation are. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he makes me feel good about myself. And he has come so far with everything. He helps with the kids, the house and all that. I bitch sometimes, but when i sit and really think about it...he does do things to help me out. Right now, he is in the kids' room, helping them find peek a blocks to play with their wagon.
7. I hate hassles and inconveniences. I'd rather avoid them at all cost. And sometimes, i pay dearly for this. I think it's part of my mental disorder, really. It brings on stress and anxiety. For instance, i have to have my doc fill out a leave of absence form for work..i hate it. I put it off until today..the very last minute. Now, i can't pick it up til monday. Sometimes i frustrate myself.
8. I rarely watch tv. Most of the time, we watch movies and even then, i often don't sit and watch them all the way through. It's funny, but i feel like it's a waste of time, yet i have no bones about sitting in front of this computer for hours on end. Go figure!
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Before I go to bed...
Here are some pictures
This pic is from my sis's halloween party. It's my brother, Matt, and his gf, sara. They dressed up as nerdy prom king and prom queen. They were a huge hit at the party. You can't tell from the pic, but my brother has duct tape holding his glasses together, his pants are floods, he is wearing generic converse type shoes and his dress shirt is too small.
She has a dress that is quite ugly to begin with, with added material in the front bc it was tea length. She is wearing a scarfy thing in her hair, horrible makeup, big ugly plastic glasses, and gaudy jewelry. And don't forget the tennis shoes.
THis is a pic of makenneh playing daddy's xbox 360. she has the headset on, even. of course, brother wants to play, too!
And here's a fit....he was mad bc he couldn't have the xbox controller. He is the king of fits! He does the whole throw himself in the floor kinda fits.
Oh and, my Pure Romance party was a bust. Only a few ppl showed up. I still got $40 dollars in free stuff (probably more outta sympathy, than anything, bc the lady who does the parties has been doing parties for us for about 4 yrs.). She also threw in a bottle of this spray called Dream. It has lavender oil, bois de rose, patchouli oil and pheromones in it. It it soothing and helps you relax. She sprayed some on Makenneh...bc it can help kids get tired (same concept as johnson and johnson bed time bath) and then told me spray some on my hot pack i was using for my migraine headache...then she said, ah, just keep that bottle! It was a full bottle (10.50 value). So, i really made out with 50.00 in free. NOt to mention, she hung out with us for a bit and is also going iwth me to a home and garden party i was invited to next week. The other thing I got was some massage cream/lubricant. It is buttery textured and i got the strawberry cheesecake flavor. It tastes and smells just like that, too. We shall see how many massages i get out of it....hahhahaha.
Ok, off to get Makenneh settled down for bed....
What to do
I need some advice! Makenneh is just out of control. I have finally reached my wit's end with her. She is moody and hateful more than she is happy and loving. She is notorious for crossing her arms and saying, "jus yeave me awone!". She is demanding. She tells us what she wants, when she wants it and how she wants it and expects it just that way. An example: She will be sitting on the couch. The blankets are on the floor, right at her feet. I will be sitting on the other side of the living room and she will tell me, yes, tell me, to get the covers for her. I most often don't, but there are those times when I just want peace and quiet and i give in to shut her up. This is the problem, im quite sure. In my moments of weakness, I give in to shut her up. When I have heard enough, and taken all that i can take, i give in. She has learned to use that against me. So, now i am having to work extra hard to break that. I feel like i have tried every method possible to get her to behave. She refuses to sit in time out. Make her you say. that involves me physically restraining her while she is hitting and screaming and kicking. I just don't know that that gains anything. She doesn't stay in her room if we send her there. Not to mention, the kids share a room right now and it is trashed and full of toys to boot. Here, my quesiton is....every time she tries coming out of her room, should we send her back in and add a minute on? And if so, how long should we allow this to continue? What about if she is "sneaking" to sit right on the threshold of the doorway? Do we allow her to do this and just keep quiet, so long as she doesn't pass that point? Or do we let her know she is pushing her luck and has to go back inside her room and add a minute?
Another battle (one we had tonight) is when anyone else has to pick her up from school besides me. She throws a huge fit right there and school and doesn't want to go with them. This includes her dad. Tonight she threw a huge fit when jeremy went to get her. Earlier he had asked her if she wanted him to pick her up and she said yes. Then she had a melt down. She comes home crying and carrying on, he sent her to her room, bc that's what he told her he would do when they got home. It was just horrible. I hate it. I hate that there has to be that much to do concerning school. I had a long talk with her tonight about being respectful, being polite, not throwing fits, etc. But, at 3.5, i just don't know that she actually gets it, ya know?
Another problem is jeremy and i don't see eye to eye on discipline. HE is all about authoratarion (or whatever that word is) approach. I don't like that. I want a happy medium. I am not against spanking, but feel that it shouldn't be used for every issue. Major ones...yes. I also feel that discipline should be out of love not anger. i feel like when he disciplines, he does it bc he is angry. i hate it. ANd he is stubborn. I have teh book by The Nanny. I've read it. I've gotten good ideas from it. But he refuses to read it, stating that he doesn't need a book to know how to raise his kids. I disagree. Things change over time. The way we were raised isn't always the best. There are more ways to do things. He also refuses to go to any parenting type of classes. I get so frustrated with him. He says he wants what is best for the kids, yet to me, his refusal to do anything to increase his knowledge on the subject, says the opposite. Men!
And don't get me wrong. He isn't all evil and bad. He laughs with the kids, he plays with the kids, etc. He just has different views on parenting.
Anyway, I go back to work Saturday. I am not really looking forward to it. Especially not because I have to work on Thanksgiving. Jeremy is going to take the kids over to his aunt's where his family is having dinner. So, at least they get to do something for the holiday. I am just so bummed about this, bc it is my very first holiday that won't be celebrated/spent with family. Sure, i made Thanksgiving dinner myself one year and had my mother in law, brother in law and his gf here, but it was still celebrating and with family. This year, my parents and siblings are all going up to my grandma's. I want to go, bc i don't get to see gma that much and also because Makenneh just adores her. And now that i think about it, maybe my parents will take Makenneh with them. We will see. I also have to work the day after Thanksgiving. That doesn't upset me as much, bc it's just shopping im missing out on and the last few years haven't had that great of sales anyway. I have to be to work at 430am that morning and work until 230pm. IT's gonna be a long, busy, crazy day! im sure it will fly by!
Ok, im done for now...gonna go bask in the glory of Makenneh's sweetness, while it lasts. Ya know...earlier I thought, this has to be the youngest case of pms ever. Funny how our doc said that when she was only a week old. I had no clue! She reminds me of a hormonal teenager who just started having her periods and pmsing like crazy. She stomps off, leave me alone, you guys are all mean...blah blah...c'mon, you mom's with teen girls have to admit you have heard similar things. That's what she reminds me of..me when i was hitting teen yrs. Yikes! I think i need to check into kiddy prozac or something....lol.
Oh and Helen, yes, Makenneh goes to school from 430pm til 730pm. It's not common to see/hear...for some reason, the district offers the evening classes this year. Im glad they do, bc it opens more seats for more kids. It also makes them able to take in kids from other nearby school districts (such as Makenneh).
Another battle (one we had tonight) is when anyone else has to pick her up from school besides me. She throws a huge fit right there and school and doesn't want to go with them. This includes her dad. Tonight she threw a huge fit when jeremy went to get her. Earlier he had asked her if she wanted him to pick her up and she said yes. Then she had a melt down. She comes home crying and carrying on, he sent her to her room, bc that's what he told her he would do when they got home. It was just horrible. I hate it. I hate that there has to be that much to do concerning school. I had a long talk with her tonight about being respectful, being polite, not throwing fits, etc. But, at 3.5, i just don't know that she actually gets it, ya know?
Another problem is jeremy and i don't see eye to eye on discipline. HE is all about authoratarion (or whatever that word is) approach. I don't like that. I want a happy medium. I am not against spanking, but feel that it shouldn't be used for every issue. Major ones...yes. I also feel that discipline should be out of love not anger. i feel like when he disciplines, he does it bc he is angry. i hate it. ANd he is stubborn. I have teh book by The Nanny. I've read it. I've gotten good ideas from it. But he refuses to read it, stating that he doesn't need a book to know how to raise his kids. I disagree. Things change over time. The way we were raised isn't always the best. There are more ways to do things. He also refuses to go to any parenting type of classes. I get so frustrated with him. He says he wants what is best for the kids, yet to me, his refusal to do anything to increase his knowledge on the subject, says the opposite. Men!
And don't get me wrong. He isn't all evil and bad. He laughs with the kids, he plays with the kids, etc. He just has different views on parenting.
Anyway, I go back to work Saturday. I am not really looking forward to it. Especially not because I have to work on Thanksgiving. Jeremy is going to take the kids over to his aunt's where his family is having dinner. So, at least they get to do something for the holiday. I am just so bummed about this, bc it is my very first holiday that won't be celebrated/spent with family. Sure, i made Thanksgiving dinner myself one year and had my mother in law, brother in law and his gf here, but it was still celebrating and with family. This year, my parents and siblings are all going up to my grandma's. I want to go, bc i don't get to see gma that much and also because Makenneh just adores her. And now that i think about it, maybe my parents will take Makenneh with them. We will see. I also have to work the day after Thanksgiving. That doesn't upset me as much, bc it's just shopping im missing out on and the last few years haven't had that great of sales anyway. I have to be to work at 430am that morning and work until 230pm. IT's gonna be a long, busy, crazy day! im sure it will fly by!
Ok, im done for now...gonna go bask in the glory of Makenneh's sweetness, while it lasts. Ya know...earlier I thought, this has to be the youngest case of pms ever. Funny how our doc said that when she was only a week old. I had no clue! She reminds me of a hormonal teenager who just started having her periods and pmsing like crazy. She stomps off, leave me alone, you guys are all mean...blah blah...c'mon, you mom's with teen girls have to admit you have heard similar things. That's what she reminds me of..me when i was hitting teen yrs. Yikes! I think i need to check into kiddy prozac or something....lol.
Oh and Helen, yes, Makenneh goes to school from 430pm til 730pm. It's not common to see/hear...for some reason, the district offers the evening classes this year. Im glad they do, bc it opens more seats for more kids. It also makes them able to take in kids from other nearby school districts (such as Makenneh).
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
A little under pressure
It is almost 4pm. I have to have Makenneh to school by430. I need to make the chocolate peanut butter cup pie for tonight, which needs to be refridgerated for 3 hours. So, i need it in there as close to 430 as possible. I can't make it before I leave, bc i need the cool whip. ANyway, i still need to finish the vacuuming, dusting and some other odds and ends, take a shower, prepare food and then ill pretty much be ready for my "party" tonight. Im not expecting a huge turn out, bc i only did email invites and in my funk the past couple weeks havent really told much of anyone else. So, we shall see. Oh well! Better luck next time.
My desk area is a pigsty and its in my living room so there is no hiding it. I am not going to have time tackle it before ppl get here. again, oh well. if they don't like the mess, don't look. lol.
Well, i need to get off here and get kenneh ready for school and me somewhat presentable to take her in....my hair is a crazy mess, i have been sweating all day, and i just feel gross and slimy. but no time for showering before she has to be to school.
ill probably post more later!
My desk area is a pigsty and its in my living room so there is no hiding it. I am not going to have time tackle it before ppl get here. again, oh well. if they don't like the mess, don't look. lol.
Well, i need to get off here and get kenneh ready for school and me somewhat presentable to take her in....my hair is a crazy mess, i have been sweating all day, and i just feel gross and slimy. but no time for showering before she has to be to school.
ill probably post more later!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Election Day
I fulfilled my duty as a citizen of the USA..i voted. General elections were held today and we had to vote for governor, reps and all that good stuff. I haven't been extremely happy with our current governor and Lord knows this state is in some bad shape...we lead the nation's unemployment, we have 2 of the top 3 most dangerous cities in the US....and need I say much more. I was determined to vote against her this election. But then, the other candidate didn't suit my fancy much at all. He gripes about Granholm letting ppl "live off of welfare" and how he wants to implement a time line for welfare. Which, it sounds great. But, has he forgotten, as he sits in his high business position, that our economy sucks and there are no jobs here? Does he not realize that a lot of hard working Michiganders have had to resort to welfare to feed their families when jobs were lost? Does he realize that the average commute for work is about an hour? Has he not realized that gas prices are very high and this long commute means more money for gas? Then, he mentions that if ppl want insurance, they need to get jobs that offer insurance. Wake the Hell up, would you! Where are the jobs that pay enough and offer insurance? Show me! Im sorry but on 10.00 an hour, the avg family cannot afford to shell out hundreds of dollars a month for insurance. NOt to mention, most of these small factories don't even offer it. I just got the impression that he has no clue about the real people here in MI who are working hard, strugglins, losing jobs bc they are moving over seas or to mexico. I just don't think he gets it. McDonalds doesn't pay enough to get ahead on! Sorry, pal! Fix the economy first, then worry about the welfare system. Too many ppl have had to come to rely on it during these tough times!
Ok, that's my rant for the night!
My adult party is tomorrow nigh tand this place is trashed. THe kitchen is full of boxes and crap that i need to take care of. Im afraid it's gonna get shoved in our bedroom to be hid from everyone!
Oh, oh oh! On a hopefully positive note: I have been eyeballing this house every day as I take Makenneh to and from school. I don't know what it was about this place, but i just fell in love with it. It was vacant and had a small sign on teh door, so i knew it would be getting listed soon, as a repo (HUD) house. So, low and behold, Monday, there was a sign on the window to call a realtor of your choice to see it. So, i called my realtor and I went and looked at it today. It is marvelous! 4 bedrooms, 2 baths, living room, family room, kitchen, dining *huge*, 2 car garage with heated loft above, pole barn, fire place...i mean, it's beautiful. So, we are placing a bid on it tomorrow! I know, crazy maybe. But I can't help but shake the notion that having a bigger place, a place to be proud of, would help shake some of this depression. We are so cramped here and so dark and dreary and just blah! Im going to try my damnedest (sp) not to get excited. But, i so want this house. IT has a huge yard with a big deck out back. It butts up to the city park. It's right by Makenneh's school. Everything is perfect. Cross fingers, say prayers, send good vibes, whatever it is you do for good things to happen!
That's all I have for tonight. Im thinking it's time to get to bed!
Ok, that's my rant for the night!
My adult party is tomorrow nigh tand this place is trashed. THe kitchen is full of boxes and crap that i need to take care of. Im afraid it's gonna get shoved in our bedroom to be hid from everyone!
Oh, oh oh! On a hopefully positive note: I have been eyeballing this house every day as I take Makenneh to and from school. I don't know what it was about this place, but i just fell in love with it. It was vacant and had a small sign on teh door, so i knew it would be getting listed soon, as a repo (HUD) house. So, low and behold, Monday, there was a sign on the window to call a realtor of your choice to see it. So, i called my realtor and I went and looked at it today. It is marvelous! 4 bedrooms, 2 baths, living room, family room, kitchen, dining *huge*, 2 car garage with heated loft above, pole barn, fire place...i mean, it's beautiful. So, we are placing a bid on it tomorrow! I know, crazy maybe. But I can't help but shake the notion that having a bigger place, a place to be proud of, would help shake some of this depression. We are so cramped here and so dark and dreary and just blah! Im going to try my damnedest (sp) not to get excited. But, i so want this house. IT has a huge yard with a big deck out back. It butts up to the city park. It's right by Makenneh's school. Everything is perfect. Cross fingers, say prayers, send good vibes, whatever it is you do for good things to happen!
That's all I have for tonight. Im thinking it's time to get to bed!
Monday, November 06, 2006
A new mechanic
Tonight I witnessed one of the most beautiful things. It was a moment in which i should have had the camera ready, but seems I didn't, I shall be sure to blog about it.
Jeremy had to finish fixing our car tonight. He was out working on it when I got back from picking makenneh up from school. She stuck at his side and didn't even come in. he had to call me out there to help him with something and she is right down in the midst of all the greasy parts and tools. He emptied out his one tool bag and then asked if she wanted to pick them up...she kept out the red and yellow electrical connectors bc she was going to use them to help fix the car. Daddy had to explain to her that those didn't go on the wheel. Of course, she had to ask why?! So he explained to her what they were. Then, she held the work light for him, the rachet, and she even told me that she was holding the rachet for daddy! Then, when he was near finished, she grabbed the lugnuts and said, i want to put these back on the tire daddy. So, he let her help put a couple of them on and then help him tighten them up with the 4-way! It was just so cute to watch. She was so into daddy and everything he was doing. She wanted to be involved and him teaching her the ropes. My heart sang and for that moment, all the world was right. She then had to test drive the car with daddy and came back to tell me that she went fast but didn't hit any signs! Im scared to know the details of that. LOL. We live in a small mobile home park, so im guessing he let her "drive" the car around.
Then, jeremy came in and took a bath to soak. Makenneh had to go in to pee. I was sitting at the computer researching all the candidates and proposals for tomorrow's vote and i hear sweet chatter coming from the bathroom. It was so sweet. I tiptoed back there and stood for a second in the doorway. Then I went in bc i had to use bathroom too. She gets done and says she wants to take a bath with daddy to wash her hands bc they have grease on them from working on the car, like daddy. It's so hard to explain to a 3.5 yr old why she can't take baths with daddy, specially when she takes them with little brother. So, he told her, through the shower curtain, that when he was done, she could take a bath. She settled for that after a minute or so and all was well.
Well, wednesday I am hosting a Pure Romance party. It's an adult toy party for anyone who hasn't heard of them. They are so much fun and we all laugh so much. They sell a body spray, Kiss, which is awesome. I Love it. I will be getting me some of it. And it must be that time of year for parties like these, bc today i got an invite to a Home & Garden Party for next wednesday. I used to sell Home & Garden party and the hostess is Jeremy's childhood girlfriend. WE all stay in touch here and there. I might go. I know some ppl who would like to order some stuff so i may just work on getting some orders and do a bookshow or something. Everyone loves their candles and they are so inexpensive. Im sure i could get over a hundred dollars in orders and that would get me some free stuff!! And free stuff is always nice, specially around the holidays when there are so many gifts to buy!
Well, Makenneh has finally resigned from coloring so im going to work on getting her to sleep.
Night all
Jeremy had to finish fixing our car tonight. He was out working on it when I got back from picking makenneh up from school. She stuck at his side and didn't even come in. he had to call me out there to help him with something and she is right down in the midst of all the greasy parts and tools. He emptied out his one tool bag and then asked if she wanted to pick them up...she kept out the red and yellow electrical connectors bc she was going to use them to help fix the car. Daddy had to explain to her that those didn't go on the wheel. Of course, she had to ask why?! So he explained to her what they were. Then, she held the work light for him, the rachet, and she even told me that she was holding the rachet for daddy! Then, when he was near finished, she grabbed the lugnuts and said, i want to put these back on the tire daddy. So, he let her help put a couple of them on and then help him tighten them up with the 4-way! It was just so cute to watch. She was so into daddy and everything he was doing. She wanted to be involved and him teaching her the ropes. My heart sang and for that moment, all the world was right. She then had to test drive the car with daddy and came back to tell me that she went fast but didn't hit any signs! Im scared to know the details of that. LOL. We live in a small mobile home park, so im guessing he let her "drive" the car around.
Then, jeremy came in and took a bath to soak. Makenneh had to go in to pee. I was sitting at the computer researching all the candidates and proposals for tomorrow's vote and i hear sweet chatter coming from the bathroom. It was so sweet. I tiptoed back there and stood for a second in the doorway. Then I went in bc i had to use bathroom too. She gets done and says she wants to take a bath with daddy to wash her hands bc they have grease on them from working on the car, like daddy. It's so hard to explain to a 3.5 yr old why she can't take baths with daddy, specially when she takes them with little brother. So, he told her, through the shower curtain, that when he was done, she could take a bath. She settled for that after a minute or so and all was well.
Well, wednesday I am hosting a Pure Romance party. It's an adult toy party for anyone who hasn't heard of them. They are so much fun and we all laugh so much. They sell a body spray, Kiss, which is awesome. I Love it. I will be getting me some of it. And it must be that time of year for parties like these, bc today i got an invite to a Home & Garden Party for next wednesday. I used to sell Home & Garden party and the hostess is Jeremy's childhood girlfriend. WE all stay in touch here and there. I might go. I know some ppl who would like to order some stuff so i may just work on getting some orders and do a bookshow or something. Everyone loves their candles and they are so inexpensive. Im sure i could get over a hundred dollars in orders and that would get me some free stuff!! And free stuff is always nice, specially around the holidays when there are so many gifts to buy!
Well, Makenneh has finally resigned from coloring so im going to work on getting her to sleep.
Night all
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Nothing too noteoworthy
The weekend wasn't that thrilling. We did go bowling friday night. It was alright. A couple small things agitated me, but im not going into details bc it's over, not worth causing hard feelings over.
It was nice to go to bed with Jeremy and wake up with him in the morning. The ironic thing is, the damned alarm clock went off at 7am. I have no idea how it got set for that time, bc Jeremy sets it for 430ish for work....and i haven't used it, so who knows. So, yeah, i still had an interruption at 7am, but i was able to just shut the alarm off and go back to sleep. And sleep I did. We didn't get up til about 11am! It seems I spent the day, or what was left of it by the time I got up and around, running the roads. I had to find the movie, The Notebook, for part of my parents' anniversary gift, a few other odds and ends to go in their gift basket and then had to stop home to assemble the basket, run it out to my parents before they left for dinner, then run to my cousin's who was having an adult toy party, then home, finally. I didn't get to stay at my cousin's party bc i had to bring kids with me (I had my cousins and their friend with us). So, they had to wait in the van while i placed an order. The kids stayed the night, which made for a houseful. But all in all, everything was fine.
Today i did nothing hardly. I did take a couple hour nap. It was so nice. Until I woke up to find that makenneh had dumped baby powder all over in my bedroom while i slept. Where was dad? grrrr!
I made lasagna for dinner. Ive been on a roll lately with the cooking. I made a roast the other night. The night before that i did baked chicken and mashed potatoes.
I go to the eye doctor on tuesday! Finally. I haven't had my eyes checked in several years, bc my ins doesn't cover contacts and I don't want to wear glasses. So, yeah, ive been wearing the same pair of contacts for a long time. Well, actually, they have been changed bc I get some from my mom sometimes when I lose one. But her Rx is weaker than mine. It will be nice to actually see things again. Then, when we get our income taxes back, im getting new contacts.
Well, i have a couple kids to wrestle to sleep, so im off for now! Told ya nothing exciting to report!
It was nice to go to bed with Jeremy and wake up with him in the morning. The ironic thing is, the damned alarm clock went off at 7am. I have no idea how it got set for that time, bc Jeremy sets it for 430ish for work....and i haven't used it, so who knows. So, yeah, i still had an interruption at 7am, but i was able to just shut the alarm off and go back to sleep. And sleep I did. We didn't get up til about 11am! It seems I spent the day, or what was left of it by the time I got up and around, running the roads. I had to find the movie, The Notebook, for part of my parents' anniversary gift, a few other odds and ends to go in their gift basket and then had to stop home to assemble the basket, run it out to my parents before they left for dinner, then run to my cousin's who was having an adult toy party, then home, finally. I didn't get to stay at my cousin's party bc i had to bring kids with me (I had my cousins and their friend with us). So, they had to wait in the van while i placed an order. The kids stayed the night, which made for a houseful. But all in all, everything was fine.
Today i did nothing hardly. I did take a couple hour nap. It was so nice. Until I woke up to find that makenneh had dumped baby powder all over in my bedroom while i slept. Where was dad? grrrr!
I made lasagna for dinner. Ive been on a roll lately with the cooking. I made a roast the other night. The night before that i did baked chicken and mashed potatoes.
I go to the eye doctor on tuesday! Finally. I haven't had my eyes checked in several years, bc my ins doesn't cover contacts and I don't want to wear glasses. So, yeah, ive been wearing the same pair of contacts for a long time. Well, actually, they have been changed bc I get some from my mom sometimes when I lose one. But her Rx is weaker than mine. It will be nice to actually see things again. Then, when we get our income taxes back, im getting new contacts.
Well, i have a couple kids to wrestle to sleep, so im off for now! Told ya nothing exciting to report!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Trip to the doctor
Well, I finally broke today while on the phone to my mom. I told her that maybe i needed to go to the hospital. I was sobbing so hard, she could barely understand me. She told me i needed to call my doctor, which i asked her if she would bc i could barely talk. So, she took me this morning and the doc gave me a new rx for my pills and made me promise to go back in to my counselor. I also have to go back to see my doc in 2 weeks. He asked how long I had missed work and had the receptionist write an excuse for this time i have missed due to major depression issues. He also put me off until Nov. 9th. That should give me enough time to get the pills in my system again. He said that this is something im going to deal with for life. it's not going to go away and i need to stay on the meds. I know this, but like i told him, i hate the hassle of getting the refills. I get a case of the "fuck its" and just don't do it. I know most of you are thinking...getting a Rx refilled is easy. Yes, for someone with balanced chemicals in their head. It's a major task for me. Especially when, it never fails that they are always due for refill when i don't have a car. THat makes it an even bigger pain in the ass. He also reminded me that the steps I am trying to take are huge and im taking them by myself for the most part. My mom's side of the family has huge co-depency type issues and just overall unhealthy relationships. I have to fight to overcome those and seperate myself from that way of thinking. Sort of like a reprogramming. But it's hard when im surrounding by those who are set in these ways. The other th ing about depression is those who don't suffer from it simply don't understand it. It's not a bad day, feeling blue when your loved pet dies, or having a bad hair day. It's so much more than that. it's easy for the outsiders to say...why doesn't she just get over it, or why doesn't she just cheer up. If it were that simple, well depression wouldn't exist. When I get in these funks, i know that i need to get out of them, but i just can't do it. i know everything i need to do to be healthy, but i can't bring myself to do it. And while I would never blame my depression on my kids, having 2 toddlers simply doesn't help the problems. They add to it. They don't understand that mom is having a hard time and in fact, they sense that mom is wired and stressed and at her wits end and they act up more. Im really thinking about seeing my aunt will take the kids for a few days for me. I need a few days reprieve. To myself. Peace, quiet and nothing to get in my way. I can rest up, let these pills start working and get back to feeling like me again.
Well, my mom invited me to dinner with her and my aunts and uncles tonight. They are going for a bday dinner for my mom. Her bday was the 29th. Which, to tell you how much of a funk i was in, i didn't even blog about it. The day of her bday, we went to lunch at a chinese buffet. Then we went back to my parents' house and had homemade orange sheet cake with homemade orange frosting (mom's fav flavor is orange). I was a bit grumpy that day but struggled hard to just put on the happy face for mom's day. Anyway, she suggested I leave the kids home wiht jeremy and go with them. So, i think im gonna do that. I could use a few hours out of the house without kids. And I think I will even treat myself to an adult beverage. =) maybe 2. LOL. I feel guilty for leaving hubby and kids behind, but ya know...sometimes we need a break. ANd I am one of those ppl who obviously need more breaks than the average person. i have to realize and accept this. As long as I continue to play super-being I will continue to run into these ruts.
Well, that's the low down on what has been going on here. Just thought I would update.
Thanks to you, Helen and Julie, for hearing me out and offering encouragement! It means a lot to know that ppl care!
Well, my mom invited me to dinner with her and my aunts and uncles tonight. They are going for a bday dinner for my mom. Her bday was the 29th. Which, to tell you how much of a funk i was in, i didn't even blog about it. The day of her bday, we went to lunch at a chinese buffet. Then we went back to my parents' house and had homemade orange sheet cake with homemade orange frosting (mom's fav flavor is orange). I was a bit grumpy that day but struggled hard to just put on the happy face for mom's day. Anyway, she suggested I leave the kids home wiht jeremy and go with them. So, i think im gonna do that. I could use a few hours out of the house without kids. And I think I will even treat myself to an adult beverage. =) maybe 2. LOL. I feel guilty for leaving hubby and kids behind, but ya know...sometimes we need a break. ANd I am one of those ppl who obviously need more breaks than the average person. i have to realize and accept this. As long as I continue to play super-being I will continue to run into these ruts.
Well, that's the low down on what has been going on here. Just thought I would update.
Thanks to you, Helen and Julie, for hearing me out and offering encouragement! It means a lot to know that ppl care!
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Children learn what they live
I just came across this pocket card tonight. I've had it since before I had kids. It's a great reminder and perhaps I should have it blown up to a 10X14.
IF a child lives with criticism,
He learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives encouragement,
he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness,
he learns justice.
If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance,
and friendship,
He learns to find love in the world.
IF a child lives with criticism,
He learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives encouragement,
he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness,
he learns justice.
If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance,
and friendship,
He learns to find love in the world.
Halloween is all over
Well, we took the kids out trick or treating. Sebastian was dressed as a cute lil leopard and Makenneh was a cowgirl, complete with a pony to ride. We didn't go many places bc both kids are sick already and it was pretty cold. They got a sufficient amount of candy and had a good time. Seb fell asleep on the way home and Makenneh is still up. She had fell asleep a couple times along the way btwn stops (we decided to mainly go to family, which was mostly driving from one to the other.) I fear she may be up for a while. I am ready to go to sleep.
I didn't take pictures. I know, bad mommy! But, the batteries were dead in my camera and like a dumb ass, i didn't put them in the charger soon enough. My aunt took a couple pics and we got one with my mother in law's digital. I may have her come over so we can load that in my computer to share. I feel guilty for being so unprepared....that's just how ive been lately.
And the highlight of the night just came: Makenneh said, "mommy, thank you for getting me candy." I said, but you got it yourself by saying trick or treat. and she simply and sincerely said, "thank you mommy." those are the moments to hang on to. All the fit throwing and whining has been erased from memory! What a kid!!!!
I didn't take pictures. I know, bad mommy! But, the batteries were dead in my camera and like a dumb ass, i didn't put them in the charger soon enough. My aunt took a couple pics and we got one with my mother in law's digital. I may have her come over so we can load that in my computer to share. I feel guilty for being so unprepared....that's just how ive been lately.
And the highlight of the night just came: Makenneh said, "mommy, thank you for getting me candy." I said, but you got it yourself by saying trick or treat. and she simply and sincerely said, "thank you mommy." those are the moments to hang on to. All the fit throwing and whining has been erased from memory! What a kid!!!!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Sunshine, glorious sunshine
The sun finally made an appearance. It was so beautiful today! It was warm (no jackets were really even needed) and bright and cheery. Hard to be depressed and frumpy when blessed with such a beautiful day. I turned the furnace off, opened the front door and a couple windows. We spent some time outside, just breathing in the fresh fall air. It is now 11pm and I still have my front door open and the kitchen window opened. OH and one of the living room windows is still open a bit. It would be so nice to have a night like this tomorrow for Halloween! But, reading Julieq's blog, it doesn't sound like that will be the case. (we live in the same state). Julieq, I really hope you are wrong on the forecast...lol. I want another day like today! I actually got out of the shower and did my hair and, don't tell anyone, i actually put on a lil makeup! LOL. I felt alive today.
But, despite the beautiful day, we got a lil bad news. Jeremy went to put the new (well used, but not broken) CV axle on our car today and discovered that we need a whole new hub. So, what could have been a 35.00 fix is now going to cost more and won't be done until this weekend. So, we have no car until then. It often seems that when it rains, it pours. I think not having a car is really pushing my depression. I hate being confined to the house. But, such is life. The car shall remain lifeless for several days.
Meanwhile, back in the parenting ring....I have been so bad about working with Makenneh. Luckily, she has caught on to most things fairly well. She does know/recognize colors and shapes. However, she doesn't know her ABC's and can only count to 5-6 correctly on a regular basis. Sometimes she will go as high as 8-10 but not consistantly. The alphabet part really surprises me bc when she was a baby and oh so colicky, i would hold her and sing the alphabet to her in a soothing voice. Mostly bc, well, I couldn't ever remember all the words to most of the lullabyes. But, i thought it would benefit her anyway, so i sang abc's a lot. In school, they are working on writing their name. My poor child was blessed with a long name. MAKENNEH. She will get it though. Mine is CHRISTINA and I got it. Of course, when i first started writing it, i wrote it backwards....ANITSIRHC. I didn't believe it til i saw it on a paper i did at Christmas...while going through christmas decorations with my mom. Anyway, in between writing here, I am "writing" with Makenneh. I started out trying to help her write her name...i would do the dot thing and she wanted to draw dots too, so we took turns. I would dot out a letter of her name and she would trace it, then she would draw dots and i would let her "tell me" how to draw it. But, it's extremely late, she is very tired and well, time for bed. Otherwise, she will never be any good for trick or treating. She is not wanting to put the marker down. I am going to have to stop here so i can enforce bed! So, wish me luck...my tight is chest and blood pressure is elevating....and my nose is stuffy too for what it's worth...lol.
But, despite the beautiful day, we got a lil bad news. Jeremy went to put the new (well used, but not broken) CV axle on our car today and discovered that we need a whole new hub. So, what could have been a 35.00 fix is now going to cost more and won't be done until this weekend. So, we have no car until then. It often seems that when it rains, it pours. I think not having a car is really pushing my depression. I hate being confined to the house. But, such is life. The car shall remain lifeless for several days.
Meanwhile, back in the parenting ring....I have been so bad about working with Makenneh. Luckily, she has caught on to most things fairly well. She does know/recognize colors and shapes. However, she doesn't know her ABC's and can only count to 5-6 correctly on a regular basis. Sometimes she will go as high as 8-10 but not consistantly. The alphabet part really surprises me bc when she was a baby and oh so colicky, i would hold her and sing the alphabet to her in a soothing voice. Mostly bc, well, I couldn't ever remember all the words to most of the lullabyes. But, i thought it would benefit her anyway, so i sang abc's a lot. In school, they are working on writing their name. My poor child was blessed with a long name. MAKENNEH. She will get it though. Mine is CHRISTINA and I got it. Of course, when i first started writing it, i wrote it backwards....ANITSIRHC. I didn't believe it til i saw it on a paper i did at Christmas...while going through christmas decorations with my mom. Anyway, in between writing here, I am "writing" with Makenneh. I started out trying to help her write her name...i would do the dot thing and she wanted to draw dots too, so we took turns. I would dot out a letter of her name and she would trace it, then she would draw dots and i would let her "tell me" how to draw it. But, it's extremely late, she is very tired and well, time for bed. Otherwise, she will never be any good for trick or treating. She is not wanting to put the marker down. I am going to have to stop here so i can enforce bed! So, wish me luck...my tight is chest and blood pressure is elevating....and my nose is stuffy too for what it's worth...lol.
Friday, October 27, 2006
la la land and lots of whines
After having my hopes destroyed two days in a row of being able to have a sitter for kids, i decided to take one of the pills the doc had given me before for depression. I quit taking them (with his knowledge) bc they made me very very loopy and extremely tired. And without fail, i took the the pill around 7pm and was out by 845. I couldnt even stand up my legs were so wobbly. I was barely coherent. I think jeremy was mad...but tough luck. It was the only escape i could have. And I needed it. But the bad thing was, I began diggin our room out yesterday, putting clothes away, etc...bc our room literally only had a path to one side of the bed. Well, i wasnt able to finish it bc kids wouldnt hear of it, jeremy was grumpy, we got into an ugly argument, blah blah blah. So, the bed was still piled high when i went comatose. So, jeremy slept on couch, makenneh was out on the loveseat...and lucky me got the floor! I was so out of it, i literally plopped down on my living room floor, on top of toys, clothes, whatever was there. i slept there until jeremy got up for work, when i climbed up on the couch. I was woke up about 830 by the littlest monster. I was still drowsy, but had to face the day. I am still drowsy now if you cant tell my typing. My fingers are not working at all for me. Anyway, i have seb in his crib for what should be a nap...but he wont take one. I dont know what his problem is . Grrrr.
I was supposed to work at 2 but called off. I am in a frump. I cannot get out of it right now. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep for a week. I cannot handle these kids, they are out of control behaviorally, i am to blame for it, my house wont stay clean..i just kinda give up. tying here, my apostrophe doesnt work and every time i try to hit it, it brings up this seach bar at the bottom here. im getting pissed. oh and ive watched barney back to back to back, nonstop all day. play, rewind, play, rewind play. ....
I dont want to work, i dont wanna be around ppl. nothing. I get like this from time to time which is where i have trouble keeping a job. i cannot help it;. i try. i really do. but i get overwhelmed, filled iwth anxiety and just throw in the towel. im near that point now. the logic part of my brain keeps insisting i need this job. the overwhelmed, depressed, stressed part of my brain keeps telling me that this job so isnt worth the hassles it creates. not having a car has just created more hassles. i am out of wipes, bread has mold growing on it, no milk, juice. no way to get more. i just wanna scream. kids are sick. Sometimes i question why God let me procreate. He should have known i wouldnt be good for the job. maybe he is testing me. its a shitty test, i tell ya. im failing miserably.
and why is my apostraphe doing that...its like i hit some button that changed its function..and i don't know how to fix it. oooh lookey there..it did it. it gave me an ' holy shit, it did it iagain.'''''''''''''' wow. maybe HE is realizing im at my wit's end and it's not funny anymore! Now if the sandman would swoop down and take my children to sleep, life would be ok for a minute. i could lay my oh so weary head down and go to dream land. where everything is fine. and if it's not, well, i can just wake up and try again.
Helen, i wish we lived closer, bc i so could learn so much from you. Maybe some of your patience and determination and all that good stuff would rub off on me. Maybe i could borrow some of your strength. I know i need some right now.
yep, im outta my pills. can anyone tell? this is why i need them. iwthout them i become a total mess. i hate it. i hate myself when i am like this....ok i just don't like myself. i can only imagine how my husband and kids feel when i am like this. but really, im partly mad at him righ tnow anyway, so i dont know that i care how he feels at the moment. that's another whole vent in itself. one im not sure i want to put on here for everyone to read. but one i would love to get off my chest. ah well, maybe i will write it on a document and just delete. and maybe it will go away, too.
ok, i am done dragging you all down itwh me to the yucky depths of depression. I shall go now to change a shitty diaper without wipes. yes, i know, back in the day, before wipes, what do i think they did. Well, im tellin ya know that no washcloth of mine is wiping shit from his bottom and then going back in the wash to eventually wash my face. crazy i know. it will go in the garbage if i have to resort to that. i should have some cottonelle wipes in my stash of stuff i get free by using coupons at kroger where they double even the dollar ones....hehehe.
I was supposed to work at 2 but called off. I am in a frump. I cannot get out of it right now. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep for a week. I cannot handle these kids, they are out of control behaviorally, i am to blame for it, my house wont stay clean..i just kinda give up. tying here, my apostrophe doesnt work and every time i try to hit it, it brings up this seach bar at the bottom here. im getting pissed. oh and ive watched barney back to back to back, nonstop all day. play, rewind, play, rewind play. ....
I dont want to work, i dont wanna be around ppl. nothing. I get like this from time to time which is where i have trouble keeping a job. i cannot help it;. i try. i really do. but i get overwhelmed, filled iwth anxiety and just throw in the towel. im near that point now. the logic part of my brain keeps insisting i need this job. the overwhelmed, depressed, stressed part of my brain keeps telling me that this job so isnt worth the hassles it creates. not having a car has just created more hassles. i am out of wipes, bread has mold growing on it, no milk, juice. no way to get more. i just wanna scream. kids are sick. Sometimes i question why God let me procreate. He should have known i wouldnt be good for the job. maybe he is testing me. its a shitty test, i tell ya. im failing miserably.
and why is my apostraphe doing that...its like i hit some button that changed its function..and i don't know how to fix it. oooh lookey there..it did it. it gave me an ' holy shit, it did it iagain.'''''''''''''' wow. maybe HE is realizing im at my wit's end and it's not funny anymore! Now if the sandman would swoop down and take my children to sleep, life would be ok for a minute. i could lay my oh so weary head down and go to dream land. where everything is fine. and if it's not, well, i can just wake up and try again.
Helen, i wish we lived closer, bc i so could learn so much from you. Maybe some of your patience and determination and all that good stuff would rub off on me. Maybe i could borrow some of your strength. I know i need some right now.
yep, im outta my pills. can anyone tell? this is why i need them. iwthout them i become a total mess. i hate it. i hate myself when i am like this....ok i just don't like myself. i can only imagine how my husband and kids feel when i am like this. but really, im partly mad at him righ tnow anyway, so i dont know that i care how he feels at the moment. that's another whole vent in itself. one im not sure i want to put on here for everyone to read. but one i would love to get off my chest. ah well, maybe i will write it on a document and just delete. and maybe it will go away, too.
ok, i am done dragging you all down itwh me to the yucky depths of depression. I shall go now to change a shitty diaper without wipes. yes, i know, back in the day, before wipes, what do i think they did. Well, im tellin ya know that no washcloth of mine is wiping shit from his bottom and then going back in the wash to eventually wash my face. crazy i know. it will go in the garbage if i have to resort to that. i should have some cottonelle wipes in my stash of stuff i get free by using coupons at kroger where they double even the dollar ones....hehehe.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Warning: Adult content. May not be suitable for all audiences! LOL
Saw this on Myspace and just had to share!!!!!
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following
reasons:
1. I do physical labor.
2. I work at great depths.
3. I plunge head first into everything I do.
4. I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
5. I work in a damp environment.
6. I work in a dark area that has poor ventilation.
7. I work in high temperatures.
8. My work exposes me to diseases.
********************************************************************
Dear Penis,
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have
raised, the management denies your request for the following reasons:
1. You do not work 8 hours straight.
2. You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work
period.
3. You do not always follow the orders of the management
team.
4. You do not stay in your designated area, and are often seen
visiting other locations.
5. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and
stimulated in order to start working.
6. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
7. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as
wearing the correct protective clothing.
8. You will retire long before you are 65.
9. You are unable to work double shifts.
10. You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have
completed the assigned task.
11. You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the workplace
carrying two suspicious-looking bags.
Sincerely,
The Management
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following
reasons:
1. I do physical labor.
2. I work at great depths.
3. I plunge head first into everything I do.
4. I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
5. I work in a damp environment.
6. I work in a dark area that has poor ventilation.
7. I work in high temperatures.
8. My work exposes me to diseases.
********************************************************************
Dear Penis,
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have
raised, the management denies your request for the following reasons:
1. You do not work 8 hours straight.
2. You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work
period.
3. You do not always follow the orders of the management
team.
4. You do not stay in your designated area, and are often seen
visiting other locations.
5. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and
stimulated in order to start working.
6. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
7. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as
wearing the correct protective clothing.
8. You will retire long before you are 65.
9. You are unable to work double shifts.
10. You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have
completed the assigned task.
11. You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the workplace
carrying two suspicious-looking bags.
Sincerely,
The Management
Look out, here we come
So, Makenneh keeps pestering me that she wants to go bye-bye. The problem: I don't have a car to go bye-bye even if i really wanted to. So the conversation goes like this:
Makenneh: mom i want to go bye bye (read with a whiney voice)
Me: We can't go bye bye. We don't have a car.
her: But mommy, i waaaant to gooo bbbyyyyye byyyyyeeee (whinier voice)
Me: Can we all fit on your tricycle?
(long silence) She is contemplating this option
her: Mommy i want to go bye bye
me: I know, Makenneh.
Then she gives up for a minute. I think it really might have been a whole 60 seconds. really!
Mommy, i want to go bye bye on my bike.
Great...she really thinks we can load up on her tricycle and hit the town!
i can't help but laugh at the mental image this gives me. My fat butt on her teeny tiny trike! With two kids somehow, somewhere piled on as well. Starting to sound like a circus side show, huh?
Her: Let's go bye bye on my bike mommy bc we not have a car...ur car is broke. But you will need a bike mommy.
Good so she recognizes now that mommy cannot fit on her trike. But now we have a new problem. Mommy doesn't have a bike.
This conversation was laughable until about 2 mins ago (about the time i started typing this post actually). Now she is just whining incessantly that she wants to go bye bye. i can send her bye bye...to boot camp if she doesn't change her ways.
So, i finally tell her that we are waiting for aunt Michelle to call back to let us know if they can go over there. She says, "oh, who's that?" I don't know why she asked that, but maybe for the sake of interesting conversation. Bc I then tell her, "A. Michelle, Desiree, Ashely...you know.."
Her: Oh, with the baby kitty. (Bingo..now she gets it...lol). Her face lights up like a Christmas tree or perhaps the sky at 4th of july.
Yes, Makenneh, with the baby kitty.
Her: oooh, can i pet her, mommy? (she pretends to have said baby kitty in her hand, lovingly stroking it's soft fur).
Then all hell breaks loose again, as she chases brother down to get something from him she doesn't want him to have.
See, isn't life just peachy?
Im off now to ride into the sunset (oh wait, it's midday) on our tricycle!
Circus, here we come!
Makenneh: mom i want to go bye bye (read with a whiney voice)
Me: We can't go bye bye. We don't have a car.
her: But mommy, i waaaant to gooo bbbyyyyye byyyyyeeee (whinier voice)
Me: Can we all fit on your tricycle?
(long silence) She is contemplating this option
her: Mommy i want to go bye bye
me: I know, Makenneh.
Then she gives up for a minute. I think it really might have been a whole 60 seconds. really!
Mommy, i want to go bye bye on my bike.
Great...she really thinks we can load up on her tricycle and hit the town!
i can't help but laugh at the mental image this gives me. My fat butt on her teeny tiny trike! With two kids somehow, somewhere piled on as well. Starting to sound like a circus side show, huh?
Her: Let's go bye bye on my bike mommy bc we not have a car...ur car is broke. But you will need a bike mommy.
Good so she recognizes now that mommy cannot fit on her trike. But now we have a new problem. Mommy doesn't have a bike.
This conversation was laughable until about 2 mins ago (about the time i started typing this post actually). Now she is just whining incessantly that she wants to go bye bye. i can send her bye bye...to boot camp if she doesn't change her ways.
So, i finally tell her that we are waiting for aunt Michelle to call back to let us know if they can go over there. She says, "oh, who's that?" I don't know why she asked that, but maybe for the sake of interesting conversation. Bc I then tell her, "A. Michelle, Desiree, Ashely...you know.."
Her: Oh, with the baby kitty. (Bingo..now she gets it...lol). Her face lights up like a Christmas tree or perhaps the sky at 4th of july.
Yes, Makenneh, with the baby kitty.
Her: oooh, can i pet her, mommy? (she pretends to have said baby kitty in her hand, lovingly stroking it's soft fur).
Then all hell breaks loose again, as she chases brother down to get something from him she doesn't want him to have.
See, isn't life just peachy?
Im off now to ride into the sunset (oh wait, it's midday) on our tricycle!
Circus, here we come!
My last day off
Well, today is my last day off. I had three days off in a row. They actually were kinda horrible, to be honest. I have been stressed, the kids have been monsters. I long for a day to myself. No work, no kids.
I'll enlighten you on Sebastian's busy body ways. This morning, he is sitting on the floor near me and i hear crunching. What the hell could he possibly be eating that is that crunchy? How about a small Christmas light sized light bulb? Yep. my mom bought a couple small plastic pumpkin decorations that have a small christmas light bulb in them. He opened the pumpkin (don't ask how) and crunched down on the light bulb....while it was hooked to battery!!! I really have no idea what possesses him to do such crazy things. He is always eating non-food items, his favorite being napkins, toilet paper, things of that nature. The boy doesn't stop.
So, anyway, if anybody is willing to take in a couple extra kids for a day, please let me know. I will surely consider all offers. LOL.
Oh and another stunt he pulled - Makenneh had a glass of chocolate milk that she left out in the kitchen. This is where she is supposed to leave it as I don't want it spilled on the new carpet! Well, Sebastian decided to snatch her drink up, bring it in the living room and you guessed it! I have chocoloate milk stains on my new carpet. I give up. yesterday these kids had me near tears. last night i told jeremy i wish i would just have a nervous breakdown and get it over with. I feel like im constantly fighting to stay one step above that breakdown and I am just sick of the struggle. I suck as a parent, I suck as a housewife. My kids are wild and crazy and misbehaved. My home is trashed, full of junk piles, boxes (from when we were so sure we would get to move), clothes piled everywhere (bc we could really use another dresser around here, but no room really for one). I just get sick of all the clutter and mess. And the last few days has made me sick of all the demands from little ones. It seems like every time i try to sit down and relax, Makenneh needs something...get me this, do that...or Sebastian is getting into something. It really never fails. Just one day I don't want to hear "mmmooommm!" just one. I am sure some of you are reading this and gasping in horror. But, the truth is, we probably all have these days, it's just taboo to talk about them. parenting is all cutesy and lovley and full of sweetness! That's what we are supposed to say. Well, Im here to tell any of you without kids that that is far from the big picture. Sure, right now, Sebastian is being cute as ever...he is climbing all over me, tickling me and laughing his deep belly laugh when I tickle back. But have no fear, he is really scoping the desk out for something to get into.
Well, he has a dirty diaper that needs changed and he needs some redirection bc he is insistant that he belongs in the little cubby space here by the desk.
So, that's what i leave you with this time...the bad, the ugly of motherhood. Maybe ill post some good next time.
I'll enlighten you on Sebastian's busy body ways. This morning, he is sitting on the floor near me and i hear crunching. What the hell could he possibly be eating that is that crunchy? How about a small Christmas light sized light bulb? Yep. my mom bought a couple small plastic pumpkin decorations that have a small christmas light bulb in them. He opened the pumpkin (don't ask how) and crunched down on the light bulb....while it was hooked to battery!!! I really have no idea what possesses him to do such crazy things. He is always eating non-food items, his favorite being napkins, toilet paper, things of that nature. The boy doesn't stop.
So, anyway, if anybody is willing to take in a couple extra kids for a day, please let me know. I will surely consider all offers. LOL.
Oh and another stunt he pulled - Makenneh had a glass of chocolate milk that she left out in the kitchen. This is where she is supposed to leave it as I don't want it spilled on the new carpet! Well, Sebastian decided to snatch her drink up, bring it in the living room and you guessed it! I have chocoloate milk stains on my new carpet. I give up. yesterday these kids had me near tears. last night i told jeremy i wish i would just have a nervous breakdown and get it over with. I feel like im constantly fighting to stay one step above that breakdown and I am just sick of the struggle. I suck as a parent, I suck as a housewife. My kids are wild and crazy and misbehaved. My home is trashed, full of junk piles, boxes (from when we were so sure we would get to move), clothes piled everywhere (bc we could really use another dresser around here, but no room really for one). I just get sick of all the clutter and mess. And the last few days has made me sick of all the demands from little ones. It seems like every time i try to sit down and relax, Makenneh needs something...get me this, do that...or Sebastian is getting into something. It really never fails. Just one day I don't want to hear "mmmooommm!" just one. I am sure some of you are reading this and gasping in horror. But, the truth is, we probably all have these days, it's just taboo to talk about them. parenting is all cutesy and lovley and full of sweetness! That's what we are supposed to say. Well, Im here to tell any of you without kids that that is far from the big picture. Sure, right now, Sebastian is being cute as ever...he is climbing all over me, tickling me and laughing his deep belly laugh when I tickle back. But have no fear, he is really scoping the desk out for something to get into.
Well, he has a dirty diaper that needs changed and he needs some redirection bc he is insistant that he belongs in the little cubby space here by the desk.
So, that's what i leave you with this time...the bad, the ugly of motherhood. Maybe ill post some good next time.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
2nd shift
Well, today starts me week of 2nd shift. Yeah, our schedule starts on Saturday. I guess Walmart just has to be different. But anyway, i work sat, sun, mon and then have tues, wed, thur off. I can't wait for the 3 days in a row off.
Today is Sweetest's Day...just a hallmark holiday. We don't really celebrate it. I mean, we aren't against it, but it's just another day to us.
My mom is keeping Makenneh overnight tonight bc my gma and A. Bev are going to be staying the night there too. Today is a going away party for one of my 2nd cousins. he is joining the national guard.
Well, nothing exciting to say....i need to finish getting ready to go to work...ill be back tonight probably!!!!
Today is Sweetest's Day...just a hallmark holiday. We don't really celebrate it. I mean, we aren't against it, but it's just another day to us.
My mom is keeping Makenneh overnight tonight bc my gma and A. Bev are going to be staying the night there too. Today is a going away party for one of my 2nd cousins. he is joining the national guard.
Well, nothing exciting to say....i need to finish getting ready to go to work...ill be back tonight probably!!!!
Friday, October 20, 2006
Ok, last post for the night
Really, I need to be in bed! 5am comes awfully early! (have i ever mentioned that i hate mornings?...lol)
Makenneh showing off her fashion (if you can call it that). She put her shades and necklace on and just had to have a pic!
Here's the long waited for pic of my furniture! it's not the best pic, but it was late and not good lighting in here. I just knew i needed to get a pic taken to show you guys! That's the love seat. i didn't take pics of the couch or chair. I will get around it someday!
Here's a crappy pic of my entertainment center. Again, it was night, poor lighting and yes, that's Barney babysitting the kids! Hey, they love him.
And that's all folks! I am now free to get to bed. My conscious is clear. I have delivered the promised pics and then some!
Ill give you all a day or so to catch up on all this posting! Or maybe not! I could be back with more pics tomorrow...better watch it! LOL!
Makenneh showing off her fashion (if you can call it that). She put her shades and necklace on and just had to have a pic!
Here's the long waited for pic of my furniture! it's not the best pic, but it was late and not good lighting in here. I just knew i needed to get a pic taken to show you guys! That's the love seat. i didn't take pics of the couch or chair. I will get around it someday!
Here's a crappy pic of my entertainment center. Again, it was night, poor lighting and yes, that's Barney babysitting the kids! Hey, they love him. And that's all folks! I am now free to get to bed. My conscious is clear. I have delivered the promised pics and then some!
Ill give you all a day or so to catch up on all this posting! Or maybe not! I could be back with more pics tomorrow...better watch it! LOL!
More pics (aren't you all so proud?)
Shake Yer Tail Feathers!!!!
That's a duck shaking his for the camera! I just couldn't pass up that photo op!
That's a duck shaking his for the camera! I just couldn't pass up that photo op!
Makenneh and one of her friends, Rachelle. Miss Wendy told me that Makenneh, Rachelle and Amaya are almost inseperable at school!
Makenneh and some friends on the wooden train in the play/picnic area
And now introducing James Bond! Yep, that's the Llama's name.
Makenneh and her carefully selected pumpkin. She had to have a "baby pumpkin". Wanna see indecisive? Set a group of 3-4 yrs olds loose in a pumpkin patch and let them pick any pumpkin they want!
Going through the corn maze...did I mention that it has been rainy here for about a week now? YOu can just imagine the mud we were walking through! It was slippery and yucky and mucky!
Makenneh with Grandma!So, that's about it for the Field Trip! But, wait! There's More!!!! I still have to make another post with furniture pics and a few other random pics!
I told ya i had some catching up to do right?
Are ya sittin down?
Hahahhaha, of course, you are! LOL. And it's a good thing! Because guess what I have to share with you? PICTURES! Yes, that's right, folks, you read right! I have pictures to share! Bout time, huh? Well, i will be honest. The reason I have been so slow in posting pics is bc my printer wasn't hooked up and well, i didn't wanna crawl around to get it hooked up, so i put it off. Today, i finally caved. I could hear your voices in my head saying, "c'mon Christina, get with the program. It's high time you show us some pictures." It was a taunting voice, too. We procrastinators often need nagging voices to motivate us.
Today was Makenneh's very first field trip. We went to Porter's Orchard and went on a hay ride, picked an apple, went through a corn maze, picked a pumpkin, met the animals and then went to the picnic area for cider and donuts.
So, without further ado (is that right?)...here are the pictures:
This is a picture from the hay ride. The lady standing was our tour guide.
This is a pic of Makenneh's Jonagold apple that she picked herself, from the tree. The dark spots you can kinda see are from hail that we had in our last storm when mother nature was pms-ing and forgot that it was still fall, not yet winter.
This is from the left: My brother's gf (Aunt Sara), my brother (Uncle Matt), Makenneh and Mommy. We were in the apple orchard, next to the jonagold trees.
This is makenneh nestled btwn her teachers. She just had to sit by them on the hayride. Miss Wendy is on the left and Miss Brenda on the right. Unfortunately, this pic didn't turn out so well. I was having issues with my camera today=(
Ok, i will post more pics in a seperate post...bc believe me, i have pics to post!
Today was Makenneh's very first field trip. We went to Porter's Orchard and went on a hay ride, picked an apple, went through a corn maze, picked a pumpkin, met the animals and then went to the picnic area for cider and donuts.
So, without further ado (is that right?)...here are the pictures:
This is a picture from the hay ride. The lady standing was our tour guide.
This is a pic of Makenneh's Jonagold apple that she picked herself, from the tree. The dark spots you can kinda see are from hail that we had in our last storm when mother nature was pms-ing and forgot that it was still fall, not yet winter.
This is from the left: My brother's gf (Aunt Sara), my brother (Uncle Matt), Makenneh and Mommy. We were in the apple orchard, next to the jonagold trees.
This is makenneh nestled btwn her teachers. She just had to sit by them on the hayride. Miss Wendy is on the left and Miss Brenda on the right. Unfortunately, this pic didn't turn out so well. I was having issues with my camera today=(Ok, i will post more pics in a seperate post...bc believe me, i have pics to post!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Halloween
1. Think back to Halloweens past. What was your favorite costume?
I don't really recall any specific costumes. I was just always excited to go trick or treating. i do remember being a witch a few years, a baby, a princess, etc
2. Did your parents allow you to go trick or treating? Yes
3. Prefer Private Halloween party or trick or treating? trick or treating
4. Have you ever seen or felt the presence of someone that has passed on? If so tell me. Did they have a message for you?
There are times when i can feel my gparents and/or aunt near. Nothing scary, just a comfort sort of feeling.
5. Did you know that Halloween is the Witches' New Year? nope
6. Have you ever studied Wicca or any of the Occult Arts? Which, tell? No I have not.
7. Popcorn balls or Candy Apples? Caramel apples, although "grandma" Donna always made homemade popcorn balls and did up goody bags for all us kids....
8. Did you do naughty things as a teen on Halloween night when you were too old to go trick or treating? nope
9. Confess. What was it? see above
10. Do you like to stroll through graveyards with someone? only if im visiting loved one's graves. Other than that, i think it is highly disrespectful to goof off, vandalize or otherwise act a fool at a cemetary
11. Do you like creepy people, meaning are they fun? No I do not.
12. The follow is a list of words.
SAY THE FIRST THING THAT POPS INTO YOUR MIND WITHOUT THINKING:
SPIDER: creepy crawly
GHOST white
DEVIL hate
SAW the movie
DREAM every night...strange ones
PUMPKIN seeds
BATHOUSE less mosquitos to bite me
SKELETON bones
CANDY sweet
BLACK CAT aawwww
FRIDAY THE 13TH just another day..depending on the month, bdays
FAIRY tooth
AFRAID scared
BLOOD red
MIRROR reflection
CROW black
CANDY CORN fall
EEK! A Mouse!
SPOOKY dark, deserted
STRANGER beware
MOON Full
FIRE hot
HIDE AND SEEK kids
HALLOWEEN Oct. 31
CREEKING steps
BOX packing
LETTER Stacy
OUIJI BOARD game
TAROT CARDS not my thing
GYPSY con artist..(like that one julie)
WAX MUSEUM statues
GAS LIGHT better get to the gas station
13. Do you think most abandoned prisons are haunted? No
14. Do you tell ghost stories when families gather round? not usually
15. Were you afriad of the dark as a child? Not really. I'm more afraid of it now.
16. Did you scare kids smaller than you? Never
17. Would you lay on a grave if dared? nope, it feels disrespectful to me
18. Would you like hayrides in the country? yes
19. Have you ever played a scarey practical joke? Tell~ No I haven't.
20. Have you ever been to a haunted house? nothing too scary
21. Are areas in your house haunted? no
22. Do you believe in haunted cars? No
23. Have you ever slept in bed with someone just because you were scared? as a kid, i would go to parents' room if had a bad dream or storming
24. Name five items that remind you of Halloween. candy, trick or treating, chilly/fall, pumpkins, costumes
25. Whats your favorite Halloween music trac? don't have one...and when i worked at Great Party, they played halloween cds all day every day and now i don't care if i never hear another "halloween" themed song in my life...including monster mash, purple people eater
26. On Trick or Treat night have you ever hid and scared trick or treaters? No
27. Have you ever been alone and heard someone call your name? Can't say that I have.
28. Have you ever been so spooked that you run out of your house? No
29. Have you ever been driving at night and had wierd experiences? no
30. What would you do if you were driving on a lonely road at night and had a blow-out with your tire? call someone..the same thing id do in the day time on a busy road
31. Have you ever gotten lost driving at night? no
32. Do you ever have night paranormal experiences driving such as you think you saw someone run caross the road in front of you. no
33. Have you ever been to a fortune teller? No
34. Except for the obvious what freaks you out most in a funeral home? nothing "freaks" me out (it's a part of life). Ive spent my fair share in funeral homes
35. Have you ever been scared at a funeral? no, see above
36. Have you ever had an experience with objects floating or flying off the shelf. Tell. no
37. Do you know of places where anyone has killed their self? (Stacy, please read with caution..sensitive information follows) yes...my friend's uncle shot himself on their couch
38. Have you ever seen what you though was a ufo? No I haven't.
39. Is there people in your family that see the future or tell things about them? Most of us seem to have a 6th sense. My sister has had dreams several times of someone in the family dying shortly before they die.
40. Have you ever stood beside someone you didnt know and sensed their evil nature? Yes, I can usually sense that quite well.
41. Have you ever had conversations with the dead? (Such as your grandmother or something?) not conversations, but i do talk to them sometimes to ease my own mind
42. Hsve you ever told a presence to leave? Did they? No if i felt someone present, it wasn't a scary thing
43. Have you ever run across peculiar smells that gave you a very bad feeling? Not that's given me bad feelings, but i occassionally will smell something that reminds me of my grandparents or aunt.
44. Do you have psychic abilities? not really
45. Sleep with your door closed or open? open...have little kids and need to hear if they wake up in the night
46. Do closet doors open by themselves at your house? no.
47. Do you have upstairs and are you comfortable with sleeping on the second story of your home? No stairs here
48. Spookiest dream you ever had: i can't think of anything specific..ive had a few.
49. Tell us a scary secret youve never told anyone. I don't have one to share.
50. Thunderstorms at night remind you of: peaceful sleep
I don't really recall any specific costumes. I was just always excited to go trick or treating. i do remember being a witch a few years, a baby, a princess, etc
2. Did your parents allow you to go trick or treating? Yes
3. Prefer Private Halloween party or trick or treating? trick or treating
4. Have you ever seen or felt the presence of someone that has passed on? If so tell me. Did they have a message for you?
There are times when i can feel my gparents and/or aunt near. Nothing scary, just a comfort sort of feeling.
5. Did you know that Halloween is the Witches' New Year? nope
6. Have you ever studied Wicca or any of the Occult Arts? Which, tell? No I have not.
7. Popcorn balls or Candy Apples? Caramel apples, although "grandma" Donna always made homemade popcorn balls and did up goody bags for all us kids....
8. Did you do naughty things as a teen on Halloween night when you were too old to go trick or treating? nope
9. Confess. What was it? see above
10. Do you like to stroll through graveyards with someone? only if im visiting loved one's graves. Other than that, i think it is highly disrespectful to goof off, vandalize or otherwise act a fool at a cemetary
11. Do you like creepy people, meaning are they fun? No I do not.
12. The follow is a list of words.
SAY THE FIRST THING THAT POPS INTO YOUR MIND WITHOUT THINKING:
SPIDER: creepy crawly
GHOST white
DEVIL hate
SAW the movie
DREAM every night...strange ones
PUMPKIN seeds
BATHOUSE less mosquitos to bite me
SKELETON bones
CANDY sweet
BLACK CAT aawwww
FRIDAY THE 13TH just another day..depending on the month, bdays
FAIRY tooth
AFRAID scared
BLOOD red
MIRROR reflection
CROW black
CANDY CORN fall
EEK! A Mouse!
SPOOKY dark, deserted
STRANGER beware
MOON Full
FIRE hot
HIDE AND SEEK kids
HALLOWEEN Oct. 31
CREEKING steps
BOX packing
LETTER Stacy
OUIJI BOARD game
TAROT CARDS not my thing
GYPSY con artist..(like that one julie)
WAX MUSEUM statues
GAS LIGHT better get to the gas station
13. Do you think most abandoned prisons are haunted? No
14. Do you tell ghost stories when families gather round? not usually
15. Were you afriad of the dark as a child? Not really. I'm more afraid of it now.
16. Did you scare kids smaller than you? Never
17. Would you lay on a grave if dared? nope, it feels disrespectful to me
18. Would you like hayrides in the country? yes
19. Have you ever played a scarey practical joke? Tell~ No I haven't.
20. Have you ever been to a haunted house? nothing too scary
21. Are areas in your house haunted? no
22. Do you believe in haunted cars? No
23. Have you ever slept in bed with someone just because you were scared? as a kid, i would go to parents' room if had a bad dream or storming
24. Name five items that remind you of Halloween. candy, trick or treating, chilly/fall, pumpkins, costumes
25. Whats your favorite Halloween music trac? don't have one...and when i worked at Great Party, they played halloween cds all day every day and now i don't care if i never hear another "halloween" themed song in my life...including monster mash, purple people eater
26. On Trick or Treat night have you ever hid and scared trick or treaters? No
27. Have you ever been alone and heard someone call your name? Can't say that I have.
28. Have you ever been so spooked that you run out of your house? No
29. Have you ever been driving at night and had wierd experiences? no
30. What would you do if you were driving on a lonely road at night and had a blow-out with your tire? call someone..the same thing id do in the day time on a busy road
31. Have you ever gotten lost driving at night? no
32. Do you ever have night paranormal experiences driving such as you think you saw someone run caross the road in front of you. no
33. Have you ever been to a fortune teller? No
34. Except for the obvious what freaks you out most in a funeral home? nothing "freaks" me out (it's a part of life). Ive spent my fair share in funeral homes
35. Have you ever been scared at a funeral? no, see above
36. Have you ever had an experience with objects floating or flying off the shelf. Tell. no
37. Do you know of places where anyone has killed their self? (Stacy, please read with caution..sensitive information follows) yes...my friend's uncle shot himself on their couch
38. Have you ever seen what you though was a ufo? No I haven't.
39. Is there people in your family that see the future or tell things about them? Most of us seem to have a 6th sense. My sister has had dreams several times of someone in the family dying shortly before they die.
40. Have you ever stood beside someone you didnt know and sensed their evil nature? Yes, I can usually sense that quite well.
41. Have you ever had conversations with the dead? (Such as your grandmother or something?) not conversations, but i do talk to them sometimes to ease my own mind
42. Hsve you ever told a presence to leave? Did they? No if i felt someone present, it wasn't a scary thing
43. Have you ever run across peculiar smells that gave you a very bad feeling? Not that's given me bad feelings, but i occassionally will smell something that reminds me of my grandparents or aunt.
44. Do you have psychic abilities? not really
45. Sleep with your door closed or open? open...have little kids and need to hear if they wake up in the night
46. Do closet doors open by themselves at your house? no.
47. Do you have upstairs and are you comfortable with sleeping on the second story of your home? No stairs here
48. Spookiest dream you ever had: i can't think of anything specific..ive had a few.
49. Tell us a scary secret youve never told anyone. I don't have one to share.
50. Thunderstorms at night remind you of: peaceful sleep
3 Things
Three Things Meme
1.Things that scare me:
*losing my parents, Jeremy and/or my kids
*real scary movies
*The dark (when im alone)
2. People who make me laugh:
*Jeremy
*my kids (i know, that's technically 2..but...)
*Helen..
3. Things I hate the most:
*Shelfishness
*pettiness
*Losing my temper
4. Things I don't understand:
*mistreatment of children
*selfishness
*Michigan weather
5. Things I'm doing right now:
*freezing
*chasing Sebastian out of everything in sight
*planning my day
6. Things I want to do before I die:
*start a non-profit organization to help low income families
*Own house.
* Visit Germany
7. Things I can do:
*sleep (i do this well, btw)
*understand/empathize
* anything if i put my mind to it
8. Ways to describe my personality:
*thoughtful
*giving
*kind
9. Things I can't do:
*say no
*keep this place clean
*let my kids cry for very long
10. Things I think you should listen to:
*Your heart and your head (Hav to agree with julie on this one)
*Music that makes you happy (and this one)
*Children's laughter
11. Things you should never listen to:
*Bad advice
*negative ppl
*tabloids...lol
12. Things I'd like to learn:
*patience
*good cooking (ok really, if i had patience, i could do this)
*anything crafty
13. Favorite foods:
*almost anything mexican
*Pizza
*anything i don't have to cook or clean up
14. Beverages I drink regularly:
*coke
*coke
*coke
15. Shows I watched as a kid:
*Mr. Rogers
*Sesame Street
*The chef (on pbs...came on right after 321-contact)
16. Persons I'm tagging to do this meme:
*Anyone that has the time :)
1.Things that scare me:
*losing my parents, Jeremy and/or my kids
*real scary movies
*The dark (when im alone)
2. People who make me laugh:
*Jeremy
*my kids (i know, that's technically 2..but...)
*Helen..
3. Things I hate the most:
*Shelfishness
*pettiness
*Losing my temper
4. Things I don't understand:
*mistreatment of children
*selfishness
*Michigan weather
5. Things I'm doing right now:
*freezing
*chasing Sebastian out of everything in sight
*planning my day
6. Things I want to do before I die:
*start a non-profit organization to help low income families
*Own house.
* Visit Germany
7. Things I can do:
*sleep (i do this well, btw)
*understand/empathize
* anything if i put my mind to it
8. Ways to describe my personality:
*thoughtful
*giving
*kind
9. Things I can't do:
*say no
*keep this place clean
*let my kids cry for very long
10. Things I think you should listen to:
*Your heart and your head (Hav to agree with julie on this one)
*Music that makes you happy (and this one)
*Children's laughter
11. Things you should never listen to:
*Bad advice
*negative ppl
*tabloids...lol
12. Things I'd like to learn:
*patience
*good cooking (ok really, if i had patience, i could do this)
*anything crafty
13. Favorite foods:
*almost anything mexican
*Pizza
*anything i don't have to cook or clean up
14. Beverages I drink regularly:
*coke
*coke
*coke
15. Shows I watched as a kid:
*Mr. Rogers
*Sesame Street
*The chef (on pbs...came on right after 321-contact)
16. Persons I'm tagging to do this meme:
*Anyone that has the time :)
Friday, October 13, 2006
Guess What?
I finally took a couple pics of my furniture! Can you believe it. But....I will have to post them later bc my printer isnt hooked up and that's how i load them to the pc. But, i will do all that tomorrow and post!
I need to work on getting these kids to bed so i can get some sleep. I have my friend's one kid tonight too, bc she works 3rd and her hubby is doing a double.
I need to work on getting these kids to bed so i can get some sleep. I have my friend's one kid tonight too, bc she works 3rd and her hubby is doing a double.
good wife
For today anyway. Jeremy called on his way home from work to see if I cared if he went bowling with his friend (it's his friend's bday). I agreed. I must admit, i don't care for this lil bunch of friends bc they are in late 20s and act like they are 15. They delight in doing such things as stealing the newspaper from ppl's newpaper boxes, doing lawn jobs, stealing from stores (mostly gas stations), just being stupid. But, i have to let him do some things with his friends, bc in all honesty, he never goes anywhere or does anything with his friends. They are bowling from 10-midnight then jeremy is having them bring him home, the rest of them are going to bar. Jeremy doesn't want to go. Good choice. I am also making him leave his money here, except for enough to bowl and have a few drinks. Otherwise, he will get a lil "free" with the money and we will be broke for the week and i will be mad and we will argue and well, you get the picture.
I also have to remind him that the kids are all his from 530am til 1130 am while i work...so he can't make a late night or drink too much.
Well sounds like he is home now, so im gonna get off here so he can get his check cashed and we can figure out what we will do in the meantime.
I also have to remind him that the kids are all his from 530am til 1130 am while i work...so he can't make a late night or drink too much.
Well sounds like he is home now, so im gonna get off here so he can get his check cashed and we can figure out what we will do in the meantime.
Raking Leaves
Yeah, it's the time of year where we should be raking leaves, here in Michigan. Instead....it snowed a considerable amount yesterday. Enough so to cause accidents on the freeway, cover the ground and cause us to have to clean snow off our cars before driving. It's just crazy. And cold. The temp is only 36 degrees. I'm not happy about it. The only thing i can hope for is that spring comes early! LOL.
Today is my day off. I did manage to get the living room cleaned up and vaccumed. I got a half ass nap and dusted my entertainment center.
Well, not much exciting to say, really.
Oh, yesterday at school, Makenneh's teacher had a firetruck visit the kids. They were able to climb in and on it, sound the whistles and bells and all that good stuff. The kids loved it. Makenneh told me all about it.
Well, that's it, for now!
Today is my day off. I did manage to get the living room cleaned up and vaccumed. I got a half ass nap and dusted my entertainment center.
Well, not much exciting to say, really.
Oh, yesterday at school, Makenneh's teacher had a firetruck visit the kids. They were able to climb in and on it, sound the whistles and bells and all that good stuff. The kids loved it. Makenneh told me all about it.
Well, that's it, for now!
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Surprise, Surprise
Well, i made it up on time this morning. Wasn't happy about being up, but i was up. I actually feel half way decent this afternoon. But, Makenneh is being a stinker. She doesn't want Sebastian taking a nap and she is just stomping around and being bratty. I have surprisingly kept my cool. I haven't even yelled. YET! I have the dishes ready to be washed....just havent started washing them yet...but the suds are in the sink, waiting for me to return. it's a step in the right direction.
My boss will be back from his vacation tomorrow, so i can talk to him about the scheduling conflict. I really hope he understands, beings that he is 25 yrs old, unmarried, no kids and I think still lives at home.
My work day was better today. I was on an express lane. It was dead slow in the wee hours of the morning and started to pick up about an hour before I left. I got out of work, picked the kids up and we came home and had lunch first thing. So, at least I know he will be fed 2 times today. Actually, i know he will be fed 3 times bc ill be home ot make dinner tonight. I feel a bit overwhelmed at the fact that i have to get this place clean, make dinner, wash some clothes (dryer doesn't work though...so i guess ill get to hang clothes all over to dry). Perhaps a nap would be nice, afterall.....pracrastinator's motto: Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow....or at least until "later". LOL. Not too funny really. Especially if you stopped by my place and saw the mess.
But i am off here to do something...clean, nap, who knows!
My boss will be back from his vacation tomorrow, so i can talk to him about the scheduling conflict. I really hope he understands, beings that he is 25 yrs old, unmarried, no kids and I think still lives at home.
My work day was better today. I was on an express lane. It was dead slow in the wee hours of the morning and started to pick up about an hour before I left. I got out of work, picked the kids up and we came home and had lunch first thing. So, at least I know he will be fed 2 times today. Actually, i know he will be fed 3 times bc ill be home ot make dinner tonight. I feel a bit overwhelmed at the fact that i have to get this place clean, make dinner, wash some clothes (dryer doesn't work though...so i guess ill get to hang clothes all over to dry). Perhaps a nap would be nice, afterall.....pracrastinator's motto: Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow....or at least until "later". LOL. Not too funny really. Especially if you stopped by my place and saw the mess.
But i am off here to do something...clean, nap, who knows!
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I can't do this
Work this 6am-11am shift, that is. It is taking it's toll on my body, my kids and just not worth the hassle. It seems so difficult to find a happy medium while being a work out of the home mom. I hate the stress and hassle that comes with it. In order to have a sitter for the kids while working this stupid shift, they have to stay the night at sitters (my aunts, mother in laws, etc) bc nobody wants to be up at 5am to babysit. Not to mention, i can't get up at 330am to get myself and two kids ready to be out the door by 430-5am at hte latest. They will be very unhappy getting woke up, hauled out into the cold morning and it's just not gonna work. I am an insomniac, hate mornings and so i don't get to bed til late, I oversleep, get to work late, just overall not a good thing. I give a standing ovation to all you women who work out of the home. Of course, if we had 2 cars it would help some of the problem, too. But, finding this routine and getting into a groove, just isn't happening. tonight, my kids had to go with my mother in law and Makenneh cried that she just wanted to stay home. It broke my heart. I feel like an ass of a mother. I am supposed to have my kids at home with me at night. I am supposed to be the one they wake up to. I am supposed to be the one to answer their cries in the night. They stayed last night with my aunt Michelle. They did great ( that was the first night they had to stay away for this shift). Then, i picked them up at 1130am, we came home, took naps, bc we were all tired. woke up in time to get Makenneh dressed and ready for school, dropped her off, waiting for jeremy to get home, he dropped me off at my sister's for bunco and then mother in law brought me home and picked up the kids. Then, ill pick them up at 1130 am, do whatever....take Makenneh to school, pick her up, the kids will go back to mother in laws and i will pick them up thurs morning at 1130. I then have friday off. Work the 6-11 on the weekend, have mon and tues off, work 6-11 wed, thur, fri. Then starting sat, i work 2pm-11pm until monday, have tue, wed, thur off, work the 2-11 fri and don't know the next schedule. I think im gonna ask if my 6-11 shifts can be switched to 10-3 or something like that. It will work out much better for me and my family. Ok, im sure you are all sick of hearing my scheduling issues, but it just breaks my heart to deal with this. I sit here, my kids with gma, knowing I should be going to bed, but not feeling able to sleep.
But, i think im gonna go crawl into bed with Jeremy, snuggle up to him and let the rest of world go away until morning. At least, ill try. Sooo....say a prayer that this schedule stuff works out for me and that I can also get some sleep and get to work on time tomorrow morning. Ive worked this shift 3 days and have been late 2 of them.
good night, all
But, i think im gonna go crawl into bed with Jeremy, snuggle up to him and let the rest of world go away until morning. At least, ill try. Sooo....say a prayer that this schedule stuff works out for me and that I can also get some sleep and get to work on time tomorrow morning. Ive worked this shift 3 days and have been late 2 of them.
good night, all
Monday, October 09, 2006
Ho hum
Nothing real exciting to post, really. I have been working and that's about it. Makenneh's teacher did come out and Makenneh is doing great in school. She loves school and the teacher said that she gets along great with everyone and is often the "go btwn" for groups. She tries to get them to play together, work together, etc. Ms. Wendy also said that when Makenneh joins a group, she goes with the flow and just fits in, rather than coming in and trying to take over. She said Makenneh does anything asked of her and if the teachers say that someone needs to clean up a certain mess, Makenneh will look around, see if anyone is going to do it and if not, she will get up and do it. This can't be the same child that lives here with me? LOL. She is going to see the speech therapist at the school, bc she does have some trouble with speech. Im glad that its caught early enough to get it corrected.
Saturday night, Jeremy and I went to the races with my brother and Sara. It was fun. They ran super late bc cars kept crashing, they had several engines blow, spewing fluids all over the track, which has to be dried up before racing can resume. so, it was like 130am and still had 2 races to go, so we just left. I had to be to work at 6am! Needless to say, i was quite tired Sunday at work! And all day for that matter.
My sister had an adult toy party yesterday through Pure Romance. Those are always fun! I booked one for myself for November 8th.
Well, Mr. Sebastian is up from his nap, so I have to get off here nad get him outta the crib. Take care and ill be back soon to share some more!
Saturday night, Jeremy and I went to the races with my brother and Sara. It was fun. They ran super late bc cars kept crashing, they had several engines blow, spewing fluids all over the track, which has to be dried up before racing can resume. so, it was like 130am and still had 2 races to go, so we just left. I had to be to work at 6am! Needless to say, i was quite tired Sunday at work! And all day for that matter.
My sister had an adult toy party yesterday through Pure Romance. Those are always fun! I booked one for myself for November 8th.
Well, Mr. Sebastian is up from his nap, so I have to get off here nad get him outta the crib. Take care and ill be back soon to share some more!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
All good things must end...
Even feel good days. Today was a day from Hell! I had the day off, didn't accomplish shit, somehow the day got completely away from me. I feel like I went through a time warp or something. Jeremy got home to the house in much the same shape as it was when he left this morning. He voiced his disappointment about this. I was already feeling shitty for not getting anything done. I took his disappointment very personal and waged a war for the rest of the evening. i was very snippy, smart assed and just all out bitchy. I was very passive aggressive, making snide remarks every chance i got. And of course, he retaliated in much the same way. We were just both irritable, i guess. Well, i got over myself for awhile. Long enough for sex, anyway. Go figure! But then, i was back to bitch in no time at all. It escalated to the point that he packed his shit and called a friend to come get him. I refrained from throwing myself at his feet and begging him to stay, which is my norm. This time, i remained calmed. I told him if he wanted to go, go. I wasn't gonna stand in his way. I just came out to living room and went about my own things. But as he got closer to be completely packed, and closer to time for someone to show up to pick him, anxiety, sadness and really, desperation sat in. Yet, I refrained from begging and pleading. He went outside, i followed him out. He lit a cigarette and stood there. I took this time to calmly talk to him. I told him that I never told him he had to leave, that I wouldn't beg him to stay, but I didn't want him to leave. That's when he told me that he didn't want to leave either. He was sick of me nagging and bitching and ......to sum it up, we stood outside and had a very calm, effective conversation. The first we have had in a long time, actually, which is the real problem. Life gets in the way and our marriage suffers most. We forget to stop and take time to be friends, to be lovers, to talk, share, be a couple. So, the whole time we talked about things, i never once asked him to stay or even if he was gonna stay. I didn't bring it up. Well, Makenneh called me inside, so i came in for a min, and when i came back out, he was on the phone telling his friend to nevermind that he was gonna stay and talk it out with me. That made me feel better to know that it was his own decision and not because i coerced him. We both apologized to each other for the things we said which really sparked the whole mess. We talked about the things we need to work on to stay happy and we spent the rest of the evening together as a family on the couch, watching Barney!!!!
So, all iin all, I feel like crap right now. Im exhausted mentally, yet can't sleep. I have to add that we were able to laugh and have a good conversation even once in the house with the kids. Unlike usual, we were all interacting with each other and it just felt so good.
Well, I am done taking the load off my shoulders for now. Thanks for listening (reading).
So, all iin all, I feel like crap right now. Im exhausted mentally, yet can't sleep. I have to add that we were able to laugh and have a good conversation even once in the house with the kids. Unlike usual, we were all interacting with each other and it just felt so good.
Well, I am done taking the load off my shoulders for now. Thanks for listening (reading).
Monday, October 02, 2006
Feel Good Kinda Day
And the reason I feel best is this:
Yes, we got the carpet down today. But that isn't the best. The best is that we have decided to not worry about doing the hallway (i can't bear the thought of hacking up a perfectly large piece of carpet to do one narrow hallway that will only be lived in by us for a year). So, we have one whole piece of carpet left. I was looking at the measurements written on it and was like OOOohhh my! It is 14ft X 20ft. I said this out loud and jeremy said...we put the wrong carpet down in the living room, didn't we? Not at all what I was thinking..but i checked and DUH..yes we did. But no big deal, really. What I was really excited about is that my mom's living room is something like 16X20. They tore up the back part of the house several years ago, redug the crawl space, yadda, yadda. The point is, that even 5-6 yrs later, she still has no carpet down. Mostly, I guess cuz dad keeps talking of totally redoing everything, flipping rooms around, etc. So, why waste money on carpet to just tear it up. Well, the fact that there is no carpet in there depresses mom. The walls are fresh crisp white with beautiful soft pale green trim...but! The carpet is missing. So, i call mom up and ask what her living room measurements are. I ask her about the 2ft difference...well that is the bow window area, where she has all her plants. I told her about the carpet we had left. I told her about not wanting to cut it up for just a lil bit down the hall. I TOLD HER "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" She couldn't believe it. She asked if i was serious? Of course, im serious. What else will i do with a roll of carpet but give it away. Sure, i could try to sell it, but that would not give me anywhere near the great feeling giving this carpet to mom has given me. We decided it would be best to do a tile floor for the bow window area anyway, bc of the water/dirt with the plants. much easier to clean up spills with tile. I feel so good that I was able to give her one thing that she has wanted for a long time. And dad can't say...well, i want to remodel and do this or that...Its a gift. He has to keep quiet and accept it. LOL. Even if it may mean work for him. My mom will be so ecstatic to have carpet. She may just invite anyone and everyone to her home. I have absolutely no idea why we bought so much carpet. I have no idea why I decided to not bother with the hallway. But everything does happen for a reason. And now I know why it all happened this way. I was planning on keeping it a secret and having brother and sis help with padding and all that good stuff and sending them away near Christmastime to do it. But, i can't keep secrets like that...I was bubbling with excitement and I just had to tell her all about it now! Can you tell how great this makes me feel? I can't shut up about the damn carpet. It's not the carpet...its the happiness in my mom's voice as I told her the carpet was hers. My brother was there when I called and told her. I guess after we hung up, she was so excited, while telling my brother and his girlfriend about it. I want to cry. We spent a total of 250.00 on the 2 rolls of carpets (they were remnants bought from a friend of the family's carpet store). When we were handing over that cold, hard cash, I never thought it would lead to such feelings of happiness! This carpet is worth every red cent spent and so much more!
Ok...lol. Back to my place. We got the carpet down...threw out that old nasty couch! IT looks so much better in the dumpster, in pieces! My brother is taking our entertainment center and recliner. Still don't have a home for our love seat.. But, they are getting our "new to us" furniture tomorrow. Tomorrow I work from 2pm-11pm. When i get home tomorrow night, i will have a matching living room set with new carpet. It will all match. It will shine and sparkle. Ok, maybe not, but damn it will look good. Then, next saturday, mother in law is coming over to hang some wallpaper for me. She loves to do the wallpaper thing. I have some that mom had given me quite awhile ago and I have just never used it. now I will. It's not what I would exactly want in here, but it is light and bright will lighten this room up. Cover up some of this dark wood paneling. So, it will work. I will take pics when it's all said and done to share. Speaking of pics....jeremy; found my digital camera during all this work. It had fell behind the loveseat. So, i can take pics now! woohoo!!!!
Ok, ive written a novel and now im ending. til next time...good night~!
Yes, we got the carpet down today. But that isn't the best. The best is that we have decided to not worry about doing the hallway (i can't bear the thought of hacking up a perfectly large piece of carpet to do one narrow hallway that will only be lived in by us for a year). So, we have one whole piece of carpet left. I was looking at the measurements written on it and was like OOOohhh my! It is 14ft X 20ft. I said this out loud and jeremy said...we put the wrong carpet down in the living room, didn't we? Not at all what I was thinking..but i checked and DUH..yes we did. But no big deal, really. What I was really excited about is that my mom's living room is something like 16X20. They tore up the back part of the house several years ago, redug the crawl space, yadda, yadda. The point is, that even 5-6 yrs later, she still has no carpet down. Mostly, I guess cuz dad keeps talking of totally redoing everything, flipping rooms around, etc. So, why waste money on carpet to just tear it up. Well, the fact that there is no carpet in there depresses mom. The walls are fresh crisp white with beautiful soft pale green trim...but! The carpet is missing. So, i call mom up and ask what her living room measurements are. I ask her about the 2ft difference...well that is the bow window area, where she has all her plants. I told her about the carpet we had left. I told her about not wanting to cut it up for just a lil bit down the hall. I TOLD HER "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" She couldn't believe it. She asked if i was serious? Of course, im serious. What else will i do with a roll of carpet but give it away. Sure, i could try to sell it, but that would not give me anywhere near the great feeling giving this carpet to mom has given me. We decided it would be best to do a tile floor for the bow window area anyway, bc of the water/dirt with the plants. much easier to clean up spills with tile. I feel so good that I was able to give her one thing that she has wanted for a long time. And dad can't say...well, i want to remodel and do this or that...Its a gift. He has to keep quiet and accept it. LOL. Even if it may mean work for him. My mom will be so ecstatic to have carpet. She may just invite anyone and everyone to her home. I have absolutely no idea why we bought so much carpet. I have no idea why I decided to not bother with the hallway. But everything does happen for a reason. And now I know why it all happened this way. I was planning on keeping it a secret and having brother and sis help with padding and all that good stuff and sending them away near Christmastime to do it. But, i can't keep secrets like that...I was bubbling with excitement and I just had to tell her all about it now! Can you tell how great this makes me feel? I can't shut up about the damn carpet. It's not the carpet...its the happiness in my mom's voice as I told her the carpet was hers. My brother was there when I called and told her. I guess after we hung up, she was so excited, while telling my brother and his girlfriend about it. I want to cry. We spent a total of 250.00 on the 2 rolls of carpets (they were remnants bought from a friend of the family's carpet store). When we were handing over that cold, hard cash, I never thought it would lead to such feelings of happiness! This carpet is worth every red cent spent and so much more!
Ok...lol. Back to my place. We got the carpet down...threw out that old nasty couch! IT looks so much better in the dumpster, in pieces! My brother is taking our entertainment center and recliner. Still don't have a home for our love seat.. But, they are getting our "new to us" furniture tomorrow. Tomorrow I work from 2pm-11pm. When i get home tomorrow night, i will have a matching living room set with new carpet. It will all match. It will shine and sparkle. Ok, maybe not, but damn it will look good. Then, next saturday, mother in law is coming over to hang some wallpaper for me. She loves to do the wallpaper thing. I have some that mom had given me quite awhile ago and I have just never used it. now I will. It's not what I would exactly want in here, but it is light and bright will lighten this room up. Cover up some of this dark wood paneling. So, it will work. I will take pics when it's all said and done to share. Speaking of pics....jeremy; found my digital camera during all this work. It had fell behind the loveseat. So, i can take pics now! woohoo!!!!
Ok, ive written a novel and now im ending. til next time...good night~!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Chocolate and more chocolate...
Thank you, Helen for all the chocolate deliciousness!!!! I didn't take a picture bc well, I can't locate my digital camera and I don't know how to upload pics from my cell. But, trust me that it is a bunch of yummy chocolate from England!!!! Enough so that I sent some to Makenneh's class (she wanted to share with her friends) and I still have an abundance!!! I am sharing with everyone bc I do not need that much chocolate! I really don't "need" any chocolate but damn if it isn't just delicious!
Today was my day off and I have accomplished very little. I did take a nap! Im thinking of another one. LOL. I got Makenneh to school....late! ONly a few mins late. But i made up for it by bringing in a bag of chocolate. The teacher didn't wanna share. LOL. I feel for the parents who will be sent home with children AND chocolate. Hahahah. Let the candy giving season begin!
Well, im off to snuggle with the hubby for a few mins!
Today was my day off and I have accomplished very little. I did take a nap! Im thinking of another one. LOL. I got Makenneh to school....late! ONly a few mins late. But i made up for it by bringing in a bag of chocolate. The teacher didn't wanna share. LOL. I feel for the parents who will be sent home with children AND chocolate. Hahahah. Let the candy giving season begin!
Well, im off to snuggle with the hubby for a few mins!
household tips
My aunt sent me this via email and I thought I would share...sure some of ya have gotten this email or may even already know about these, but for those who don't..there are some good ones listed!
Bed Sheets
After drying sheets, put both sheets and one pillowcase in the other pillow case. Fold neatly in a square. Next time you change sheets, you just take the one pillow case and all the sheets and pillow case are inside. No need to loo! k for matches.
Clean your glass shower
To clean the glass in your shower easily, apply lemon juice to the glass with a sponge. Then, take newspaper and wipe the lemon juice off the glass. It will be clean and sparkle with no scrubbing!
Reheat Pizza
Heat up leftover pizza in a non-stick skillet on top of the stove, set heat to med-low and heat till warm. This keeps the crust crispy. No soggy micro pizza. I saw this on the cooking channel and it really works.
Easy Deviled Eggs
Put cooked egg yolks in a zip lock bag. Seal, mash till they are all broken up. Add remainder of ingredients, reseal, keep mashing it up mixing thoroughly, cut the tip of the baggy, squeeze mixture into egg. Just throw bag away when done easy clean up.
Expanding Frosting
When you buy a container of cake frosting from the store, whip it with your mixer for a few minutes. You can double it in size. You get to frost more cake/cupcakes with the same am! ount. You a lso eat less sugar/calories per serving.
Reheating r efrigerated bread
To warm biscuits, pancakes, or muffins that were refrigerated, place them in a microwave with a cup of water. The increased moisture will keep the food moist and help it reheat faster.
Newspaper Weeds-Away
Start putting in your plants, work the nutrients in your soil. Wet newspapers, put layers around the plants overlapping as you go, cover with mulch and forget about weeds. Weeds will get through some gardening plastic, they will not get through wet newspapers.
Broken Glass
Use a dry cotton ball to pick up little broken pieces of glass - the fibers catch ones you can't see!
No More Mosquitoes
Place a dryer sheet in your pocket. It will keep the mosquitoes away.
Squirrel Away!
To keep squirrels from eating your plants sprinkle your plants with cayenne pepper. The cayenne pepper doesn't hurt the plant and the squirrels won't come near it.
Easier thank you
When you throw a bridal/bab! y shower, buy a pack of thank you cards for the guest of honor. During the party, pass out the envelopes and have everyone put their address on one. When the bride/new mother sends the thank you's, they're all addressed!
MINE!!!!!
If you purchase a new bike for your child, place their picture inside the handle bar before placing the grips on. If the bike is stolen and later recovered, remove the grip and there is your proof who owns the bike.
Flexible vacuum
To get something out of a heat register or under the fridge add an empt! y paper towel roll or empty gift wrap roll to your vacuum. It can be b ent or flattened to get in narrow openings.
Reducing Static Cling
Pin a small safety pin to the seam of your slip and you will not have a clingy skirt or dress. Same thing works with slacks that cling when wearing panty hose. Place pin in seam of slacks and -- voila -- static is gone.
Measuring Cups
Before you pour sticky substances into a measuring cup, fill it with hot water. Dump out the hot water, but don't dry the cup. Next, add your ingredient, such as peanut butter, and watch how easily it comes right out.
Foggy Windshield?
Hate foggy windshields? Buy a chalkboard eraser and keep it in the glove box of your car. When the windows fog, rub with the eraser! Works better than a cloth!
Reopening envelope
If you seal an envelope and then realize you forgot to include something inside, just place your sealed envelope in the freezer for an hour or two. Voila! It unseals easily.
Conditioner
Use your hair con! ditioner to shave your legs. It's a lot cheaper than shaving cream and leaves your legs really smooth. It's also a great way to use up the conditioner you bought but didn't like when you tried it in your hair...
Good-bye Fruit Flies
To get rid of pesky fruit flies, take a small glass fill it 1/2" with Apple Cider Vinegar and 2 drops of dishwashing liquid, mix well. You will find those flies drawn to the cup and gone forever!
Get Rid of Ants
Put small piles of cornmeal where you see ants. They eat it, take it "home," &can't digest it so it kills them. It may take a week or so, esp. if it rains, but it works &you don't have the worry about pets or small children being harmed!
Take baby powder to the beach
Keep a small bottle of baby powder in your beach bag. When you're ready to leave the beach sprinkle yourself and kids with the powder and the sand will slide right off your skin
New Tips - These are good....
Bed Sheets
After drying sheets, put both sheets and one pillowcase in the other pillow case. Fold neatly in a square. Next time you change sheets, you just take the one pillow case and all the sheets and pillow case are inside. No need to loo! k for matches.
Clean your glass shower
To clean the glass in your shower easily, apply lemon juice to the glass with a sponge. Then, take newspaper and wipe the lemon juice off the glass. It will be clean and sparkle with no scrubbing!
Reheat Pizza
Heat up leftover pizza in a non-stick skillet on top of the stove, set heat to med-low and heat till warm. This keeps the crust crispy. No soggy micro pizza. I saw this on the cooking channel and it really works.
Easy Deviled Eggs
Put cooked egg yolks in a zip lock bag. Seal, mash till they are all broken up. Add remainder of ingredients, reseal, keep mashing it up mixing thoroughly, cut the tip of the baggy, squeeze mixture into egg. Just throw bag away when done easy clean up.
Expanding Frosting
When you buy a container of cake frosting from the store, whip it with your mixer for a few minutes. You can double it in size. You get to frost more cake/cupcakes with the same am! ount. You a lso eat less sugar/calories per serving.
Reheating r efrigerated bread
To warm biscuits, pancakes, or muffins that were refrigerated, place them in a microwave with a cup of water. The increased moisture will keep the food moist and help it reheat faster.
Newspaper Weeds-Away
Start putting in your plants, work the nutrients in your soil. Wet newspapers, put layers around the plants overlapping as you go, cover with mulch and forget about weeds. Weeds will get through some gardening plastic, they will not get through wet newspapers.
Broken Glass
Use a dry cotton ball to pick up little broken pieces of glass - the fibers catch ones you can't see!
No More Mosquitoes
Place a dryer sheet in your pocket. It will keep the mosquitoes away.
Squirrel Away!
To keep squirrels from eating your plants sprinkle your plants with cayenne pepper. The cayenne pepper doesn't hurt the plant and the squirrels won't come near it.
Easier thank you
When you throw a bridal/bab! y shower, buy a pack of thank you cards for the guest of honor. During the party, pass out the envelopes and have everyone put their address on one. When the bride/new mother sends the thank you's, they're all addressed!
MINE!!!!!
If you purchase a new bike for your child, place their picture inside the handle bar before placing the grips on. If the bike is stolen and later recovered, remove the grip and there is your proof who owns the bike.
Flexible vacuum
To get something out of a heat register or under the fridge add an empt! y paper towel roll or empty gift wrap roll to your vacuum. It can be b ent or flattened to get in narrow openings.
Reducing Static Cling
Pin a small safety pin to the seam of your slip and you will not have a clingy skirt or dress. Same thing works with slacks that cling when wearing panty hose. Place pin in seam of slacks and -- voila -- static is gone.
Measuring Cups
Before you pour sticky substances into a measuring cup, fill it with hot water. Dump out the hot water, but don't dry the cup. Next, add your ingredient, such as peanut butter, and watch how easily it comes right out.
Foggy Windshield?
Hate foggy windshields? Buy a chalkboard eraser and keep it in the glove box of your car. When the windows fog, rub with the eraser! Works better than a cloth!
Reopening envelope
If you seal an envelope and then realize you forgot to include something inside, just place your sealed envelope in the freezer for an hour or two. Voila! It unseals easily.
Conditioner
Use your hair con! ditioner to shave your legs. It's a lot cheaper than shaving cream and leaves your legs really smooth. It's also a great way to use up the conditioner you bought but didn't like when you tried it in your hair...
Good-bye Fruit Flies
To get rid of pesky fruit flies, take a small glass fill it 1/2" with Apple Cider Vinegar and 2 drops of dishwashing liquid, mix well. You will find those flies drawn to the cup and gone forever!
Get Rid of Ants
Put small piles of cornmeal where you see ants. They eat it, take it "home," &can't digest it so it kills them. It may take a week or so, esp. if it rains, but it works &you don't have the worry about pets or small children being harmed!
Take baby powder to the beach
Keep a small bottle of baby powder in your beach bag. When you're ready to leave the beach sprinkle yourself and kids with the powder and the sand will slide right off your skin
Monday, September 25, 2006
Just fish
We are rid of all pets but a few fish now! The hampster got out, kitten got him...and then we got rid of the kitten last night to a lady from freecycle who came to pick up some clothes that kenneh had outgrown. So, we are down to a few fish. Some of the fish died bc we didn't set the tank up right, i think. I found out after i had done it that you should let the tank sit without fish, all set up, for about a week or so before adding fish and whenever you add new fish you should also add this one stuff (can't remember what it's called). So, anyway, the angel fish, loaches, and neons have croaked. So, we are gonna clean this tank out and start over.
Winter is on the way...today i finally had to break and turn the furnace on. it was cold in here. I would love to just crawl back in bed, under my covers and sleep for the day. But a certain 17 month old is against the idea. He thinks it's fine to be up bc hey, there are things to get into.
And yes, Helen, I will post pics of the new carpet/furniture when it's all put together. I can't wait! It is going to seem so nice to have it all done.
Winter is on the way...today i finally had to break and turn the furnace on. it was cold in here. I would love to just crawl back in bed, under my covers and sleep for the day. But a certain 17 month old is against the idea. He thinks it's fine to be up bc hey, there are things to get into.
And yes, Helen, I will post pics of the new carpet/furniture when it's all put together. I can't wait! It is going to seem so nice to have it all done.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Carpet!!!!!!
Jeremy is with my brother right now, picking up MY CARPET....MY NEW CARPET!!!! Yes, i picked out new carpet this week. I can't wait to get it in here. It is going to look so much better. And after the carpet is in, we can go pick up our furniture. It is going to look so nice. It's going to look like a real home, rather than a junk hole....i hope, anyway.
I have the day off work today, but am "busy" doing something today that I can't discuss bc it's a surprise for someone who may read this. But as soon as the cat's outta the bag, Ill post all about it, including pics. Or, if you are one of those who just can't wait to know.....go ahead and email me. Then, after this "thing" that I have going on today....I have my cousin's 18th bday party. So, busy me today!
Gee, as fast as I could type that about the carpet, Jeremy called to tell me that they missed the carpet guy. He was only going to be in for an hour this morning...they are usually closed on Saturday. Oh well, no big deal..gives us more time to prepare, i suppose. This place is a damn jungle of mess and chaos.
Well, this post has taken me about an hour to do bc i keep getting interruptions. How crazy is that. And I must add that these kids are driving me crazy this morning. makenneh is looking at pics and keeps yelling for me to LOOK. Sebastian keeps falling and crashing and crying. The kid doesn't stop. He is like a monkey with vertigo or something...can't keep balance but still insists on climbing and getting into stuff.
I know im wasting time....i need a shower yet, have to finish getting everything rounded up for the secret activity today, and still have a couple stores to stop at before everything gets underway. Yet, here i sit, being the procrastinator that I am. I keep fantasizing about my bed and my comfy covers...pulled up to my chin and snuggled all in...falling into a blissful slumber of dreamland. But as soon as I begin to feel the warm sun on my skin and the gentle breeze in my hair....MOOOOMMMM!! LOOOOKKKIIIITTTT!!!! MOM! LOOK! And there goes the peace and quiet.
Come on...somebody push me to get up outta this chair. (trying to think of things I can eliminate from my 'to do' list.,.,so i can procrastinate some more. Yes, im bad, i know.
Ok, really, it's time to go and get something done...or hell, even started would be great!
Take care and have a great Saturday! It's gloomy here! Where's the sun? Anyone see it?
I have the day off work today, but am "busy" doing something today that I can't discuss bc it's a surprise for someone who may read this. But as soon as the cat's outta the bag, Ill post all about it, including pics. Or, if you are one of those who just can't wait to know.....go ahead and email me. Then, after this "thing" that I have going on today....I have my cousin's 18th bday party. So, busy me today!
Gee, as fast as I could type that about the carpet, Jeremy called to tell me that they missed the carpet guy. He was only going to be in for an hour this morning...they are usually closed on Saturday. Oh well, no big deal..gives us more time to prepare, i suppose. This place is a damn jungle of mess and chaos.
Well, this post has taken me about an hour to do bc i keep getting interruptions. How crazy is that. And I must add that these kids are driving me crazy this morning. makenneh is looking at pics and keeps yelling for me to LOOK. Sebastian keeps falling and crashing and crying. The kid doesn't stop. He is like a monkey with vertigo or something...can't keep balance but still insists on climbing and getting into stuff.
I know im wasting time....i need a shower yet, have to finish getting everything rounded up for the secret activity today, and still have a couple stores to stop at before everything gets underway. Yet, here i sit, being the procrastinator that I am. I keep fantasizing about my bed and my comfy covers...pulled up to my chin and snuggled all in...falling into a blissful slumber of dreamland. But as soon as I begin to feel the warm sun on my skin and the gentle breeze in my hair....MOOOOMMMM!! LOOOOKKKIIIITTTT!!!! MOM! LOOK! And there goes the peace and quiet.
Come on...somebody push me to get up outta this chair. (trying to think of things I can eliminate from my 'to do' list.,.,so i can procrastinate some more. Yes, im bad, i know.
Ok, really, it's time to go and get something done...or hell, even started would be great!
Take care and have a great Saturday! It's gloomy here! Where's the sun? Anyone see it?
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Gee, thanks
So, our store opened today! I worked from 230-1130. Let me back track by saying that we were all out of the house by 1045am and ended up at walmart. I needed a new pair of shoes and he wanted to check some things out. Well, we ended up checking on cell phones while there...but they wanted a 400.00 deposit that we just can't afford, so we decided to see if his mom would add us to her plan. So, we go back home, i get ready for work (and this is so the short version...i had to take clothes to the laundromat bc my dryer quit and I only have 2 work outfits, both dirty). Anyway, he dropped me off at work and then went to his moms. They came back up to take care of the phone business and ended up in there for like 4 hours, bc they couldn't get service for hte cell phones to activate them. Anyway, the kids ended up falling asleep on the way home (around 6) and slept until he put them in the car to come pick me up from work. ARe you counting..yes, they slept from about 6pm til about 11pm. Can you guess who is up righ tnow? You got it...they are both bright eyed and bushy tailed and I am ready to drop! I am so irritated. I sure hope its not like this very often.
Anyway, work went great. We were steady and it made the day go fast. we had all 26 lanes open most of the day, so during my shift, we never had a major back up in lines. It was very pleasant and may every day go so smoothly! I really love my job and just hope that i can get this sitter situation figured out so that everything goes well. I did run into my aunt (uncle's ex wife, but will always be aunt to me) and my cousin. I found out that my cousin is looking for a job. She is like 16. She gets outta school at 230. So like my aunt said, if i start work at 3, cousin can babysit. Taht would work out good, but then we are back to the dilemma of jeremy not having a car to pick kids up and/or get makenneh to school.
And yes, we got cell phones! WE have finally stepped out of the stone age! I am so excited. WE got verizon service and the new samsong phones that just came out about a week ago. Getting them at Walmart made them so cheap. it was only 40.00 total for both our phones and our bill will be about 45.00 a month or something like that ....can't beat it!
OH oh oh ...we also bought new carpet today! I am so excited bout that too! by this weekend, i should have new carpet in and new (to us) furniture! I just can't wait! I wanna paint in here, but j hates painting...i do have some wall paper we could put up...we have ot do something to brighten it up in here. this dark wood paneling is going to be the very death of me! I may even get a wild hair up my ass and paint anyway! The sucky part is it is so hard to get paint to cover on this dark paneling..e.ven with Kilz. So, we will see! Either way, we are on our way to things looking better in here!
WEll, im in for a long night..unless these kids magically get tired sometime soon!
Anyway, work went great. We were steady and it made the day go fast. we had all 26 lanes open most of the day, so during my shift, we never had a major back up in lines. It was very pleasant and may every day go so smoothly! I really love my job and just hope that i can get this sitter situation figured out so that everything goes well. I did run into my aunt (uncle's ex wife, but will always be aunt to me) and my cousin. I found out that my cousin is looking for a job. She is like 16. She gets outta school at 230. So like my aunt said, if i start work at 3, cousin can babysit. Taht would work out good, but then we are back to the dilemma of jeremy not having a car to pick kids up and/or get makenneh to school.
And yes, we got cell phones! WE have finally stepped out of the stone age! I am so excited. WE got verizon service and the new samsong phones that just came out about a week ago. Getting them at Walmart made them so cheap. it was only 40.00 total for both our phones and our bill will be about 45.00 a month or something like that ....can't beat it!
OH oh oh ...we also bought new carpet today! I am so excited bout that too! by this weekend, i should have new carpet in and new (to us) furniture! I just can't wait! I wanna paint in here, but j hates painting...i do have some wall paper we could put up...we have ot do something to brighten it up in here. this dark wood paneling is going to be the very death of me! I may even get a wild hair up my ass and paint anyway! The sucky part is it is so hard to get paint to cover on this dark paneling..e.ven with Kilz. So, we will see! Either way, we are on our way to things looking better in here!
WEll, im in for a long night..unless these kids magically get tired sometime soon!
Monday, September 18, 2006
Where's the balance?
This job thing is getting overwhelming! I am stressing over the babysitting situation and getting Makenneh to and from school with only one car. Sara and Matt have been babysitting, but Sara will be starting work soon. Matt naps in the early part of the day bc he works from 4am to 9am, having to be up around 230-3am to get ready. Then the school thing...she has to be there at 430 and picked up at 730. Jeremy gets home around 430-5pm, but has no car. He rides to work with a coworker, who picks him up here. I will be working a lot of 2nd shift-type hours....like 11-8, 12-9, 2-11, etc. My mom starts work the end of this month and will be working mostly during day/afternoons. So....it's just not looking good. I feel like my only option is to take her out of headstart, but i hate to do that. It has been so good for her and she just loves going. I did put in a change on my availability, but they already have the schedules posted through this month and into next. I just feel like beating my head against a brick wall. I don't want to be a huge burden with schedule changes, but something has to change. Im thinking that on wednesday, Im going to have to call around to find a daycare that will take part time kids. The bad thing is, some days I may need care all day, others just for an hour or so. But even then, I need a place that does school transport and that is going to be hard to find. I just don't know. Maybe i need to look for a day job. One that i can be out by 330. h
Anyway, im just stressing and hopefully things will work out. They usually do. I think tomorrow I will go to my supervisor and tell him what is going on and see if we can find a solution together. I really do like the walmart thing, i just have to find a way to fit it into my family life. The bright side is next year, she should be able to go to school during the day, maybe for a full day. That will make it much easier.
Tomorrow is Picture Day at School. That is another dilemma. I have to take her up to the school during the day, bc the photographers are only there during day. So, i have to find a way to get her up there. Mom will probably do it. I hope she does. I have to call her tonight and get a plan. On a bright note here, her picture package is going to be free! My friend's mom works for the company doing the pictures and she can give so many free packages (supposed to be for family, but really, she is family....she considers herself Aunt.) Without this help, the pics would kill us. They are just so expensive.
Tomorrow evening is Family Day at our Walmart. It's a chance to bring our families in to see what we have accomplished, get a tour of the store, participate in various activities, drawings, festivities! I was hoping they would let us do shopping at a discount like other stores have done, but no such luck!
Well, im whipped and ready to settle down for the night. Did I mention that it takes 5 mins to walk from the time clock to our cars? That's at an average pace....not huffing along, but not dragging ass. Have I also mentioned that thus far, i have not lost any weight doing all this? LOL. Well, I may take some pics of our store tomorrow evening to show off our hard work...who knows. I could even decide not to go, bc i will be working tomorrow 8-3.
ok, night all!
Anyway, im just stressing and hopefully things will work out. They usually do. I think tomorrow I will go to my supervisor and tell him what is going on and see if we can find a solution together. I really do like the walmart thing, i just have to find a way to fit it into my family life. The bright side is next year, she should be able to go to school during the day, maybe for a full day. That will make it much easier.
Tomorrow is Picture Day at School. That is another dilemma. I have to take her up to the school during the day, bc the photographers are only there during day. So, i have to find a way to get her up there. Mom will probably do it. I hope she does. I have to call her tonight and get a plan. On a bright note here, her picture package is going to be free! My friend's mom works for the company doing the pictures and she can give so many free packages (supposed to be for family, but really, she is family....she considers herself Aunt.) Without this help, the pics would kill us. They are just so expensive.
Tomorrow evening is Family Day at our Walmart. It's a chance to bring our families in to see what we have accomplished, get a tour of the store, participate in various activities, drawings, festivities! I was hoping they would let us do shopping at a discount like other stores have done, but no such luck!
Well, im whipped and ready to settle down for the night. Did I mention that it takes 5 mins to walk from the time clock to our cars? That's at an average pace....not huffing along, but not dragging ass. Have I also mentioned that thus far, i have not lost any weight doing all this? LOL. Well, I may take some pics of our store tomorrow evening to show off our hard work...who knows. I could even decide not to go, bc i will be working tomorrow 8-3.
ok, night all!
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